第 52 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:40      字数:9322
  truly and tenderly!'
  'Indeed; I do:  Let my Mother be excepted; and the world holds no
  one more dear to me!'
  At this frank avowal Ambrosio no longer possessed himself; Wild
  with desire; He clasped the blushing Trembler in his arms。  He
  fastened his lips greedily upon hers; sucked in her pure
  delicious breath; violated with his bold hand the treasures of
  her bosom; and wound around him her soft and yielding limbs。
  Startled; alarmed; and confused at his action; surprize at first
  deprived her of the power of resistance。  At length recovering
  herself; She strove to escape from his embrace。
  'Father!  。 。 。 。  Ambrosio!' She cried; 'Release me; for God's
  sake!'
  But the licentious Monk heeded not her prayers:  He persisted in
  his design; and proceeded to take still greater liberties。
  Antonia prayed; wept; and struggled:  Terrified to the extreme;
  though at what She knew not; She exerted all her strength to
  repulse the Friar; and was on the point of shrieking for
  assistance when the chamber door was suddenly thrown open。
  Ambrosio had just sufficient presence of mind to be sensible of
  his danger。  Reluctantly He quitted his prey; and started hastily
  from the Couch。  Antonia uttered an exclamation of joy; flew
  towards the door; and found herself clasped in the arms of her
  Mother。
  Alarmed at some of the Abbot's speeches; which Antonia had
  innocently repeated; Elvira resolved to ascertain the truth of
  her suspicions。  She had known enough of Mankind not to be
  imposed upon by the Monk's reputed virtue。  She reflected on
  several circumstances; which though trifling; on being put
  together seemed to authorize her fears。  His frequent visits;
  which as far as She could see; were confined to her family; His
  evident emotion; whenever She spoke of Antonia; His being in the
  full prime and heat of Manhood; and above all; his pernicious
  philosophy communicated to her by Antonia; and which accorded but
  ill with his conversation in her presence; all these
  circumstances inspired her with doubts respecting the purity of
  Ambrosio's friendship。  In consequence; She resolved; when He
  should next be alone with Antonia; to endeavour at surprizing
  him。  Her plan had succeeded。  'Tis true; that when She entered
  the room; He had already abandoned his prey; But the disorder of
  her Daughter's dress; and the shame and confusion stamped upon
  the Friar's countenance; sufficed to prove that her suspicions
  were but too well…founded。  However; She was too prudent to make
  those suspicions known。  She judged that to unmask the Imposter
  would be no easy matter; the public being so much prejudiced in
  his favour: and having but few Friends; She thought it dangerous
  to make herself so powerful an Enemy。  She affected therefore not
  to remark his agitation; seated herself tranquilly upon the
  Sopha; assigned some trifling reason for having quitted her room
  unexpectedly; and conversed on various subjects with seeming
  confidence and ease。
  Reassured by her behaviour; the Monk began to recover himself。
  He strove to answer Elvira without appearing embarrassed:  But He
  was still too great a novice in dissimulation; and He felt that
  He must look confused and awkward。  He soon broke off the
  conversation; and rose to depart。  What was his vexation; when on
  taking leave; Elvira told him in polite terms; that being now
  perfectly reestablished; She thought it an injustice to deprive
  Others of his company; who might be more in need of it!  She
  assured him of her eternal gratitude; for the benefit which
  during her illness She had derived from his society and
  exhortations:  And She lamented that her domestic affairs; as
  well as the multitude of business which his situation must of
  necessity impose upon him; would in future deprive her of the
  pleasure of his visits。  Though delivered in the mildest language
  this hint was too plain to be mistaken。  Still; He was preparing
  to put in a remonstrance when an expressive look from Elvira
  stopped him short。  He dared not press her to receive him; for
  her manner convinced him that He was discovered:  He submitted
  without reply; took an hasty leave; and retired to the Abbey; his
  heart filled with rage and shame; with bitterness and
  disappointment。
  Antonia's mind felt relieved by his departure; Yet She could not
  help lamenting that She was never to see him more。  Elvira also
  felt a secret sorrow; She had received too much pleasure from
  thinking him her Friend; not to regret the necessity of changing
  her opinion:  But her mind was too much accustomed to the fallacy
