第 13 节
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男孩不逛街 更新:2021-02-18 23:24 字数:9322
It was empty! It was completely empty! At first I could not
understand it at all; then suddenly I was seized by such a
terrible feeling that I had to sit down; or rather fall into a
chair! Then I sprang up with a bound to look about me; then I sat
down again; overcome by astonishment and fear; in front of the
transparent crystal bottle! I looked at it with fixed eyes;
trying to solve the puzzle; and my hands trembled! Some body had
drunk the water; but who? I? I without any doubt。 It could surely
only be I? In that case I was a somnambulistwas living; without
knowing it; that double; mysterious life which makes us doubt
whether there are not two beings in uswhether a strange;
unknowable; and invisible being does not; during our moments of
mental and physical torpor; animate the inert body; forcing it to
a more willing obedience than it yields to ourselves。
Oh! Who will understand my horrible agony? Who will understand
the emotion of a man sound in mind; wide…awake; full of sense;
who looks in horror at the disappearance of a little water while
he was asleep; through the glass of a water…bottle! And I
remained sitting until it was daylight; without venturing to go
to bed again。
July 6。 I am going mad。 Again all the contents of my water…bottle
have been drunk during the night; or rather I have drunk it!
But is it I? Is it I? Who could it be? Who? Oh! God! Am I going
mad? Who will save me?
July 10。 I have just been through some surprising ordeals。
Undoubtedly I must be mad! And yet!
On July 6; before going to bed; I put some wine; milk; water;
bread; and strawberries on my table。 Somebody drankI drankall
the water and a little of the milk; but neither the wine; nor the
bread; nor the strawberries were touched。
On the seventh of July I renewed the same experiment; with the
same results; and on July 8 I left out the water and the milk and
nothing was touched。
Lastly; on July 9 I put only water and milk on my table; taking
care to wrap up the bottles in white muslin and to tie down the
stoppers。 Then I rubbed my lips; my beard; and my hands with
pencil lead; and went to bed。
Deep slumber seized me; soon followed by a terrible awakening。 I
had not moved; and my sheets were not marked。 I rushed to the
table。 The muslin round the bottles remained intact; I undid the
string; trembling with fear。 All the water had been drunk; and so
had the milk! Ah! Great God! I must start for Paris immediately。
July 12。 Paris。 I must have lost my head during the last few
days! I must be the plaything of my enervated imagination; unless
I am really a somnambulist; or I have been brought under the
power of one of those influenceshypnotic suggestion; for
examplewhich are known to exist; but have hitherto been
inexplicable。 In any case; my mental state bordered on madness;
and twenty…four hours of Paris sufficed to restore me to my
equilibrium。
Yesterday after doing some business and paying some visits; which
instilled fresh and invigorating mental air into me; I wound up
my evening at the Theatre Francais。 A drama by Alexander Dumas
the Younger was being acted; and his brilliant and powerful play
completed my cure。 Certainly solitude is dangerous for active
minds。 We need men who can think and can talk; around us。 When we
are alone for a long time; we people space with phantoms。
I returned along the boulevards to my hotel in excellent spirits。
Amid the jostling of the crowd I thought; not without irony; of
my terrors and surmises of the previous week; because I believed;
yes; I believed; that an invisible being lived beneath my roof。
How weak our mind is; how quickly it is terrified and unbalanced
as soon as we are confronted with a small; incomprehensible fact。
Instead of dismissing the problem with: 〃We do not understand
because we cannot find the cause;〃 we immediately imagine
terrible mysteries and supernatural powers。
July 14。 Fete of the Republic。 I walked through the streets; and
the crackers and flags amused me like a child。 Still; it is very
foolish to make merry on a set date; by Government decree。 People
are like a flock of sheep; now steadily patient; now in ferocious
revolt。 Say to it: 〃Amuse yourself;〃 and it amuses itself。 Say to
it: 〃Go and fight with your neighbor;〃 and it goes and fights。
Say to it: 〃Vote for the Emperor;〃 and it votes for the Emperor;
