第 10 节
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冥王 更新:2021-02-18 23:11 字数:9322
imagination; she heard them spoken more than once by the young men and
the young women of Havre as they walked to Ingouville; and; knowing
that Madame Mignon and her daughter lived at the Chalet; talked of
them as they passed the house。 Friends of the Vilquins expressed
surprise that the mother and daughter were willing to live on among
the scenes of their former splendor。 From her open window behind the
closed blinds Modeste sometimes heard such insolence as this:
〃I am sure I can't think how they can live there;〃 some one would say
as he paced the villa lawn;perhaps to assist Vilquin in getting rid
of his tenant。
〃What do you suppose they live on? they haven't any means of earning
money。〃
〃I am told the old woman has gone blind。〃
〃Is Mademoiselle Mignon still pretty? Dear me; how dashing she used to
be! Well; she hasn't any horses now。〃
Most young girls on hearing these spiteful and silly speeches; born of
an envy that now rushed; peevish and drivelling; to avenge the past;
would have felt the blood mount to their foreheads; others would have
wept; some would have undergone spasms of anger; but Modeste smiled;
as we smile at the theatre while watching the actors。 Her pride could
not descend so low as the level of such speeches。
The other event was more serious than these mercenary meannesses。
Bettina Caroline died in the arms of her younger sister; who had
nursed her with the devotion of girlhood; and the curiosity of an
untainted imagination。 In the silence of long nights the sisters
exchanged many a confidence。 With what dramatic interest was poor
Bettina invested in the eyes of the innocent Modeste? Bettina knew
love through sorrow only; and she was dying of it。 Among young girls
every man; scoundrel though he be; is still a lover。 Passion is the
one thing absolutely real in the things of life; and it insists on its
supremacy。 Charles d'Estourny; gambler; criminal; and debauchee;
remained in the memory of the sisters; the elegant Parisian of the
fetes of Havre; the admired of the womenkind。 Bettina believed she had
carried him off from the coquettish Madame Vilquin; and to Modeste he
was her sister's happy lover。 Such adoration in young girls is
stronger than all social condemnations。 To Bettina's thinking; justice
had been deceived; if not; how could it have sentenced a man who had
loved her for six months?loved her to distraction in the hidden
retreat to which he had taken her;that he might; we may add; be at
liberty to go his own way。 Thus the dying girl inoculated her sister
with love。 Together they talked of the great drama which imagination
enhances; and Bettina carried with her to the grave her sister's
ignorance; leaving her; if not informed; at least thirsting for
information。
Nevertheless; remorse had set its fangs too sharply in Bettina's heart
not to force her to warn her sister。 In the midst of her own
confessions she had preached duty and implicit obedience to Modeste。
On the evening of her death she implored her to remember the tears
that soaked her pillow; and not to imitate a conduct which even
suffering could not expiate。 Bettina accused herself of bringing a
curse upon the family; and died in despair at being unable to obtain
her father's pardon。 Notwithstanding the consolations which the
ministers of religion; touched by her repentance; freely gave her; she
cried in heartrending tones with her latest breath: 〃Oh father!
