第 12 节
作者:精灵王      更新:2024-12-10 17:43      字数:9320
  than the eyes of cats; and five steps from one of the lanterns on
  the ramparts it was already groping dark。  We made haste to lie
  down。  Had our jailers been upon the watch; they must have observed
  our conversation to die out unusually soon。  Yet I doubt if any of
  us slept。  Each lay in his place; tortured at once with the hope of
  liberty and the fear of a hateful death。  The guard call sounded;
  the hum of the town declined by little and little。  On all sides of
  us; in their different quarters; we could hear the watchman cry the
  hours along the street。  Often enough; during my stay in England;
  have I listened to these gruff or broken voices; or perhaps gone to
  my window when I lay sleepless; and watched the old gentleman
  hobble by upon the causeway with his cape and his cap; his hanger
  and his rattle。  It was ever a thought with me how differently that
  cry would re…echo in the chamber of lovers; beside the bed of
  death; or in the condemned cell。  I might be said to hear it that
  night myself in the condemned cell!  At length a fellow with a
  voice like a bull's began to roar out in the opposite thoroughfare:
  'Past yin o'cloak; and a dark; haary moarnin'。'
  At which we were all silently afoot。
  As I stole about the battlements towards the … gallows; I was about
  to write … the sergeant…major; perhaps doubtful of my resolution;
  kept close by me; and occasionally proffered the most indigestible
  reassurances in my ear。  At last I could bear them no longer。
  'Be so obliging as to let me be!' said I。  'I am neither a coward
  nor a fool。  What do YOU know of whether the rope be long enough?
  But I shall know it in ten minutes!'
  The good old fellow laughed in his moustache; and patted me。
  It was all very well to show the disposition of my temper before a
  friend alone; before my assembled comrades the thing had to go
  handsomely。  It was then my time to come on the stage; and I hope I
  took it handsomely。
  'Now; gentlemen;' said I; 'if the rope is ready; here is the
  criminal!'
  The tunnel was cleared; the stake driven; the rope extended。  As I
  moved forward to the place; many of my comrades caught me by the
  hand and wrung it; an attention I could well have done without。
  'Keep an eye on Clausel!' I whispered to Laclas; and with that; got
  down on my elbows and knees took the rope in both hands; and worked
  myself; feet foremost; through the tunnel。  When the earth failed
  under my feet; I thought my heart would have stopped; and a moment
  after I was demeaning myself in mid…air like a drunken jumping…
  jack。  I have never been a model of piety; but at this juncture
  prayers and a cold sweat burst from me simultaneously。
  The line was knotted at intervals of eighteen inches; and to the
  inexpert it may seem as if it should have been even easy to
  descend。  The trouble was; this devil of a piece of rope appeared
  to be inspired; not with life alone; but with a personal malignity
  against myself。  It turned to the one side; paused for a moment;
  and then spun me like a toasting…jack to the other; slipped like an
  eel from the clasp of my feet; kept me all the time in the most
  outrageous fury of exertion; and dashed me at intervals against the
  face of the rock。  I had no eyes to see with; and I doubt if there
  was anything to see but darkness。  I must occasionally have caught
  a gasp of breath; but it was quite unconscious。  And the whole
  forces of my mind were so consumed with losing hold and getting it
  again; that I could scarce have told whether I was going up or
  coming down。
  Of a sudden I knocked against the cliff with such a thump as almost
  bereft me of my sense; and; as reason twinkled back; I was amazed
  to find that I was in a state of rest; that the face of the
  precipice here inclined outwards at an angle which relieved me
  almost wholly of the burthen of my own weight; and that one of my
  feet was safely planted on a ledge。  I drew one of the sweetest
  breaths in my experience; hugged myself against the rope; and
  closed my eyes in a kind of ecstasy of relief。  It occurred to me
  next to see how far I was advanced on my unlucky journey; a point
  on which I had not a shadow of a guess。  I looked up: there was
  nothing above me but the blackness of the night and the fog。  I
  craned timidly forward and looked down。  There; upon a floor of
  darkness; I beheld a certain pattern of hazy lights; some of them
  aligned as in thoroughfares; others standing apart as in solitary
  houses; and before I could well realise it; or had in the least
  estimated my distance; a wave of nausea and vertigo warned me to
  lie back and close my eyes。  In this situation I had really but the
  one wish; and that was: something else to think of!  Strange to
  say; I got it: a veil was torn from my mind; and I saw what a fool
  I was … what fools we had all been … and that I had no business to
  be thus dangling between earth and heaven by my arms。  The only
  thing to have done was to have attached me to a rope and lowered
  me; and I had never the wit to see it till that moment!