then say to it: 〃Vote for the Republic;〃 and it votes for the
Republic。
Those who direct it are stupid; too; but instead of obeying men
they obey principles; a course which can only be foolish;
ineffective; and false; for the very reason that principles are
ideas which are considered as certain and unchangeable; whereas
in this world one is certain of nothing; since light is an
illusion and noise is deception。
July 16。 I saw some things yesterday that troubled me very much。
I was dining at my cousin's; Madame Sable; whose husband is
colonel of the Seventy…sixth Chasseurs at Limoges。 There were two
young women there; one of whom had married a medical man; Dr。
Parent; who devotes himself a great deal to nervous diseases and
to the extraordinary manifestations which just now experiments in
hypnotism and suggestion are producing。
He related to us at some length the enormous results obtained by
English scientists and the doctors of the medical school at
Nancy; and the facts which he adduced appeared to me so strange;
that I declared that I was altogether incredulous。
〃We are;〃 he declared; 〃on the point of discovering one of the
most important secrets of nature; I mean to say; one of its most
important secrets on this earth; for assuredly there are some up
in the stars; yonder; of a different kind of importance。 Ever
since man has thought; since he has been able to express and
write down his thoughts; he has felt himself close to a mystery
which is impenetrable to his coarse and imperfect senses; and he
endeavors to supplement the feeble penetration of his organs by
the efforts of his intellect。 As long as that intellect remained
in its elementary stage; this intercourse with invisible spirits
assumed forms which were commonplace though terrifying。 Thence
sprang the popular belief in the supernatural; the legends of
wandering spirits; of fairies; of gnomes; of ghosts; I might even
say the conception of God; for our ideas of the Workman…Creator;
from whatever religion they may have come down to us; are
certainly the most mediocre; the stupidest; and the most
unacceptable inventions that ever sprang from the frightened
brain of any human creature。 Nothing is truer than what Voltaire
says: 'If God made man in His own image; man has certainly paid
Him back again。'
〃But for rather more than a century; men seem to have had a
presentiment of something new。 Mesmer and some others have put us
on an unexpected track; and within the last two or three years
especially; we have arrived at results really surprising。〃
My cousin; who is also very incredulous; smiled; and Dr。 Parent
said to her: 〃Would you like me to try and send you to sleep;
Madame?〃
〃Yes; certainly。〃
She sat down in an easy…chair; and he began to look at her
fixedly; as if to fascinate her。 I suddenly felt myself somewhat
discomposed; my heart beat rapidly and I had a choking feeling in
my throat。 I saw that Madame Sable's eyes were growing heavy; her
mouth twitched; and her bosom heaved; and at the end of ten
minutes she was asleep。
〃Go behind her;〃 the doctor said to me; so I took a seat behind
her。 He put a visiting…card into her hands; and said to her:
〃This is a looking…glass; what do you see in it?〃
She replied: 〃I see my cousin。〃
〃What is he doing?〃
〃He is twisting his mustache。〃
〃And now?〃
〃He is taking a photograph out of his pocket。〃
〃Whose photograph is it?〃
〃His own。〃
That was true; for the photograph had been given me that same
evening at the hotel。
〃What is his attitude in this portrait?〃
〃He is standing up with his hat in his hand。〃
She saw these things in that card; in that piece of white
pasteboard; as if she had seen them in a looking…glass。
The young women were frightened; and exclaimed: 〃That is quite
enough! Quite; quite enough!〃
But the doctor said to her authoritatively: 〃You will get up at
eight o'clock to…morrow morning; then you will go and call on
your cousin at his hotel and ask him to lend you the five
thousand francs which your husband asks of you; and which he will
ask for when he sets out on his coming journey。〃
Then he woke her up。
On returning to my hotel; I thought over this curious seance and
I was assailed by doubts; not as to my cousin's absolute and
undoubted good faith; for I had known her as well as if she had
been my own sister ever since she was a child; but as to a
possible trick on the doctor's part。 Had not he;