第 6 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-18 23:25 字数:9322
ning thunder; the wild cries of bird and beast the savages; uncouth and terrible; … for a moment I saw my world as the woman at my feet must see it; strange; wild; and menacing; an evil land; the other side of the moon。 A thing that I had forgotten came to my mind: how that; after our landing at Jamestown; years before; a boy whom we had with us did each night fill with cries and lamentations the hut where he lay with my cousin Percy; Gosnold; and myself; nor would cease though we tried both crying shame and a rope's end。 It was not for homesickness; for he had no mother or kin or home; and at length Master Hunt brought him to confess that it was but pure panic terror of the land itself; … not of the Indians or of our hardships; both of which he faced bravely enough; but of the strange trees and the high and long roofs of vine; of the black sliding earth and the white mist; of the fireflies and the whippoorwills; … a sick fear of primeval Nature and her tragic mask。
This was a woman; young; alone; and friendless; unless I; who had sworn to cherish and protect her; should prove myself her friend。 Wherefore; when; a few minutes later; I bent over her; it was with all gentleness that I touched and spoke to her。
〃Our journey is over;〃 I said。 〃This is home; my dear。〃
She let me help her to her feet; and up the wet and slippery steps to the level of the wharf。 It was now quite dark; there being no moon; and thin clouds obscuring the stars。 The touch of her hand; which I perforce held since I must guide her over the long; narrow; and unrailed trestle; chilled me; and her breathing was hurried; but she moved by my side through the gross darkness unfalteringly enough。 Arrived at the gate of the palisade; I beat upon it with the hilt of my sword; and shouted to my men to open to us。 A moment; and a dozen torches came flaring down the bank。 Diccon shot back the bolts; and we entered。 The men drew up and saluted; for I held my manor a camp; my servants soldiers; and myself their captain。
I have seen worse favored companies; but doubtless the woman beside me had not。 Perhaps; too; the red light of the torches; now flaring brightly; now sunk before the wind; gave their countenances a more villainous cast than usual。 They were not all bad。 Diccon had the virtue of fidelity; if none other; there were a brace of Puritans; and a handful of honest fools; who; if they drilled badly; yet abhorred mutiny。 But the half dozen I had taken off Argall's hands; the Dutchmen who might have been own brothers to those two Judases; Adam and Francis; the thief and the highwayman I had bought from the precious crew sent us by the King the year before; the negro and the Indians … small wonder that she shrank and cowered。 It was but for a moment。 I was yet seeking for words sufficiently reassuring when she was herself again。 She did not deign to notice the men's awkward salute; and when Diccon; a handsome rogue enough; advancing to light us up the bank; brushed by her something too closely; she drew away her skirts as though he had been a lazar。 At my own door I turned and spoke to the men; who had followed us up the ascent。
〃This lady;〃 I said; taking her hand as she stood beside me; 〃is my true and lawful wife; your mistress; to be honored and obeyed as such。 Who fails in reverence to her I hold as mutinous to myself; and will deal with him accordingly。 She gives you to…morrow for holiday; with double rations; and to each a measure of rum。 Now thank her properly。〃
They cheered lustily; of course; and Diccon; stepping forward; gave us thanks in the name of them all; and wished us joy。 After which; with another cheer; they backed from out our presence; then turned and made for their quarters; while I led my wife within the house and closed the door。
Diccon was an ingenious scoundrel。 I had told him to banish the dogs; to have the house cleaned and lit; and supper upon the table; but I had not ordered the floor to be strewn with rushes; the walls draped with flowering vines; a great jar filled with sunflowers; and an illumination of a dozen torches。 Nevertheless; it looked well; and I highly approved the capon and maize cakes; the venison pasty and ale; with which the table was set。 Through the open doors of the two other rooms were to be seen more rushes; more flowers; and more lights。
To the larger of these rooms I now led the way; deposited her bundle upon the settle; and saw that Diccon had provided fair water for her face and hands; which done; I told her that supper waited upon her convenience; and went back to the great room。
