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me not till I had compelled her to promise that on the following
night She would be at the same place at the same hour。 These
meetings continued for several Weeks uninterrupted; and 'tis now;
Lorenzo; that I must implore your indulgence。 Reflect upon our
situation; our youth; our long attachment: Weigh all the
circumstances which attended our assignations; and you will
confess the temptation to have been irresistible; you will even
pardon me when I acknowledge; that in an unguarded moment; the
honour of Agnes was sacrificed to my passion。'
(Lorenzo's eyes sparkled with fury: A deep crimson spread itself
over his face。 He started from his seat; and attempted to draw
his sword。 The Marquis was aware of his movement; and caught his
hand: He pressed it affectionately。
'My Friend! My Brother! Hear me to the conclusion! Till then
restrain your passion; and be at least convinced; that if what I
have related is criminal; the blame must fall upon me; and not
upon your Sister。'
Lorenzo suffered himself to be prevailed upon by Don Raymond's
entreaties。 He resumed his place; and listened to the rest of
the narrative with a gloomy and impatient countenance。 The
Marquis thus continued。)
'Scarcely was the first burst of passion past when Agnes;
recovering herself; started from my arms with horror。 She called
me infamous Seducer; loaded me with the bitterest reproaches; and
beat her bosom in all the wildness of delirium。 Ashamed of my
imprudence; I with difficulty found words to excuse myself。 I
endeavoured to console her; I threw myself at her feet; and
entreated her forgiveness。 She forced her hand from me; which I
had taken; and would have prest to my lips。
'Touch me not!' She cried with a violence which terrified me;
'Monster of perfidy and ingratitude; how have I been deceived in
you! I looked upon you as my Friend; my Protector: I trusted
myself in your hands with confidence; and relying upon your
honour; thought that mine ran no risque。 And 'tis by you; whom I
adored; that I am covered with infamy! 'Tis by you that I have
been seduced into breaking my vows to God; that I am reduced to a
level with the basest of my sex! Shame upon you; Villain; you
shall never see me more!'
She started from the Bank on which She was seated。 I endeavoured
to detain her; But She disengaged herself from me with violence;
and took refuge in the Convent。
I retired; filled with confusion and inquietude。 The next
morning I failed not as usual to appear in the Garden; but Agnes
was no where to be seen。 At night I waited for her at the place
where we generally met; I found no better success。 Several days
and nights passed away in the same manner。 At length I saw my
offended Mistress cross the walk on whose borders I was working:
She was accompanied by the same young Pensioner; on whose arm She
seemed from weakness obliged to support herself。 She looked upon
me for a moment; but instantly turned her head away。 I waited
her return; But She passed on to the Convent without paying any
attention to me; or the penitent looks with which I implored her
forgiveness。
As soon as the Nuns were retired; the old Gardener joined me with
a sorrowful air。
'Segnor;' said He; 'it grieves me to say; that I can be no longer
of use to you。 The Lady whom you used to meet has just assured
me that if I admitted you again into the Garden; She would
discover the whole business to the Lady Prioress。 She bade me
tell you also; that your presence was an insult; and that if you
still possess the least respect for her; you will never attempt
to see her more。 Excuse me then for informing you that I can
favour your disguise no longer。 Should the Prioress be
acquainted with my conduct; She might not be contented with
dismissing me her service: Out of revenge She might accuse me of
having profaned the Convent; and cause me to be thrown into the
Prisons of the Inquisition。'
Fruitless were my attempts to conquer his resolution。 He denied
me all future entrance into the Garden; and Agnes persevered in
neither letting me see or hear from her。 In about a fortnight
after; a violent illness which had seized my Father obliged me to
set out for Andalusia。 I hastened thither; and as I imagined;
found the Marquis at the point of death。 Though on its first
appearance his complaint was declared mortal; He lingered out
several Months; during which my attendance upon him during his
malady; and the occupation of settling his affairs after his
decease; permitted not my quitting Andalusia。 Within these four
