第 4 节
作者:热带雨淋      更新:2021-02-18 21:58      字数:9322
  A form like your ownfor praying to?
  My virtue; power; utility;
  Within my maker must all abide;
  Since none in myself can ever be;
  One thin as a shape on a lantern…slide
  Shown forth in the dark upon some dim sheet;
  And by none but its showman vivified。
  〃Such a forced device;〃 you may say; 〃is meet
  For easing a loaded heart at whiles:
  Man needs to conceive of a mercy…seat
  Somewhere above the gloomy aisles
  Of this wailful world; or he could not bear
  The irk no local hope beguiles。〃
  … But since I was framed in your first despair
  The doing without me has had no play
  In the minds of men when shadows scare;
  And now that I dwindle day by day
  Beneath the deicide eyes of seers
  In a light that will not let me stay;
  And to…morrow the whole of me disappears;
  The truth should be told; and the fact be faced
  That had best been faced in earlier years:
  The fact of life with dependence placed
  On the human heart's resource alone;
  In brotherhood bonded close and graced
  With loving…kindness fully blown;
  And visioned help unsought; unknown。
  1909…10。
  GOD'S FUNERAL
  I
  I saw a slowly…stepping train …
  Lined on the brows; scoop…eyed and bent and hoar …
  Following in files across a twilit plain
  A strange and mystic form the foremost bore。
  II
  And by contagious throbs of thought
  Or latent knowledge that within me lay
  And had already stirred me; I was wrought
  To consciousness of sorrow even as they。
  III
  The fore…borne shape; to my blurred eyes;
  At first seemed man…like; and anon to change
  To an amorphous cloud of marvellous size;
  At times endowed with wings of glorious range。
  IV
  And this phantasmal variousness
  Ever possessed it as they drew along:
  Yet throughout all it symboled none the less
  Potency vast and loving…kindness strong。
  V
  Almost before I knew I bent
  Towards the moving columns without a word;
  They; growing in bulk and numbers as they went;
  Struck out sick thoughts that could be overheard:…
  VI
  〃O man…projected Figure; of late
  Imaged as we; thy knell who shall survive?
  Whence came it we were tempted to create
  One whom we can no longer keep alive?
  VII
  〃Framing him jealous; fierce; at first;
  We gave him justice as the ages rolled;
  Will to bless those by circumstance accurst;
  And longsuffering; and mercies manifold。
  VIII
  〃And; tricked by our own early dream
  And need of solace; we grew self…deceived;
  Our making soon our maker did we deem;
  And what we had imagined we believed。
  IX
  〃Till; in Time's stayless stealthy swing;
  Uncompromising rude reality
  Mangled the Monarch of our fashioning;
  Who quavered; sank; and now has ceased to be。
  X
  〃So; toward our myth's oblivion;
  Darkling; and languid…lipped; we creep and grope
  Sadlier than those who wept in Babylon;
  Whose Zion was a still abiding hope。
  XI
  〃How sweet it was in years far hied
  To start the wheels of day with trustful prayer;
  To lie down liegely at the eventide
  And feel a blest assurance he was there!
  XII
  〃And who or what shall fill his place?
  Whither will wanderers turn distracted eyes
  For some fixed star to stimulate their pace
  Towards the goal of their enterprise?〃 。 。 。
  XIII
  Some in the background then I saw;
  Sweet women; youths; men; all incredulous;
  Who chimed as one:  〃This figure is of straw;
  This requiem mockery!  Still he lives to us!〃
  XIV
  I could not prop their faith:  and yet
  Many I had known:  with all I sympathized;
  And though struck speechless; I did not forget
  That what was mourned for; I; too; once had prized。
  XV
  Still; how to bear such loss I deemed
  The insistent question for each animate mind;
  And gazing; to my growing sight there seemed
  A pale yet positive gleam low down behind;
  XVI
  Whereof to lift the general night;
  A certain few who stood aloof had said;
  〃See you upon the horizon that small light …
  Swelling somewhat?〃  Each mourner shook his head。
  XVII
  And they composed a crowd of whom
  Some were right good; and many nigh the best 。 。 。
  Thus dazed and puzzled 'twixt the gleam and gloom
  Mechanically I followed with the rest。
  1908…10。
  SPECTRES THAT GRIEVE
  〃It is not death that harrows us;〃 they lipped;
  〃The soundless cell is in itself relief;
  For life is an unfenced flower; benumbed and nipped
  At unawares; and at its best but brief。〃
  The speakers; sundry phantoms of the gone;
  Had risen like filmy flames of phosphor dye;
  As if the palest of sheet lightnings shone
  From the sward near me; as from a nether sky。
  And much surprised was I that; spent and dead;
  They should not; like the many; be at rest;
  But stray as apparitions; hence I said;
  〃Why; having slipped life; hark you back distressed?
