第 13 节
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solidarity among the passions in a matter of folly。
The mischievous Bixiou was not long in revealing to his grandmother
and the devoted Agathe that Philippe; the cashier; the hero of heroes;
was in love with Mariette; the celebrated ballet…dancer at the Porte…
Saint…Martin。 The news was a thunder…clap to the two widows; Agathe's
religious principles taught her to think that all women on the stage
were brands in the burning; moreover; she thought; and so did Madame
Descoings; that women of that kind dined off gold; drank pearls; and
wasted fortunes。
〃Now do you suppose;〃 said Joseph to his mother; 〃that my brother is
such a fool as to spend his money on Mariette? Such women only ruin
rich men。〃
〃They talk of engaging Mariette at the Opera;〃 said Bixiou。 〃Don't be
worried; Madame Bridau; the diplomatic body often comes to the Porte…
Saint…Martin; and that handsome girl won't stay long with your son。 I
did hear that an ambassador was madly in love with her。 By the bye;
another piece of news! Old Claparon is dead; and his son; who has
become a banker; has ordered the cheapest kind of funeral for him。
That fellow has no education; they wouldn't behave like that in
China。〃
Philippe; prompted by mercenary motives; proposed to Mariette that she
should marry him; but she; knowing herself on the eve of an engagement
at the Grand Opera; refused the offer; either because she guessed the
colonel's motive; or because she saw how important her independence
would be to her future fortune。 For the remainder of this year;
Philippe never came more than twice a month to see his mother。 Where
was he? Either at his office; or the theatre; or with Mariette。 No
light whatever as to his conduct reached the household of the rue
Mazarin。 Giroudeau; Finot; Bixiou; Vernou; Lousteau; saw him leading a
life of pleasure。 Philippe shared the gay amusements of Tullia; a
leading singer at the Opera; of Florentine; who took Mariette's place
at the Porte…Saint…Martin; of Florine and Matifat; Coralie and
Camusot。 After four o'clock; when he left his office; until midnight;
he amused himself; some party of pleasure had usually been arranged
the night before;a good dinner; a card…party; a supper by some one
or other of the set。 Philippe was in his element。
This carnival; which lasted eighteen months; was not altogether
without its troubles。 The beautiful Mariette no sooner appeared at the
Opera; in January; 1821; than she captured one of the most
distinguished dukes of the court of Louis XVIII。 Philippe tried to
make head against the peer; and by the month of April he was compelled
by his passion; notwithstanding some luck at cards; to dip into the
funds of which he was cashier。 By May he had taken eleven hundred
francs。 In that fatal month Mariette started for London; to see what
could be done with the lords while the temporary opera house in the
Hotel Choiseul; rue Lepelletier; was being prepared。 The luckless
Philippe had ended; as often happens; in loving Mariette
notwithstanding her flagrant infidelities; she herself had never
thought him anything but a dull…minded; brutal soldier; the first rung
of a ladder on which she had never intended to remain long。 So;
foreseeing the time when Philippe would have spent all his money; she
captured other journalistic support which released her from the
necessity of depending on him; nevertheless; she did feel the peculiar
gratitude that class of women acknowledge towards the first man who
smooths their way; as it were; among the difficulties and horrors of a
theatrical career。
Forced to let his terrible mistress go to London without him; Philippe
went into winter quarters; as he called it;that is; he returned to
his attic room in his mother's appartement。 He made some gloomy
reflections as he went to bed that night; and when he got up again。 He
was conscious within himself of the inability to live otherwise than
as he had been living the last year。 The luxury that surrounded
Mariette; the dinners; the suppers; the evenings in the side…scenes;
the animation of wits and journalists; the sort of racket that went on
around him; the delights that tickled both his senses and his vanity;
such a life; found only in Paris; and offering daily the charm of
some new thing; was now more than habit;it had become to Philippe as
much a necessity as his tobacco or his brandy。 He saw plainly that he
