第 53 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:40      字数:9321
  History; with which you are still unacquainted。  Listen; and do
  not interrupt me:  Should my confession disgust you; remember
  that in making it my sole aim is to satisfy your wishes; and
  restore that peace to your heart which at present has abandoned
  it。  I formerly mentioned that my Guardian was a Man of uncommon
  knowledge:  He took pains to instil that knowledge into my infant
  mind。  Among the various sciences which curiosity had induced him
  to explore; He neglected not that which by most is esteemed
  impious; and by many chimerical。  I speak of those arts which
  relate to the world of Spirits。  His deep researches into causes
  and effects; his unwearied application to the study of natural
  philosophy; his profound and unlimited knowledge of the
  properties and virtues of every gem which enriches the deep; of
  every herb which the earth produces; at length procured him the
  distinction which He had sought so long; so earnestly。  His
  curiosity was fully slaked; his ambition amply gratified。  He
  gave laws to the elements; He could reverse the order of nature;
  His eye read the mandates of futurity; and the infernal Spirits
  were submissive to his commands。  Why shrink you from me?  I
  understand that enquiring look。  Your suspicions are right;
  though your terrors are unfounded。  My Guardian concealed not
  from me his most precious acquisition。  Yet had I never seen YOU;
  I should never have exerted my power。  Like you I shuddered at
  the thoughts of Magic:  Like you I had formed a terrible idea of
  the consequences of raising a daemon。  To preserve that life
  which your love had taught me to prize; I had recourse to means
  which I trembled at employing。  You remember that night which I
  past in St。 Clare's Sepulchre?  Then was it that; surrounded by
  mouldering bodies; I dared to perform those mystic rites which
  summoned to my aid a fallen Angel。  Judge what must have been my
  joy at discovering that my terrors were imaginary:  I saw the
  Daemon obedient to my orders; I saw him trembling at my frown;
  and found that; instead of selling my soul to a Master; my
  courage had purchased for myself a Slave。'
  'Rash Matilda!  What have you done?  You have doomed yourself to
  endless perdition; You have bartered for momentary power eternal
  happiness!  If on witchcraft depends the fruition of my desires;
  I renounce your aid most absolutely。  The consequences are too
  horrible:  I doat upon Antonia; but am not so blinded by lust as
  to sacrifice for her enjoyment my existence both in this world
  and the next。'
  'Ridiculous prejudices!  Oh! blush; Ambrosio; blush at being
  subjected to their dominion。  Where is the risque of accepting my
  offers?  What should induce my persuading you to this step;
  except the wish of restoring you to happiness and quiet。  If
  there is danger; it must fall upon me:  It is I who invoke the
  ministry of the Spirits; Mine therefore will be the crime; and
  yours the profit。  But danger there is none:  The Enemy of
  Mankind is my Slave; not my Sovereign。  Is there no difference
  between giving and receiving laws; between serving and
  commanding?  Awake from your idle dreams; Ambrosio! Throw from
  you these terrors so ill…suited to a soul like yours; Leave them
  for common Men; and dare to be happy!  Accompany me this night to
  St。 Clare's Sepulchre; witness my incantations; and Antonia is
  your own。'
  'To obtain her by such means I neither can; or will。  Cease then
  to persuade me; for I dare not employ Hell's agency。
  'You DARE not?  How have you deceived me!  That mind which I
  esteemed so great and valiant; proves to be feeble; puerile; and
  grovelling; a slave to vulgar errors; and weaker than a Woman's。'
  'What?  Though conscious of the danger; wilfully shall I expose
  myself to the Seducer's arts?  Shall I renounce for ever my title
  to salvation?  Shall my eyes seek a sight which I know will
  blast them?  No; no; Matilda; I will not ally myself with God's
  Enemy。'
  'Are you then God's Friend at present?  Have you not broken your
  engagements with him; renounced his service; and abandoned
  yourself to the impulse of your passions?  Are you not planning
  the destruction of innocence; the ruin of a Creature whom He
  formed in the mould of Angels?  If not of Daemons; whose aid
  would you invoke to forward this laudable design?  Will the
  Seraphims protect it; conduct Antonia to your arms; and sanction
  with their ministry your illicit pleasures?  Absurd!  But I am
  not deceived; Ambrosio!  It is not virtue which makes you reject
  my offer:  You WOULD accept it; but you dare not。  'Tis not the
  crime which holds your hand; but the punishment; 'Tis not respect
  for God which restrains you; but the terror of his vengeance!
