第 11 节
作者:打倒一切      更新:2021-02-18 22:30      字数:9322
  〃Gee!〃 exclaimed the hospital steward。  He glanced impatiently at
  the blue mountains and the yellow coast; from which the transport
  was drawing rapidly away。
  〃Well; I can't see her coming just now;〃 he said。  〃But she
  will;〃 he added。
  〃You let me know at once when she comes。〃
  〃Why; cert'nly; of course;〃 said the steward。
  Three trained nurses came over the side just before the transport
  started North。  One was a large; motherly…looking woman; with a
  German accent。  She had been a trained nurse; first in Berlin;
  and later in the London Hospital in Whitechapel; and at Bellevue。
  The nurse was dressed in white; and wore a little silver medal at
  her throat; and she was strong enough to lift a volunteer out of
  his cot and hold him easily in her arms; while one of the
  convalescents pulled his cot out of the rain。  Some of the men
  called her 〃nurse;〃 others; who wore scapulars around their
  necks; called her 〃Sister;〃 and the officers of the medical staff
  addressed her as Miss Bergen。
  Miss Bergen halted beside the cot of the Lieutenant and
  asked; 〃Is this the fever case you spoke about; Doctorthe one
  you want moved to the officers' ward?〃  She slipped her hand up
  under his sleeve and felt his wrist。
  〃His pulse is very high;〃 she said to the steward。  〃When did you
  take his temperature?〃  She drew a little morocco case from her
  pocket and from that took a clinical thermometer; which she shook
  up and down; eying the patient meanwhile with a calm; impersonal
  scrutiny。  The Lieutenant raised his head and stared up at the
  white figure beside his cot。  His eyes opened and then shut
  quickly; with a startled look; in which doubt struggled with
  wonderful happiness。  His hand stole out fearfully and warily
  until it touched her apron; and then; finding it was real; he
  clutched it desperately; and twisting his face and body toward
  her; pulled her down; clasping her hands in both of his; and
  pressing them close to his face and eyes and lips。  He put them
  from him for an instant; and looked at her through his tears。
  〃Sweetheart;〃 he whispered; 〃sweetheart; I knew you'd come。〃
  As the nurse knelt on the deck beside him; her thermometer
  slipped from her fingers and broke; and she gave an exclamation
  of annoyance。  The young Doctor picked up the pieces and tossed
  them overboard。  Neither of them spoke; but they smiled
  appreciatively。  The Lieutenant was looking at the nurse with the
  wonder and hope and hunger of soul in his eyes with which a dying
  man looks at the cross the priest holds up before him。  What he
  saw where the German nurse was kneeling was a tall; fair girl
  with great bands and masses of hair; with a head rising like a
  lily from a firm; white throat; set on broad shoulders above a
  straight back and sloping breasta tall; beautiful creature;
  half…girl; half…woman; who looked back at him shyly; but
  steadily。
  〃Listen;〃 he said。
  The voice of the sick man was so sure and so sane that the young
  Doctor started; and moved nearer to the head of the cot。
  〃Listen; dearest;〃 the Lieutenant whispered。  〃I wanted to tell
  you before I came South。  But I did not dare; and then I was
  afraid something might happen to me; and I could never tell you;
  and you would never know。  So I wrote it to you in the will I
  made at Baiquiri; the night before the landing。  If you hadn't
  come now; you would have learned it in that way。  You would have
  read there that there never was any one but you; the rest were
  all dream people; foolish; sillymad。 There is no one else in
  the world but you; you have been the only thing in life that has
  counted。  I thought I might do something down here that would
  make you care。  But I got shot going up a hill; and after that I
  wasn't able to do anything。  It was very hot; and the hills were
  on fire; and they took me prisoner; and kept me tied down here;
  burning on these coals。  I can't live much longer; but now that I
  have told you I can have peace。  They tried to kill me before you
  came; but they didn't know I loved you; they didn't know that men
  who love you can't die。  They tried to starve my love for you; to
  burn it out of me; they tried to reach it with their knives。  But
  my love for you is my soul; and they can't kill a man's soul。
  Dear heart; I have lived because you lived。  Now that you
  knownow that you understandwhat does it matter?〃
  Miss Bergen shook her head with great vigor。  〃Nonsense;〃 she
  said; cheerfully。  〃You are not going to die。  As soon as we move
  you out of this rain; and some food cook〃
  〃Good God!〃 cried the young Doctor; savagely。  〃Do you want to
