第 39 节
作者:男孩不逛街      更新:2021-02-18 23:24      字数:9322
  leaps and caught the flies on the surface。 He stopped crying in
  order to watch them; for their feeding interested him vastly。
  But; at intervals; as in the lulls of a tempest; when tremendous
  gusts of wind snap off trees and then die away; this thought
  would return to him with intense pain:
  〃I am about to drown myself because I have no papa。〃
  It was very warm and fine weather。 The pleasant sunshine warmed
  the grass; the water shone like a mirror; and Simon enjoyed for
  some minutes the happiness of that languor which follows weeping;
  desirous even of falling asleep there upon the grass in the
  warmth of noon。
  A little green frog leaped from under his feet。 He endeavored to
  catch it。 It escaped him。 He pursued it and lost it three times
  following。 At last he caught it by one of its hind legs and began
  to laugh as he saw the efforts the creature made to escape。 It
  gathered itself up on its large legs and then with a violent
  spring suddenly stretched them out as stiff as two bars。
  Its eyes stared wide open in their round; golden circle; and it
  beat the air with its front limbs; using them as though they were
  hands。 It reminded him of a toy made with straight slips of wood
  nailed zig…zag one on the other; which by a similar movement
  regulated the exercise of the little soldiers fastened thereon。
  Then he thought of his home and of his mother; and overcome by
  great sorrow he again began to weep。 His limbs trembled; and he
  placed himself on his knees and said his prayers as before going
  to bed。 But he was unable to finish them; for such hurried and
  violent sobs overtook him that he was completely overwhelmed。 He
  thought no more; he no longer heeded anything around him but was
  wholly given up to tears。
  Suddenly a heavy hand was placed upon his shoulder; and a rough
  voice asked him:
  〃What is it that causes you so much grief; my fine fellow?〃
  Simon turned round。 A tall workman; with a black beard and hair
  all curled; was staring at him good…naturedly。 He answered with
  his eyes and throat full of tears:
  〃They have beaten me becauseII have no papano papa。 〃
  〃What!〃 said the man smiling; 〃why; everybody has one。〃
  The child answered painfully amid his spasms of grief:
  〃But III have none。〃
  Then the workman became serious。 He had recognized La
  Blanchotte's son; and although a recent arrival to the
  neighborhood he had a vague idea of her history。
  〃Well;〃 said he; 〃console yourself; my boy; and come with me home
  to your mother。 She will give you a papa。〃
  And so they started on the way; the big one holding the little
  one by the hand。 The man smiled afresh; for he was not sorry to
  see this Blanchotte; who by popular report was one of the
  prettiest girls in the country…sideand; perhaps; he said to
  himself; at the bottom of his heart; that a lass who had erred
  once might very well err again。
  They arrived in front of a very neat little white house。
  〃There it is;〃 exclaimed the child; and he cried: 〃Mamma。〃
  A woman appeared; and the workman instantly left off smiling; for
  he at once perceived that there was no more fooling to be done
  with the tall pale girl; who stood austerely at her door as
  though to defend from one man the threshold of that house where she
  had already been betrayed by another。 Intimidated; his cap in his
  hand; he stammered out:
  〃See; Madame; I have brought you back your little boy; who had
  lost himself near the river。〃
  But Simon flung his arms about his mother's neck and told her; as
  he again began to cry:
  〃No; mamma; I wished to drown myself; because the others had
  beaten mehad beaten mebecause I have no papa。〃
  A burning redness covered the young woman's cheeks; and; hurt to
  the quick; she embraced her child passionately; while the tears
  coursed down her face。 The man; much moved; stood there; not
  knowing how to get away。 But Simon suddenly ran to him and said:
  〃Will you be my papa?〃
  A deep silence ensued。 La Blanchotte; dumb and tortured with
  shame; leaned against the wall; her hands upon her heart。 The
  child; seeing that no answer was made him; replied:
  〃If you do not wish it; I shall return to drown myself。〃
  The workman took the matter as a jest and answered laughing:
  〃Why; yes; I wish it certainly。〃
  〃What is your name; then;〃 went on the child; 〃so that I may tell
  the others when they wish to know your name?〃
