第 16 节
作者:打倒一切      更新:2021-02-18 22:30      字数:9322
  whom I have been telling you; the young gentleman who has done
  such magnificent work for the cause of Cuba。〃  Those who caught
  Arkwright's eye nodded to him; and others raised their glasses at
  him; but with a smile that he could not understand。  It was as
  though they all knew something concerning him of which he was
  ignorant。  He noted that the faces of some were strangely
  familiar; and he decided that he must have seen their portraits
  in the public prints。  After he had introduced Arkwright; the
  senator drew his chair slightly away from him and turned in what
  seemed embarrassment to the man on his other side。  The
  elderly gentleman next to Arkwright filled his glass; a servant
  placed a small cup of coffee at his elbow; and he lit a cigar and
  looked about him。
  〃You must find this weather very trying after the tropics;〃 his
  neighbor said。
  Arkwright assented cordially。  The brandy was flowing through his
  veins and warming him; he forgot that he was hungry; and the
  kind; interested glances of those about him set him at his ease。
  It was a propitious start; he thought; a pleasant leave…taking
  for the senator and himself; full of good will and good wishes。
  He turned toward Stanton and waited until he had ceased speaking。
  〃The papers have begun well; haven't they?〃 he asked; eagerly。
  He had spoken in a low voice; almost in a whisper; but those
  about the table seemed to have heard him; for there was silence
  instantly and when he glanced up he saw the eyes of all turned
  upon him and he noticed on their faces the same smile he had seen
  there when he entered。
  〃Yes;〃 Stanton answered constrainedly。  〃Yes; I〃 he
  lowered his voice; but the silence still continued。  Stanton had
  his eyes fixed on the table; but now he frowned and half rose
  from his chair。
  〃I want to speak with you; Arkwright;〃 he said。  〃Suppose we go
  into the next room。  I'll be back in a moment;〃 he added; nodding
  to the others。
  But the man on his right removed his cigar from his lips and said
  in an undertone; 〃No; sit down; stay where you are;〃 and the
  elderly gentleman at Arkwright's side laid his hand detainingly
  on his arm。  〃Oh; you won't take Mr。 Arkwright away from us;
  Stanton?〃 he asked; smiling。
  Stanton shrugged his shoulders and sat down again; and there was
  a moment's pause。  It was broken by the man in the overcoat; who
  laughed。
  〃He's paying you a compliment; Mr。 Arkwright;〃 he said。  He
  pointed with his cigar to the gentleman at Arkwright's side。
  〃I don't understand;〃 Arkwright answered doubtfully。
  〃It's a compliment to your eloquencehe's afraid to leave you
  alone with the senator。  Livingstone's been telling us that
  you are a better talker than Stanton。〃  Arkwright turned a
  troubled countenance toward the men about the table; and then
  toward Livingstone; but that young man had his eyes fixed gravely
  on the glasses before him and did not raise them。
  Arkwright felt a sudden; unreasonable fear of the circle of
  strong…featured; serene and confident men about him。  They seemed
  to be making him the subject of a jest; to be enjoying something
  among themselves of which he was in ignorance; but which
  concerned him closely。  He turned a white face toward Stanton。
  〃You don't mean;〃 he began piteously; 〃thatthat you are not
  going?  Is that ittell meis that what you wanted to say?〃
  Stanton shifted in his chair and muttered some words between his
  lips; then turned toward Arkwright and spoke quite clearly and
  distinctly。
  〃I am very sorry; Mr。 Arkwright;〃 he said; 〃but I am afraid I'll
  have to disappoint you。  Reasons I cannot now explain have arisen
  which make my going impossiblequite impossible;〃 he added
  firmly〃not only now; but later;〃 he went on quickly; as
  Arkwright was about to interrupt him。
  Arkwright made no second attempt to speak。  He felt the muscles
  of his face working and the tears coming to his eyes; and to hide
  his weakness he twisted in his chair and sat staring ahead of him
  with his back turned to the table。  He heard Livingstone's voice
  break the silence with some hurried question; and immediately his
  embarrassment was hidden in a murmur of answers and the moving of
  glasses as the men shifted in their chairs and the laughter and
  talk went on as briskly as before。  Arkwright saw a sideboard
  before him and a servant arranging some silver on one of the
  shelves。  He watched the man do this with a concentrated interest
  as though the dull; numbed feeling in his brain caught at the
  trifle in order to put off; as long as possible; the
  consideration of the truth。