could not live without these continual enjoyments。 The idea of suicide
came into his head; not on account of the deficit which must soon be
discovered in his accounts; but because he could no longer live with
Mariette in the atmosphere of pleasure in which he had disported
himself for over a year。 Full of these gloomy thoughts; he entered for
the first time his brother's painting…room; where he found the painter
in a blue blouse; copying a picture for a dealer。
〃So that's how pictures are made;〃 said Philippe; by way of opening
the conversation。
〃No;〃 said Joseph; 〃that is how they are copied。〃
〃How much do they pay you for that?〃
〃Eh! never enough; two hundred and fifty francs。 But I study the
manner of the masters and learn a great deal; I found out the secrets
of their method。 There's one of my own pictures;〃 he added; pointing
with the end of his brush to a sketch with the colors still moist。
〃How much do you pocket in a year?〃
〃Unfortunately; I am known only to painters。 Schinner backs me; and he
has got me some work at the Chateau de Presles; where I am going in
October to do some arabesques; panels; and other decorations; for
which the Comte de Serizy; no doubt; will pay well。 With such trifles
and with orders from the dealers; I may manage to earn eighteen
hundred to two thousand francs a year over and above the working
expenses。 I shall send that picture to the next exhibition; if it hits
the public taste; my fortune is made。 My friends think well of it。〃
〃I don't know anything about such things;〃 said Philippe; in a subdued
voice which caused Joseph to turn and look at him。
〃What is the matter?〃 said the artist; seeing that his brother was
very pale。
〃I should like to know how long it would take you to paint my
portrait?〃
〃If I worked steadily; and the weather were clear; I could finish it
in three or four days。〃
〃That's too long; I have only one day to give you。 My poor mother
loves me so much that I wished to leave her my likeness。 We will say
no more about it。〃
〃Why! are you going away again?〃
〃I am going never to return;〃 replied Philippe with an air of forced
gayety。
〃Look here; Philippe; what is the matter? If it is anything serious; I
am a man and not a ninny。 I am accustomed to hard struggles; and if
discretion is needed; I have it。〃
〃Are you sure?〃
〃On my honor。〃
〃You will tell no one; no matter who?〃
〃No one。〃
〃Well; I am going to blow my brains out。〃
〃You!are you going to fight a duel?〃
〃I am going to kill myself。〃
〃Why?〃
〃I have taken eleven hundred francs from the funds in my hands; I have
got to send in my accounts to…morrow morning。 Half my security is
lost; our poor mother will be reduced to six hundred francs a year。
That would be nothing! I could make a fortune for her later; but I am
dishonored! I cannot live under dishonor〃
〃You will not be dishonored if it is paid back。 To be sure; you will
lose your place; and you will only have the five hundred francs a year
from your cross; but you can live on five hundred francs。〃
〃Farewell!〃 said Philippe; running rapidly downstairs; and not waiting
to hear another word。
Joseph left his studio and went down to breakfast with his mother; but
Philippe's confession had taken away his appetite。 He took Madame
Descoings aside and told her the terrible news。 The old woman made a
frightened exclamation; let fall the saucepan of milk she had in her
hand; and flung herself into a chair。 Agathe rushed in; from one
exclamation to another the mother gathered the fatal truth。
〃He! to fail in honor! the son of Bridau to take the money that was
trusted to him!〃
The widow trembled in every limb; her eyes dilated and then grew
fixed; she sat down and burst into tears。
〃Where is he?〃 she cried amid the sobs。 〃Perhaps he has flung himself
into the Seine。〃
〃You must not give up all hope;〃 said Madame Descoings; 〃because a
poor lad has met with a bad woman who has led him to do wrong。 Dear
me! we see that every day。 Philippe has had such misfortunes! he has
had so little chance to be happy and loved that we ought not to be
surprised at his passion for that creature。 All passions lead to
excess。 My own life is not without reproach of that kind; and yet I
call myself an honest woman。 A single fault is not vice; and after
all; it is only those who do nothing that are never deceived。〃
Agathe's despair overcame her so much that Joseph