  〃Philip;〃 answered the man。
  Simon was silent a moment so that he might get the name well into
  his memory; then he stretched out his arms; quite consoled; and
  said:
  〃Well; then; Philip; you are my papa。〃
  The workman; lifting him from the ground; kissed him hastily on
  both cheeks; and then strode away quickly。
  When the child returned to school next day he was received with a
  spiteful laugh; and at the end of school; when the lads were on
  the point of recommencing; Simon threw these words at their heads
  as he would have done a stone: 〃He is named Philip; my papa。〃
  Yells of delight burst out from all sides。
  〃Philip who? Philip what? What on earth is Philip? Where did you
  pick up your Philip?〃
  Simon answered nothing; and immovable in faith he defied them
  with his eye; ready to be martyred rather than fly before them。
  The schoolmaster came to his rescue and he returned home to his
  mother。
  For a space of three months; the tall workman; Philip; frequently
  passed by La Blanchotte's house; and sometimes made bold to speak
  to her when he saw her sewing near the window。 She answered him
  civilly; always sedately; never joking with him; nor permitting
  him to enter her house。 Notwithstanding this; being; like all
  men; a bit of a coxcomb; he imagined that she was often rosier
  than usual when she chatted with him。
  But a fallen reputation is so difficult to recover; and always
  remains so fragile that; in spite of the shy reserve La
  Blanchotte maintained; they already gossiped in the neighborhood。
  As for Simon; he loved his new papa much; and walked with him
  nearly every evening when the day's work was done。 He went
  regularly to school and mixed in a dignified way with his
  schoolfellows without ever answering them back。
  One day; however; the lad who had first attacked him said to him:
  〃You have lied。 You have not a papa named Philip。〃
  〃Why do you say that?〃 demanded Simon; much disturbed。
  The youth rubbed his hands。 He replied:
  〃Because if you had one he would be your mamma's husband。〃
  Simon was confused by the truth of this reasoning; nevertheless
  he retorted:
  〃He is my papa all the same。〃
  〃That can very well be;〃 exclaimed the urchin with a sneer; 〃but
  that is not being your papa altogether。〃
  La Blanchotte's little one bowed his head and went off dreaming
  in the direction of the forge belonging to old Loizon; where
  Philip worked。
  This forge was entombed in trees。 It was very dark there; the red
  glare of a formidable furnace alone lit up with great flashes
  five blacksmiths; who hammered upon their anvils with a terrible
  din。 Standing enveloped in flame; they worked like demons; their
  eyes fixed on the red…hot iron they were pounding; and their dull
  ideas rising and falling with their hammers。
  Simon entered without being noticed and quietly plucked his
  friend by the sleeve。 Philip turned round。 All at once the work
  came to a standstill and the men looked on very attentively。
  Then; in the midst of this unaccustomed silence; rose the little
  slender pipe of Simon:
  〃Philip; explain to me what the lad at La Michande has just told
  me; that you are not altogether my papa。〃
  〃And why that?〃 asked the smith。
  The child replied in all innocence:
  〃Because you are not my mamma's husband。〃
  No one laughed。 Philip remained standing; leaning his forehead
  upon the back of his great hands; which held the handle of his
  hammer upright upon the anvil。 He mused。 His four companions
  watched him; and; like a tiny mite among these giants; Simon
  anxiously waited。 Suddenly; one of the smiths; voicing the
  sentiment of all; said to Philip:
  〃All the same La Blanchotte is a good and honest girl; stalwart
  and steady in spite of her misfortune; and one who would make a
  worthy wife for an honest man。〃
  〃That is true;〃 remarked the three others。 The smith continued:
  〃Is it the girl's fault if she has fallen? She had been promised
  marriage; and I know more than one who is much respected to…day
  and has sinned every bit as much。〃
  〃That is true;〃 responded the three men in chorus。
  He resumed:
  〃How hard she has toiled; poor thing; to educate her lad all
  alone; and how much she has wept since she no longer goes out;
  save to church; God only knows。〃
  〃That also is true;〃 said the others。
  Then no more was heard save the roar of the bellows which fanned
  the fire of the furnace。 Philip hastil