第 54 节
作者:精灵王      更新:2024-12-10 17:43      字数:9322
  pretty well informed for the enterprise that lay before me。  I knew
  the lair of the dragon … that which was just illuminated。  I knew
  the bower of my Rosamond; and how excellently it was placed on the
  ground…level; round the flank of the cottage and out of earshot of
  her formidable aunt。  Nothing was left but to apply my knowledge。
  I was then at the bottom of the garden; whether I had gone (Heaven
  save the mark!) for warmth; that I might walk to and fro unheard
  and keep myself from perishing。  The night had fallen still; the
  wind ceased; the noise of the rain had much lightened; if it had
  not stopped; and was succeeded by the dripping of the garden trees。
  In the midst of this lull; and as I was already drawing near to the
  cottage; I was startled by the sound of a window…sash screaming in
  its channels; and a step or two beyond I became aware of a gush of
  light upon the darkness。  It fell from Flora's window; which she
  had flung open on the night; and where she now sat; roseate and
  pensive; in the shine of two candles falling from behind; her
  tresses deeply embowering and shading her; the suspended comb still
  in one hand; the other idly clinging to the iron stanchions with
  which the window was barred。
  Keeping to the turf; and favoured by the darkness of the night and
  the patter of the rain which was now returning; though without
  wind; I approached until I could almost have touched her。  It
  seemed a grossness of which I was incapable to break up her reverie
  by speech。  I stood and drank her in with my eyes; how the light
  made a glory in her hair; and (what I have always thought the most
  ravishing thing in nature) how the planes ran into each other; and
  were distinguished; and how the hues blended and varied; and were
  shaded off; between the cheek and neck。  At first I was abashed:
  she wore her beauty like an immediate halo of refinement; she
  discouraged me like an angel; or what I suspect to be the next most
  discouraging; a modern lady。  But as I continued to gaze; hope and
  life returned to me; I forgot my timidity; I forgot the sickening
  pack of wet clothes with which I stood burdened; I tingled with new
  blood。
  Still unconscious of my presence; still gazing before her upon the
  illuminated image of the window; the straight shadows of the bars;
  the glinting of pebbles on the path; and the impenetrable night on
  the garden and the hills beyond it; she heaved a deep breath that
  struck upon my heart like an appeal。
  'Why does Miss Gilchrist sigh?' I whispered。  'Does she recall
  absent friends?'
  She turned her head swiftly in my direction; it was the only sign
  of surprise she deigned to make。  At the same time I stepped into
  the light and bowed profoundly。
  'You!' she said。  'Here?'
  'Yes; I am here;' I replied。  'I have come very far; it may be a
  hundred and fifty leagues; to see you。  I have waited all this
  night in your garden。  Will Miss Gilchrist not offer her hand … to
  a friend in trouble?'
  She extended it between the bars; and I dropped upon one knee on
  the wet path and kissed it twice。  At the second it was withdrawn
  suddenly; methought with more of a start than she had hitherto
  displayed。  I regained my former attitude; and we were both silent
  awhile。  My timidity returned on me tenfold。  I looked in her face
  for any signals of anger; and seeing her eyes to waver and fall
  aside from mine; augured that all was well。
  'You must have been mad to come here!' she broke out。  'Of all
  places under heaven this is no place for you to come。  And I was
  just thinking you were safe in France!'
  'You were thinking of me!' I cried。
  'Mr。 St。 Ives; you cannot understand your danger;' she replied。  'I
  am sure of it; and yet I cannot find it in my heart to tell you。
  O; be persuaded; and go!'
  'I believe I know the worst。  But I was never one to set an undue
  value on life; the life that we share with beasts。  My university
  has been in the wars; not a famous place of education; but one
  where a man learns to carry his life in his hand as lightly as a
  glove; and for his lady or his honour to lay it as lightly down。
  You appeal to my fears; and you do wrong。  I have come to Scotland
  with my eyes quite open to see you and to speak with you … it may
  be for the last time。  With my eyes quite open; I say; and if I did
  not hesitate at the beginning do you think that I would draw back
  now?'
