第 16 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:39      字数:9322
  your companion and your Friend。  I concealed my sex from your
  knowledge; and had you not pressed me to reveal my secret; had I
  not been tormented by the fear of a discovery; never had you
  known me for any other than Rosario。  And still are you resolved
  to drive me from you?  The few hours of life which yet remain for
  me; may I not pass them in your presence?  Oh! speak; Ambrosio;
  and tell me that I may stay!'
  This speech gave the Abbot an opportunity of recollecting
  himself。  He was conscious that in the present disposition of his
  mind; avoiding her society was his only refuge from the power of
  this enchanting Woman。
  'You declaration has so much astonished me;' said He; 'that I am
  at present incapable of answering you。  Do not insist upon a
  reply; Matilda; Leave me to myself; I have need to be alone。'
  'I obey youBut before I go; promise not to insist upon my
  quitting the Abbey immediately。'
  'Matilda; reflect upon your situation; Reflect upon the
  consequences of your stay。  Our separation is indispensable; and
  we must part。'
  'But not to…day; Father!  Oh! in pity not today!'
  'You press me too hard; but I cannot resist that tone of
  supplication。  Since you insist upon it; I yield to your prayer:
  I consent to your remaining here a sufficient time to prepare in
  some measure the Brethren for your departure。  Stay yet two days;
  But on the third;' 。 。 。 (He sighed involuntarily)'Remember;
  that on the third we must part for ever!'
  She caught his hand eagerly; and pressed it to her lips。
  'On the third?' She exclaimed with an air of wild solemnity; 'You
  are right; Father!  You are right!  On the third we must part for
  ever!'
  There was a dreadful expression in her eye as She uttered these
  words; which penetrated the Friar's soul with horror:  Again She
  kissed his hand; and then fled with rapidity from the chamber。
  Anxious to authorise the presence of his dangerous Guest; yet
  conscious that her stay was infringing the laws of his order;
  Ambrosio's bosom became the Theatre of a thousand contending
  passions。  At length his attachment to the feigned Rosario; aided
  by the natural warmth of his temperament; seemed likely to obtain
  the victory: The success was assured; when that presumption which
  formed the groundwork of his character came to Matilda's
  assistance。  The Monk reflected that to vanquish temptation was
  an infinitely greater merit than to avoid it:  He thought that
  He ought rather to rejoice in the opportunity given him of
  proving the firmness of his virtue。  St。 Anthony had withstood
  all seductions to lust; Then why should not He?  Besides; St。
  Anthony was tempted by the Devil; who put every art into practice
  to excite his passions:  Whereas; Ambrosio's danger proceeded
  from a mere mortal Woman; fearful and modest; whose apprehensions
  of his yielding were not less violent than his own。
  'Yes;' said He; 'The Unfortunate shall stay; I have nothing to
  fear from her presence。  Even should my own prove too weak to
  resist the temptation; I am secured from danger by the innocence
  of Matilda。'
  Ambrosio was yet to learn; that to an heart unacquainted with
  her; Vice is ever most dangerous when lurking behind the Mask of
  Virtue。
  He found himself so perfectly recovered; that when Father Pablos
  visited him again at night; He entreated permission to quit his
  chamber on the day following。 His request was granted。  Matilda
  appeared no more that evening; except in company with the Monks
  when they came in a body to enquire after the Abbot's health。
  She seemed fearful of conversing with him in private; and stayed
  but a few minutes in his room。  The Friar slept well; But the
  dreams of the former night were repeated; and his sensations of
  voluptuousness were yet more keen and exquisite。  The same
  lust…exciting visions floated before his eyes:  Matilda; in all
  the pomp of beauty; warm; tender; and luxurious; clasped him to
  her bosom; and lavished upon him the most ardent caresses。  He
  returned them as eagerly; and already was on the point of
  satisfying his desires; when the faithless form disappeared; and
  left him to all the horrors of shame and disappointment。
  The Morning dawned。  Fatigued; harassed; and exhausted by his
  provoking dreams; He was not disposed to quit his Bed。  He
  excused himself from appearing at Matins:  It was the first
  morning in his life that He had ever missed them。  He rose late。
  During the whole of the day He had no opportunity of speaking to
  Matilda without witnesses。  His Cell was thronged by the Monks;
