第 16 节
作者:团团      更新:2021-02-19 00:28      字数:9322
  As to his work itself; I suppose that I do not think it so valuable in
  effect as in intention。  He was a liberating force; a very 〃imperial
  anarch〃 in literature; but liberty is never anything but a means; and
  what Whitman achieved was a means and not an end; in what must be called
  his verse。  I like his prose; if there is a difference; much better;
  there he is of a genial and comforting quality; very rich and cordial;
  such as I felt him to be when I met him in person。  His verse seems to me
  not poetry; but the materials of poetry; like one's emotions; yet I would
  not misprize it; and I am glad to own that I have had moments of great
  pleasure in it。  Some French critic quoted in the Saturday Press (I
  cannot think of his name) said the best thing of him when he said that he
  made you a partner of the enterprise; for that is precisely what he does;
  and that is what alienates and what endears in him; as you like or
  dislike the partnership。  It is still something neighborly; brotherly;
  fatherly; and so I felt him to be when the benign old man looked on me
  and spoke to me。
  III。
  That night at Pfaff's must have been the last of the Bohemians for me;
  and it was the last of New York authorship too; for the time。  I do not
  know why I should not have imagined trying to see Curtis; whom I knew so
  much by heart; and whom I adored; but I may not have had the courage;
  or I may have heard that he was out of town; Bryant; I believe; was then
  out of the country; but at any rate I did not attempt him either。  The
  Bohemians were the beginning and the end of the story for me; and to tell
  the truth I did not like the story。。  I remember that as I sat at that
  table。  under the pavement; in Pfaff's beer…cellar; and listened to the
  wit that did not seem very funny; I thought of the dinner with Lowell;
  the breakfast with Fields; the supper at the Autocrat's; and felt that I
  had fallen very far。  In fact it can do no harm at this distance of time
  to confess that it seemed to me then; and for a good while afterwards;
  that a person who had seen the men and had the things said before him
  that I had in Boston; could not keep himself too carefully in cotton; and
  this was what I did all the following winter; though of course it was a
  secret between me and me。  I dare say it was not the worst thing I could
  have done; in some respects。
  My sojourn in New York could not have been very long; and the rest of it
  was mainly given to viewing the monuments of the city from the windows of
  omnibuses and the platforms of horse…cars。  The world was so simple then
  that there were perhaps only a half…dozen cities that had horse…cars in
  them; and I travelled in those conveyances at New York with an unfaded
  zest; even after my journeys back and forth between Boston and Cambridge。
  I have not the least notion where I went or what I saw; but I suppose
  that it was up and down the ugly east and west avenues; then lying open
  to the eye in all the hideousness now partly concealed by the elevated
  roads; and that I found them very stately and handsome。  Indeed; New York
  was really handsomer then than it is now; when it has so many more pieces
  of beautiful architecture; for at that day the skyscrapers were not yet;
  and there was a fine regularity in the streets that these brute bulks
  have robbed of all shapeliness。  Dirt and squalor there were a plenty;
  but there was infinitely more comfort。  The long succession of cross
  streets was yet mostly secure from business; after you passed Clinton
  Place; commerce was just beginning to show itself in Union Square; and
  Madison Square was still the home of the McFlimsies; whose kin and kind
  dwelt unmolested in the brownstone stretches of Fifth Avenue。  I tried
  hard to imagine them from the acquaintance Mr。 Butler's poem had given
  me; and from the knowledge the gentle satire of The 'Potiphar Papers' had
  spread broadcast through a community shocked by the excesses of our best
  society; it was not half so bad then as the best now; probably。  But I do
  not think I made very much of it; perhaps because most of the people who
  ought to have been in those fine mansions were away at the seaside and
  the mountains。
  The mountains I had seen on my way down from Canada; but the sea…side
  not; and it would never do to go home without visiting some famous summer
  resort。  I must have fixed upon Long Branch because I must have heard of
  it as then the most fashionable; and one afternoon I took the boat for
  that place。  By this means I not only saw sea…bathing for the first time;