  Fain would you offend him in secret; but you tremble to profess
  yourself his Foe。  Now shame on the coward soul; which wants the
  courage either to be a firm Friend or open Enemy!'
  'To look upon guilt with horror; Matilda; is in itself a merit:
  In this respect I glory to confess myself a Coward。  Though my
  passions have made me deviate from her laws; I still feel in my
  heart an innate love of virtue。  But it ill becomes you to tax me
  with my perjury:  You; who first seduced me to violate my vows;
  You; who first rouzed my sleeping vices; made me feel the weight
  of Religion's chains; and bad me be convinced that guilt had
  pleasures。  Yet though my principles have yielded to the force of
  temperament; I still have sufficient grace to shudder at Sorcery;
  and avoid a crime so monstrous; so unpardonable!'
  'Unpardonable; say you?  Where then is your constant boast of the
  Almighty's infinite mercy?  Has He of late set bounds to it?
  Receives He no longer a Sinner with joy?  You injure him;
  Ambrosio; You will always have time to repent; and He have
  goodness to forgive。  Afford him a glorious opportunity to exert
  that goodness:  The greater your crime; the greater his merit in
  pardoning。  Away then with these childish scruples:  Be persuaded
  to your good; and follow me to the Sepulchre。'
  'Oh! cease; Matilda!  That scoffing tone; that bold and impious
  language; is horrible in every mouth; but most so in a Woman's。
  Let us drop a conversation which excites no other sentiments
  than horror and disgust。  I will not follow you to the Sepulchre;
  or accept the services of your infernal Agents。  Antonia shall be
  mine; but mine by human means。'
  'Then yours She will never be!  You are banished her presence;
  Her Mother has opened her eyes to your designs; and She is now
  upon her guard against them。  Nay more; She loves another。  A
  Youth of distinguished merit possesses her heart; and unless you
  interfere; a few days will make her his Bride。  This intelligence
  was brought me by my invisible Servants; to whom I had recourse
  on first perceiving your indifference。  They watched your every
  action; related to me all that past at Elvira's; and inspired me
  with the idea of favouring your designs。  Their reports have been
  my only comfort。  Though you shunned my presence; all your
  proceedings were known to me:  Nay; I was constantly with you in
  some degree; thanks to this precious gift!'
  With these words She drew from beneath her habit a mirror of
  polished steel; the borders of which were marked with various
  strange and unknown characters。
  'Amidst all my sorrows; amidst all my regrets for your coldness;
  I was sustained from despair by the virtues of this Talisman。  On
  pronouncing certain words; the Person appears in it on whom the
  Observer's thoughts are bent: thus though _I_ was exiled from
  YOUR sight; you; Ambrosio; were ever present to mine。'
  The Friar's curiosity was excited strongly。
  'What you relate is incredible!  Matilda; are you not amusing
  yourself with my credulity?'
  'Be your own eyes the Judge。'
  She put the Mirror into his hand。  Curiosity induced him to take
  it; and Love; to wish that Antonia might appear。  Matilda
  pronounced the magic words。  Immediately; a thick smoke rose from
  the characters traced upon the borders; and spread itself over
  the surface。  It dispersed again gradually; A confused mixture of
  colours and images presented themselves to the Friar's eyes;
  which at length arranging themselves in their proper places; He
  beheld in miniature Antonia's lovely form。
  The scene was a small closet belonging to her apartment。  She was
  undressing to bathe herself。  The long tresses of her hair were
  already bound up。  The amorous Monk had full opportunity to
  observe the voluptuous contours and admirable symmetry of her
  person。  She threw off her last garment; and advancing to the
  Bath prepared for her; She put her foot into the water。  It
  struck cold; and She drew it back again。  Though unconscious of
  being observed; an inbred sense of modesty induced her to veil
  her charms; and She stood hesitating upon the brink; in the
  attitude of the Venus de Medicis。 At this moment a tame Linnet
  flew towards her; nestled its head between her breasts; and
  nibbled them in wanton play。  The smiling Antonia strove in vain
  to shake off the Bird; and at length raised her hands to drive it
  from its delightful harbour。  Ambrosio could bear no more:  His
  desires were worked up to phrenzy。
  'I yield!' He cried; dashing the