第 14 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2021-02-18 21:45      字数:9321
  then。  ‘‘Is this what you call staying to dinner;
  Bertram Henshaw?''
  Bertram stared。  A slow red stole to his
  forehead。  It was his first experience of coming home
  to meet angry eyes that questioned his behavior
  and he did not like it。  He had been; perhaps;
  a little conscience…smitten when he saw how late
  he had stayed; and he had intended to say he
  was sorry; of course。  But to be thus sharply
  called to account for a perfectly innocent good
  time with a couple of friends!  To come home
  and find Billy making a ridiculous scene like
  this!  Hehe would not stand for it!  He
  Bertram's lips snapped open。  The angry retort
  was almost spoken when something in the piteously
  quivering chin and white; drawn face opposite
  stopped it just in time。
  ‘‘Why; Billydarling!'' he murmured instead。
  It was Billy's turn to change。  All the anger
  melted away before the dismayed tenderness in
  those dear eyes and the grieved hurt in that dear
  voice。
  ‘‘Well; youyouI'' Billy began to cry。
  It was all right then; of course; for the next
  minute she was crying on Bertram's big; broad
  shoulder; and in the midst of broken words;
  kisses; gentle pats; and inarticulate croonings;
  the Big; Bad Quarrel; that had been all ready to
  materialize; faded quite away into nothingness。
  ‘‘I didn't have such an awfully good time; anyhow;
  avowed Bertram; when speech became
  rational。  ‘‘I'd rather have been home with you。''
  ‘‘Nonsense!'' blinked Billy; valiantly。  ‘‘Of
  course you had a good time; and it was perfectly
  right you should have it; too!  And II hope
  you'll have it again。''
  ‘‘I sha'n't;'' emphasized Bertram; promptly;
  ‘‘not and leave you!''
  Billy regarded him with adoring eyes。
  ‘‘I'll tell you; we'll have 'em come here;'' she
  proposed gayly。
  ‘‘Sure we will;'' agreed Bertram。
  ‘‘Yes; sure we will;'' echoed Billy; with a
  contented sigh。  Then; a little breathlessly; she
  added:  ‘‘Anyhow; I'll knowwhere you are。
  I won't think you'redead!''
  ‘‘Youblessedlittle…goose!'' scolded
  Bertram; punctuating each word with a kiss。
  Billy drew a long sigh。
  ‘‘If this is a quarrel I'm going to have them
  often;'' she announced placidly。
  ‘‘Billy!''  The young husband was plainly
  aghast。
  ‘‘Well; I ambecause I like the making…up;
  dimpled Billy; with a mischievous twinkle as she
  broke from his clasp and skipped ahead up the
  stairway。
  CHAPTER VIII
  BILLY CULTIVATES A ‘‘COMFORTABLE INDIFFERENCE''
  The next morning; under the uncompromising
  challenge of a bright sun; Billy began to be
  uneasily suspicious that she had been just a bit
  unreasonable and exacting the night before。  To
  make matters worse she chanced to run across a
  newspaper criticism of a new book bearing the
  ominous title:  ‘‘When the Honeymoon Wanes
  A Talk to Young Wives。''
  Such a title; of course; attracted her
  supersensitive attention at once; and; with a curiously
  faint feeling; she picked up the paper and began to
  read。
  As the most of the criticism was taken up with
  quotations from the book; it was such sentences
  as these that met her startled eyes:
  ‘‘Perhaps the first test comes when the young
  wife awakes to the realization that while her husband
  loves her very much; he can still make
  plans with his old friends which do not include
  herself。 。 。 。  Then is when the foolish wife lets
  her husband see how hurt she is that he can want
  to be with any one but herself。 。 。 。  Then is
  when the husbandused all his life to independence;
  perhapsbegins to chafe under these new
  bonds that hold him so fast。 。 。 。  No man likes
  to be held up at the end of a threatened scene and
  made to give an account of himself。 。 。 。  Before
  a woman has learned to cultivate a comfortable
  indifference to her husband's comings and goings;
  she is apt to be tyrannical and exacting。''
  ‘‘ ‘Comfortable indifference;' indeed!'' stormed
  Billy to herself。  ‘‘As if I ever could be comfortably
  indifferent to anything Bertram did!''
