第 3 节
作者:精灵王      更新:2024-12-10 17:43      字数:9322
  and in the dark at night; and sometimes by day when he can get me
  apart with him; he laments a mother and a sweetheart。  Do you know
  what made him take me for a confidant?'
  She parted her lips with a look; but did not speak。  The look
  burned all through me with a sudden vital heat。
  'Because I had once seen; in marching by; the belfry of his
  village!' I continued。  'The circumstance is quaint enough。  It
  seems to bind up into one the whole bundle of those human instincts
  that make life beautiful; and people and places dear … and from
  which it would seem I am cut off!'
  I rested my chin on my knee and looked before me on the ground。  I
  had been talking until then to hold her; but I was now not sorry
  she should go: an impression is a thing so delicate to produce and
  so easy to overthrow!  Presently she seemed to make an effort。
  'I will take this toy;' she said; laid a five…and…sixpenny piece in
  my hand; and was gone ere I could thank her。
  I retired to a place apart near the ramparts and behind a gun。  The
  beauty; the expression of her eyes; the tear that had trembled
  there; the compassion in her voice; and a kind of wild elegance
  that consecrated the freedom of her movements; all combined to
  enslave my imagination and inflame my heart。  What had she said?
  Nothing to signify; but her eyes had met mine; and the fire they
  had kindled burned inextinguishably in my veins。  I loved her; and
  I did not fear to hope。  Twice I had spoken with her; and in both
  interviews I had been well inspired; I had engaged her sympathies;
  I had found words that she must remember; that would ring in her
  ears at night upon her bed。  What mattered if I were half shaved
  and my clothes a caricature?  I was still a man; and I had drawn my
  image on her memory。  I was still a man; and; as I trembled to
  realise; she was still a woman。  Many waters cannot quench love;
  and love; which is the law of the world; was on my side。  I closed
  my eyes; and she sprang up on the background of the darkness; more
  beautiful than in life。  'Ah!' thought I; 'and you too; my dear;
  you too must carry away with you a picture; that you are still to
  behold again and still to embellish。  In the darkness of night; in
  the streets by day; still you are to have my voice and face;
  whispering; making love for me; encroaching on your shy heart。  Shy
  as your heart is; IT is lodged there … I am lodged there; let the
  hours do their office … let time continue to draw me ever in more
  lively; ever in more insidious colours。'  And then I had a vision
  of myself; and burst out laughing。
  A likely thing; indeed; that a beggar…man; a private soldier; a
  prisoner in a yellow travesty; was to awake the interest of this
  fair girl!  I would not despair; but I saw the game must be played
  fine and close。  It must be my policy to hold myself before her;
  always in a pathetic or pleasing attitude; never to alarm or
  startle her; to keep my own secret locked in my bosom like a story
  of disgrace; and let hers (if she could be induced to have one)
  grow at its own rate; to move just so fast; and not by a hair's…
  breadth any faster; than the inclination of her heart。  I was the
  man; and yet I was passive; tied by the foot in prison。  I could
  not go to her; I must cast a spell upon her at each visit; so that
  she should return to me; and this was a matter of nice management。
  I had done it the last time … it seemed impossible she should not
  come again after our interview; and for the next I had speedily
  ripened a fresh plan。  A prisoner; if he has one great disability
  for a lover; has yet one considerable advantage: there is nothing
  to distract him; and he can spend all his hours ripening his love
  and preparing its manifestations。  I had been then some days upon a
  piece of carving; … no less than the emblem of Scotland; the Lion
  Rampant。  This I proceeded to finish with what skill I was
  possessed of; and when at last I could do no more to it (and; you
  may be sure; was already regretting I had done so much); added on
  the base the following dedication。 …
  A LA BELLE FLORA
  LE PRISONNIER RECONNAISSANT
  A。 D。 ST。  Y。 D。 K。
  I put my heart into the carving of these letters。  What was done
  with so much ardour; it seemed scarce possible that any should
  behold with indifference; and the initials would at least suggest
  to her my noble birth。  I thought it better to suggest: I felt that
  mystery was my stock…in…trade; the contrast between my rank and
  manners; between my speech and my clothing; and the fact that she
  could only think of me by a combination of letters; must all tend
  to increase her interest and engage her heart。
  This done; there was nothing left for me but to wait and to hope。
  And there is nothing further from my character: in love and in war;
  I am all for the forward movement; and these days of waiting made
  my purgatory。  It is a fact that I loved her a great deal better at
  the end of them; for love comes; like bread; from a perpetual
  rehandling。  And besides; I was fallen into a panic of fear。  How;
  if she came no more; how was I to continue to endure my empty days?
