第 15 节
作者:团团      更新:2021-02-19 00:28      字数:9322
  Saturday Press never paid in anything but hopes of paying; vaguer even
  than promises。  It is not too much to say that it was very nearly as well
  for one to be accepted by the Press as to be accepted by the Atlantic;
  and for the time there was no other literary comparison。  To be in it was
  to be in the company of Fitz James O'Brien; Fitzhugh Ludlow; Mr。 Aldrich;
  Mr。 Stedman; and whoever else was liveliest in prose or loveliest in
  verse at that day in New York。  It was a power; and although it is true
  that; as Henry Giles said of it; 〃Man cannot live by snapping…turtle
  alone;〃 the Press was very good snapping…turtle。  Or; it seemed so then;
  I should be almost afraid to test it now; for I do not like snapping…
  turtle so much as I once did; and I have grown nicer in my taste; and
  want my snapping…turtle of the very best。  What is certain is that I went
  to the office of the Saturday Press in New York with much the same sort
  of feeling I had in going to the office of the Atlantic Monthly in
  Boston; but I came away with a very different feeling。  I had found there
  a bitterness against Boston as great as the bitterness against
  respectability; and as Boston was then rapidly becoming my second
  country; I could not join in the scorn thought of her and said of her by
  the Bohemians。  I fancied a conspiracy among them to shock the literary
  pilgrim; and to minify the precious emotions he had experienced in
  visiting other shrines; but I found no harm in that; for I knew just how
  much to be shocked; and I thought I knew better how to value certain
  things of the soul than they。  Yet when their chief asked me how I got on
  with Hawthorne; and I began to say that he was very shy and I was rather
  shy; and the king of Bohemia took his pipe out to break in upon me with
  〃Oh; a couple of shysters!〃 and the rest laughed; I was abashed all they
  could have wished; and was not restored to myself till one of them said
  that the thought of Boston made him as ugly as sin; then I began to hope
  again that men who took themselves so seriously as that need not be taken
  very seriously by me。
  In fact I had heard things almost as desperately cynical in other
  newspaper offices before that; and I could not see what was so
  distinctively Bohemian in these 'anime prave'; these souls so baleful by
  their own showing。  But apparently Bohemia was not a state that you could
  well imagine from one encounter; and since my stay in New York was to be
  very short; I lost no time in acquainting myself further with it。  That
  very night I went to the beer…cellar; once very far up Broadway; where I
  was given to know that the Bohemian nights were smoked and quaffed away。
  It was said; so far West as Ohio; that the queen of Bohemia sometimes
  came to Pfaff's: a young girl of a sprightly gift in letters; whose name
  or pseudonym had made itself pretty well known at that day; and whose
  fate; pathetic at all times; out…tragedies almost any other in the
  history of letters。  She was seized with hydrophobia from the bite of her
  dog; on a railroad train; and made a long journey home in the paroxysms
  of that agonizing disease; which ended in her death after she reached New
  York。  But this was after her reign had ended; and no such black shadow
  was cast forward upon Pfaff's; whose name often figured in the verse and
  the epigrammatically paragraphed prose of the 'Saturday Press'。  I felt
  that as a contributor and at least a brevet Bohemian I ought not to go
  home without visiting the famous place; and witnessing if I could not
  share the revels of my comrades。  As I neither drank beer nor smoked; my
  part in the carousal was limited to a German pancake; which I found they
  had very good at Pfaff's; and to listening to the whirling words of my
  commensals; at the long board spread for the Bohemians in a cavernous
  space under the pavement。 There were writers for the 'Saturday Press' and
  for Vanity Fair (a hopefully comic paper of that day); and some of the
  artists who drew for the illustrated periodicals。  Nothing of their talk
  remains with me; but the impression remains that it was not so good talk
  as I had heard in Boston。  At one moment of the orgy; which went but
  slowly for an orgy; we were joined by some belated Bohemians whom the
  others made a great clamor over; I was given to understand they were just
  recovered from a fearful debauch; their locks were still damp from the
  wet towels used to restore them; and their eyes were very frenzied。
  I was presented to these types; who neither said nor did anything worthy
  of their awful appearance; but dropped into seats at the table; and ate
