第 25 节
作者:阎王      更新:2021-02-18 20:52      字数:9322
  unk!  That is all right! 。 。 。 I can dance all the easier; I assure you〃 。 。 。
  I saw that she was on the point of fainting with fright and indignation。
  I went up to the drunken gentleman; caught him none too gently by the arm; and; looking him fixedly in the face; requested him to retire。 〃Because;〃 I added; 〃the Princess promised long ago to dance the mazurka with me。〃
  〃Well; then; there's nothing to be done! Another time!〃 he said; bursting out laughing; and he retired to his abashed companions; who immediately conducted him into another room。
  I was rewarded by a deep; wondrous glance。
  The Princess went up to her mother and told her the whole story。  The latter sought me out among the crowd and thanked me。  She informed me that she knew my mother and was on terms of friendship with half a dozen of my aunts。
  〃I do not know how it has happened that we have not made your acquaintance up to now;〃 she added; 〃but confess; you alone are to blame for that。  You fight shy of everyone in a positively unseemly way。  I hope the air of my drawing… room will dispel your spleen。 。 。  Do you not think so?〃
  I uttered one of the phrases which everybody must have ready for such an occasion。
  The quadrilles dragged on a dreadfully long time。
  At last the music struck up from the gallery; Princess Mary and I took up our places。
  I did not once allude to the drunken gentleman; or to my previous behaviour; or to Grushnitski。 The impression produced upon her by the unpleasant scene was gradually dispelled; her face brightened up; she jested very charmingly; her conversation was witty; without pretensions to wit; vivacious and spontaneous; her observations were sometimes profound。 。 。  In a very involved sentence I gave her to understand that I had liked her for a long time。  She bent her head and blushed slightly。
  〃You are a strange man!〃 she said; with a forced laugh; lifting her velvet eyes upon me。
  〃I did not wish to make your acquaintance;〃 I continued; 〃because you are surrounded by too dense a throng of adorers; in which I was afraid of being lost to sight altogether。〃
  〃You need not have been afraid; they are all very tiresome〃 。 。 。
  〃All?  Not all; surely?〃
  She looked fixedly at me as if endeavouring to recollect something; then blushed slightly again and finally pronounced with decision:
  〃All!〃
  〃Even my friend; Grushnitski?〃
  〃But is he your friend?〃 she said; manifesting some doubt。
  〃Yes。〃
  〃He; of course; does not come into the category of the tiresome〃 。 。 。
  〃But into that of the unfortunate!〃 I said; laughing。
  〃Of course!  But do you consider that funny?  I should like you to be in his place〃 。 。 。
  〃Well?  I was once a cadet myself; and; in truth; it was the best time of my life!〃
  〃Is he a cadet; then?〃 。 。 。 she said rapidly; and then added: 〃But I thought〃 。 。 。
  〃What did you think?〃 。 。 。
  〃Nothing!  Who is that lady?〃
  Thereupon the conversation took a different direction; and it did not return to the former subject。
  And now the mazurka came to an end and we separated  until we should meet again。  The ladies drove off in different directions。  I went to get some supper; and met Werner。
  〃Aha!〃 he said: 〃so it is you!  And yet you did not wish to make the acquaintance of Princess Mary otherwise than by saving her from certain death。〃
  〃I have done better;〃 I replied。  〃I have saved her from fainting at the ball〃 。 。 。
  〃How was that?  Tell me。〃
  〃No; guess!  O; you who guess everything in the world!〃
  CHAPTER VI
  30th May。
  ABOUT seven o'clock in the evening; I was walking on the boulevard。  Grushnitski perceived me a long way off; and came up to me。 A sort of ridiculous rapture was shining in his eyes。  He pressed my hand warmly; and said in a tragic voice:
  〃I thank you; Pechorin。 。 。  You understand me?〃
  〃No; but in any case it is not worth grati… tude;〃 I answered; not having; in fact; any good deed upon my conscience。
  〃What?  But yesterday!  Have you for… gotten? 。 。 。  Mary has told me everything〃 。 。 。
  〃Why!  Have you everything in common so soon as this?  Even gratitude?〃 。 。 。
  〃Listen;〃 said Grushnitski very earnestly; 〃pray do not make fun of my love; if you wish to remain my friend。 。 。  You see; I love her to the point of madness 。 。 。 and I think  I hope  she loves me too。 。 。  I have a request to make of you。  You will be at their house this even… ing; promise me to observe everything。  I know you are experienced in these matters; you know women better than I。 。 。  Women!  Women! Who can understand them?  Their smiles contra… dict their glances; their words promise and allure; but the tone of their voice repels。 。 。  At one time they grasp and divine in a moment our most secret thoughts; at another they cannot under… stand the clearest hints。 。 。  Take Princess Mary; now: yesterday her eyes; as they rested upon me; were blazing with passion; to…day they are dull and cold〃 。 。 。
