第 13 节
作者:男孩不逛街      更新:2021-02-18 23:24      字数:9322
  It was empty! It was completely empty! At first I could not
  understand it at all; then suddenly I was seized by such a
  terrible feeling that I had to sit down; or rather fall into a
  chair! Then I sprang up with a bound to look about me; then I sat
  down again; overcome by astonishment and fear; in front of the
  transparent crystal bottle! I looked at it with fixed eyes;
  trying to solve the puzzle; and my hands trembled! Some body had
  drunk the water; but who? I? I without any doubt。 It could surely
  only be I? In that case I was a somnambulistwas living; without
  knowing it; that double; mysterious life which makes us doubt
  whether there are not two beings in uswhether a strange;
  unknowable; and invisible being does not; during our moments of
  mental and physical torpor; animate the inert body; forcing it to
  a more willing obedience than it yields to ourselves。
  Oh! Who will understand my horrible agony? Who will understand
  the emotion of a man sound in mind; wide…awake; full of sense;
  who looks in horror at the disappearance of a little water while
  he was asleep; through the glass of a water…bottle! And I
  remained sitting until it was daylight; without venturing to go
  to bed again。
  July 6。 I am going mad。 Again all the contents of my water…bottle
  have been drunk during the night; or rather I have drunk it!
  But is it I? Is it I? Who could it be? Who? Oh! God! Am I going
  mad? Who will save me?
  July 10。 I have just been through some surprising ordeals。
  Undoubtedly I must be mad! And yet!
  On July 6; before going to bed; I put some wine; milk; water;
  bread; and strawberries on my table。 Somebody drankI drankall
  the water and a little of the milk; but neither the wine; nor the
  bread; nor the strawberries were touched。
  On the seventh of July I renewed the same experiment; with the
  same results; and on July 8 I left out the water and the milk and
  nothing was touched。
  Lastly; on July 9 I put only water and milk on my table; taking
  care to wrap up the bottles in white muslin and to tie down the
  stoppers。 Then I rubbed my lips; my beard; and my hands with
  pencil lead; and went to bed。
  Deep slumber seized me; soon followed by a terrible awakening。 I
  had not moved; and my sheets were not marked。 I rushed to the
  table。 The muslin round the bottles remained intact; I undid the
  string; trembling with fear。 All the water had been drunk; and so
  had the milk! Ah! Great God! I must start for Paris immediately。
  July 12。 Paris。 I must have lost my head during the last few
  days! I must be the plaything of my enervated imagination; unless
  I am really a somnambulist; or I have been brought under the
  power of one of those influenceshypnotic suggestion; for
  examplewhich are known to exist; but have hitherto been
  inexplicable。 In any case; my mental state bordered on madness;
  and twenty…four hours of Paris sufficed to restore me to my
  equilibrium。
  Yesterday after doing some business and paying some visits; which
  instilled fresh and invigorating mental air into me; I wound up
  my evening at the Theatre Francais。 A drama by Alexander Dumas
  the Younger was being acted; and his brilliant and powerful play
  completed my cure。 Certainly solitude is dangerous for active
  minds。 We need men who can think and can talk; around us。 When we
  are alone for a long time; we people space with phantoms。
  I returned along the boulevards to my hotel in excellent spirits。
  Amid the jostling of the crowd I thought; not without irony; of
  my terrors and surmises of the previous week; because I believed;
  yes; I believed; that an invisible being lived beneath my roof。
  How weak our mind is; how quickly it is terrified and unbalanced
  as soon as we are confronted with a small; incomprehensible fact。
  Instead of dismissing the problem with: 〃We do not understand
  because we cannot find the cause;〃 we immediately imagine
  terrible mysteries and supernatural powers。
  July 14。 Fete of the Republic。 I walked through the streets; and
  the crackers and flags amused me like a child。 Still; it is very
  foolish to make merry on a set date; by Government decree。 People
  are like a flock of sheep; now steadily patient; now in ferocious
  revolt。 Say to it: 〃Amuse yourself;〃 and it amuses itself。 Say to
  it: 〃Go and fight with your neighbor;〃 and it goes and fights。
  Say to it: 〃Vote for the Emperor;〃 and it votes for the Emperor;
