第 15 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:39      字数:9322
  Greatly joyed the Moorish party;
  That the gallant Knight was slain。
  Bitter weeping Montesinos
  Took from him his helm and glaive;
  Bitter weeping Montesinos
  Dug his gallant Cousin's grave。
  To perform his promise made; He
  Cut the heart from out the breast;
  That Belerma; wretched Lady!
  Might receive the last bequest。
  Sad was Montesinos' heart; He
  Felt distress his bosom rend。
  'Oh! my Cousin Durandarte;
  Woe is me to view thy end!
  'Sweet in manners; fair in favour;
  Mild in temper; fierce in fight;
  Warrior; nobler; gentler; braver;
  Never shall behold the light!
  'Cousin; Lo! my tears bedew thee!
  How shall I thy loss survive!
  Durandarte; He who slew thee;
  Wherefore left He me alive!'
  While She sung; Ambrosio listened with delight: Never had He
  heard a voice more harmonious; and He wondered how such heavenly
  sounds could be produced by any but Angels。  But though He
  indulged the sense of hearing; a single look convinced him that
  He must not trust to that of sight。  The Songstress sat at a
  little distance from his Bed。  The attitude in which She bent
  over her harp; was easy and graceful:  Her Cowl had fallen back…
  warder than usual:  Two coral lips were visible; ripe; fresh; and
  melting; and a Chin in whose dimples seemed to lurk a thousand
  Cupids。  Her Habit's long sleeve would have swept along the
  Chords of the Instrument:  To prevent this inconvenience She had
  drawn it above her elbow; and by this means an arm was discovered
  formed in the most perfect symmetry; the delicacy of whose skin
  might have contended with snow in whiteness。  Ambrosio dared to
  look on her but once:  That glance sufficed to convince him; how
  dangerous was the presence of this seducing Object。  He closed
  his eyes; but strove in vain to banish her from his thoughts。
  There She still moved before him; adorned with all those charms
  which his heated imagination could supply:  Every beauty which He
  had seen; appeared embellished; and those still concealed Fancy
  represented to him in glowing colours。  Still; however; his vows
  and the necessity of keeping to them were present to his memory。
  He struggled with desire; and shuddered when He beheld how deep
  was the precipice before him。
  Matilda ceased to sing。  Dreading the influence of her charms;
  Ambrosio remained with his eyes closed; and offered up his
  prayers to St。 Francis to assist him in this dangerous trial!
  Matilda believed that He was sleeping。  She rose from her seat;
  approached the Bed softly; and for some minutes gazed upon him
  attentively。
  'He sleeps!' said She at length in a low voice; but whose accents
  the Abbot distinguished perfectly; 'Now then I may gaze upon him
  without offence!  I may mix my breath with his; I may doat upon
  his features; and He cannot suspect me of impurity and
  deceit!He fears my seducing him to the violation of his vows!
  Oh! the Unjust!  Were it my wish to excite desire; should I
  conceal my features from him so carefully?  Those features; of
  which I daily hear him。 。 。 。'
  She stopped; and was lost in her reflections。
  'It was but yesterday!' She continued; 'But a few short hours
  have past; since I was dear to him!  He esteemed me; and my heart
  was satisfied!  Now!。 。 。  Oh! now how cruelly is my situation
  changed!  He looks on me with suspicion!  He bids me leave him;
  leave him for ever!  Oh! You; my Saint! my Idol!  You; holding
  the next place to God in my breast!  Yet two days; and my heart
  will be unveiled to you。Could you know my feelings; when I
  beheld your agony!  Could you know; how much your sufferings have
  endeared you to me!  But the time will come; when you will be
  convinced that my passion is pure and disinterested。  Then you
  will pity me; and feel the whole weight of these sorrows!'
  As She said this; her voice was choaked by weeping。 While She
  bent over Ambrosio; a tear fell upon his cheek。
  'Ah!  I have disturbed him!' cried Matilda; and retreated
  hastily。
  Her alarm was ungrounded。  None sleep so profoundly; as those who
  are determined not to wake。  The Friar was in this predicament:
  He still seemed buried in a repose; which every succeeding minute
  rendered him less capable of enjoying。  The burning tear had
  communicated its warmth to his heart。
  'What affection!  What purity!' said He internally; 'Ah!  since
  my bosom is thus sensible of pity; what would it be if agitated
  by love?'