  but I saw a storm at sea: a squall struck us so suddenly that it blew
  away all the camp…stools of the forward promenade; it was very exciting;
  and I long meant to use in literature the black wall of cloud that
  settled on the water before us like a sort of portable midnight; I now
  throw it away upon the reader; as it were; it never would come in
  anywhere。  I stayed all night at Long Branch; and I had a bath the next
  morning before breakfast: an extremely cold one; with a life…line to keep
  me against the undertow。  In this rite I had the company of a young New…
  Yorker; whom I had met on the boat coming down; and who was of the light;
  hopeful; adventurous business type which seems peculiar to the city; and
  which has always attracted me。  He told me much about his life; and how
  he lived; and what it cost him to live。  He had a large room at a
  fashionable boardinghouse; and he paid fourteen dollars a week。
  In Columbus I had such a room at such a house; and paid three and a half;
  and I thought it a good deal。  But those were the days before the war;
  when America was the cheapest country in the world; and the West was
  incredibly inexpensive。
  After a day of lonely splendor at this scene of fashion and gaiety;
  I went back to New York; and took the boat for Albany on my way home。
  I noted that I had no longer the vivid interest in nature and human
  nature which I had felt in setting out upon my travels; and I said to
  myself that this was from having a mind so crowded with experiences and
  impressions that it could receive no more; and I really suppose that if
  the happiest phrase had offered itself to me at some moments; I should
  scarcely have looked about me for a landscape or a figure to fit it to。
  I was very glad to get back to my dear little city in the West (I found
  it seething in an August sun that was hot enough to have calcined the
  limestone State House); and to all the friends I was so fond of。
  IV。
  I did what I could to prove myself unworthy of them by refusing their
  invitations; and giving myself wholly to literature; during the early
  part of the winter that followed; and I did not realize my error till the
  invitations ceased to come; and I found myself in an unbroken
  intellectual solitude。  The worst of it was that an ungrateful Muse did
  little in return for the sacrifices I made her; and the things I now
  wrote were not liked by the editors I sent them to。  The editorial taste
  is not always the test of merit; but it is the only one we have; and I am
  not saying the editors were wrong in my case。  There were then such a
  very few places where you could market your work: the Atlantic in Boston
  and Harper's in New York were the magazines that paid; though the
  Independent newspaper bought literary material; the Saturday Press
  printed it without buying; and so did the old Knickerbocker Magazine;
  though there was pecuniary good…will in both these cases。  I toiled much
  that winter over a story I had long been writing; and at last sent it to
  the Atlantic; which had published five poems for me the year before。
  After some weeks; or it may have been months; I got it back with a note
  saying that the editors had the less regret in returning it because they
  saw that in the May number of the Knickerbocker the first chapter of the
  story had appeared。  Then I remembered that; years before; I had sent
  this chapter to that magazine; as a sketch to be printed by itself; and
  afterwards had continued the story from it。  I had never heard of its
  acceptance; and supposed of course that it was rejected; but on my second
  visit to New York I called at the Knickerbocker office; and a new editor;
  of those that the magazine was always having in the days of its failing
  fortunes; told me that he had found my sketch in rummaging about in a
  barrel of his predecessors  manuscripts; and had liked it; and printed
  it。  He said that there were fifteen dollars coming to me for that
  sketch; and might he send the money to me?  I said that he might; though
  I do not see; to this day; why he did not give it me on the spot; and he
  made a very small minute in a very large sheet of paper (really like Dick
  Swiveller); and promised I should have it that night; but I sailed the
  next day for Liverpool without it。  I sailed without the money for some
  verses that Vanity Fair bought of me; but I hardly expected that; for the
  editor; who was then Artemus Ward; had frankly told me in taking my
  address that ducats were few at that moment with Vanity Fair。
  I was then on my way to be consul at Venice; where I spent the next four
  years in a vigilance for Confederate privateers which none of them ever
  surprised。  I