  I filled my lungs; got a good hold on my rope; and once more
  launched myself on the descent。  As it chanced; the worst of the
  danger was at an end; and I was so fortunate as to be never again
  exposed to any violent concussion。  Soon after I must have passed
  within a little distance of a bush of wallflower; for the scent of
  it came over me with that impression of reality which characterises
  scents in darkness。  This made me a second landmark; the ledge
  being my first。  I began accordingly to compute intervals of time:
  so much to the ledge; so much again to the wallflower; so much more
  below。  If I were not at the bottom of the rock; I calculated I
  must be near indeed to the end of the rope; and there was no doubt
  that I was not far from the end of my own resources。  I began to be
  light…headed and to be tempted to let go; … now arguing that I was
  certainly arrived within a few feet of the level and could safely
  risk a fall; anon persuaded I was still close at the top and it was
  idle to continue longer on the rock。  In the midst of which I came
  to a bearing on plain ground; and had nearly wept aloud。  My hands
  were as good as flayed; my courage entirely exhausted; and; what
  with the long strain and the sudden relief; my limbs shook under me
  with more than the violence of ague; and I was glad to cling to the
  rope。
  But this was no time to give way。  I had (by God's single mercy)
  got myself alive out of that fortress; and now I had to try to get
  the others; my comrades。  There was about a fathom of rope to
  spare; I got it by the end; and searched the whole ground
  thoroughly for anything to make it fast to。  In vain: the ground
  was broken and stony; but there grew not there so much as a bush of
  furze。
  'Now then;' thought I to myself; 'here begins a new lesson; and I
  believe it will prove richer than the first。  I am not strong
  enough to keep this rope extended。  If I do not keep it extended
  the next man will be dashed against the precipice。  There is no
  reason why he should have my extravagant good luck。  I see no
  reason why he should not fall … nor any place for him to fall on
  but my head。'
  From where I was now standing there was occasionally visible; as
  the fog lightened; a lamp in one of the barrack windows; which gave
  me a measure of the height he had to fall and the horrid force that
  he must strike me with。  What was yet worse; we had agreed to do
  without signals: every so many minutes by Laclas' watch another man
  was to be started from the battlements。  Now; I had seemed to
  myself to be about half an hour in my descent; and it seemed near
  as long again that I waited; straining on the rope for my next
  comrade to begin。  I began to be afraid that our conspiracy was
  out; that my friends were all secured; and that I should pass the
  remainder of the night; and be discovered in the morning; vainly
  clinging to the rope's end like a hooked fish upon an angle。  I
  could not refrain; at this ridiculous image; from a chuckle of
  laughter。  And the next moment I knew; by the jerking of the rope;
  that my friend had crawled out of the tunnel and was fairly
  launched on his descent。  It appears it was the sailor who had
  insisted on succeeding me: as soon as my continued silence had
  assured him the rope was long enough; Gautier; for that was his
  name; had forgot his former arguments; and shown himself so
  extremely forward; that Laclas had given way。  It was like the
  fellow; who had no harm in him beyond an instinctive selfishness。
  But he was like to have paid pretty dearly for the privilege。  Do
  as I would; I could not keep the rope as I could have wished it;
  and he ended at last by falling on me from a height of several
  yards; so that we both rolled together on the ground。