第 36 节
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reasons for attempting my life。 I was answered that He was
already able to speak; though with difficulty: Don Gaston's
curiosity made him press me to interrogate the Assassin in his
presence; but this curiosity I was by no means inclined to
gratify。 One reason was; that doubting from whence the blow
came; I was unwilling to place before Don Gaston's eyes the guilt
of a Sister: Another was; that I feared to be recognized for
Alphonso d'Alvarada; and precautions taken in consequence to keep
me from the sight of Agnes。 To avow my passion for his Daughter;
and endeavour to make him enter into my schemes; what I knew of
Don Gaston's character convinced me would be an imprudent step:
and considering it to be essential that He should know me for no
other than the Conde de las Cisternas; I was determined not to
let him hear the Bravo's confession。 I insinuated to him; that
as I suspected a Lady to be concerned in the Business; whose name
might accidentally escape from the Assassin; it was necessary for
me to examine the Man in private。 Don Gaston's delicacy would
not permit his urging the point any longer; and in consequence
the Bravo was conveyed to my Hotel。
The next Morning I took leave of my Host; who was to return to
the Duke on the same day。 My wounds had been so trifling that;
except being obliged to wear my arm in a sling for a short time;
I felt no inconvenience from the night's adventure。 The Surgeon
who examined the Bravo's wound declared it to be mortal: He had
just time to confess that He had been instigated to murder me by
the revengeful Donna Rodolpha; and expired in a few minutes
after。
All my thoughts were now bent upon getting to the speech of my
lovely Nun。 Theodore set himself to work; and for this time with
better success。 He attacked the Gardener of St。 Clare so
forcibly with bribes and promises that the Old Man was entirely
gained over to my interests; and it was settled that I should be
introduced into the Convent in the character of his Assistant。
The plan was put into execution without delay。 Disguised in a
common habit; and a black patch covering one of my eyes; I was
presented to the Lady Prioress; who condescended to approve of
the Gardener's choice。 I immediately entered upon my employment。
Botany having been a favourite study with me; I was by no means
at a loss in my new station。 For some days I continued to work
in the Convent Garden without meeting the Object of my disguise:
On the fourth Morning I was more successful。 I heard the voice
of Agnes; and was speeding towards the sound; when the sight of
the Domina stopped me。 I drew back with caution; and concealed
myself behind a thick clump of Trees。
The Prioress advanced and seated herself with Agnes on a Bench
at no great distance。 I heard her in an angry tone blame her
Companion's continual melancholy: She told her that to weep the
loss of any Lover in her situation was a crime; But that to weep
the loss of a faithless one was folly and absurdity in the
extreme。 Agnes replied in so low a voice that I could not
distinguish her words; but I perceived that She used terms of
gentleness and submission。 The conversation was interrupted by
the arrival of a young Pensioner who informed the Domina that
She was waited for in the Parlour。 The old Lady rose; kissed the
cheek of Agnes; and retired。 The newcomer remained。 Agnes spoke
much to her in praise of somebody whom I could not make out; but
her Auditor seemed highly delighted; and interested by the
conversation。 The Nun showed her several letters; the Other
perused them with evident pleasure; obtained permission to copy
them; and withdrew for that purpose to my great satisfaction。
No sooner was She out of sight; than I quitted my concealment。
Fearing to alarm my lovely Mistress; I drew near her gently;
intending to discover myself by degrees。 But who for a moment
can deceive the eyes of love? She raised her head at my
approach; and recognised me in spite of my disguise at a single
glance。 She rose hastily from her seat with an exclamation of
surprize; and attempted to retire; But I followed her; detained
her; and entreated to be heard。 Persuaded of my falsehood She
refused to listen to me; and ordered me positively to quit the
Garden。 It was now my turn to refuse。 I protested that however
dangerous might be the consequences; I would not leave her till
She had heard my justification。 I assured her that She had been
deceived by the artifices of her Relations; that I could convince
