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prolonged absence from the Annex。 Coming as
it did so soon after her most disconcerting talk
with Billy in regard to her own relations with
him; it had filled her with frightened questionings。
If Billy had seen things to make her think of
linking their names together; perhaps Arkwright
himself had heard some such idea put forth
somewhere; and that was why he was staying
awayto show the world that there was no
foundation for such rumors。 Perhaps he was
even doing it to show _her_ that
Even in her thoughts Alice could scarcely
bring herself to finish the sentence。 That Arkwright
should ever suspect for a moment that
she cared for him was intolerable。 Painfully
conscious as she was that she did care for him;
it was easy to fear that others must be conscious
of it; too。 Had she not already proof that Billy
suspected it? Why; then; might not it be quite
possible; even probable; that Arkwright suspected
it; also; and; because he did suspect it; had
decided that it would be just as well; perhaps; if
he did not call so often。
In spite of Alice's angry insistence to herself
that; after all; this could not be the case
that the man _knew_ she understood he still loved
Billyshe could not help fearing; in the face
of Arkwright's unusual absence; that it might
yet be true。 When; therefore; he finally did
appear; only to become at once obviously embarrassed
in her presence; her fears instantly became
convictions。 It was true; then。 The man
did believe she cared for him; and he had been
trying to teach herto save her。
To teach her! To save her; indeed! Very
well; he should see! And forthwith; from that
moment; Alice Greggory's chief reason for living
became to prove to Mr。 M。 J。 Arkwright that
he needed not to teach her; to save her; nor yet
to sympathize with her。
‘‘How do you do?'' she greeted him; with a
particularly bright smile。 ‘‘I'm sure I _hope_ you
are well; such a beautiful day as this。''
‘‘Oh; yes; I'm well; I suppose。 Still; I have
felt better in my life;'' smiled Arkwright; with
some constraint。
‘‘Oh; I'm sorry;'' murmured the girl; striving
so hard to speak with impersonal unconcern that
she did not notice the inaptness of her reply。
‘‘Eh? Sorry I've felt better; are you?''
retorted Arkwright; with nervous humor。 Then;
because he was embarrassed; he said the one
thing he had meant not to say: ‘‘Don't you think
I'm quite a stranger? It's been some time since
I've been here。''
Alice; smarting under the sting of what she
judged to be the only possible cause for his
embarrassment; leaped to this new opportunity to
show her lack of interest。
‘‘Oh; has it?'' she murmured carelessly。
‘‘Well; I don't know but it has; now that I come
to think of it。''
Arkwright frowned gloomily。 A week ago he
would have tossed back a laughingly aggrieved
remark as to her unflattering indifference to his
presence。 Now he was in no mood for such
joking。 It was too serious a matter with him。
‘‘You've been busy; no doubt; withother
matters;'' he presumed forlornly; thinking of
Calderwell。
‘‘Yes; I have been busy;'' assented the girl。
‘‘One is always happier; I think; to be busy。
Not that I meant that I needed the work to _be_
happy;'' she added hastily; in a panic lest he
think she had a consuming sorrow to kill。
‘‘No; of course not;'' he murmured abstractedly;
rising to his feet and crossing the room to
the piano。 Then; with an elaborate air of trying
to appear very natural; he asked jovially:
‘‘Anything new to play to me?''
