第 11 节
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  turned; but he could not see her face distinctly。
  Twilight had come; and the room was full of
  shadows。  He hesitated; then went on; a little
  more quietly。
  ‘‘That's why I've told you all thisso you
  would help me。  And you will; won't you?''
  There was no answer。  Once again he tried to
  see her face; but it was turned now quite away
  from him。
  ‘‘You've been a big help already; little girl。
  Your friendship; your comradeshipthey've
  been everything to me。  You're not going to make
  me do without themnow?''
  ‘‘Nooh; no!'' The answer was low and a
  little breathless; but he heard it。
  ‘‘Thank you。  I knew you wouldn't。''  He
  paused; then rose to his feet。  When he spoke
  again his voice carried a note of whimsical
  lightness that was a little forced。  ‘‘But I must go
  else you _will_ take them from me; and with good
  reason。  And please don't let your kind heart
  grieve too muchover me。  I'm no deep…dyed
  villain in a melodrama; nor wicked lover in a ten…
  penny novel; you know。  I'm just an everyday
  man in real life; and we're going to fight this thing
  out in everyday living。  That's where your help
  is coming in。  We'll go together to see Mrs。 Bertram
  Henshaw。  She's asked us to; and you'll do
  it; I know。  We'll have music and everyday talk。
  We'll see Mrs。 Bertram Henshaw in her own home
  with her husband; where she belongs; andI'm
  not going to run again。  ButI'm counting on
  your help; you know;'' he smiled a little wistfully;
  as he held out his hand in good…by。
  One minute later Alice Greggory; alone; was
  hurrying up…stairs。
  ‘‘I can'tI can'tI know I can't;'' she was
  whispering wildly。  Then; in her own room; she
  faced herself in the mirror。  ‘‘Yesyoucan;
  Alice Greggory;'' she asserted; with swift change
  of voice and manner。  ‘‘This is _your_ tiger skin;
  and you're going to fight it。  Do you understand?
  fight it!  And you're going to win; too。  Do you
  want that man to know you_care_?''
  CHAPTER VI
  ‘‘THE PAINTING LOOK''
  It was toward the last of October that Billy
  began to notice her husband's growing restlessness。
  Twice; when she had been playing to him;
  she turned to find him testing the suppleness of
  his injured arm。  Several times; failing to receive
  an answer to her questions; she had looked up to
  discover him gazing abstractedly at nothing in
  particular。
  They read and walked and talked together; to
  be sure; and Bertram's devotion to her lightest
  wish was beyond question; but more and more
  frequently these days Billy found him hovering
  over his sketches in his studio; and once; when he
  failed to respond to the dinner…bell; search
  revealed him buried in a profound treatise on ‘‘The
  Art of Foreshortening。''
  Then came the day when Billy; after an hour's
  vain effort to imprison within notes a tantalizing
  melody; captured the truant and rain down to the
  studio to tell Bertram of her victory。
  But Bertram did not seem even to hear her。
  True; he leaped to his feet and hurried to meet her;
  his face radiantly aglow; but she had not ceased
  to speak before he himself was talking。
  ‘‘Billy; Billy; I've been sketching;'' he cried。
  ‘‘My hand is almost steady。  See; some of those
  lines are all right!  I just picked up a crayon
  and''  He stopped abruptly; his eyes on Billy's
  face。  A vaguely troubled shadow crossed his
  own。  ‘‘Diddid youwere you saying anything
  inin particular; when you came in?'' he
  stammered。
  For a short half…minute Billy looked at her
  husband without speaking。  Then; a little queerly;
  she laughed。
  ‘‘Oh; no; nothing at all in _particular_;'' she
  retorted airily。  The next moment; with one of her
  unexpected changes of manner; she darted across
  the room; picked up a palette; and a handful of
  brushes from the long box near it。  Advancing
  toward her husband she held them out dramatically。
  ‘‘And now paint; my lord; paint!'' she
  commanded him; with stern insistence; as she
  thrust them into his hands。
  Bertram laughed shamefacedly。
  ‘‘Oh; I say; Billy;'' he began; but Billy had
  gone。
  Out in the hall Billy was speeding up…stairs;
  talking fiercely to herself。
  ‘‘We'll; Billy Neilson Henshaw; it's come!
  Now behave yourself。  _That was the painting look!_
  You know what that means。  Remember; he belongs
  to his Art before he does to you。  Kate and
  everybody says so。  And youyou expected
  him to tend to you and your silly little songs。  Do
  you want to ruin his career?  As if now he could
  spend all his time and give all his thoughts to
  you!  But II just hate that Art!''