  And then beyond the sideboard and the tapestry on the wall above
  it; he saw the sun shining down upon the island of Cuba; he saw
  the royal palms waving and bending; the dusty columns of
  Spanish infantry crawling along the white roads and leaving
  blazing huts and smoking cane…fields in their wake; he saw
  skeletons of men and women seeking for food among the refuse of
  the street; he heard the order given to the firing squad; the
  splash of the bullets as they scattered the plaster on the prison
  wall; and he saw a kneeling figure pitch forward on its face;
  with a useless bandage tied across its sightless eyes。
  Senator Stanton brought him back with a sharp shake of the
  shoulder。  He had also turned his back on the others; and was
  leaning forward with his elbows on his knees。  He spoke rapidly;
  and in a voice only slightly raised above a whisper。
  〃I am more than sorry; Arkwright;〃 he said earnestly。  〃You
  mustn't blame me altogether。  I have had a hard time of it this
  afternoon。  I wanted to go。  I really wanted to go。  The thing
  appealed to me; it touched me; it seemed as if I owed it to
  myself to do it。  But they were too many for me;〃 he added with a
  backward toss of his head toward the men around his table。
  〃If the papers had not told on me I could have got well away;〃 he
  went on in an eager tone; 〃but as soon as they read of it; they
  came here straight from their offices。  You know who they are;
  don't you?〃 he asked; and even in his earnestness there was an
  added touch of importance in his tone as he spoke the name of his
  party's leader; of men who stood prominently in Wall Street and
  who were at the head of great trusts。
  〃You see how it is;〃 he said with a shrug of his shoulders。
  〃They have enormous interests at stake。  They said I would drag
  them into war; that I would disturb values; that the business
  interests of the country would suffer。  I'm under obligations to
  most of them; they have advised me in financial matters; and they
  threatenedthey threatened to make it unpleasant for me。〃  His
  voice hardened and he drew in his breath quickly; and laughed。
  〃You wouldn't understand if I were to tell you。  It's rather
  involved。  And after all; they may be right; agitation may be bad
  for the country。  And your party leader after all is your party
  leader; isn't he; and if he says 'no' what are you to do?
  My sympathies are just as keen for these poor women and children
  as ever; but as these men say; 'charity begins at home;' and we
  mustn't do anything to bring on war prices again; or to send
  stocks tumbling about our heads; must we?〃  He leaned back in his
  chair again and sighed。  〃Sympathy is an expensive luxury; I
  find;〃 he added。
  Arkwright rose stiffly and pushed Stanton away from him with his
  hand。  He moved like a man coming out of a dream。
  〃Don't talk to me like that;〃 he said in a low voice。  The noise
  about the table ended on the instant; but Arkwright did not
  notice that it had ceased。  〃You know I don't understand that;〃
  he went on; 〃what does it matter to me!〃  He put his hand up to
  the side of his face and held it there; looking down at Stanton。
  He had the dull; heavy look in his eyes of a man who has just
  come through an operation under some heavy drug。  〃'Wall Street;'
  'trusts;' 'party leaders;'〃 he repeated; 〃what are they to me?
  The words don't reach me; they have lost their meaning; it is a
  language I have forgotten; thank God!〃 he added。  He turned
  and moved his eyes around the table; scanning the faces of the
  men before him。
  〃Yes; you are twelve to one;〃 he said at last; still speaking
  dully and in a low voice; as though he were talking to himself。
  〃You have won a noble victory; gentlemen。  I congratulate you。
  But I do not blame you; we are all selfish and self…seeking。  I
  thought I was working only for Cuba; but I was working for
  myself; just as you are。  I wanted to feel that it was I who had
  helped to bring relief to that plague…spot; that it was through
  my efforts the help had come。  Yes; if he had done as I asked; I
  suppose I would have taken the credit。〃
  He swayed slightly; and to steady himself caught at the back of
  his chair。  But at the same moment his eyes glowed fiercely and
  he held himself erect again。  He pointed with his finger at the
  circle of great men who sat looking up at him in curious silence。
  〃You are like a ring of gamblers around a gaming table;〃 he cried
  wildly; 〃who see nothing but the green cloth and the wheel and
  the piles of money before them; who forget in watching the
  money rise and fall; that outside the sun is shining; that human
  beings are sick and suffering; tha