  〃We are among the few death sets not free;
  The hurt; misrepresented names; who come
  At each year's brink; and cry to History
  To do them justice; or go past them dumb。
  〃We are stript of rights; our shames lie unredressed;
  Our deeds in full anatomy are not shown;
  Our words in morsels merely are expressed
  On the scriptured page; our motives blurred; unknown。〃
  Then all these shaken slighted visitants sped
  Into the vague; and left me musing there
  On fames that well might instance what they had said;
  Until the New…Year's dawn strode up the air。
  〃AH; ARE YOU DIGGING ON MY GRAVE?〃
  〃Ah; are you digging on my grave
  My loved one?planting rue?〃
  … 〃No:  yesterday he went to wed
  One of the brightest wealth has bred。
  'It cannot hurt her now;' he said;
  'That I should not be true。'〃
  〃Then who is digging on my grave?
  My nearest dearest kin?〃
  … 〃Ah; no; they sit and think; 'What use!
  What good will planting flowers produce?
  No tendance of her mound can loose
  Her spirit from Death's gin。'〃
  〃But some one digs upon my grave?
  My enemy?prodding sly?〃
  … 〃Nay:  when she heard you had passed the Gate
  That shuts on all flesh soon or late;
  She thought you no more worth her hate;
  And cares not where you lie。〃
  〃Then; who is digging on my grave?
  Saysince I have not guessed!〃
  … 〃O it is I; my mistress dear;
  Your little dog; who still lives near;
  And much I hope my movements here
  Have not disturbed your rest?〃
  〃Ah; yes!  YOU dig upon my grave 。 。 。
  Why flashed it not on me
  That one true heart was left behind!
  What feeling do we ever find
  To equal among human kind
  A dog's fidelity!〃
  〃Mistress; I dug upon your grave
  To bury a bone; in case
  I should be hungry near this spot
  When passing on my daily trot。
  I am sorry; but I quite forgot
  It was your resting…place。〃
  SATIRES OF CIRCUMSTANCES
  IN FIFTEEN GLIMPSES
  IAT TEA
  The kettle descants in a cozy drone;
  And the young wife looks in her husband's face;
  And then at her guest's; and shows in her own
  Her sense that she fills an envied place;
  And the visiting lady is all abloom;
  And says there was never so sweet a room。
  And the happy young housewife does not know
  That the woman beside her was first his choice;
  Till the fates ordained it could not be so 。 。 。
  Betraying nothing in look or voice
  The guest sits smiling and sips her tea;
  And he throws her a stray glance yearningly。
  IIIN CHURCH
  〃And now to God the Father;〃 he ends;
  And his voice thrills up to the topmost tiles:
  Each listener chokes as he bows and bends;
  And emotion pervades the crowded aisles。
  Then the preacher glides to the vestry…door;
  And shuts it; and thinks he is seen no more。
  The door swings softly ajar meanwhile;
  And a pupil of his in the Bible class;
  Who adores him as one without gloss or guile;
  Sees her idol stand with a satisfied smile
  And re…enact at the vestry…glass
  Each pulpit gesture in deft dumb…show
  That had moved the congregation so。
  IIIBY HER AUNT'S GRAVE
  〃Sixpence a week;〃 says the girl to her lover;
  〃Aunt used to bring me; for she could confide
  In me alone; she vowed。  'Twas to cover
  The cost of her headstone when she died。
  And that was a year ago last June;
  I've not yet fixed it。  But I must soon。〃
  〃And where is the money now; my dear?〃
  〃O; snug in my purse 。 。 。 Aunt was SO slow
  In saving iteighty weeks; or near。〃 。 。 。
  〃Let's spend it;〃 he hints。  〃For she won't know。
  There's a dance to…night at the Load of Hay。〃
  She passively nods。  And they go that way。
  IVIN THE ROOM OF THE BRIDE…ELECT
  〃Would it had been the man of our wish!〃
  Sighs her mother。  To whom with vehemence she
  In the wedding…dressthe wife to be …
  〃Then why were you so mollyish
  As not to insist on him for me!〃
  The mother; amazed:  〃Why; dearest one;
  Because you pleaded for this or none!〃
  〃But Father and you should have stood out strong!
  Since then; to my cost; I have lived to find
  That you were right and that I was wrong;
  This man is a dolt to the one declined 。 。 。
  Ah!here he comes with his button…hole rose。
  Good GodI must marry him I suppose!〃
  VAT A WATERING…PLACE
  They sit and smoke on the esplanade;
  The man and his friend; and regard the bay
  Where the far chalk cliffs; to the left displayed;
  Smile sallowly in the decline of day。
  And saunterers pass with laugh and jest …
  A handsome couple among the rest。
  〃That smart proud pa