第 31 节
作者:男孩不逛街      更新:2021-02-18 23:24      字数:9322
  traversing of the desert; and those; on the contrary; whom others
  weary; tire; bore; silently torture; whom isolation calms and
  bathes in the repose of independency; and plunges into the humors
  of their own thoughts。 In fine; there is here a normal; physical
  phenomenon。 Some are constituted to live a life outside of
  themselves; others; to live a life within themselves。 As for me;
  my exterior associations are abruptly and painfully short…lived;
  and; as they reach their limits; I experience in my whole body
  and in my whole intelligence an intolerable uneasiness。
  As a result of this; I became attached; or rather had become much
  attached; to inanimate objects; which have for me the importance
  of beings; and my house has or had become a world in which I
  lived an active and solitary life; surrounded by all manner of
  things; furniture; familiar knickknacks; as sympathetic in my
  eyes as the visages of human beings。 I had filled my mansion with
  them; little by little; I had adorned it with them; and I felt an
  inward content and satisfaction; was more happy than if I had
  been in the arms of a beloved girl; whose wonted caresses had
  become a soothing and delightful necessity。
  I had had this house constructed in the center of a beautiful
  garden; which hid it from the public high…ways; and which was
  near the entrance to a city where I could find; on occasion; the
  resources of society; for which; at moments; I had a longing。 All
  my domestics slept in a separate building; which was situated at
  some considerable distance from my house; at the far end of the
  kitchen garden; which in turn was surrounded by a high wall。 The
  obscure envelopment of night; in the silence of my concealed
  habitation; buried under the leaves of great trees; was so
  reposeful and so delicious; that before retiring to my couch I
  lingered every evening for several hours in order to enjoy the
  solitude a little longer。
  One day 〃Signad〃 had been played at one of the city theaters。 It
  was the first time that I had listened to that beautiful;
  musical; and fairy…like drama; and I had derived from it the
  liveliest pleasures。
  I returned home on foot with a light step; my head full of
  sonorous phrases; and my mind haunted by delightful visions。 It
  was night; the dead of night; and so dark that I could hardly
  distinguish the broad highway; and consequently I stumbled into
  the ditch more than once。 From the custom…house; at the barriers;
  to my house; was about a mile; perhaps a little morea leisurely
  walk of about twenty minutes。 It was one o'clock in the morning;
  one o'clock or maybe half…past one; the sky had by this time
  cleared somewhat and the crescent appeared; the gloomy crescent
  of the last quarter of the moon。 The crescent of the first
  quarter is that which rises about five or six o'clock in the
  evening and is clear; gay; and fretted with silver; but the one
  which rises after midnight is reddish; sad; and desolatingit is
  the true Sabbath crescent。 Every prowler by night has made the same
  observation。 The first; though slender as a thread; throws a faint;
  joyous light which rejoices the heart and lines the ground with
  distinct shadows; the last sheds hardly a dying glimmer; and is so
  wan that it occasions hardly any shadows。
  In the distance; I perceived the somber mass of my garden; and; I
  know not why; was seized with a feeling of uneasiness at the idea
  of going inside。 I slackened my pace; and walked very softly; the
  thick cluster of trees having the appearance of a tomb in which
  my house was buried。
  I opened my outer gate and entered the long avenue of sycamores
  which ran in the direction of the house; arranged vault…wise like
  a high tunnel; traversing opaque masses; and winding round the
  turf lawns; on which baskets of flowers; in the pale darkness;
  could be indistinctly discerned。
  While approaching the house; I was seized by a strange feeling。 I
  could hear nothing; I stood still。 Through the trees there was
  not even a breath of air stirring。 〃What is the matter with me?〃
  I said to myself。 For ten years I had entered and re…entered in
  the same way; without ever experiencing the least inquietude。 I
  never had any fear at nights。 The sight of a man; a marauder; or
  a thief would have thrown me into a fit of anger; and I would
  have rushed at him without any hesitation。 Moreover; I was
  armedI had my revolver。 But I did not touch it; for I was
  anxious to resist that feeling of dread with which I was seized。
  What was it? Was it a presentimentthat mysterious presentiment
  which takes hold of the senses of men who have witnessed
  something which; to them; is inexplicable? Perhaps? Who knows?
