第 10 节
作者:冥王      更新:2021-02-18 23:11      字数:9322
  imagination; she heard them spoken more than once by the young men and
  the young women of Havre as they walked to Ingouville; and; knowing
  that Madame Mignon and her daughter lived at the Chalet; talked of
  them as they passed the house。 Friends of the Vilquins expressed
  surprise that the mother and daughter were willing to live on among
  the scenes of their former splendor。 From her open window behind the
  closed blinds Modeste sometimes heard such insolence as this:
  〃I am sure I can't think how they can live there;〃 some one would say
  as he paced the villa lawn;perhaps to assist Vilquin in getting rid
  of his tenant。
  〃What do you suppose they live on? they haven't any means of earning
  money。〃
  〃I am told the old woman has gone blind。〃
  〃Is Mademoiselle Mignon still pretty? Dear me; how dashing she used to
  be! Well; she hasn't any horses now。〃
  Most young girls on hearing these spiteful and silly speeches; born of
  an envy that now rushed; peevish and drivelling; to avenge the past;
  would have felt the blood mount to their foreheads; others would have
  wept; some would have undergone spasms of anger; but Modeste smiled;
  as we smile at the theatre while watching the actors。 Her pride could
  not descend so low as the level of such speeches。
  The other event was more serious than these mercenary meannesses。
  Bettina Caroline died in the arms of her younger sister; who had
  nursed her with the devotion of girlhood; and the curiosity of an
  untainted imagination。 In the silence of long nights the sisters
  exchanged many a confidence。 With what dramatic interest was poor
  Bettina invested in the eyes of the innocent Modeste? Bettina knew
  love through sorrow only; and she was dying of it。 Among young girls
  every man; scoundrel though he be; is still a lover。 Passion is the
  one thing absolutely real in the things of life; and it insists on its
  supremacy。 Charles d'Estourny; gambler; criminal; and debauchee;
  remained in the memory of the sisters; the elegant Parisian of the
  fetes of Havre; the admired of the womenkind。 Bettina believed she had
  carried him off from the coquettish Madame Vilquin; and to Modeste he
  was her sister's happy lover。 Such adoration in young girls is
  stronger than all social condemnations。 To Bettina's thinking; justice
  had been deceived; if not; how could it have sentenced a man who had
  loved her for six months?loved her to distraction in the hidden
  retreat to which he had taken her;that he might; we may add; be at
  liberty to go his own way。 Thus the dying girl inoculated her sister
  with love。 Together they talked of the great drama which imagination
  enhances; and Bettina carried with her to the grave her sister's
  ignorance; leaving her; if not informed; at least thirsting for
  information。
  Nevertheless; remorse had set its fangs too sharply in Bettina's heart
  not to force her to warn her sister。 In the midst of her own
  confessions she had preached duty and implicit obedience to Modeste。
  On the evening of her death she implored her to remember the tears
  that soaked her pillow; and not to imitate a conduct which even
  suffering could not expiate。 Bettina accused herself of bringing a
  curse upon the family; and died in despair at being unable to obtain
  her father's pardon。 Notwithstanding the consolations which the
  ministers of religion; touched by her repentance; freely gave her; she
  cried in heartrending tones with her latest breath: 〃Oh father!