her beyond the power of doubt that my passion had been pure and
disinterested; and I asked her what should induce me to seek her
in the Convent; were I influenced by the selfish motives which my
Enemies had ascribed to me。
My prayers; my arguments; and vows not to quit her; till She had
promised to listen to me; united to her fears lest the Nuns
should see me with her; to her natural curiosity; and to the
effection which She still felt for me in spite of my supposed
desertion; at length prevailed。 She told me that to grant my
request at that moment was impossible; But She engaged to be in
the same spot at eleven that night; and to converse with me for
the last time。 Having obtained this promise I released her hand;
and She fled back with rapidity towards the Convent。
I communicated my success to my Ally; the old Gardener: He
pointed out an hiding place where I might shelter myself till
night without fear of a discovery。 Thither I betook myself at
the hour when I ought to have retired with my supposed Master;
and waited impatiently for the appointed time。 The chillness of
the night was in my favour; since it kept the other Nuns confined
to their Cells。 Agnes alone was insensible of the inclemency of
the Air; and before eleven joined me at the spot which had
witnessed our former interview。 Secure from interruption; I
related to her the true cause of my disappearing on the fatal
fifth of May。 She was evidently much affected by my narrative:
When it was concluded; She confessed the injustice of her
suspicions; and blamed herself for having taken the veil through
despair at my ingratitude。
'But now it is too late to repine!' She added; 'The die is
thrown: I have pronounced my vows; and dedicated myself to the
service of heaven。 I am sensible; how ill I am calculated for a
Convent。 My disgust at a monastic life increases daily: Ennui
and discontent are my constant Companions; and I will not conceal
from you that the passion which I formerly felt for one so near
being my Husband is not yet extinguished in my bosom。 But we
must part! Insuperable Barriers divide us from each other; and
on this side the Grave we must never meet again!'
I now exerted myself to prove that our union was not so
impossible as She seemed to think it。 I vaunted to her the
Cardinal…Duke of Lerma's influence at the Court of Rome: I
assured her that I should easily obtain a dispensation from her
vows; and I doubted not but Don Gaston would coincide with my
views; when informed of my real name and long attachment。 Agnes
replied that since I encouraged such an hope; I could know but
little of her Father。 Liberal and kind in every other respect;
Superstition formed the only stain upon his character。 Upon this
head He was inflexible; He sacrificed his dearest interests to
his scruples; and would consider it an insult to suppose him
capable of authorising his daughter to break her vows to heaven。
'But suppose;' said I interrupting her; 'Suppose that He should
disapprove of our union; Let him remain ignorant of my
proceedings; till I have rescued you from the prison in which
you are now confined。 Once my Wife; you are free from his
authority: I need from him no pecuniary assistance; and when He
sees his resentment to be unavailing; He will doubtless restore
you to his favour。 But let the worst happen; Should Don Gaston
be irreconcileable; my Relations will vie with each other in
making you forget his loss: and you will find in my Father a
substitute for the Parent of whom I shall deprive you。'
'Don Raymond;' replied Agnes in a firm and resolute voice; 'I
love my Father: He has treated me harshly in this one instance;
but I have received from him in every other so many proofs of
love that his affection is become necessary to my existence。
Were I to quit the Convent; He never would forgive me; nor can I
think that on his deathbed He would leave me his curse; without
shuddering at the very idea。 Besides; I am conscious myself;
that my vows are binding: Wilfully did I contract my engagement
with heaven; I cannot break it without a crime。 Then banish from
your mind the idea of our being ever united。 I am devoted to
religion; and however I may grieve at our separation; I would
oppose obstacles myself; to what I feel would render me guilty。'
I strove to overrule these ill…grounded scruples: We were still
disputing upon the subject; when the Convent Bell summoned the
Nuns to Matins。 Agnes was obliged to attend them; But She left
me not till I had compelled her to promise that on the following
night She would be at the same place at the same hour。 These
meetings c