第 13 节
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Assuming a look of absorbed interest she twitched
the book open and held it before her face。 。 。 。
But the step passed by the door: and Billy saw
then that her book was upside down。
Five; ten; fifteen more minutes passed。 Billy
still sat; apparently reading; though she had not
turned a page。 The book now; however; was
right side up。 One by one other minutes passed
till the great clock in the hall struck nine long
strokes。
‘‘Well; well; bless my soul!'' mumbled Uncle
William; resolutely forcing himself to wake up。
‘‘What time was that?''
‘‘Nine o'clock。'' Billy spoke with tragic
distinctness; yet very cheerfully。
‘‘Eh? Only nine?'' blinked Uncle William。
‘‘I thought it must be ten。 Well; anyhow; I
believe I'll go up…stairs。 I seem to be unusually
sleepy。''
Billy said nothing。 ‘‘ ‘Only nine;' indeed!''
she was thinking wrathfully。
At the door Uncle William turned。
‘‘You're not going to sit up; my dear; of
course;'' he remarked。
For the second time that evening a cold hand
seemed to clutch Billy's heart。
_Sit up!_ Had it come already to that? Was
she even now a wife who had need to _sit up_ for
her husband?
‘‘I really wouldn't; my dear;'' advised Uncle
William again。 ‘‘Good night。''
‘‘Oh; but I'm not sleepy at all; yet;'' Billy
managed to declare brightly。 ‘‘Good night。''
Then Uncle William went up…stairs。
Billy turned to her book; which happened to
be one of William's on ‘‘Fake Antiques。''
‘‘ ‘To collect anything; these days; requires
expert knowledge; and the utmost care and
discrimination;' '' read Billy's eyes。 ‘‘So Uncle
William _expected_ Bertram was going to spend the
whole evening as well as stay to dinner!'' ran
Billy's thoughts。 ‘‘ ‘The enormous quantity of
bijouterie; Dresden and Battersea enamel ware
that is now flooding the market; is made on the
Continentand made chiefly for the American
trade;' '' continued the book。
‘‘Well; who cares if it is;'' snapped Billy; springing
to her feet and tossing the volume aside。
‘‘Spunkie; come here! You've simply got to
play with me。 Do you hear? I want to be gay
_gay_GAY! He's gay。 He's down there with
those men; where he wants to be。 Where he'd
_rather_ be than be with me! Do you think I want
him to come home and find me moping over a
stupid old book? Not much! I'm going to have
him find me gay; too。 Now; come; Spunkie;
hurrywake up! He'll be here right away; I'm
sure。'' And Billy shook a pair of worsted reins;
hung with little soft balls; full in Spunkie's face。
But Spunkie would not wake up; and Spunkie
would not play。 She pretended to。 She bit at
the reins; and sank her sharp claws into the
dangling balls。 For a fleeting instant; even;
something like mischief gleamed in her big yellow eyes。
Then the jaws relaxed; the paws turned to velvet;
and Spunkie's sleek gray head settled slowly back
into lazy comfort。 Spunkie was asleep。
Billy gazed at the cat with reproachful eyes。
‘‘And you; too; Spunkie;'' she murmured。
Then she got to her feet and went back to her
chair。 This time she picked up a magazine and
began to turn the leaves very fast; one after another。
Half…past nine came; then ten。 Pete appeared
at the door to get Spunkie; and to see that everything
was all right for the night。
‘‘Mr。 Bertram is not in yet?'' he began doubtfully。
Billy shook her head with a bright smile。
‘‘No; Pete。 Go to bed。 I expect him every
minute。 Good night。''
‘‘Thank you; ma'am。 Good night。''
The old man picked up the sleepy cat and went
down…stairs。 A little later Billy heard his quiet
steps coming back through the hall and ascending
the stairs。 She listened until from away at the
top of the house she heard his door close。 Then
she drew a long breath。
Ten o'clockafter ten o'clock; and Bertram
not there yet! And was this what he called dinner?
Did one eat; then; till ten o'clock; when one
dined with one's friends?