  of worldly friendships to permit her present disappointment to
  weigh upon it long。  She now endeavoured to make her Daughter
  aware of the risque which She had ran:  But She was obliged to
  treat the subject with caution; lest in removing the bandage of
  ignorance; the veil of innocence should be rent away。  She
  therefore contented herself with warning Antonia to be upon her
  guard; and ordering her; should the Abbot persist in his visits;
  never to receive them but in company。  With this injunction
  Antonia promised to comply。
  Ambrosio hastened to his Cell。  He closed the door after him; and
  threw himself upon the bed in despair。 The impulse of desire; the
  stings of disappointment; the shame of detection; and the fear of
  being publicly unmasked; rendered his bosom a scene of the most
  horrible confusion。  He knew not what course to pursue。  Debarred
  the presence of Antonia; He had no hopes of satisfying that
  passion which was now become a part of his existence。  He
  reflected that his secret was in a Woman's power:  He trembled
  with apprehension when He beheld the precipice before him; and
  with rage; when He thought that had it not been for Elvira; He
  should now have possessed the object of his desires。  With the
  direct imprecations He vowed vengeance against her; He swore
  that; cost what it would; He still would possess Antonia。
  Starting from the Bed; He paced the chamber with disordered
  steps; howled with impotent fury; dashed himself violently
  against the walls; and indulged all the transports of rage and
  madness。
  He was still under the influence of this storm of passions when
  He heard a gentle knock at the door of his Cell。  Conscious that
  his voice must have been heard; He dared not refuse admittance to
  the Importuner:  He strove to compose himself; and to hide his
  agitation。  Having in some degree succeeded; He drew back the
  bolt:  The door opened; and Matilda appeared。
  At this precise moment there was no one with whose presence He
  could better have dispensed。  He had not sufficient command over
  himself to conceal his vexation。 He started back; and frowned。
  'I am busy;' said He in a stern and hasty tone; 'Leave me!'
  Matilda heeded him not:  She again fastened the door; and then
  advanced towards him with an air gentle and supplicating。
  'Forgive me; Ambrosio;' said She; 'For your own sake I must not
  obey you。  Fear no complaints from me; I come not to reproach you
  with your ingratitude。  I pardon you from my heart; and since
  your love can no longer be mine; I request the next best gift;
  your confidence and friendship。  We cannot force our
  inclinations; The little beauty which you once saw in me has
  perished with its novelty; and if it can no longer excite desire;
  mine is the fault; not yours。  But why persist in shunning me?
  Why such anxiety to fly my presence?  You have sorrows; but will
  not permit me to share them; You have disappointments; but will
  not accept my comfort; You have wishes; but forbid my aiding your
  pursuits。  'Tis of this which I complain; not of your
  indifference to my person。  I have given up the claims of the
  Mistress; but nothing shall prevail on me to give up those of the
  Friend。'
  Her mildness had an instantaneous effect upon Ambrosio's
  feelings。
  'Generous Matilda!' He replied; taking her hand; 'How far do you
  rise superior to the foibles of your sex!  Yes; I accept your
  offer。  I have need of an adviser; and a Confident:  In you I
  find every needful quality united。  But to aid my pursuits 。 。 。
  。 Ah! Matilda; it lies not in your power!'
  'It lies in no one's power but mine。  Ambrosio; your secret is
  none to me; Your every step; your every action has been observed
  by my attentive eye。  You love。'
  'Matilda!'
  'Why conceal it from me?  Fear not the little jealousy which
  taints the generality of Women:  My soul disdains so despicable a
  passion。  You love; Ambrosio; Antonia Dalfa is the object of your
  flame。  I know every circumstance respecting your passion:  Every
  conversation has been repeated to me。  I have been informed of
  your attempt to enjoy Antonia's person; your disappointment; and
  dismission from Elvira's House。  You now despair of possessing
  your Mistress; But I come to revive your hopes; and point out the
  road to success。'
  'To success?  Oh! impossible!'
  'To them who dare nothing is impossible。  Rely upon me; and you
  may yet be happy。  The time is come; Ambrosio; when regard for
  your comfort and tranquillity compels me to reveal a part of my
  History; with which you are still unacquainted。  Listen; and do
  not interrupt me:  Should my confession disgust you; remember
  that in making it m