  ‘‘What did you say; Billy?'' asked William; in
  mild surprise; coming around the turn of the
  balustrade in the hall above。  ‘‘Were you speaking
  to me; my dear?''
  Billy looked up。  Her face cleared suddenly;
  and she laughedthough a little ruefully。
  ‘‘No; Uncle William; I wasn't talking to you;''
  she sighed。  ‘‘I was justjust administering
  first aid to the injured;'' she finished; as she
  whisked into her own room。
  ‘‘Well; well; bless the child!  What can she
  mean by that?'' puzzled Uncle William; turning
  to go down the stairway。
  Bertram began to paint a very little the next
  day。  He painted still more the next; and yet more
  again the day following。  He was like a bird let
  out of a cage; so joyously alive was he。  The old
  sparkle came back to his eye; the old gay smile to
  his lips。  Now that they had come back Billy
  realized what she had not been conscious of
  before: that for several weeks past they had not
  been there; and she wondered which hurt the
  morethat they had not been there before; or
  that they were there now。  Then she scolded
  herself roundly for asking the question at all。
  They were not easythose days for Billy;
  though always to Bertram she managed to show
  a cheerfully serene face。  To Uncle William; also;
  and to Aunt Hannah she showed a smiling countenance;
  and because she could not talk to anybody
  else of her feelings; she talked to herself。
  This; however; was no new thing for Billy to do
  From earliest childhood she had fought things out
  in like manner。
  ‘‘But it's so absurd of you; Billy Henshaw;''
  she berated herself one day; when Bertram had
  become so absorbed in his work that he had
  forgotten to keep his appointment with her for a
  walk。  ‘‘Just because you have had his constant
  attention almost every hour since you were married
  is no reason why you should have it every
  hour now; when his arm is better!  Besides; it's
  exactly what you said you wouldn't doobject
  to his giving proper time to his work。''
  ‘‘But I'm not objecting;'' stormed the other
  half of herself。  ‘‘I'm _telling_ him to do it。  It's
  only that he's soso _pleased_ to do it。  He doesn't
  seem to mind a bit being away from me。  He's
  actually happy!''
  ‘‘Well; don't you want him to be happy in his
  work?  Fie!  For shame!  A fine artist's wife you
  are。  It seems Kate was right; then; you _are_ going
  to spoil his career!''
  ‘‘Ho!'' quoth Billy; and tossed her head。
  Forthwith she crossed the room to her piano and
  plumped herself down hard on to the stool。  Then;
  from under her fingers there fell a rollicking melody
  that seemed to fill the room with little dancing
  feet。  Faster and faster sped Billy's fingers;
  swifter and swifter twinkled the little dancing
  feet。  Then a door was jerked open; and Bertram's
  voice called:
  ‘‘Billy!''
  The music stopped instantly。  Billy sprang from
  her seat; her eyes eagerly seeking the direction
  from which had come the voice。  Perhaps_perhaps_
  Bertram wanted her。  Perhaps he was not
  going to paint any longer that morning; after all。
  ‘‘Billy!'' called the voice again。  ‘‘Please; do
  you mind stopping that playing just for a little
  while?  I'm a brute; I know; dear; but my brush
  _will_ try to keep time with that crazy little tune of
  yours; and you know my hand is none too steady;
  anyhow; and when it tries to keep up with that
  jiggety; jig; jig; jiggety; jig; jig!  _Do_ you mind;;
  darling; justjust sewing; or doing something
  still for a while?''
  All the light fled from Billy's face; but her voice;
  when she spoke; was the quintessence of cheery
  indifference。
  ‘‘Why; no; of course not; dear。''
  ‘‘Thank you。  I knew you wouldn't;'' sighed
  Bertram。  Then the door shut。
  For a long minute Billy stood motionless before
  she glanced at her watch and sped to the telephone。
  ‘‘Is Miss Greggory there; Rosa?'' she called
  when the operator's ring was answered。
  ‘‘Mis' Greggory; the lame one?''
  ‘‘No; _Miss_ GreggoryMiss Alice。''
  ‘‘Oh!  Yes'm。''
  ‘‘Then won't you ask her to come to the telephone;
  please。''
  There was a moment's wait; during which Billy's
  small; well…shod foot beat a nervous tattoo on
  the floor。
  ‘‘Oh; is that you; Alice?'' she called then。