  father!〃 〃Never give your heart without your hand;〃 she said to
  Modeste an hour before she died; 〃and above all; accept no attentions
  from any man without telling everything to papa and mamma。〃
  These words; so earnest in their practical meaning; uttered in the
  hour of death; had more effect upon Modeste than if Bettina had
  exacted a solemn oath。 The dying girl; farseeing as prophet; drew from
  beneath her pillow a ring which she had sent by her faithful maid;
  Francoise Cochet; to be engraved in Havre with these words; 〃Think of
  Bettina; 1827;〃 and placed it on her sister's finger; begging her to
  keep it there until she married。 Thus there had been between these two
  young girls a strange commingling of bitter remorse and the artless
  visions of a fleeting spring…time too early blighted by the keen north
  wind of desertion; yet all their tears; regrets and memories were
  always subordinate to their horror of evil。
  Nevertheless; this drama of a poor seduced sister returning to die
  under a roof of elegant poverty; the failure of her father; the
  baseness of her betrothed; the blindness of her mother caused by
  grief; had touched the surface only of Modeste's life; by which alone
  the Dumays and the Latournelles judged her; for no devotion of friends
  can take the place of a mother's eye。 The monotonous life in the
  dainty little Chalet; surrounded by the choice flowers which Dumay
  cultivated; the family customs; as regular as clock…work; the
  provincial decorum; the games at whist while the mother knitted and
  the daughter sewed; the silence; broken only by the roar of the sea in
  the equinoctial storms;all this monastic tranquillity did in fact
  hide an inner and tumultuous life; the life of ideas; the life of the
  spiritual being。 We sometimes wonder how it is possible for young
  girls to do wrong; but such as do so have no blind mother to send her
  plummet line of intuition to the depths of the subterranean fancies of
  a virgin heart。 The Dumays slept when Modeste opened her window; as it
  were to watch for the passing of a man;the man of her dreams; the
  expected knight who was to mount her behind him and ride away under
  the fire of Dumay's pistols。
  During the depression caused by her sister's death Modeste flung
  herself into the practice of reading; until her mind became sodden in
  it。 Born to the use of two languages; she could speak and read German
  quite as well as French; she had also; together with her sister;
  learned English from Madame Dumay。 Being very little overlooked in the
  matter of reading by the people about her; who had no literary
  knowledge; Modeste fed her soul on the modern masterpieces of three
  literatures; English; French; and German。 Lord Byron; Goethe;
  Schiller; Walter Scott; Hugo; Lamartine; Crabbe; Moore; the great
  works of the 17th and 18th centuries; history; drama; and fiction;
  from Astraea to Manon Lescaut; from Montaigne's Essays to Diderot;
  from the Fabliaux to the Nouvelle Heloise;in short; the thought of
  three lands crowded with confused images that girlish head; august in
  its cold guilelessness; its native chastity; but from which there
  sprang full…armed; brilliant; sincere; and strong; an overwhelming
  admiration for genius。 To Modeste a new book was an event; a
  masterpiece that would have horrified Madame Latournelle made her
  happy;equally unhappy if the great work did not play havoc with her
  heart。 A lyric instinct bubbled in that girlish soul; so full of the
  beautiful illusions of its youth。 But of this radiant existence not a
  gleam reached the surface of daily life; it escaped the ken of Dumay
  and his wife and the Latournelles; the ears of the blind mother alone
  caught the crackling of its flame。
  The profound disdain which Modeste now conceived for ordinary men gave
  to her face a look of pride; an inexpressible untamed shyness; which
  tempered her Teutonic simplicity; and accorded well with a peculiarity
  of her head。 The hair growing in a point above the forehead seemed the
  continuation of a slight line which thought had already furrowed
  between the eyebrows; and made the expression of untameability perhaps
  a shade too strong。 The voice of this charming child; whom her father;
  delighting in her wit; was wont to call his 〃little proverb of
  Solomon;〃 had acquired a precious flexibility of organ through the
  practice of three languages。 This advantage was still further enhanced
  by a natural bell…like tone both sweet and fresh; which touched the
  heart as delightfully as it did the ear。 If the mother could no longer
  see the signs of a noble destiny upon her daughter's brow; she could
  study the transitions of her soul's development in the accents of that
  voice attuned to love。
  CHAPTER VI
  A MAIDEN'S FIRST ROMANCE
  To this period of Modeste's eager rage for reading succeeded the
  exercise of a strange faculty given to vigorous imaginations;the
  power; namely; of making herself an actor in a dream…existence; of
  representing to her own mind the things desired; with so vivid a
  conception that they seemed actually to attain reality; in short; to
  enjoy by thought;to live out her years within her mind; to marry; to
  grow old; to attend her own funeral like Charles V。; to play within
  herself the comedy of life and; if need be; that of death。 Modeste was
  indeed playing; but all alone; the comedy of Love。 She fancied herself
  adored to the summit of her wishes in many an imagined phase of social
  life。 Sometimes as the heroine of a dark r