第 42 节
作者:男孩不逛街      更新:2021-02-18 23:24      字数:9322
  people might find plenty of time for being serious and reasonable
  in the evening of life; when they are at the bottom of the hill;
  and their looking…glasses reveal a wrinkled face; surrounded with
  white hair。
  A thorough…bred Parisian; whom one would follow to the end of the
  world; like a poodle; a woman whom one adores with the head; the
  heart; and the senses until one is nearly driven mad; as soon as
  one has inhaled the delicate perfume that emanates from her dress
  and hair; or touched her skin; and heard her laugh; a woman for
  whom one would fight a duel and risk one's life without a
  thought; for whom a man would remove mountains; and sell his soul
  to the devil several times over; if the devil were still in the
  habit of frequenting the places of bad repute on this earth。
  She had perhaps come to see this Garrulier; whom she had so often
  heard mentioned at five o'clock teas; so as to be able to
  describe him to her female friends subsequently in droll phrases;
  imitating his gestures and the unctuous inflections of his voice;
  in order; perhaps; to experience some new sensation; or; perhaps;
  for the sake of dressing like a woman who was going to try for a
  divorce; and; certainly; the whole effect was perfect。 She wore a
  splendid cloak embroidered with jetwhich gave an almost serious
  effect to her golden hair; to her small slightly turned…up nose;
  with its quivering nostrils; and to her large eyes; full of
  enigma and funover a dark stuff dress; which was fastened at
  the neck by a sapphire and a diamond pin。
  The barrister did not interrupt her; but allowed her to get
  excited and to chatter; to enumerate her causes for complaint
  against poor Count de Baudemont; who certainly had no suspicion
  of his wife's escapade; and who would have been very much
  surprised if anyone had told him of it at that moment; when he
  was taking his fencing lesson at the club。
  When she had quite finished; he said coolly; as if he were
  throwing a pail of water on some burning straw:
  〃But; Madame; there is not the slightest pretext for a divorce in
  anything that you have told me here。 The judges would ask me
  whether I took the Law Courts for a theater; and intended to make
  fun of them。〃
  And seeing how disheartened she was;that she looked like a
  child whose favorite toy had been broken; that she was so pretty
  that he would have liked to kiss her hands in his devotion; and
  as she seemed to be witty; and very amusing; and as; moreover; he
  had no objection to such visits being prolonged; when papers had
  to be looked over; while sitting close together;Maitre
  Garrulier appeared to be considering。 Taking his chin in his
  hand; he said:
  〃However; I will think it over; there is sure to be some dark
  spot that can be made out worse。 Write to me; and come and see me
  again。〃
  In the course of her visits; that black spot had increased so
  much and Madame de Baudemont had followed her lawyer's advice so
  punctually; and had played on the various strings so skillfully
  that a few months later; after a lawsuit; which is still spoken
  of in the Courts of Justice; and during the course of which the
  President had to take off his spectacles; and to use his
  pocket…handkerchief noisily; the divorce was pronounced in favor
  of the Countess Marie Anne Nicole Bournet de Baudemont; nee de
  Tanchart de Peothus。
  The Count; who was nonplussed at such an adventure turning out so
  seriously; first of all flew into a terrible rage; rushed off to
  the lawyer's office and threatened to cut off his knavish ears
  for him。 But when his access of fury was over; and he thought of
  it; he shrugged his shoulders and said:
  〃All the better for her; if it amuses her!〃
  Then he bought Baron Silberstein's yacht; and with some friends;
  got up a cruise to Ceylon and India。
  Marie Anne began by triumphing; and felt as happy as a schoolgirl
  going home for the holidays; she committed every possible folly;
  and soon; tired; satiated; and disgusted; began to yawn; cried;
  and found out that she had sacrificed her happiness; like a
  millionaire who has gone mad and has cast his banknotes and
  shares into the river; and that she was nothing more than a
  disabled waif and stray。 Consequently; she now married again; as
  the solitude of her home made her morose from morning till night;
  and then; besides; she found a woman requires a mansion when she
  goes into society; to race meetings; or to the theater。
