第 10 节
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he had left her presence in white…faced; stony…
eyed misery after declaring his love for her; and
learning of her engagement to Bertram。 Since
then; she knew; he had been much with his old
friend; Alice Greggory。 She did not believe;
should she see him now; that he would be either
white…faced; or stony…eyed。 His heart; she was
sure; had gone where it ought to have gone in the
first placeto Alice。 Such being; in her opinion;
the case; she longed to get the embarrassment
of a first meeting between themselves over
with; for; after that; she was sure; their old
friendship could be renewed; and she would be in a
position to further this pretty love affair between
him and Alice。 Very decidedly; therefore; Billy
wished to meet Arkwright。 Very pleased; consequently;
was she when; one day; coming into the
living…room at the Annex; she found the man
sitting by the fire。
Arkwright was on his feet at once。
‘‘MissMrs。 HHenshaw;'' he stammered
‘‘Oh; Mr。 Arkwright;'' she cried; with just a
shade of nervousness in her voice as she advanced;
her hand outstretched。 ‘‘I'm glad to see you。''
‘‘Thank you。 I wanted to see Miss Greggory;''
he murmured。 Then; as the unconscious rudeness
of his reply dawned on him; he made matters
infinitely worse by an attempted apology。 ‘‘That
is; I meanI didn't mean'' he began to
stammer miserably。
Some girls might have tossed the floundering
man a straw in the shape of a light laugh intended
to turn aside all embarrassmentbut not Billy。
Billy held out a frankly helping hand that was
meant to set the man squarely on his feet at her
side。
‘‘Mr。 Arkwright; don't; please;'' she begged
earnestly。 ‘‘You and I don't need to beat about
the bush。 I _am_ glad to see you; and I hope you're
glad to see me。 We're going to be the best of
friends from now on; I'm sure; and some day;
soon; you're going to bring Alice to see me; and
we'll have some music。 I left her up…stairs。 She'll
be down at once; I dare sayI met Rosa going
up with your card。 Good…by;'' she finished with
a bright smile; as she turned and walked rapidly
from the room。
Outside; on the steps; Billy drew a long
breath。
‘‘There;'' she whispered; ‘‘that's overand
well over!'' The next minute she frowned vexedly。
She had missed her glove。 ‘‘Never mind!
I sha'n't go back in there for it now; anyway;''
she decided。
In the living…room; five minutes later; Alice
Greggory found only a hastily scrawled note
waiting for her。
‘‘If you'll forgive the unforgivable;'' she read
‘‘you'll forgive me for not being here when you
come down。 ‘Circumstances over which I have
no control have called me away。' May we let
it go at that?
M。 J。 ARKWRIGHT。
As Alice Greggory's amazed; questioning eyes
left the note they fell upon the long white glove
on the floor by the door。 Half mechanically she
crossed the room and picked it up; but almost at
once she dropped it with a low cry。
‘‘Billy! HesawBilly!'' Then a flood
of understanding dyed her face scarlet as she
turned and fled to the blessedly unseeing walls
of her own room。
Not ten minutes later Rosa tapped at her door
with a note。
‘‘It's from Mr。 Arkwright; Miss。 He's downstairs。''
Rosa's eyes were puzzled; and a bit
startled。
‘‘Mr。 Arkwright!''
