第 36 节
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  roots; or branches?were called Eldad and
  Bildad。  Now I thought those names were good
  enough to pass along; but; as I said before; Cyril
  wasn't interested。''
  ‘‘I should say not;'' laughed Billy。  ‘‘But;
  honestly; Hugh; it's really serious。  Marie wants
  them named _something_; but she doesn't say much
  to Cyril。  Marie wouldn't really breathe; you
  know; if she thought Cyril disapproved of breathing。
  And in this case Cyril does not hesitate to
  declare that the boys shall name themselves。''
  ‘‘What a situation!'' laughed Calderwell。
  ‘‘Isn't it?  But; do you know; I can
  sympathize with it; in a way; for I've always mourned
  so over _my_ name。  ‘Billy' was always such a
  trial to me!  Poor Uncle William wasn't the only
  one that prepared guns and fishing rods to entertain
  the expected boy。  I don't know; though;
  I'm afraid if I'd been allowed to select my name
  I should have been a ‘Helen Clarabella' all my
  days; for that was the name I gave all my dolls;
  with ‘first;' ‘second;' ‘third;' and so on; added
  to them for distinction。  Evidently I thought that
  ‘Helen Clarabella' was the most feminine
  appellation possible; and the most foreign to the
  despised ‘Billy。'  So you see I can sympathize
  with Cyril to a certain extent。''
  ‘‘But they must call the little chaps _something_;
  now;'' argued Hugh。
  Billy gave a sudden merry laugh。
  ‘‘They do;'' she gurgled; ‘‘and that's the funniest
  part of it。  Oh; Cyril doesn't。  He always calls
  them impersonally ‘they' or ‘it。'  He doesn't
  see much of them anyway; now; I understand。
  Marie was horrified when she realized how the
  nurses had been using his den as a nursery annex
  and she changed all that instanter; when she took
  charge of things again。  The twins stay in the
  nursery now; I'm told。  But about the names
  the nurses; it seems; have got into the way of
  calling them ‘Dot' and ‘Dimple。'  One has a
  dimple in his cheek; and the other is a little smaller
  of the two。  Marie is no end distressed; particularly
  as she finds that she herself calls them that;
  and she says the idea of boys being ‘Dot' and
  ‘Dimple'!''
  ‘‘I should say so;'' laughed Calderwell。  ‘‘Not
  I regard that as worse than my ‘Eldad' and
  ‘Bildad。' ''
  ‘‘I know it; and Alice says  By the way;
  you haven't mentioned Alice; but I suppose you
  see her occasionally。''
  Billy paused in evident expectation of a reply。
  Billy was; in fact; quite pluming herself on the
  adroit casualness with which she had introduced
  the subject nearest her heart。
  Calderwell raised his eyebrows。
  ‘‘Oh; yes; I see her。''
  ‘‘But you hadn't mentioned her。''
  There was the briefest of pauses; then with a
  half…quizzical dejection; there came the remark:
  ‘‘You seem to forget。  I told you that I stayed
  here this summer for reasons too numerous; and
  one too heart…breaking; to mention。  She was
  the _one_。''
  ‘‘You mean''
  ‘‘Yes。  The usual thing。  She turned me down。
  Oh; I haven't asked her yet as many times as I
  did you; but''
  ‘‘_Hugh!_''
  Hugh tossed her a grim smile and went on
  imperturbably。
  ‘‘I'm older now; of course; and know more;
  perhaps。  Besides; the finality of her remarks was
  not to be mistaken。''
  Billy; in spite of her sympathy for Calderwell;
  was conscious of a throb of relief that at least one
  stumbling…block was removed from Arkwright's
  possible pathway to Alice's heart。
  ‘‘Did she give any special reason?'' hazarded
  Billy; a shade too anxiously。
  ‘‘Oh; yes。  She said she wasn't going to marry
  anybodyonly her music。''
  ‘‘Nonsense!'' ejaculated Billy; falling back in
  her chair a little。
  ‘‘Yes; I said that; too;'' gloomed the man;
  ‘‘but it didn't do any good。  You see; I had
  known another girl who'd said the same thing
  once。''  (He did not look up; but a vivid red
  flamed suddenly into Billy's cheeks。)  ‘‘And she
  when the right one cameforgot all about
  the music; and married the man。  So I naturally
  suspected that Alice would do the same thing。
  In fact; I said so to her。  I was bold enough to
  even call the man by nameI hadn't been
  jealous of Arkwright for nothing; you seebut
  she denied it; and flew into such an indignant
  allegation that there wasn't a word of truth in it;
  that I had to sue for pardon before I got
  anything like peace。''
  ‘‘Oh…h!'' said Billy; in a disappointed voice;
  falling quite back in her chair this time。
  ‘‘And so that's why I'm wanting especially
  just now to see the wheels go 'round;'' smiled
  Calderwell; a little wistfully。  ‘‘Oh; I shall get
  over it; I suppose。  It isn't the first time; I'll
  ownbut some day I take it there will be a last
  time。  Enough of this; however!  You haven't
  told me a thing about yourself。  How about it?