  of the supper with an appetite that seemed poor。  I stayed hoping vainly
  for worse things till eleven o'clock; and then I rose and took my leave
  of a literary condition that had distinctly disappointed me。  I do not
  say that it may not have been wickeder and wittier than I found it;
  I only report what I saw and heard in Bohemia on my first visit to New
  York; and I know that my acquaintance with it was not exhaustive。  When I
  came the next year the Saturday Press was no more; and the editor and his
  contributors had no longer a common centre。  The best of the young
  fellows whom I met there confessed; in a pleasant exchange of letters
  which we had afterwards; that he thought the pose a vain and unprofitable
  one; and when the Press was revived; after the war; it was without any of
  the old Bohemian characteristics except that of not paying for material。
  It could not last long upon these terms; and again it passed away; and
  still waits its second palingenesis。
  The editor passed away too; not long after; and the thing that he had
  inspired altogether ceased to be。  He was a man of a certain sardonic
  power; and used it rather fiercely and freely; with a joy probably more
  apparent than real in the pain it gave。  In my last knowledge of him he
  was much milder than when I first knew him; and I have the feeling that
  he too came to own before he died that man cannot live by snapping…turtle
  alone。  He was kind to some neglected talents; and befriended them with
  a vigor and a zeal which he would have been the last to let you call
  generous。  The chief of these was Walt Whitman; who; when the Saturday
  Press took it up; had as hopeless a cause with the critics on either side
  of the ocean as any man could have。  It was not till long afterwards that
  his English admirers began to discover him; and to make his countrymen
  some noisy reproaches for ignoring him; they were wholly in the dark
  concerning him when the Saturday Press; which first stood his friend;
  and the young men whom the Press gathered about it; made him their cult。
  No doubt he was more valued because he was so offensive in some ways than
  he would have been if he had been in no way offensive; but it remains a
  fact that they celebrated him quite as much as was good for them。  He was
  often at Pfaff's with them; and the night of my visit he was the chief
  fact of my experience。  I did not know he was there till I was on my way
  out; for he did not sit at the table under the pavement; but at the head
  of one farther into the room。  There; as I passed; some friendly fellow
  stopped me and named me to him; and I remember how he leaned back in his
  chair; and reached out his great hand to me; as if he were going to give
  it me for good and all。  He had a fine head; with a cloud of Jovian hair
  upon it; and a branching beard and mustache; and gentle eyes that looked
  most kindly into mine; and seemed to wish the liking which I instantly
  gave him; though we hardly passed a word; and our acquaintance was summed
  up in that glance and the grasp of his mighty fist upon my hand。  I doubt
  if he had any notion who or what I was beyond the fact that I was a young
  poet of some sort; but he may possibly have remembered seeing my name
  printed after some very Heinesque verses in the Press。  I did not meet
  him again for twenty years; and then I had only a moment with him when he
  was reading the proofs of his poems in Boston。  Some years later I saw
  him for the last time; one day after his lecture on Lincoln; in that
  city; when he came down from the platform to speak with some handshaking
  friends who gathered about him。  Then and always he gave me the sense of
  a sweet and true soul; and I felt in him a spiritual dignity which I will
  not try to reconcile with his printing in the forefront of his book a
  passage from a private letter of Emerson's; though I believe he would not
  have seen such a thing as most other men would; or thought ill of it in
  another。  The spiritual purity which I felt in him no less than the
  dignity is something that I will no more try to reconcile with what
  denies it in his page; but such things we may well leave to the
  adjustment of finer balances than we have at hand。  I will make sure only
  of the greatest benignity in the presence of the man。  The apostle of the
  rough; the uncouth; was the gentlest person; his barbaric yawp;
  translated into the terms of social encounter; was an address of singular
  quiet; delivered in a voice of winning and endearing friendliness。
  As to his work itself; I suppose that I do not think it so valuable in
  effect as in intention。  He was a libera