第 9 节
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is an end of the matter。〃
〃Forgive you? you have taken a thorn out of my soul。〃
〃Then I am so glad you summoned courage to speak to me without ceremony。 Mamma would have done better; though; but after all; do not I know her? my mamma is all goodness and intelligence。 And be assured; sir; she does you justice; and is quite sensible of your _disinterested_ kindness to dear Edward。〃 With this she was about to retire。
〃Ah! But you; Miss Dodd? with whom I have taken this unwarrantable liberty?〃 said Hardie imploringly。
〃Me; Mr。 Hardie? You do me the honour to require my opinion of your performances: including of course this self…introduction?〃
Hardie hung his head; there was a touch of satire in the lady's voice; he thought。
Her soft eyes rested demurely on him a moment; she saw he was a little abashed。
〃My opinion of it all is that you have been very kind to us; in being most kind to our poor Edward。 I never saw; nor read of anything more generous; more manly。 And then _so_ thoughtful; _so_ considerate; _so_ delicate! So instead of criticising you; as you seem to expect; his sister only blesses you; and thanks you from the very bottom of her heart。〃
She had begun within a polite composure borrowed from mamma; but; once launched; her ardent nature got the better: her colour rose and rose; and her voice sank and sank; and the last words came almost in a whisper; and such a lovely whisper: a gurgle from the heart; and; as she concluded; her delicate hand came sweeping out with a heaven…taught gesture of large and sovereign cordiality; that made even the honest words and the divine tones more eloquent。 It was too much; the young man; ardent as herself; and not; in reality; half so timorous; caught fire; and seeing a white; eloquent hand rather near him; caught it; and pressed his warm lips on it in mute adoration and gratitude。
At this she was scared and offended。 〃Oh; keep that for the Queen!〃 cried she; turning scarlet; and tossing her fair head into the air; like a startled stag; and she drew her hand away quickly and decidedly; though not roughly。 He stammered a lowly apologyin the very middle of it she said quietly; 〃Good…bye; Mr。 Hardie;〃 and swept; with a gracious little curtsey; through the doorway; leaving him spell…bound。
And so the virginal instinct of self…defence carried her off swiftly and cleverly。 But none too soon; for; on entering the house; that external composure her two mothers Mesdames Dodd and Nature had taught her; fell from her like a veil; and she fluttered up the stairs to her own room with hot cheeks; and panted there like some wild thing that has been grasped at and grazed。 She felt young Hardie's lips upon the palm of her hand plainly; they seemed to linger there still; it was like light but live velvet This; and the ardent look he had poured into her eyes; set the young creature quivering。 Nobody had looked at her so before; and no young gentleman had imprinted living velvet on her hand。 She was alarmed; ashamed; and uneasy。 What right had he to look at her like that? What shadow of a right to go and kiss her hand? He could not pretend to think she had put it out to be kissed; ladies put forth the back of the hand for that; not the palm。 The truth was he was an impudent fellow; and she hated him now; and herself too; for being so simple as to let him talk to her: mamma would not have been so imprudent when she was a girl。
She would not go down; for she felt there must be something of this kind legibly branded on her face: 〃Oh! oh! just look at this young lady! She has been letting a young gentleman kiss the palm of her hand; and the feel has not gone off yet; you may see that by her cheeks。〃
But then; poor Edward! she must go down。
So she put a wet towel to her tell…tale cheeks; and dried them by artistic dabs; avoiding friction; and came downstairs like a mouse; and turned the door…handle noiselessly; and glided into the sitting…room looking so transparent; conscious; and all on fire with beauty and animation; that even Edward was startled; and; in a whisper; bade his mother observe what a pretty girl she was: 〃Beats all the country girls in a canter。〃 Mrs。 Dodd did look; and; consequently; as soon as ever Edward was gone to Oxford; she said to Julia; 〃You are feverish; love; you have been excited with all this。 You had better go to bed。〃
Julia complied willingly; for she wanted to be alone and think。 She retired to her own room; and went the whole day over again; and was happy and sorry; exalted and uneasy; by turns; and ended by excusing Mr。 Hardie's escapade; and throwing the blame on herself。 She ought to have been more distant; gentlemen were not expected; nor indeed much wanted; to be modest。 A little assurance did not misbecome them。 〃Really; I think it sets them off;〃 said she to herself。