Billy was angry nowvery angry。 She was
too angry to be reasonable。 This thing that her
husband had done seemed monstrous to her;
smarting; as she was; under the sting of hurt
pride and grieved lonelinessthe state of mind
into which she had worked herself。 No longer
now did she wish to be gay when her husband
came。 No longer did she even pretend to assume
indifference。 Bertram had done wrong。 He had
been unkind; cruel; thoughtless; inconsiderate of
her comfort and happiness。 Furthermore he _did
not_ love her as well as she did him or he never;
never could have done it! She would let him see;
when he came; just how hurt and grieved she was
and how disappointed; too。
Billy was walking the floor now; back and forth;
back and forth。
Half…past ten came; then eleven。 As the eleven
long strokes reverberated through the silent
house Billy drew in her breath and held it suspended。
A new look came to her eyes。 A growing
terror crept into them and culminated in a
frightened stare at the clock。
Billy ran then to the great outer door and pulled
it open。 A cold wind stung her face; and caused
her to shut the door quickly。 Back and forth she
began to pace the floor again; but in five minutes
she had run to the door once more。 This time
she wore a heavy coat of Bertram's which she
caught up as she passed the hall…rack。
Out on to the broad top step Billy hurried; and
peered down the street。 As far as she could see
not a person was in sight。 Across the street in
the Public Garden the wind stirred the gray
tree…branches and set them to casting weird
shadows on the bare; frozen ground。 A warning
something behind her sent Billy scurrying into
the house just in time to prevent the heavy door's
closing and shutting her out; keyless; in the cold。
Half…past eleven came; and again Billy ran to
the door。 This time she put the floor…mat against
the casing so that the door could not close。 Once
more she peered wildly up and down the street;
and across into the deserted; wind…swept Garden。
There was only terror now in Billy's face。 The
anger was all gone。 In Billy's mind there was not
a shadow of doubtsomething had happened to
Bertram。
Bertram was illhurtdead! And he was
so good; so kind; so noble; such a dear; dear
husband! If only she could see him once。 If only
she could ask his forgiveness for those wicked;
unkind; accusing thoughts。 If only she could
tell him again that she did love him。 If only
Far down the street a step rang sharply on the
frosty air。 A masculine figure was hurrying toward
the house。 Retreating well into the shadow of the
doorway; Billy watched it; her heart pounding
against her side in great suffocating throbs。
Nearer and nearer strode the approaching figure
until Billy had almost sprung to meet it with a
glad cryalmost; but not quite; for the figure
neither turned nor paused; but marched straight
onand Billy saw then; under the arc light; a
brown…bearded man who was not Bertram at all。
Three times during the next few minutes did
the waiting little bride on the doorstep watch
with palpitating yearning a shadowy form appear;
approachand pass by。 At the third
heart…breaking disappointment; Billy wrung her
hands helplessly。
‘‘I don't see how there can beso many
utterly _useless_ people in the world!'' she choked。
Then; thoroughly chilled and sick at heart; she
went into the house and closed the door。
Once again; back and forth; back and forth;
Billy took up her weary vigil。 She still wore the
heavy coat。 She had forgotten to take it off。
Her face was pitifully white and drawn。 Her
eyes were wild。 One of her hands was nervously
caressing the rough sleeve of the coat as it hung
from her shoulder。
Onetwothree
Billy gave a sharp cry and ran into the hall。
Yes; it was twelve o'clock。 And now; always;
all the rest of the dreary; useless hours that that
clock would tick away through an endless existence;
she would have to livewithout Bertram。
If only she could see him once more! But she
could not。 He was dead。 He must be dead; now。
Here it was twelve o'clock; and
There came a quick step; the click of a key in
the lock; then the door swung back and Bertram;
big; strong; and merry…eyed; stood before her。
‘‘Well; well; hullo;'' he called jovially。 Why;
Billy; what's the matter?'' he broke off; in quite
a different tone of voice。
And then a curious thing happened。 Billy;
who; a minute before; had been seeing only a dear;
noble; adorable; _lost_ Bertram; saw now suddenly
only the man that had stayed _happily_ till midnight
with two friends; while sheshe
‘‘Matter! Matter!'' exclaimed Billy sharply;
then。 ‘‘Is this what you call staying to dinner;
Bertram Henshaw?''
Bertram