  kill him?〃
  When she spoke the patient had thrown his arms heavily across his
  face; and had fallen back; lying rigid on the pillow。
  The Doctor led the way across the prostrate bodies; apologizing
  as he went。  〃I am sorry I spoke so quickly;〃 he said; 〃but he
  thought you were real。  I mean he thought you were some one he
  really knew〃
  〃He was just delirious;〃 said the German nurse; calmly。
  The Doctor mixed himself a Scotch and soda and drank it with a
  single gesture。
  〃Ugh!〃 he said to the ward…room。  〃I feel as though I'd been
  opening another man's letters。〃
  The transport drove through the empty seas with heavy; clumsy
  upheavals; rolling like a buoy。  Having been originally
  intended for the freight…carrying trade; she had no sympathy
  with hearts that beat for a sight of their native land; or for
  lives that counted their remaining minutes by the throbbing of
  her engines。  Occasionally; without apparent reason; she was
  thrown violently from her course: but it was invariably the case
  that when her stern went to starboard; something splashed in the
  water on her port side and drifted past her; until; when it had
  cleared the blades of her propeller; a voice cried out; and she
  was swung back on her home…bound track again。
  The Lieutenant missed the familiar palms and the tiny block…
  house; and seeing nothing beyond the iron rails but great wastes
  of gray water; he decided he was on board a prison…ship; or that
  he had been strapped to a raft and cast adrift。  People came for
  hours at a time and stood at the foot of his cot; and talked with
  him and he to thempeople he had loved and people he had long
  forgotten; some of whom he had thought were dead。  One of them he
  could have sworn he had seen buried in a deep trench; and covered
  with branches of palmetto。  He had heard the bugler; with
  tears choking him; sound 〃taps;〃 and with his own hand he had
  placed the dead man's campaign hat on the mound of fresh earth
  above the grave。  Yet here he was still alive; and he came with
  other men of his troop to speak to him; but when he reached out
  to them they were gonethe real and the unreal; the dead and the
  livingand even She disappeared whenever he tried to take her
  hand; and sometimes the hospital steward drove her away。
  〃Did that young lady say when she was coming back again?〃 he
  asked the steward。
  〃The young lady!  What young lady?〃 asked the steward; wearily。
  〃The one who has been sitting there;〃 he answered。  He pointed
  with his gaunt hand at the man in the next cot。
  〃Oh; that young lady。  Yes; she's coming back。  She's just gone
  below to fetch you some hard…tack。〃
  The young volunteer in the next cot whined grievously。
  〃That crazy man gives me the creeps;〃 he groaned。  〃He's always
  waking me up; and looking at me as though he was going to eat
  me。〃
  〃Shut your head;〃 said the steward。  〃He's a better man crazy
  than you'll ever be with the little sense you've got。  And he has
  two Mauser holes in him。  Crazy; eh?  It's a damned good thing
  for you that there was about four thousand of us regulars just as
  crazy as him; or you'd never seen the top of the hill。〃
  One morning there was a great commotion on deck; and all the
  convalescents balanced themselves on the rail; shivering in their
  pajamas; and pointed one way。  The transport was moving swiftly
  and smoothly through water as flat as a lake; and making a great
  noise with her steam…whistle。  The noise was echoed by many more
  steam…whistles; and the ghosts of out…bound ships and tugs and
  excursion steamers ran past her out of the mist and disappeared;
  saluting joyously。  All of the excursion steamers had a heavy
  list to the side nearest the transport; and the ghosts on them
  crowded to that rail and waved handkerchiefs and cheered。  The
  fog lifted suddenly; and between the iron rails the
  Lieutenant saw high green hills on either side of a great harbor。
  Houses and trees and thousands of masts swept past like a
  panorama; and beyond was a mirage of three cities; with curling
  smoke…wreaths and sky…reaching buildings; and a great swinging
  bridge; and a giant statue of a woman waving a welcome home。
  The Lieutenant surveyed the spectacle with cynical disbelief。  He
  was far too wise and far too cunning to be bewitched by it。  In
  his heart he pitied the men about him; who laughed wildly; and
  shouted; and climbed recklessly to the rails and ratlines。  He
  had been deceived too often not to know that it was not real。  He
  knew from cruel experience that in a few moments the tall
  buildings would crumble away; the thousands of columns of white
  smoke that flas