  'You do not know!' she cried; with rising agitation。  'This
  country; even this garden; is death to you。  They all believe it; I
  am the only one that does not。  If they hear you now; if they heard
  a whisper … I dread to think of it。  O; go; go this instant。  It is
  my prayer。'
  'Dear lady; do not refuse me what I have come so far to seek; and
  remember that out of all the millions in England there is no other
  but yourself in whom I can dare confide。  I have all the world
  against me; you are my only ally; and as I have to speak; you have
  to listen。  All is true that they say of me; and all of it false at
  the same time。  I did kill this man Goguelat … it was that you
  meant?'
  She mutely signed to me that it was; she had become deadly pale。
  'But I killed him in fair fight。  Till then; I had never taken a
  life unless in battle; which is my trade。  But I was grateful; I
  was on fire with gratitude; to one who had been good to me; who had
  been better to me than I could have dreamed of an angel; who had
  come into the darkness of my prison like sunrise。  The man Goguelat
  insulted her。  O; he had insulted me often; it was his favourite
  pastime; and he might insult me as he pleased … for who was I?  But
  with that lady it was different。  I could never forgive myself if I
  had let it pass。  And we fought; and he fell; and I have no
  remorse。'
  I waited anxiously for some reply。  The worst was now out; and I
  knew that she had heard of it before; but it was impossible for me
  to go on with my narrative without some shadow of encouragement。
  'You blame me?'
  'No; not at all。  It is a point I cannot speak on … I am only a
  girl。  I am sure you were in the right: I have always said so … to
  Ronald。  Not; of course; to my aunt。  I am afraid I let her speak
  as she will。  You must not think me a disloyal friend; and even
  with the Major … I did not tell you he had become quite a friend of
  ours … Major Chevenix; I mean … he has taken such a fancy to
  Ronald!  It was he that brought the news to us of that hateful
  Clausel being captured; and all that he was saying。  I was
  indignant with him。  I said … I dare say I said too much … and I
  must say he was very good…natured。  He said; 〃You and I; who are
  his friends; KNOW that Champdivers is innocent。  But what is the
  use of saying it?〃  All this was in the corner of the room in what
  they call an aside。  And then he said; 〃Give me a chance to speak
  to you in private; I have much to tell you。〃  And he did。  And told
  me just what you did … that it was an affair of honour; and no
  blame attached to you。  O; I must say I like that Major Chevenix!'
  At this I was seized with a great pang of jealousy。  I remembered
  the first time that he had seen her; the interest that he seemed
  immediately to conceive; and I could not but admire the dog for the
  use he had been ingenious enough to make of our acquaintance in
  order to supplant me。  All is fair in love and war。  For all that;
  I was now no less anxious to do the speaking myself than I had been
  before to hear Flora。  At least; I could keep clear of the hateful
  image of Major Chevenix。  Accordingly I burst at once on the
  narrative of my adventures。  It was the same as you have read; but
  briefer; and told with a very different purpose。  Now every
  incident had a particular bearing; every by…way branched off to
  Rome … and that was Flora。
  When I had begun to speak I had kneeled upon the gravel withoutside
  the low window; rested my arms upon the sill; and lowered my voice
  to the most confidential whisper。  Flora herself must kneel upon
  the other side; and this brought our heads upon a level with only
  the bars between us。  So placed; so separated; it seemed that our
  proximity; and the continuous and low sounds of my pleading voice;
  worked progressively and powerfully on her heart; and perhaps not
  less so on my own。  For these spells are double…edged。  The silly
  birds may be charmed with the pipe of the fowler; which is but a
  tube of reeds。  Not so with a bird of our own feather!  As I went
  on; and my resolve strengthened; and my voice found new
  modulations; and our faces were drawn closer to the bars and to
  each other; not only she; but I; succumbed to the fascination; and
  were kindled by the charm。  We make love; and thereby ourselves
  fall the deeper in it。  It is with the heart only that one captures
  a heart。
  'And n