father!〃 〃Never give your heart without your hand;〃 she said to
Modeste an hour before she died; 〃and above all; accept no attentions
from any man without telling everything to papa and mamma。〃
These words; so earnest in their practical meaning; uttered in the
hour of death; had more effect upon Modeste than if Bettina had
exacted a solemn oath。 The dying girl; farseeing as prophet; drew from
beneath her pillow a ring which she had sent by her faithful maid;
Francoise Cochet; to be engraved in Havre with these words; 〃Think of
Bettina; 1827;〃 and placed it on her sister's finger; begging her to
keep it there until she married。 Thus there had been between these two
young girls a strange commingling of bitter remorse and the artless
visions of a fleeting spring…time too early blighted by the keen north
wind of desertion; yet all their tears; regrets and memories were
always subordinate to their horror of evil。
Nevertheless; this drama of a poor seduced sister returning to die
under a roof of elegant poverty; the failure of her father; the
baseness of her betrothed; the blindness of her mother caused by
grief; had touched the surface only of Modeste's life; by which alone
the Dumays and the Latournelles judged her; for no devotion of friends
can take the place of a mother's eye。 The monotonous life in the
dainty little Chalet; surrounded by the choice flowers which Dumay
cultivated; the family customs; as regular as clock…work; the
provincial decorum; the games at whist while the mother knitted and
the daughter sewed; the silence; broken only by the roar of the sea in
the equinoctial storms;all this monastic tranquillity did in fact
hide an inner and tumultuous life; the life of ideas; the life of the
spiritual being。 We sometimes wonder how it is possible for young
girls to do wrong; but such as do so have no blind mother to send her
plummet line of intuition to the depths of the subterranean fancies of
a virgin heart。 The Dumays slept when Modeste opened her window; as it
were to watch for the passing of a man;the man of her dreams; the
expected knight who was to mount her behind him and ride away under
the fire of Dumay's pistols。
During the depression caused by her sister's death Modeste flung
herself into the practice of reading; until her mind became sodden in
it。 Born to the use of two languages; she could speak and read German
quite as well as French; she had also; together with her sister;
learned English from Madame Dumay。 Being very little overlooked in the
matter of reading by the people about her; who had no literary
knowledge; Modeste fed her soul on the modern masterpieces of three
literatures; English; French; and German。 Lord Byron; Goethe;
Schiller; Walter Scott; Hugo; Lamartine; Crabbe; Moore; the great
works of the 17th and 18th centuries; history; drama; and fiction;
from Astraea to Manon Lescaut; from Montaigne's Essays to Diderot;
from the Fabliaux to the Nouvelle Heloise;in short; the thought of
three lands crowded with confused images that girlish head; august in
its cold guilelessness; its native chastity; but from which there
sprang full…armed; brilliant; sincere; and strong; an overwhelming
admiration for genius。 To Modeste a new book was an event; a
masterpiece that would have horrified Madame Latournelle made her
happy;equally unhappy if the great work did not play havoc with her
heart。 A lyric instinct bubbled in that girlish soul; so full of the
beautiful illusions of its youth。 But of this radiant existence not a
gleam reached the surface of daily life; it escaped the ken of Dumay
and his wife and the Latournelles; the ears of the blind mother alone
caught the crackling of its flame。
The profound disdain which Modeste now conceived for ordinary men gave
to her face a look of pride; an inexpressible untamed shyness; which
tempered her Teutonic simplicity; and accorded well with a peculiarity
of her head。 The hair growing in a point above the forehead seemed the
continuation of a slight line which thought had already furrowed
between the eyebrows; and made the expression of untameability perhaps
a shade too strong。 The voice of this charming child; whom her father;
delighting in her wit; was wont to call his 〃little proverb of
Solomon;〃 had acquired a precious flexibility of organ through the
practice of three languages。 This advantage was still further enhanced
by a natural bell…like tone both sweet and fresh; which touched the
heart as delightfully as it did the ear。 If the mother could no longer
see the signs of a noble destiny upon her daughter's brow; she could
study the transitions of her soul's development in the accents of that
voice attuned to love。
CHAPTER VI
A MAIDEN'S FIRST ROMANCE
To this period of Modeste's eager rage for reading succeeded the
exercise of a strange faculty given to vigorous imaginations;the
power; namely; of making herself an actor in a dream…existence; of
representing to her own mind the things desired; with so vivid a
conception that they seemed actually to attain reality; in short; to
enjoy by thought;to live out her years within her mind; to marry; to
grow old; to attend her own funeral like Charles V。; to play within
herself the comedy of life and; if need be; that of death。 Modeste was
indeed playing; but all alone; the comedy of Love。 She fancied herself
adored to the summit of her wishes in many an imagined phase of social
life。 Sometimes as the heroine of a dark r