Grand total: 〃What _must_ he think of me?〃
Time gallops in reverie: the town clock struck twelve; and with its iron tongue remorse entered her youthful conscience。 Was this obeying mamma? Mamma had said; 〃Go to bed:〃 not; 〃Go upstairs and meditate: upon young gentlemen。〃 She gave an expressive shake of her fair shoulders; like a swan flapping the water off its downy wings; and so dismissed the subject from her mind。
Then she said her prayers。
Then she rose from her knees; and in tones of honey said; 〃Puss! puss! pretty puss!〃 and awaited a result。
Thieves and ghosts she did not believe in; yet credited cats under beds; and thought them neither 〃harmless〃 nor 〃necessary〃 there。
After tenderly evoking the dreaded and chimerical quadruped; she proceeded none the less to careful research; especially of cupboards。 The door of one resisted; and then yielded with a crack; and blew out the candle。 〃There now;〃 said she。
It was her only light; except her beauty。 They allotted each Hebe but one candle; in that ancient burgh。 〃Well;〃 she thought; 〃there is moonlight enough to _un_dress by。〃 She went to draw back one of the curtains; but in the act she started back with a little scream。 There was a tall figure over the way watching the house。
The moon shone from her side of the street full on him; and in that instant her quick eye recognised Mr。 Hardie。
〃Well!〃 said she aloud; and with an indescribable inflexion; and hid herself swiftly in impenetrable gloom。
But; after a while; Eve's daughter must have a peep。 She stole with infinite caution to one side of the curtain; and made an aperture just big enough for one bright eye。 Yes; there he was; motionless。 〃I'll tell mamma;〃 said she to him; malignantly; as if the sound could reach him。
Unconscious of the direful threat; he did not budge。
She was unaffectedly puzzled at this phenomenon; and; not being the least vain; fell to wondering whether he played the nightly sentinel opposite every lady's window who exchanged civilities within him。 〃Because; if he does; he is a fool;〃 said she; promptly。 But on reflection; she felt sure he did nothing of the kind habitually; for he had too high an opinion of himself; she had noted that trait in him at a very early stage。 She satisfied herself; by cautious examination; that he did not know her room。 He was making a temple of the whole lodging。 〃How ridiculous of him!〃 Yet he appeared to be happy over it; there was an exalted look in his moonlit face; she seemed now first to see his soul there。 She studied his countenance like an inscription; and deciphered each rapt expression that crossed it; and stored them in her memory。
Twice she heft her ambuscade to go to bed; and twice Curiosity; or Something; drew her back。 At last; having looked; peered; and peeped; till her feet were cold; and her face the reverse; she informed herself that the foolish Thing had tired her out。
〃Good…night; Mr。 Policeman;〃 said she; pretending to bawl to him。 〃And oh! Do rain! As hard as ever you can。 With this benevolent aspiration; a little too violent to he sincere; she laid her cheek on her pillow doughtily。
But her sentinel; when out of sight; had more power to disturb her。 She lay and wondered whether he was still there; and what it all meant; and whatever mamma would say; and which of the two; she or he; was the head culprit in this strange performance; to which Earth; she conceived; had seen no parallel; and; above all; what he would do next。 Her pulse galloped; and her sleep was broken; and she came down in the morning a little pale。 Mrs。 Dodd saw it at once; with the quick maternal eye; and moralised: 〃It is curious; youth is so fond of pleasure; yet pleasure seldom agrees with youth; this little excitement has done your mother good; who is no longer young; but it has been too much for you。 I shall he glad to have you back to our quiet home。〃
Ah! Will that home be as tranquil now?
CHAPTER III
THE long vacation commenced about a month afterwards; and Hardie came to his father's house; to read for honours; unimpeded by university races and college lectures; and the ploughed and penitent one packed up his Aldrich and his Whately; the then authorities in Logic; and brought them home; together with a firm resolution to master that joyous science before the next examination for Smalls in October。 But lo! ere he had been an hour at home; he found his things put neatly