第 77 节
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hurl me down into the dwellings of Fiends; and flames; and
Furies; and everlasting torments! And 'tis you; who will accuse
me! 'Tis you; who will cause my eternal anguish! You; wretched
Girl! You! You!'
As He thundered out these words; He violently grasped Antonia's
arm; and spurned the earth with delirious fury。
Supposing his brain to be turned; Antonia sank in terror upon her
knees: She lifted up her hands; and her voice almost died away;
ere She could give it utterance。
'Spare me! Spare me!' She murmured with difficulty。
'Silence!' cried the Friar madly; and dashed her upon the
ground
He quitted her; and paced the dungeon with a wild and disordered
air。 His eyes rolled fearfully: Antonia trembled whenever She
met their gaze。 He seemed to meditate on something horrible; and
She gave up all hopes of escaping from the Sepulchre with life。
Yet in harbouring this idea; She did him injustice。 Amidst the
horror and disgust to which his soul was a prey; pity for his
Victim still held a place in it。 The storm of passion once over;
He would have given worlds had He possest them; to have restored
to her that innocence of which his unbridled lust had deprived
her。 Of the desires which had urged him to the crime; no trace
was left in his bosom: The wealth of India would not have
tempted him to a second enjoyment of her person。 His nature
seemed to revolt at the very idea; and fain would He have wiped
from his memory the scene which had just past。 As his gloomy
rage abated; in proportion did his compassion augment for
Antonia。 He stopped; and would have spoken to her words of
comfort; But He knew not from whence to draw them; and remained
gazing upon her with mournful wildness。 Her situation seemed so
hopeless; so woebegone; as to baffle mortal power to relieve
her。 What could He do for her? Her peace of mind was lost; her
honour irreparably ruined。 She was cut off for ever from
society; nor dared He give her back to it。 He was conscious
that were She to appear in the world again; his guilt would be
revealed; and his punishment inevitable。 To one so laden with
crimes; Death came armed with double terrors。 Yet should He
restore Antonia to light; and stand the chance of her betraying
him; how miserable a prospect would present itself before her。
She could never hope to be creditably established; She would be
marked with infamy; and condemned to sorrow and solitude for the
remainder of her existence。 What was the alternative? A
resolution far more terrible for Antonia; but which at least
would insure the Abbot's safety。 He determined to leave the
world persuaded of her death; and to retain her a captive in this
gloomy prison: There He proposed to visit her every night; to
bring her food; to profess his penitence; and mingle his tears
with hers。 The Monk felt that this resolution was unjust and
cruel; but it was his only means to prevent Antonia from
publishing his guilt and her own infamy。 Should He release her;
He could not depend upon her silence: His offence was too
flagrant to permit his hoping for her forgiveness。 Besides; her
reappearing would excite universal curiosity; and the violence
of her affliction would prevent her from concealing its cause。
He determined therefore; that Antonia should remain a Prisoner in
the dungeon。
He approached her with confusion painted on his countenance。 He
raised her from the ground。 Her hand trembled; as He took it;
and He dropped it again as if He had touched a Serpent。 Nature
seemed to recoil at the touch。 He felt himself at once repulsed
from and attracted towards her; yet could account for neither
sentiment。 There was something in her look which penetrated him
with horror; and though his understanding was still ignorant of
it; Conscience pointed out to him the whole extent of his crime。
In hurried accents yet the gentlest He could find; while his eye
was averted; and his voice scarcely audible; He strove to console
her under a misfortune which now could not be avoided。 He
declared himself sincerely penitent; and that He would gladly
shed a drop of his blood; for every tear which his barbarity had
forced from her。 Wretched and hopeless; Antonia listened to him
in silent grief: But when He announced her confinement in the
Sepulchre; that dreadful doom to which even death seemed
preferable roused her from her insensibility at once。 To linger
out a life of misery in a narrow loathsome Cell; known to exist
by no human Being save her Ravisher; surrounded by mouldering