  〃That is possibly the result of the waters;〃 I replied。
  〃You see the bad side of everything 。 。 。 materialist;〃 he added contemptuously。  〃How… ever; let us talk of other matters。〃
  And; satisfied with his bad pun; he cheered up。
  At nine o'clock we went to Princess Ligovski's together。
  Passing by Vera's windows; I saw her looking out。  We threw a fleeting glance at each other。 She entered the Ligovskis' drawing…room soon after us。  Princess Ligovski presented me to her; as a relation of her own。  Tea was served。  The guests were numerous; and the conversation was general。  I endeavoured to please the Princess; jested; and made her laugh heartily a few times。 Princess Mary; also; was more than once on the point of bursting out laughing; but she restrained herself in order not to depart from the role she had assumed。  She finds languor becoming to her; and perhaps she is not mistaken。  Grushnitski appears to be very glad that she is not infected by my gaiety。
  After tea we all went into the drawing… room。
  〃Are you satisfied with my obedience; Vera?〃 I said as I was passing her。
  She threw me a glance full of love and grati… tude。  I have grown accustomed to such glances; but at one time they constituted my felicity。 The Princess seated her daughter at the piano… forte; and all the company begged her to sing。 I kept silence; and; taking advantage of the hubbub; I went aside to the window with Vera; who wished to say something of great import… ance to both of us。 。 。  It turned out to be  nonsense。 。 。
  Meanwhile my indifference was vexing Princess Mary; as I was able to make out from a single angry; gleaming glance which she cast at me。 。 。 Oh!  I understand the method of conversation wonderfully well: mute but expressive; brief but forceful! 。 。 。
  She began to sing。  She has a good voice; but she sings badly。 。 。  However; I was not listening。
  Grushnitski; on the contrary; leaning his elbows on the grand piano; facing her; was devouring her with his eyes and saying in an undertone every minute: 〃Charmant!  Delicieux!〃
  〃Listen;〃 said Vera to me; 〃I do not wish you to make my husband's acquaintance; but you must; without fail; make yourself agreeable to the Princess; that will be an easy task for you: you can do anything you wish。  It is only here that we shall see each other〃 。 。 。
  〃Only here?〃 。 。 。
  She blushed and continued:
  〃You know that I am your slave: I have never been able to resist you 。 。 。 and I shall be punished for it; you will cease to love me!  At least; I want to preserve my reputation 。 。 。 not for myself  that you know very well! 。 。 。  Oh!  I beseech you: do not torture me; as before; with idle doubts and feigned coldness!  It may be that I shall die soon; I feel that I am growing weaker from day to day。 。 。  And; yet; I cannot think of the future life; I think only of you。 。 。  You men do not understand the delights of a glance; of a pressure of the hand 。 。 。 but as for me; I swear to you that; when I listen to your voice; I feel such a deep; strange bliss that the most passionate kisses could not take its place。〃
  Meanwhile; Princess Mary had finished her song。  Murmurs of praise were to be heard all around。  I went up to her after all the other guests; and said something rather carelessly to her on the subject of her voice。
  She made a little grimace; pouting her lower lip; and dropped a very sarcastic curtsey。
  〃That is all the more flattering;〃 she said; 〃because you have not been listening to me at all; but perhaps you do not like music?〃 。 。 。
  〃On the contrary; I do 。 。 。  After dinner; especially。〃
  〃Grushnitski is right in saying that you have very prosaic tastes 。 。 。 and I see that you like music in a gastronomic respect。〃
  〃You are mistaken again: I am by no means an epicure。  I have a most wretched digestion。  But music after dinner puts one to sleep; and to sleep after dinner is healthful; consequently I like music in a medicinal respect。  In the evening; on the contrary; it excites my nerves too much: I become either too melancholy or too gay。  Both are fatiguing; where there is no positive reason for being either sorrowful or glad。  And; more… over; melancholy in society is ridiculous; and too great gaiety is unbecoming〃 。 。 。
  She did not hear me to the end; but