  When I come back; are you going to give me a
  dinner cooked by your own fair hands?  Going
  to still play Bridget?''
  Billy laughed and shook her head。
  ‘‘No; far from it。  Eliza has come back; and
  her cousin from Vermont is coming as second girl
  to help her。  But I _could_ cook a dinner for you if
  I had to now; sir; and it wouldn't be potato…mush
  and cold lamb;'' she bragged shamelessly; as there
  sounded Bertram's peculiar ring; and the click of
  his key in the lock。
  It was the next afternoon that Billy called on
  Marie。  From Marie's; Billy went to the Annex;
  which was very near Cyril's new house; and there;
  in Aunt Hannah's room; she had what she told
  Bertram afterwards was a perfectly lovely visit。
  Aunt Hannah; too; enjoyed the visit very much;
  though yet there was one thing that disturbed
  herthe vaguely troubled look in Billy's eyes;
  which to…day was more apparent than ever。  Not
  until just before Billy went home did something
  occur to give Aunt Hannah a possible clue as to
  what was the meaning of it。  That something
  was a question from Billy。
  ‘‘Aunt Hannah; why don't I feel like Marie
  did? why don't I feel like everybody does in
  books and stories?  Marie went around with such
  a detached; heavenly; absorbed look in her eyes;
  before the twins came to her home。  But I don't。
  I don't find anything like that in my face; when I
  look in the glass。  And I don't feel detached and
  absorbed and heavenly。  I'm happy; of course;
  but I can't help thinking of the dear; dear times
  Bertram and I have together; just we two; and I
  can't seem to imagine it at all with a third person
  around。''
  ‘‘Billy!  _Third person_; indeed!''
  ‘‘There!  I knew 'twould shock you;'' mourned
  Billy。  It shocks me。  I _want_ to feel detached
  and heavenly and absorbed。''
  ‘‘But Billy; dear; think of itcalling your
  own baby a third person!''
  Billy sighed despairingly。
  ‘‘Yes; I know。  And I suppose I might as well
  own up to the rest of it too。  II'm actually afraid
  of babies; Aunt Hannah!  Well; I am;'' she
  reiterated; in answer to Aunt Hannah's gasp of
  disapproval。  ‘‘I'm not used to them at all。  I never
  had any little brothers and sisters; and I don't
  know how to treat babies。  II'm always afraid
  they'll break; or something。  I'm just as afraid
  of the twins as I can be。  How Marie can handle
  them; and toss them about as she does; I don't
  see。''
  ‘‘Toss them about; indeed!''
  ‘‘Well; it looks that way to me;'' sighed Billy。
  ‘‘Anyhow; I know I can never get to handle them
  like thatand that's no way to feel!  And I'm
  ashamed of myself because I _can't_ be detached
  and heavenly and absorbed;'' she added; rising
  to go。  ‘‘Everybody always is; it seems; but just
  me。''
  ‘‘Fiddlededee; my dear!'' scoffed Aunt Hannah;
  patting Billy's downcast face。  ‘‘Wait till a
  year from now; and we'll see about that third…
  person bugaboo you're worrying about。  _I'm_
  not worrying now; so you'd better not!''
  CHAPTER XXII
  A DOT AND A DIMPLE
  On the day Cyril Henshaw's twins were six
  months old; a momentous occurrence marked the
  date with a flaming red letter of remembrance;
  and it all began with a baby's smile。
  Cyril; in quest of his wife at about ten o'clock
  that morning; and not finding her; pursued his
  search even to the nurserya room he very
  seldom entered。  Cyril did not like to go into the
  nursery。  He felt ill at ease; and as if he were
  away from homeand Cyril was known to abhor
  being away from home since he was married。
  Now that Marie had taken over the reins of
  government again; he had been obliged to see very
  little of those strange women and babies。  Not
  but that he liked the babies; of course。  They were
  his sons; and he was proud of them。  They should
  have every advantage that college; special training;
  and travel could give them。  He quite
  anticipated what they would be to himwhen
  they really knew anything。  But; of course; _now_;
  when they could do nothing but cry and wave
  their absurd little fists; and wobble their heads