  Matilda again quitted her seat; and retired to some distance from
  the Bed。  Ambrosio ventured to open his eyes; and to cast them
  upon her fearfully。  Her face was turned from him。  She rested
  her head in a melancholy posture upon her Harp; and gazed on the
  picture which hung opposite to the Bed。
  'Happy; happy Image!'  Thus did She address the beautiful Madona;
  ' 'Tis to you that He offers his prayers!  'Tis on you that He
  gazes with admiration!  I thought you would have lightened my
  sorrows; You have only served to increase their weight:  You have
  made me feel that had I known him ere his vows were pronounced;
  Ambrosio and happiness might have been mine。  With what pleasure
  He views this picture!  With what fervour He addresses his
  prayers to the insensible Image!  Ah! may not his sentiments be
  inspired by some kind and secret Genius; Friend to my affection?
  May it not be Man's natural instinct which informs him。 。 。 Be
  silent; idle hopes!  Let me not encourage an idea which takes
  from the brilliance of Ambrosio's virtue。  'Tis Religion; not
  Beauty which attracts his admiration; 'Tis not to the Woman; but
  the Divinity that He kneels。  Would He but address to me the
  least tender expression which He pours forth to this Madona!
  Would He but say that were He not already affianced to the
  Church; He would not have despised Matilda!  Oh!  let me nourish
  that fond idea!  Perhaps He may yet acknowledge that He feels for
  me more than pity; and that affection like mine might well have
  deserved a return; Perhaps; He may own thus much when I lye on my
  deathbed!  He then need not fear to infringe his vows; and the
  confession of his regard will soften the pangs of dying。  Would I
  were sure of this!  Oh!  how earnestly should I sigh for the
  moment of dissolution!'
  Of this discourse the Abbot lost not a syllable; and the tone in
  which She pronounced these last words pierced to his heart。
  Involuntarily He raised himself from his pillow。
  'Matilda!' He said in a troubled voice; 'Oh! my Matilda!'
  She started at the sound; and turned towards him hastily。  The
  suddenness of her movement made her Cowl fall back from her head;
  Her features became visible to the Monk's enquiring eye。  What
  was his amazement at beholding the exact resemblance of his
  admired Madona?  The same exquisite proportion of features; the
  same profusion of golden hair; the same rosy lips; heavenly eyes;
  and majesty of countenance adorned Matilda!  Uttering an
  exclamation of surprize; Ambrosio sank back upon his pillow; and
  doubted whether the Object before him was mortal or divine。
  Matilda seemed penetrated with confusion。  She remained
  motionless in her place; and supported herself upon her
  Instrument。  Her eyes were bent upon the earth; and her fair
  cheeks overspread with blushes。  On recovering herself; her
  first action was to conceal her features。  She then in an
  unsteady and troubled voice ventured to address these words to
  the Friar。
  'Accident has made you Master of a secret; which I never would
  have revealed but on the Bed of death。  Yes; Ambrosio; In Matilda
  de Villanegas you see the original of your beloved Madona。  Soon
  after I conceived my unfortunate passion; I formed the project of
  conveying to you my Picture:  Crowds of Admirers had persuaded me
  that I possessed some beauty; and I was anxious to know what
  effect it would produce upon you。  I caused my Portrait to be
  drawn by Martin Galuppi; a celebrated Venetian at that time
  resident in Madrid。  The resemblance was striking:  I sent it to
  the Capuchin Abbey as if for sale; and the Jew from whom you
  bought it was one of my Emissaries。  You purchased it。  Judge of
  my rapture; when informed that you had gazed upon it with
  delight; or rather with adoration; that you had suspended it in
  your Cell; and that you addressed your supplications to no other
  Saint。  Will this discovery make me still more regarded as an
  object of suspicion?  Rather should it convince you how pure is
  my affection; and engage you to suffer me in your society and
  esteem。  I heard you daily extol the praises of my Portrait:  I
  was an eyewitness of the transports; which its beauty excited
  in you: Yet I forbore to use against your virtue those arms; with
  which yourself had furnished me。  I concealed those features from
  your sight; which you loved unconsciously。  I strove not to
  excite desire by displaying my charms; or to make myself Mistress
  of your heart through the medium of your senses。  To attract your
  notice by studiously attending to religious duties; to endear
  myself to you by convincing you that my mind was virtuous and my
  attachment sincere; such was my only aim。  I succeeded; I became
  your companion and your Friend。  I concealed my sex from your
  knowledge; and had you not pressed me to re