  And so; while she became a marchioness; and pronounced her second
  〃Yes;〃 before a very few friends; at the office of the mayor of
  the English urban district; malicious people in the Faubourg were
  making fun of the whole affair; and affirming this and that;
  whether rightly or wrongly; and comparing the present husband to
  the former one; even declaring that he had partially been the
  cause of the former divorce。 Meanwhile Monsieur de Baudemont was
  wandering over the four quarters of the globe trying to overcome
  his homesickness; and to deaden his longing for love; which had
  taken possession of his heart and of his body; like a slow
  poison。
  He traveled through the most out…of…the…way places; and the most
  lovely countries; and spent months and months at sea; and plunged
  into every kind of dissipation and debauchery。 But neither the
  supple forms nor the luxurious gestures of the bayaderes; nor the
  large passive eyes of the Creoles; nor flirtations with English
  girls with hair the color of new cider; nor nights of waking
  dreams; when he saw new constellations in the sky; nor dangers
  during which a man thinks it is all over with him; and mutters a
  few words of prayer in spite of himself; when the waves are high;
  and the sky black; nothing was able to make him forget that
  little Parisian woman who smelled so sweet that she might have
  been taken for a bouquet of rare flowers; who was so coaxing; so
  curious; so funny; who never had the same caprice; the same
  smile; or the same look twice; and who; at bottom; was worth more
  than many others; either saints or sinners。
  He thought of her constantly; during long hours of sleeplessness。
  He carried her portrait about with him in the breast pocket of
  his pea…jacketa charming portrait in which she was smiling; and
  showing her white teeth between her half…open lips。 Her gentle
  eyes with their magnetic look had a happy; frank expression; and
  from the mere arrangement of her hair; one could see that she was
  fair among the fair。
  He used to kiss that portrait of the woman who had been his wife
  as if he wished to efface it; would look at it for hours; and
  then throw himself down on the netting and sob like a child as he
  looked at the infinite expanse before him; seeming to see their
  lost happiness; the joys of their perished affections; and the
  divine remembrance of their love; in the monotonous waste of
  green waters。 And he tried to accuse himself for all that had
  occurred; and not to be angry with her; to think that his
  grievances were imaginary; and to adore her in spite of
  everything and always。
  And so he roamed about the world; tossed to and fro; suffering
  and hoping he knew not what。 He ventured into the greatest
  dangers; and sought for death just as a man seeks for his
  mistress; and death passed close to him without touching him;
  perhaps amused at his grief and misery。
  For he was as wretched as a stone…breaker; as one of those poor
  devils who work and nearly break their backs over the hard flints
  the whole day long; under the scorching sun or the cold rain; and
  Marie Anne herself was not happy; for she was pining for the past
  and remembered their former love。
  At last; however; he returned to France; changed; tanned by
  exposure; sun; and rain; and transformed as if by some witch's
  philter。
  Nobody would have recognized the elegant and effeminate clubman;
  in this corsair with broad shoulders; a skin the color of tan;
  with very red lips; who rolled a little in his walk; who seemed
  to be stifled in his black dress…coat; but who still retained the
  distinguished manners and bearing of a nobleman of the last
  century; one of those who; when he was ruined; fitted out a
  privateer; and fell upon the English wherever he met them; from
  St。 Malo to Calcutta。 And wherever he showed himself his friends
  exclaimed:
  〃Why! Is that you? I should never have known you again!〃
  He was very nearly starting off again immediately; he even
  telegraphed orders to Havre to get the steam…yacht ready for sea
  directly; when he heard that Marie Anne had married again。
  He saw her in the distance; at the Theatre Francais one Tuesday;
  and when he noticed how pretty; how fair; how desirable she
  was;looking so melancholy; with all the appearance of an
  unhappy soul that regrets something;his determination grew
  weaker; and he delayed his departure from week to week; and
  waited; without knowing why; until; at last; worn out with t