  how was I to fall back and find my interest in the major's lessons;
  the lieutenant's chess; in a twopenny sale in the market; or a
  halfpenny addition to the prison fare?
  Days went by; and weeks; I had not the courage to calculate; and
  to…day I have not the courage to remember; but at last she was
  there。  At last I saw her approach me in the company of a boy about
  her own age; and whom I divined at once to be her brother。
  I rose and bowed in silence。
  'This is my brother; Mr。 Ronald Gilchrist;' said she。  'I have told
  him of your sufferings。  He is so sorry for you!'
  'It is more than I have the right to ask;' I replied; 'but among
  gentlefolk these generous sentiments are natural。  If your brother
  and I were to meet in the field; we should meet like tigers; but
  when he sees me here disarmed and helpless; he forgets his
  animosity。'  (At which; as I had ventured to expect; this beardless
  champion coloured to the ears for pleasure。)  'Ah; my dear young
  lady;' I continued; 'there are many of your countrymen languishing
  in my country; even as I do here。  I can but hope there is found
  some French lady to convey to each of them the priceless
  consolation of her sympathy。  You have given me alms; and more than
  alms … hope; and while you were absent I was not forgetful。  Suffer
  me to be able to tell myself that I have at least tried to make a
  return; and for the prisoner's sake deign to accept this trifle。'
  So saying; I offered her my lion; which she took; looked at in some
  embarrassment; and then; catching sight of the dedication; broke
  out with a cry。
  'Why; how did you know my name?' she exclaimed。
  'When names are so appropriate; they should be easily guessed;'
  said I; bowing。  'But indeed; there was no magic in the matter。  A
  lady called you by name on the day I found your handkerchief; and I
  was quick to remark and cherish it。'
  'It is very; very beautiful;' said she; 'and I shall be always
  proud of the inscription。 … Come; Ronald; we must be going。'  She
  bowed to me as a lady bows to her equal; and passed on (I could
  have sworn) with a heightened colour。
  I was overjoyed: my innocent ruse had succeeded; she had taken my
  gift without a hint of payment; and she would scarce sleep in peace
  till she had made it up to me。  No greenhorn in matters of the
  heart; I was besides aware that I had now a resident ambassador at
  the court of my lady。  The lion might be ill chiselled; it was
  mine。  My hands had made and held it; my knife … or; to speak more
  by the mark; my rusty nail … had traced those letters; and simple
  as the words were; they would keep repeating to her that I was
  grateful and that I found her fair。  The boy had looked like a
  gawky; and blushed at a compliment; I could see besides that he
  regarded me with considerable suspicion; yet he made so manly a
  figure of a lad; that I could not withhold from him my sympathy。
  And as for the impulse that had made her bring and introduce him; I
  could not sufficiently admire it。  It seemed to me finer than wit;
  and more tender than a caress。  It said (plain as language); 'I do
  not and I cannot know you。  Here is my brother … you can know him;
  this is the way to me … follow it。'
  CHAPTER II … A TALE OF A PAIR OF SCISSORS
  I WAS still plunged in these thoughts when the bell was rung that
  discharged our visitors into the street。  Our little market was no
  sooner closed than we were summoned to the distribution; and
  received our rations; which we were then allowed to eat according
  to fancy in any part of our quarters。
  I have said the conduct of some of our visitors was unbearably
  offensive; it was possibly m