第 20 节
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  〃Make yourself worthy of our affection;〃 answered the poor mother;
  struck to the very heart; 〃and we will give it back to you〃
  〃Nonsense!〃 he cried; interrupting her。
  He took his old hat; rubbed white at the edges; stuck it over one ear;
  and went downstairs; whistling。
  〃Philippe! where are you going without any money?〃 cried his mother;
  who could not repress her tears。 〃Here; take this〃
  She held out to him a hundred francs in gold; wrapped up in paper。
  Philippe came up the stairs he had just descended; and took the money。
  〃Well; won't you kiss me?〃 she said; bursting into tears。
  He pressed his mother in his arms; but without the warmth of feeling
  which was all that could give value to the embrace。
  〃Where shall you go?〃 asked Agathe。
  〃To Florentine; Girodeau's mistress。 Ah! they are real friends!〃 he
  answered brutally。
  He went away。 Agathe turned back with trembling limbs; and failing
  eyes; and aching heart。 She fell upon her knees; prayed God to take
  her unnatural child into His own keeping; and abdicated her woeful
  motherhood。
  CHAPTER VI
  By February; 1822; Madame Bridau had settled into the attic room
  recently occupied by Philippe; which was over the kitchen of her
  former appartement。 The painter's studio and bedroom was opposite; on
  the other side of the staircase。 When Joseph saw his mother thus
  reduced; he was determined to make her as comfortable as possible。
  After his brother's departure he assisted in the re…arrangement of the
  garret room; to which he gave an artist's touch。 He added a rug; the
  bed; simple in character but exquisite in taste; had something
  monastic about it; the walls; hung with a cheap glazed cotton selected
  with taste; of a color which harmonized with the furniture and was
  newly covered; gave the room an air of elegance and nicety。 In the
  hallway he added a double door; with a 〃portiere〃 to the inner one。
  The window was shaded by a blind which gave soft tones to the light。
  If the poor mother's life was reduced to the plainest circumstances
  that the life of any woman could have in Paris; Agathe was at least
  better off than all others in a like case; thanks to her son。
  To save his mother from the cruel cares of such reduced housekeeping;
  Joseph took her every day to dine at a table…d'hote in the rue de
  Beaune; frequented by well…bred women; deputies; and titled people;
  where each person's dinner cost ninety francs a month。 Having nothing
  but the breakfast to provide; Agathe took up for her son the old
  habits she had formerly had with the father。 But in spite of Joseph's
  pious lies; she discovered the fact that her dinner was costing him
  nearly a hundred francs a month。 Alarmed at such enormous expense; and
  not imaging that her son could earn much money by painting naked
  women; she obtained; thanks to her confessor; the Abbe Loraux; a place
  worth seven hundred francs a year in a lottery…office belonging to the
  Comtesse de Bauvan; the widow of a Chouan leader。 The lottery…offices
  of the government; the lot; as one might say; of privileged widows;
  ordinarily sufficed for the support of the family of each person who
  managed them。 But after the Restoration the difficulty of rewarding;
  within the limits of constitutional government; all the services
  rendered to the cause; led to the custom of giving to reduced women of
  title not only one but two lottery…offices; worth; usually; from six
  to ten thousand a year。 In such cases; the widow of a general or
  nobleman thus 〃protected〃 did not keep the lottery…office herself; she
  employed a paid manager。 When these managers were young men they were
  obliged to employ an assistant; for; according to law; the offices had
  to be kept open till midnight; moreover; the reports required by the
  minister of finance involved considerable writing。 The Comtesse de
  Bauvan; to whom the Abbe Loraux explained the circumstances of the
  widow Bridau; promised; in case her manager should leave; to give the
  place to Agathe; meantime she stipulated that the widow should be
  taken as assistant; and receive a salary of six hundred francs。 Poor
  Agathe; who was obliged to be at the office by ten in the morning; had
  scarcely time to get her dinner。 She returned to her work at seven in
  the evening; remaining there till midnight。 Joseph never; for two
  years; failed to fetch his mother at night; and bring her back to the