  anxious to express their concern at his illness; And He was still
  occupied in receiving their compliments on his recovery; when the
  Bell summoned them to the Refectory。
  After dinner the Monks separated; and dispersed themselves in
  various parts of the Garden; where the shade of trees or
  retirement of some Grotto presented the most agreeable means of
  enjoying the Siesta。  The Abbot bent his steps towards the
  Hermitage:  A glance of his eye invited Matilda to accompany him。
  She obeyed; and followed him thither in silence。  They entered
  the Grotto; and seated themselves。  Both seemed unwilling to
  begin the conversation; and to labour under the influence of
  mutual embarrassment。  At length the Abbot spoke:  He conversed
  only on indifferent topics; and Matilda answered him in the same
  tone。  She seemed anxious to make him forget that the Person who
  sat by him was any other than Rosario。  Neither of them dared; or
  indeed wished to make an allusion; to the subject which was most
  at the hearts of both。
  Matilda's efforts to appear gay were evidently forced: Her
  spirits were oppressed by the weight of anxiety; and when She
  spoke her voice was low and feeble。  She seemed desirous of
  finishing a conversation which embarrassed her; and complaining
  that She was unwell; She requested Ambrosio's permission to
  return to the Abbey。  He accompanied her to the door of her cell;
  and when arrived there; He stopped her to declare his consent to
  her continuing the Partner of his solitude so long as should be
  agreeable to herself。
  She discovered no marks of pleasure at receiving this
  intelligence; though on the preceding day She had been so anxious
  to obtain the permission。
  'Alas! Father;' She said; waving her head mournfully; 'Your
  kindness comes too late!  My doom is fixed。  We must separate for
  ever。  Yet believe; that I am grateful for your generosity; for
  your compassion of an Unfortunate who is but too little deserving
  of it!'
  She put her handkerchief to her eyes。  Her Cowl was only half
  drawn over her face。  Ambrosio observed that She was pale; and
  her eyes sunk and heavy。
  'Good God!' He cried; 'You are very ill; Matilda! I shall send
  Father Pablos to you instantly。'
  'No; Do not。  I am ill; 'tis true; But He cannot cure my malady。
  Farewell; Father!  Remember me in your prayers tomorrow; while I
  shall remember you in heaven!'
  She entered her cell; and closed the door。
  The Abbot dispatched to her the Physician without losing a
  moment; and waited his report impatiently。  But Father Pablos
  soon returned; and declared that his errand had been fruitless。
  Rosario refused to admit him; and had positively rejected his
  offers of assistance。  The uneasiness which this account gave
  Ambrosio was not trifling:  Yet He determined that Matilda should
  have her own way for that night:  But that if her situation did
  not mend by the morning; he would insist upon her taking the
  advice of Father Pablos。
  He did not find himself inclined to sleep。  He opened his
  casement; and gazed upon the moonbeams as they played upon the
  small stream whose waters bathed the walls of the Monastery。  The
  coolness of the night breeze and tranquillity of the hour
  inspired the Friar's mind with sadness。  He thought upon
  Matilda's beauty and affection; Upon the pleasures which He might
  have shared with her; had He not been restrained by monastic
  fetters。  He reflected; that unsustained by hope her love for him
  could not long exist; That doubtless She would succeed in
  extinguishing her passion; and seek for happiness in the arms of
  One more fortunate。  He shuddered at the void which her absence
  would leave in his bosom。  He looked with disgust on the monotony
  of a Convent; and breathed a sigh towards that world from which
  He was for ever separated。  Such were the reflections which a
  loud knocking at his door interrupted。  The Bell of the Church
  had already struck Two。  The Abbot hastened to enquire the cause
  of this disturbance。  He opened the door of his Cell; and a
  Lay…Brother entered; whose looks declared his hurry and
  confusion。
  'Hasten; reverend Father!' said He; 'Hasten to the young Rosario。
  He earnestly requests to see you; He lies at the point of death。'
  'Gracious God!  Where is Father Pablos?  Why is He not with him?
  Oh! I fear! I fear!'
  'Father Pablos has seen him; but his art can do nothing。  He
  says that He suspects the Youth to be poisoned。'
  'Poisoned?  Oh!  The Unfortunate!  It is then as I suspected!
  But let me not lose a moment; Perhaps it may yet be time to save
  her!'
  He said; and flew towards the Cell of the Novice。  Several Monks
  were already in the chamber。  Fa