第 13 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2021-02-18 21:45      字数:9321
  Assuming a look of absorbed interest she twitched
  the book open and held it before her face。 。 。 。
  But the step passed by the door: and Billy saw
  then that her book was upside down。
  Five; ten; fifteen more minutes passed。  Billy
  still sat; apparently reading; though she had not
  turned a page。  The book now; however; was
  right side up。  One by one other minutes passed
  till the great clock in the hall struck nine long
  strokes。
  ‘‘Well; well; bless my soul!'' mumbled Uncle
  William; resolutely forcing himself to wake up。
  ‘‘What time was that?''
  ‘‘Nine o'clock。''  Billy spoke with tragic
  distinctness; yet very cheerfully。
  ‘‘Eh?  Only nine?'' blinked Uncle William。
  ‘‘I thought it must be ten。  Well; anyhow; I
  believe I'll go up…stairs。  I seem to be unusually
  sleepy。''
  Billy said nothing。  ‘‘ ‘Only nine;' indeed!''
  she was thinking wrathfully。
  At the door Uncle William turned。
  ‘‘You're not going to sit up; my dear; of
  course;'' he remarked。
  For the second time that evening a cold hand
  seemed to clutch Billy's heart。
  _Sit up!_  Had it come already to that?  Was
  she even now a wife who had need to _sit up_ for
  her husband?
  ‘‘I really wouldn't; my dear;'' advised Uncle
  William again。  ‘‘Good night。''
  ‘‘Oh; but I'm not sleepy at all; yet;'' Billy
  managed to declare brightly。  ‘‘Good night。''
  Then Uncle William went up…stairs。
  Billy turned to her book; which happened to
  be one of William's on ‘‘Fake Antiques。''
  ‘‘ ‘To collect anything; these days; requires
  expert knowledge; and the utmost care and
  discrimination;' '' read Billy's eyes。  ‘‘So Uncle
  William _expected_ Bertram was going to spend the
  whole evening as well as stay to dinner!'' ran
  Billy's thoughts。  ‘‘ ‘The enormous quantity of
  bijouterie; Dresden and Battersea enamel ware
  that is now flooding the market; is made on the
  Continentand made chiefly for the American
  trade;' '' continued the book。
  ‘‘Well; who cares if it is;'' snapped Billy; springing
  to her feet and tossing the volume aside。
  ‘‘Spunkie; come here!  You've simply got to
  play with me。  Do you hear?  I want to be gay
  _gay_GAY!  He's gay。  He's down there with
  those men; where he wants to be。  Where he'd
  _rather_ be than be with me!  Do you think I want
  him to come home and find me moping over a
  stupid old book?  Not much!  I'm going to have
  him find me gay; too。  Now; come; Spunkie;
  hurrywake up!  He'll be here right away; I'm
  sure。''  And Billy shook a pair of worsted reins;
  hung with little soft balls; full in Spunkie's face。
  But Spunkie would not wake up; and Spunkie
  would not play。  She pretended to。  She bit at
  the reins; and sank her sharp claws into the
  dangling balls。  For a fleeting instant; even;
  something like mischief gleamed in her big yellow eyes。
  Then the jaws relaxed; the paws turned to velvet;
  and Spunkie's sleek gray head settled slowly back
  into lazy comfort。  Spunkie was asleep。
  Billy gazed at the cat with reproachful eyes。
  ‘‘And you; too; Spunkie;'' she murmured。
  Then she got to her feet and went back to her
  chair。  This time she picked up a magazine and
  began to turn the leaves very fast; one after another。
  Half…past nine came; then ten。  Pete appeared
  at the door to get Spunkie; and to see that everything
  was all right for the night。
  ‘‘Mr。 Bertram is not in yet?'' he began doubtfully。
  Billy shook her head with a bright smile。
  ‘‘No; Pete。  Go to bed。  I expect him every
  minute。  Good night。''
  ‘‘Thank you; ma'am。  Good night。''
  The old man picked up the sleepy cat and went
  down…stairs。  A little later Billy heard his quiet
  steps coming back through the hall and ascending
  the stairs。  She listened until from away at the
  top of the house she heard his door close。  Then
  she drew a long breath。
  Ten o'clockafter ten o'clock; and Bertram
  not there yet!  And was this what he called dinner?
  Did one eat; then; till ten o'clock; when one
  dined with one's friends?