Alice arose at once。
‘‘Yes。 I have a little nocturne that I was
playing to Mr。 Calderwell last night。''
‘‘Oh; to Calderwell!'' Arkwright had stiffened
perceptibly。
‘‘Yes。 _He_ didn't like it。 I'll play it to you
and see what you say;'' she smiled; seating herself
at the piano。
‘‘Well; if he had liked it; it's safe to say I
shouldn't;'' shrugged Arkwright。
‘‘Nonsense!'' laughed the girl; beginning to
appear more like her natural self。 ‘‘I should
think you were Mr。 Cyril Henshaw! Mr。 Calderwell
_is_ partial to ragtime; I'll admit。 But there
are some good things he likes。''
‘‘There are; indeed; _some_ good things he likes;''
returned Arkwright; with grim emphasis; his
somber eyes fixed on what he believed to be the
one especial object of Calderwell's affections at
the moment。
Alice; unaware both of the melancholy gaze
bent upon herself and of the cause thereof;
laughed again merrily。
‘‘Poor Mr。 Calderwell;'' she cried; as she let her
fingers slide into soft; introductory chords。 ‘‘He
isn't to blame for not liking what he calls our lost
spirits that wail。 It's just the way he's made。''
Arkwright vouchsafed no reply。 With an
abrupt gesture he turned and began to pace the
room moodily。 At the piano Alice slipped from
the chords into the nocturne。 She played it
straight through; then; with a charm and skill
that brought Arkwright's feet to a pause before
it was half finished。
‘‘By George; that's great!'' he breathed; when
the last tone had quivered into silence。
‘‘Yes; isn't itbeautiful?'' she murmured。
The room was very quiet; and in semi…darkness。
The last rays of a late June sunset had been filling
the room with golden light; but it was gone now。
Even at the piano by the window; Alice had barely
been able to see clearly enough to read the notes
of her nocturne。
To Arkwright the air still trembled with the
exquisite melody that had but just left her fingers。
A quick fire came to his eyes。 He forgot everything
but that it was Alice there in the half…light
by the windowAlice; whom he loved。 With a
low cry he took a swift step toward her。
‘‘Alice!''
Instantly the girl was on her feet。 But it was
not toward him that she turned。 It was away
resolutely; and with a haste that was strangely
like terror。
Alice; too; had forgotten; for just a moment。
She had let herself drift into a dream world where
there was nothing but the music she was playing
and the man she loved。 Then the music had
stopped; and the man had spoken her name。
Alice remembered then。 She remembered Billy;
whom this man loved。 She remembered the long
days just passed when this man had stayed away;
presumably to teach _her_to save _her_。 And
now; at the sound of his voice speaking her name;
she had almost bared her heart to him。
No wonder that Alice; with a haste that looked
like terror; crossed the floor and flooded the room
with light。
‘‘Dear me!'' she shivered; carefully avoiding
Arkwright's eyes。 ‘‘If Mr。 Calderwell were here
now he'd have some excuse to talk about our lost
spirits that wail。 That _is_ a creepy piece of music
when you play it in the dark!'' And; for fear
that he should suspect how her heart was aching;
she gave a particularly brilliant and joyous smile。
Once again at the mention of Calderwell's name
Arkwright stiffened perceptibly。 The fire left
his eyes。 For a moment he did not speak; then;
gravely; he said:
‘‘Calderwell? Yes; perhaps he would; and
you ought to be a judge; I should think。 You see
him quite frequently; don't you?''
‘‘Why; yes; of course。 He often comes out
here; you know。''
‘‘Yes; I had heard that he didsince _you_
came。''
His meaning was unmistakable。 Alice looked
up quickly。 A prompt denial of his implication
was on her lips when the thought came to her
that perhaps just here lay a sure way to prove to
this man before her that there was; indeed; no
need for him to teach her; to save her; or yet to
sympathize with her。 She could not affirm; of
course; but she need not denyyet。
‘‘Nonsense!'' she laughed lightly; pleased that
she could feel what she hoped would pass for a
telltale color burning her cheeks。 ‘‘Come; let
us try some duets;'' she proposed; leading the
way to the piano。 And Arkwright; interpreting
the apparently embarrassed change of subject
exactly as she had hoped that he would interpret
it; followed her; sick at heart。
‘‘ ‘O wert thou in the cauld blast;' '' sang
Arkwright's lips a few moments later。
‘‘I can't tell her nowwhen I _know_ she cares
for Calderwell;'' gloomily ran his thoughts; the
while。 ‘‘It would do no possible good; and would
only make her unhappy to grieve me。''
‘‘ ‘O wert thou in the cauld blast;' '' chimed
in Alice's alto; low and sweet。
‘‘I reckon now he won't be staying away from
here any more just to _save_ me!'' ran Alice's
thoughts; palpitatingly triumphant。
CHAPTER XXI
BILLY TAKES HER TURN AT QUESTIONING
Arkwright did not call to see Alice Greggory
for some days。 He did not want to see Alice now。
He told himself wearily that she could not help
him fight this tiger skin that la