‘‘Yes; Miss。 He's come again。 That is; I
didn't know he'd wentbut he must have; for
he's come again now。 He wrote something in a
little book; then he tore it out and gave it to me。
He said he'd wait; please; for an answer。''
‘‘Oh; very well; Rosa。''
Miss Greggory took the note and spoke with
an elaborate air of indifference that was meant to
express a calm ignoring of the puzzled questioning
in the other's eyes。 The next moment she read
this in Arkwright's peculiar scrawl:
‘‘If you've already forgiven the unforgivable;
you'll do it again; I know; and come down…stairs。
Won't you; please? I want to see you。''
Miss Greggory lifted her head with a jerk。
Her face was a painful red。
‘‘Tell Mr。 Arkwright I can't possibly'' She
came to an abrupt pause。 Her eyes had encountered
Rosa's; and in Rosa's eyes the puzzled questioning
was plainly fast becoming a shrewd suspicion。
There was the briefest of hesitations; then;
lightly; Miss Greggory tossed the note aside。
‘‘Tell Mr。 Arkwright I'll be down at once;
please;'' she directed carelessly; as she turned
back into the room。
But she was not down at once。 She was not
down until she had taken time to bathe her red
eyes; powder her telltale nose; smoothe her ruffled
hair; and whip herself into the calm; steady…eyed;
self…controlled young woman that Arkwright
finally rose to meet when she came into the room。
‘‘I thought it was only women who were privileged
to change their mind;'' she began brightly;
but Arkwright ignored her attempt to conventionalize
the situation。
‘‘Thank you for coming down;'' he said; with
a weariness that instantly drove the forced smile
from the girl's lips。 ‘‘II wanted toto talk
to you。''
‘‘Yes?'' She seated herself and motioned him
to a chair near her。 He took the seat; and then
fell silent; his eyes out the window。
‘‘I thought you said youyou wanted to
talk; she reminded him nervously; after a
minute。
‘‘I did。'' He turned with disconcerting abruptness。
‘‘Alice; I'm going to tell you a story。''
I shall be glad to listen。 People always like
stories; don't they?''
‘‘Do they?'' The somber pain in Arkwright's
eyes deepened。 Alice Greggory did not know it;
but he was thinking of another story he had once
told in that same room。 Billy was his listener
then; while now A little precipitately he began
to speak。
‘‘When I was a very small boy I went to visit
my uncle; who; in his young days; had been quite
a hunter。 Before the fireplace in his library was
a huge tiger skin with a particularly lifelike head。
The first time I saw it I screamed; and ran and
hid。 I refused then even to go into the room
again。 My cousins urged; scolded; pleaded; and
laughed at me by turns; but I was obdurate。 I
would not go where I could see the fearsome thing
again; even though it was; as they said; ‘nothing
but a dead old rug!'
‘‘Finally; one day; my uncle took a hand in the
matter。 By sheer will…power he forced me to go
with him straight up to the dreaded creature; and
stand by its side。 He laid one of my shrinking
hands on the beast's smooth head; and thrust
the other one quite into the open red mouth with
its gleaming teeth。
‘‘ ‘You see;' he said; ‘there's absolutely nothing
to fear。 He can't possibly hurt you。 Just as
if you weren't bigger and finer and stronger in
every way than that dead thing on the floor!'
‘‘Then; when he had got me to the point where
of my own free will I would walk up and touch
the thing; he drew a lesson for me。
‘‘ ‘Now remember;' he charged me。 ‘Never
run and hide again。 Only cowards do that。
Walk straight up and face the thing。 Ten to one
you'll find it's nothing but a dead skin masquerading
as the real thing。 Even if it isn't if it's
aliveface it。 Find a weapon and fight it。
Know that you are going to conquer it and
you'll conquer。 Never run。 Be a man。 Men
don't run; my boy!' ''
Arkwright paused; and drew a long breath。 He
did not look at the girl in the opposite chair。 If
he had looked he would have seen a face transfigured。
‘‘Well;'' he resumed; ‘‘I never forgot that tiger
skin; nor what it stood for; after that day when
Uncle Ben thrust my hand into its hideous; but
harmless; red mouth。 Even as a kid I began;
then; to trynot to run。 I've tried ever since
But to…dayI did run。''
Arkwright's voice had been getting lower and
lower。 The last three words would have been
almost inaudible to ears less sensitively alert than
were Alice Greggory's。 For a moment after the
words were uttered; only the clock's ticking broke
the silence; then; with an obvious effort; the man
roused himself; as if breaking away from some
benumbing force that held him。
‘‘Alice; I don't need to tell you; after what I
said the other night; that I loved Billy Neilson。
That was bad enough; for I found she was pledged
to another man。 But to…day I discovered something
worse: I discovered that I loved Billy _Henshaw_
another man's wife。 AndI ran。 But
I've come back。 I'm going to face the thing。 Oh;
I'm not deceiving myself! This love of mine is
no dead tiger skin。 It's a beast; alive and alert
God pity me!to destroy my very soul。 But
I'm going to fight it; andI want you to help
me。''
The girl gave a half…smothered cry。 The man
turned; but he could not see her face distinctly。
Twilight had come; and the room was full of
sha