Corses; breathing the pestilential air of corruption; never more
to behold the light; or drink the pure gale of heaven; the idea
was more terrible than She could support。 It conquered even her
abhorrence of the Friar。 Again She sank upon her knees: She
besought his compassion in terms the most pathetic and urgent。
She promised; would He but restore her to liberty; to conceal her
injuries from the world; to assign any reason for her
reappearance which He might judge proper; and in order to
prevent the least suspicion from falling upon him; She offered to
quit Madrid immediately。 Her entreaties were so urgent as to
make a considerable impression upon the Monk。 He reflected that
as her person no longer excited his desires; He had no interest
in keeping her concealed as He had at first intended; that He was
adding a fresh injury to those which She had already suffered;
and that if She adhered to her promises; whether She was confined
or at liberty; his life and reputation were equally secure。 On
the other hand; He trembled lest in her affliction Antonia should
unintentionally break her engagement; or that her excessive
simplicity and ignorance of deceit should permit some one more
artful to surprize her secret。 However well…founded were these
apprehensions; compassion; and a sincere wish to repair his fault
as much as possible solicited his complying with the prayers of
his Suppliant。 The difficulty of colouring Antonia's unexpected
return to life; after her supposed death and public interment;
was the only point which kept him irresolute。 He was still
pondering on the means of removing this obstacle; when He heard
the sound of feet approaching with precipitation。 The door of
the Vault was thrown open; and Matilda rushed in; evidently much
confused and terrified。
On seeing a Stranger enter; Antonia uttered a cry of joy: But
her hopes of receiving succour from him were soon dissipated。
The supposed Novice; without expressing the least surprize at
finding a Woman alone with the Monk; in so strange a place; and
at so late an hour; addressed him thus without losing a moment。
'What is to be done; Ambrosio? We are lost; unless some speedy
means is found of dispelling the Rioters。 Ambrosio; the Convent
of St。 Clare is on fire; The Prioress has fallen a victim to the
fury of the Mob。 Already is the Abbey menaced with a similar
fate。 Alarmed at the threats of the People; the Monks seek for
you everywhere。 They imagine that your authority alone will
suffice to calm this disturbance。 No one knows what is become
of you; and your absence creates universal astonishment and
despair。 I profited by the confusion; and fled hither to warn
you of the danger。'
'This will soon be remedied;' answered the Abbot; 'I will hasten
back to my Cell: a trivial reason will account for my having
been missed。'
'Impossible!' rejoined Matilda: 'The Sepulchre is filled with
Archers。 Lorenzo de Medina; with several Officers of the
Inquisition; searches through the Vaults; and pervades every
passage。 You will be intercepted in your flight; Your reasons
for being at this late hour in the Sepulchre will be examined;
Antonia will be found; and then you are undone for ever!'
'Lorenzo de Medina? Officers of the Inquisition? What brings
them here? Seek they for me? Am I then suspected? Oh! speak;
Matilda! Answer me; in pity!'
'As yet they do not think of you; but I fear that they will ere
long。 Your only chance of escaping their notice rests upon the
difficulty of exploring this Vault。 The door is artfully hidden:
Haply it may not be observed; and we may remain concealed till
the search is over。'
'But Antonia 。 。 。 。 。 Should the Inquisitors draw near; and her
cries be heard 。 。 。 。'
'Thus I remove that danger!' interrupted Matilda。
At the same time drawing a poignard; She rushed upon her devoted
prey。
'Hold! Hold!' cried Ambrosio; seizing her hand; and wresting from
it the already lifted weapon。 'What would you do; cruel Woman?
The Unfortunate has already suffered but too much; thanks to your
pernicious consels! Would to God that I had never followed them!
Would to God that I had never seen your face!'
Matilda darted upon him a look of scorn。
'Absurd!' She exclaimed with an air of passion and majesty which
impressed the Monk with awe。 'After robbing her of all that made
it dear; can you fear to deprive her of a life so miserable? But
'tis well! Let her live to convince you of your folly。 I
abandon you to your evil destiny! I disclaim your alliance! Who
trembles to commit so insignificant a crime; deserves not my
protection。 Ha