She was long in coming; so long that I grew impatient and went to call her。 The door was ajar; and so I saw her; kneeling in the middle of the floor; her head thrown back; her hands raised and clasped; on her face terror and anguish of spirit written so large that I started to see it。 I stared in amazement; and; had I followed my first impulse; would have gone to her; as I would have gone to any other creature in so dire distress。 On second thoughts; I went noiselessly back to my station in the great room。 She had not seen me; I was sure。 Nor had I long to wait。 Presently she appeared; and I could have doubted the testimony of my eyes; so changed were the agonized face and figure of a few moments before。 Beautiful and disdainful; she moved to the table; and took the great chair drawn before it with the air of an empress mounting a throne。 I contented myself with the stool。
She ate nothing; and scarcely touched the canary I poured for her。 I pressed upon her wine and viands; … in vain; I strove to make conversation; … equally in vain。 Finally; tired of 〃yes〃 and 〃no〃 uttered as though she were reluctantly casting pearls before swine; I desisted; and applied myself to my supper in a silence as sullen as her own。 At last we rose from table; and I went to look to the fastenings of door and windows; and returning found her standing in the centre of the room; her head up and her hands clenched at her sides。 I saw that we were to have it out then and there; and I was glad of it。
〃You have something to say;〃 I said。 〃I am quite at your command;〃 and I went and leaned against the chimneypiece。
The low fire upon the hearth burnt lower still before she broke the silence。 When she did speak it was slowly; and with a voice which was evidently controlled only by a strong effort of a strong will。 She said: …
〃When … yesterday; to…day; ten thousand years ago you went from this horrible forest down to that wretched village yonder; to those huts that make your London; you went to buy you a wife?〃
〃Yes; madam;〃 I answered。 〃I went with that intention。〃
〃You had made your calculation? In your mind you had pitched upon such and such an article; with such and such qualities; as desirable? Doubtless you meant to get your money's worth?〃
〃Doubtless;〃 I said dryly。
〃Will you tell me what you were inclined to consider its equivalent?〃
I stared at her; much inclined to laugh。 The interview promised to be interesting。
〃I went to Jamestown to get me a wife;〃 I said at length; 〃because I had pledged my word that I would do so。 I was not over…anxious。 I did not run all the way。 But; as you say; I intended to do the best I could for myself; one hundred and twenty pounds of tobacco being a considerable sum; and not to be lightly thrown away。 I went to look for a mistress for my house; a companion for my idle hours; a rosy; humble; docile lass; with no aspirations beyond cleanliness and good temper; who was to order my household and make me a home。 I was to be her head and her law; but also her sword and shield。 That is what I went to look for。〃
〃And you found … me!〃 she said; and broke into strange laughter。
I bowed。
〃In God's name; why did you not go further?〃
I suppose she saw in my face why I went no further; for into her own the color came flaming。
〃I am not what I seem!〃 she cried out。 〃I was not in that company of choice!〃
I bowed again。 〃You have no need to tell me that; madam;〃 I said。 〃I have eyes。 I desire to know why you were there at all; and why you married me。〃
She turned from me; until I could see nothing but the coiled wealth of her hair and the bit of white neck between it and the ruff。 We stood so in silence; she with bent head and fingers clasping and unclasping; I leaning against the wall and staring at her; for what seemed a long time。 At least I had time to grow impatient; when she faced me again; and all my irritation vanished in a gasp of admiration。
Oh; she was beautiful; and of a sweetness most alluring and fatal! Had Medea worn such a look; sure Jason had quite forgot the fleece; and with those eyes Circe had needed no other charm to make men what she would。 Her voice; when she spoke; was no longer imperious; it was low pleading music。 And she held out entreating hands。
〃Have pity on me;〃 she said。 〃Listen kindly; and have pity on me。 You are a strong man and wear a sword。 You can cut your way through trouble and peril。 I am a woman; weak; friendless; helpless。 I was in distress and peril; and I had no arm to save; no knight to fight my battle。 I do not love deceit。 Ah; do not think that I have not hated myself for the lie I have been。 But these forest creatures t