days I returned to Madrid; and on arriving at my Hotel; I there
found this letter waiting for me。
(Here the Marquis unlocked the drawer of a Cabinet: He took out a
folded paper; which He presented to his Auditor。 Lorenzo opened
it; and recognised his Sister's hand。 The Contents were as
follows。
Into what an abyss of misery have you plunged me! Raymond; you
force me to become as criminal as yourself。 I had resolved never
to see you more; if possible; to forget you; If not; only to
remember you with hate。 A Being for whom I already feel a
Mother's tenderness; solicits me to pardon my Seducer; and apply
to his love for the means of preservation。 Raymond; your child
lives in my bosom。 I tremble at the vengeance of the Prioress; I
tremble much for myself; yet more for the innocent Creature whose
existence depends upon mine。 Both of us are lost; should my
situation be discovered。 Advise me then what steps to take; but
seek not to see me。 The Gardener; who undertakes to deliver
this; is dismissed; and we have nothing to hope from that
quarter: The Man engaged in his place is of incorruptible
fidelity。 The best means of conveying to me your answer; is by
concealing it under the great Statue of St。 Francis; which stands
in the Capuchin Cathedral。 Thither I go every Thursday to
confession; and shall easily have an opportunity of securing your
letter。 I hear that you are now absent from Madrid; Need I
entreat you to write the very moment of your return? I will not
think it。 Ah! Raymond! Mine is a cruel situation! Deceived by
my nearest Relations; compelled to embrace a profession the
duties of which I am ill…calculated to perform; conscious of the
sanctity of those duties; and seduced into violating them by One
whom I least suspected of perfidy; I am now obliged by
circumstances to chuse between death and perjury。 Woman's
timidity; and maternal affection; permit me not to balance in the
choice。 I feel all the guilt into which I plunge myself; when I
yield to the plan which you before proposed to me。 My poor
Father's death which has taken place since we met; has removed
one obstacle。 He sleeps in his grave; and I no longer dread his
anger。 But from the anger of God; Oh! Raymond! who shall shield
me? Who can protect me against my conscience; against myself? I
dare not dwell upon these thoughts; They will drive me mad。 I
have taken my resolution: Procure a dispensation from my vows; I
am ready to fly with you。 Write to me; my Husband! Tell me;
that absence has not abated your love; tell me that you will
rescue from death your unborn Child; and its unhappy Mother。 I
live in all the agonies of terror: Every eye which is fixed upon
me seems to read my secret and my shame。 And you are the cause
of those agonies! Oh! When my heart first loved you; how little
did it suspect you of making it feel such pangs!
Agnes。
Having perused the letter; Lorenzo restored it in silence。 The
Marquis replaced it in the Cabinet; and then proceeded。)
'Excessive was my joy at reading this intelligence so
earnestly…desired; so little expected。 My plan was soon
arranged。 When Don Gaston discovered to me his Daughter's
retreat; I entertained no doubt of her readiness to quit the
Convent: I had; therefore; entrusted the Cardinal…Duke of Lerma
with the whole affair; who immediately busied himself in
obtaining the necessary Bull。 Fortunately I had afterwards
neglected to stop his proceedings。 Not long since I received a
letter from him; stating that He expected daily to receive the
order from the Court of Rome。 Upon this I would willingly have
relyed: But the Cardinal wrote me word; that I must find some
means of conveying Agnes out of the Convent; unknown to the
Prioress。 He doubted not but this Latter would be much incensed
by losing a Person of such high rank from her society; and
consider the renunciation of Agnes as an insult to her House。 He
represented her as a Woman of a violent and revengeful character;
capable of proceeding to the greatest extremities。 It was
therefore to be feared; lest by confining Agnes in the Convent
She should frustrate my hopes; and render the Pope's mandate
unavailing。 Influenced by this consideration; I resolved to
carry off my Mistress; and conceal her till the arrival of the
expected Bull in the Cardinal…Duke's Estate。 He approved of my
design; and profest himself ready to give a shelter to the
Fugitive。 I next caused the new Gardener of St。 Clare to be
seized privately; and confined in my Hotel。 By this means I
became M