  Billy was angry nowvery angry。  She was
  too angry to be reasonable。  This thing that her
  husband had done seemed monstrous to her;
  smarting; as she was; under the sting of hurt
  pride and grieved lonelinessthe state of mind
  into which she had worked herself。  No longer
  now did she wish to be gay when her husband
  came。  No longer did she even pretend to assume
  indifference。  Bertram had done wrong。  He had
  been unkind; cruel; thoughtless; inconsiderate of
  her comfort and happiness。  Furthermore he _did
  not_ love her as well as she did him or he never;
  never could have done it!  She would let him see;
  when he came; just how hurt and grieved she was
  and how disappointed; too。
  Billy was walking the floor now; back and forth;
  back and forth。
  Half…past ten came; then eleven。  As the eleven
  long strokes reverberated through the silent
  house Billy drew in her breath and held it suspended。
  A new look came to her eyes。  A growing
  terror crept into them and culminated in a
  frightened stare at the clock。
  Billy ran then to the great outer door and pulled
  it open。  A cold wind stung her face; and caused
  her to shut the door quickly。  Back and forth she
  began to pace the floor again; but in five minutes
  she had run to the door once more。  This time
  she wore a heavy coat of Bertram's which she
  caught up as she passed the hall…rack。
  Out on to the broad top step Billy hurried; and
  peered down the street。  As far as she could see
  not a person was in sight。  Across the street in
  the Public Garden the wind stirred the gray
  tree…branches and set them to casting weird
  shadows on the bare; frozen ground。  A warning
  something behind her sent Billy scurrying into
  the house just in time to prevent the heavy door's
  closing and shutting her out; keyless; in the cold。
  Half…past eleven came; and again Billy ran to
  the door。  This time she put the floor…mat against
  the casing so that the door could not close。  Once
  more she peered wildly up and down the street;
  and across into the deserted; wind…swept Garden。
  There was only terror now in Billy's face。  The
  anger was all gone。  In Billy's mind there was not
  a shadow of doubtsomething had happened to
  Bertram。
  Bertram was illhurtdead!  And he was
  so good; so kind; so noble; such a dear; dear
  husband!  If only she could see him once。  If only
  she could ask his forgiveness for those wicked;
  unkind; accusing thoughts。  If only she could
  tell him again that she did love him。  If only
  Far down the street a step rang sharply on the
  frosty air。  A masculine figure was hurrying toward
  the house。  Retreating well into the shadow of the
  doorway; Billy watched it; her heart pounding
  against her side in great suffocating throbs。
  Nearer and nearer strode the approaching figure
  until Billy had almost sprung to meet it with a
  glad cryalmost; but not quite; for the figure
  neither turned nor paused; but marched straight
  onand Billy saw then; under the arc light; a
  brown…bearded man who was not Bertram at all。
  Three times during the next few minutes did
  the waiting little bride on the doorstep watch
  with palpitating yearning a shadowy form appear;
  approachand pass by。  At the third
  heart…breaking disappointment; Billy wrung her
  hands helplessly。
  ‘‘I don't see how there can beso many
  utterly _useless_ people in the world!'' she choked。
  Then; thoroughly chilled and sick at heart; she
  went into the house and closed the door。
  Once again; back and forth; back and forth;
  Billy took up her weary vigil。  She still wore the
  heavy coat。  She had forgotten to take it off。
  Her face was pitifully white and drawn。  Her
  eyes were wild。  One of her hands was nervously
  caressing the rough sleeve of the coat as it hung
  from her shoulder。
  Onetwothree
  Billy gave a sharp cry and ran into the hall。
  Yes; it was twelve o'clock。  And now; always;
  all the rest of the dreary; useless hours that that
  clock would tick away through an endless existence;
  she would have to livewithout Bertram。
  If only she could see him once more!  But she
  could not。  He was dead。  He must be dead; now。
  Here it was twelve o'clock; and
  There came a quick step; the click of a key in
  the lock; then the door swung back and Bertram;
  big; strong; and merry…eyed; stood before her。
  ‘‘Well; well; hullo;'' he called jovially。  Why;
  Billy; what's the matter?'' he broke off; in quite
  a different tone of voice。
  And then a curious thing happened。  Billy;
  who; a minute before; had been seeing only a dear;
  noble; adorable; _lost_ Bertram; saw now suddenly
  only the man that had stayed _happily_ till midnight
  with two friends; while sheshe
  ‘‘Matter!  Matter!'' exclaimed Billy sharply;
  then。  ‘‘Is this what you call staying to dinner;
  Bertram Henshaw?''
  Bertram