  In proportion as I advanced; I felt my skin quiver more and more;
  and when I was close to the wall; near the outhouses of my large
  residence; I felt that it would be necessary for me to wait a few
  minutes before opening the door and going inside。 I sat down;
  then; on a bench; under the windows of my drawing…room。 I rested
  there; a little disturbed; with my head leaning against the wall;
  my eyes wide open; under the shade of the foliage。 For the first
  few minutes; I did not observe anything unusual around me; I had
  a humming noise in my ears; but that has happened often to me。
  Sometimes it seemed to me that I heard trains passing; that I
  heard clocks striking; that I heard a multitude on the march。
  Very soon; those humming noises became more distinct; more
  concentrated; more determinable; I was deceiving myself。 It was
  not the ordinary tingling of my arteries which transmitted to my
  ears these rumbling sounds; but it was a very distinct; though
  confused; noise which came; without any doubt whatever; from the
  interior of my house。 Through the walls I distinguished this
  continued noise;I should rather say agitation than noise;an
  indistinct moving about of a pile of things; as if people were
  tossing about; displacing; and carrying away surreptitiously all
  my furniture。
  I doubted; however; for some considerable time yet; the evidence
  of my ears。 But having placed my ear against one of the
  outhouses; the better to discover what this strange disturbance
  was; inside my house; I became convinced; certain; that something
  was taking place in my residence which was altogether abnormal
  and incomprehensible。 I had no fear; but I washow shall I
  express itparalyzed by astonishment。 I did not draw my
  revolver; knowing very well that there was no need of my doing
  so。
  I listened a long time; but could come to no resolution; my mind
  being quite clear; though in myself I was naturally anxious。 I
  got up and waited; listening always to the noise; which gradually
  increased; and at intervals grew very loud; and which seemed to
  become an impatient; angry disturbance; a mysterious commotion。
  Then; suddenly; ashamed of my timidity; I seized my bunch of
  keys。 I selected the one I wanted; guided it into the lock;
  turned it twice; and pushing the door with all my might; sent it
  banging against the partition。
  The collision sounded like the report of a gun; and there
  responded to that explosive noise; from roof to basement of my
  residence; a formidable tumult。 It was so sudden; so terrible; so
  deafening; that I recoiled a few steps; and though I knew it to
  be wholly useless; I pulled my revolver out of its case。
  I continued to listen for some time longer。 I could distinguish
  now an extraordinary pattering upon the steps of my grand
  staircase; on the waxed floors; on the carpets; not of boots; or
  of naked feet; but of iron and wooden crutches; which resounded
  like cymbals。 Then I suddenly discerned; on the threshold of my
  door; an armchair; my large reading easy…chair; which set off
  waddling。 It went away through my garden。 Others followed it;
  those of my drawing…room; then my sofas; dragging themselves
  along like crocodiles on their short paws; then all my chairs;
  bounding like goats; and the little foot…stools; hopping like
  rabbits。
  Oh! what a sensation! I slunk back into a clump of bushes where I
  remained crouched up; watching; meanwhile; my furniture defile
  pastfor everything walked away; the one behind the other;
  briskly or slowly; according to its weight or size。 My piano; my
  grand piano; bounded past with the gallop of a horse and a murmur
  of music in its sides; the smaller articles slid along the gravel
  like snails; my brushes; crystal; cups and saucers; which
  glistened in the moonlight。 I saw my writing desk appear; a rare
  curiosity of the last century; which contained all the letters I
  had ever received; all the history of my heart; an old history
  from which I have suffered so much! Besides; there were inside of
  it a great many cherished photographs。
  SuddenlyI no longer had any fearI threw myself on it; seized
  it as one would seize a thief; as one would seize a wife about to
  run away; but it pursued its irresistible course; and despite