  rue Mazarin; and often he went to take her to dinner; his friends
  frequently saw him leave the opera or some brilliant salon to be
  punctually at midnight at the office in the rue Vivienne。
  Agathe soon acquired the monotonous regularity of life which becomes a
  stay and a support to those who have endured the shock of violent
  sorrows。 In the morning; after doing up her room; in which there were
  no longer cats and little birds; she prepared the breakfast at her own
  fire and carried it into the studio; where she ate it with her son。
  She then arranged Joseph's bedroom; put out the fire in her own
  chamber; and brought her sewing to the studio; where she sat by the
  little iron stove; leaving the room if a comrade or a model entered
  it。 Though she understood nothing whatever of art; the silence of the
  studio suited her。 In the matter of art she made not the slightest
  progress; she attempted no hypocrisy; she was utterly amazed at the
  importance they all attached to color; composition; drawing。 When the
  Cenacle friends or some brother…painter; like Schinner; Pierre
  Grassou; Leon de Lora;a very youthful 〃rapin〃 who was called at that
  time Mistigris;discussed a picture; she would come back afterwards;
  examine it attentively; and discover nothing to justify their fine
  words and their hot disputes。 She made her son's shirts; she mended
  his stockings; she even cleaned his palette; supplied him with rags to
  wipe his brushes; and kept things in order in the studio。 Seeing how
  much thought his mother gave to these little details; Joseph heaped
  attentions upon her in return。 If mother and son had no sympathies in
  the matter of art; they were at least bound together by signs of
  tenderness。 The mother had a purpose。 One morning as she was petting
  Joseph while he was sketching a large picture (finished in after years
  and never understood); she said; as it were; casually and aloud;
  〃My God! what is he doing?〃
  〃Doing? who?〃
  〃Philippe。〃
  〃Oh; ah! he's sowing his wild oats; that fellow will make something of
  himself by and by。〃
  〃But he has gone through the lesson of poverty; perhaps it was poverty
  which changed him to what he is。 If he were prosperous he would be
  good〃
  〃You think; my dear mother; that he suffered during that journey of
  his。 You are mistaken; he kept carnival in New York just as he does
  here〃
  〃But if he is suffering at this moment; near to us; would it not be
  horrible?〃
  〃Yes;〃 replied Joseph。 〃For my part; I will gladly give him some
  money; but I don't want to see him; he killed our poor Descoings。〃
  〃So;〃 resumed Agathe; 〃you would not be willing to paint his
  portrait?〃
  〃For you; dear mother; I'd suffer martyrdom。 I can make myself
  remember nothing except that he is my brother。〃
  〃His portrait as a captain of dragoons on horseback?〃
  〃Yes; I've a copy of a fine horse by Gros and I haven't any use for
  it。〃
  〃Well; then; go and see that friend of his and find out what has
  become of him。〃
  〃I'll go!〃
  Agathe rose; her scissors and work fell at her feet; she went and
  kissed Joseph's head; and dropped two tears on his hair。
  〃He is your passion; that fellow;〃 said the painter。 〃We all have our
  hopeless passions。〃
  That afternoon; about four o'clock; Joseph went to the rue du Sentier
  and found his brother; who had taken Giroudeau's place。 The old
  dragoon had been promoted to be cashier of a weekly journal
  established by his nephew。 Although Finot was still proprietor of the
  other newspaper; which he had divided into shares; holding all the
  shares himself; the proprietor and editor 〃de visu〃 was one of his
  friends; named Lousteau; the son of that very sub…delegate of Issoudun
  on whom the Bridaus' grandfather; Doctor Rouget; had vowed vengeance;
  consequently he was the nephew of Madame Hochon。 To make himself
  agreeable to his uncle; Finot gave Philippe the place Giroudeau was
  quitting; cutting off; however; half the salary。 Moreover; daily; at
  five o'clock; Giroudeau audited the accounts and carried away the
  receipts。 Coloquinte; the old veteran; who was the office boy and did
  errands; also kept an eye on the slippery Philippe; who was; however;
  behaving properly。 A salary of six hundred francs; and the five
  hundred of his cross sufficed him to live; all the more because;
  living in a warm office all day and at the theatre on a free pass
  every evening; he had only to provide himself with food and a place to
  sleep in。 Coloquinte was departing with the stamped papers on