  She dropped the paper; but there were still
  other quotations from the book there; she knew;
  and in a moment she was back at the table reading them。
  ‘‘No man; however fondly he loves his wife;
  likes to feel that she is everlastingly peering into
  the recesses of his mind; and weighing his every
  act to find out if he does or does not love her to…
  day as well as he did yesterday at this time。 。 。 。
  Then; when spontaneity is dead; she is the chief
  mourner at its funeral。 。 。 。  A few couples never
  leave the Garden of Eden。  They grow old hand
  in hand。  They are the ones who bear and forbear;
  who have learned to adjust themselves to
  the intimate relationship of living together。 。 。 。
  A certain amount of liberty; both of action and
  thought; must be allowed on each side。 。 。 。  The
  family shut in upon itself grows so narrow that all
  interest in the outside world is lost。 。 。 。  No
  two people are ever fitted to fill each other's
  lives entirely。  They ought not to try to do it。
  If they do try; the process is belittling to each;
  and the result; if it is successful; is nothing less
  than a tragedy; for it could not mean the highest
  ideals; nor the truest devotion。 。 。 。  Brushing up
  against other interests and other personalities is
  good for both husband and wife。  Then to each
  other they bring the best of what they have
  found; and each to the other continues to be new
  and interesting。 。 。 。  The young wife; however;
  is apt to be jealous of everything that turns her
  husband's attention for one moment away from
  herself。  She is jealous of his thoughts; his words;
  his friends; even his business。 。 。 。  But the wife
  who has learned to be the clinging vine when her
  husband wishes her to cling; and to be the sturdy
  oak when clinging vines would be tiresome; has
  solved a tremendous problem。''
  At this point Billy dropped the paper。  She
  flung it down; indeed; a bit angrily。  There were
  still a few more words in the criticism; mostly the
  critic's own opinion of the book; but Billy did
  not care for this。  She had read quite enough
  boo much; in fact。  All that sort of talk might be
  very well; even necessary; perhaps (she told herself);
  for ordinary husbands and wives! but for
  her and Bertram
  Then vividly before her rose those initial quoted
  words:
  ‘‘Perhaps the first test comes when the young
  wife awakes to the realization that while her husband
  loves her very much; he can still make
  plans with his old friends which do not include
  herself。''
  Billy frowned; and put her finger to her lips。
  Was that then; last night; a ‘‘test''?  Had she
  been ‘‘tyrannical and exacting''?  Was she
  ‘‘everlastingly peering into the recesses'' of Bertram's
  mind and ‘‘weighing his every act''?
  Was Bertram already beginning to ‘‘chafe''
  under these new bonds that held him?
  No; no; never that!  She could not believe that。
  But what if he should sometime begin to chafe?
  What if they two should; in days to come;
  degenerate into just the ordinary; everyday married
  folk; whom she saw about her everywhere; and
  for whom just such horrid books as this must be
  written?  It was unbelievable; unthinkable。  And
  yet; that man had said
  With a despairing sigh Billy picked up the paper
  once more and read carefully every word again。
  When she had finished she stood soberly thoughtful;
  her eyes out of the window。
  After all; it was nothing but the same old story。
  She was exacting。  She did want her husband's
  every thought。  She _gloried_ in peering into every
  last recess of his mind if she had half a chance。
  She was jealous of his work。  She had almost
  hated his paintingat times。  She had held him
  up with a threatened scene only the night before
  and demanded that he should give an account
  of himself。  She had; very likely; been the clinging
  vine when she should have been the sturdy
  oak。
  Very well; then。  (Billy lifted her head and
  threw back her shoulders。)  He should have no
  further cause for complaint。  She would be an
  oak。  She would cultivate that comfortable
  indifference to his comings and goings。  She would
  brush up against other interests and personalities
  so as to be ‘‘new'' and ‘‘interesting'' to her
  husband。  She would not be tyrannical; exacting;
  or jealous。  She would not threaten scenes; nor
  peer into recesses。  Whatever happened; she
  would not let Bertram begin to chafe against
  those bonds!
  Having arrived at this heroic and (to her)
  eminently satisfactory state of mind; Billy turned
  from the window and fell to work on a piece of
  manuscript music。
  ‘‘ ‘Brush up against other interests;' '' she
  admonished herself sternly; as she reached for her
  pen。
  Theoretically it was beautiful; but practically
  Billy began at once to be that oak。  Not an
  hour after she had