  then say to it: 〃Vote for the Republic;〃 and it votes for the
  Republic。
  Those who direct it are stupid; too; but instead of obeying men
  they obey principles; a course which can only be foolish;
  ineffective; and false; for the very reason that principles are
  ideas which are considered as certain and unchangeable; whereas
  in this world one is certain of nothing; since light is an
  illusion and noise is deception。
  July 16。 I saw some things yesterday that troubled me very much。
  I was dining at my cousin's; Madame Sable; whose husband is
  colonel of the Seventy…sixth Chasseurs at Limoges。 There were two
  young women there; one of whom had married a medical man; Dr。
  Parent; who devotes himself a great deal to nervous diseases and
  to the extraordinary manifestations which just now experiments in
  hypnotism and suggestion are producing。
  He related to us at some length the enormous results obtained by
  English scientists and the doctors of the medical school at
  Nancy; and the facts which he adduced appeared to me so strange;
  that I declared that I was altogether incredulous。
  〃We are;〃 he declared; 〃on the point of discovering one of the
  most important secrets of nature; I mean to say; one of its most
  important secrets on this earth; for assuredly there are some up
  in the stars; yonder; of a different kind of importance。 Ever
  since man has thought; since he has been able to express and
  write down his thoughts; he has felt himself close to a mystery
  which is impenetrable to his coarse and imperfect senses; and he
  endeavors to supplement the feeble penetration of his organs by
  the efforts of his intellect。 As long as that intellect remained
  in its elementary stage; this intercourse with invisible spirits
  assumed forms which were commonplace though terrifying。 Thence
  sprang the popular belief in the supernatural; the legends of
  wandering spirits; of fairies; of gnomes; of ghosts; I might even
  say the conception of God; for our ideas of the Workman…Creator;
  from whatever religion they may have come down to us; are
  certainly the most mediocre; the stupidest; and the most
  unacceptable inventions that ever sprang from the frightened
  brain of any human creature。 Nothing is truer than what Voltaire
  says: 'If God made man in His own image; man has certainly paid
  Him back again。'
  〃But for rather more than a century; men seem to have had a
  presentiment of something new。 Mesmer and some others have put us
  on an unexpected track; and within the last two or three years
  especially; we have arrived at results really surprising。〃
  My cousin; who is also very incredulous; smiled; and Dr。 Parent
  said to her: 〃Would you like me to try and send you to sleep;
  Madame?〃
  〃Yes; certainly。〃
  She sat down in an easy…chair; and he began to look at her
  fixedly; as if to fascinate her。 I suddenly felt myself somewhat
  discomposed; my heart beat rapidly and I had a choking feeling in
  my throat。 I saw that Madame Sable's eyes were growing heavy; her
  mouth twitched; and her bosom heaved; and at the end of ten
  minutes she was asleep。
  〃Go behind her;〃 the doctor said to me; so I took a seat behind
  her。 He put a visiting…card into her hands; and said to her:
  〃This is a looking…glass; what do you see in it?〃
  She replied: 〃I see my cousin。〃
  〃What is he doing?〃
  〃He is twisting his mustache。〃
  〃And now?〃
  〃He is taking a photograph out of his pocket。〃
  〃Whose photograph is it?〃
  〃His own。〃
  That was true; for the photograph had been given me that same
  evening at the hotel。
  〃What is his attitude in this portrait?〃
  〃He is standing up with his hat in his hand。〃
  She saw these things in that card; in that piece of white
  pasteboard; as if she had seen them in a looking…glass。
  The young women were frightened; and exclaimed: 〃That is quite
  enough! Quite; quite enough!〃
  But the doctor said to her authoritatively: 〃You will get up at
  eight o'clock to…morrow morning; then you will go and call on
  your cousin at his hotel and ask him to lend you the five
  thousand francs which your husband asks of you; and which he will
  ask for when he sets out on his coming journey。〃
  Then he woke her up。
  On returning to my hotel; I thought over this curious seance and
  I was assailed by doubts; not as to my cousin's absolute and
  undoubted good faith; for I had known her as well as if she had
  been my own sister ever since she was a child; but as to a
  possible trick on the doctor's part。 Had not he;