第 23 节
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  to come directly to her; and that he let her know with the first words
  that he had acted upon hopes given him through Belsky from Mrs。 Milray。
  He owned that he doubted the authority of either to give him these hopes;
  but he said he could not abandon them without a last effort to see her;
  and learn from her whether they were true or false。
  If she recognized the design of a magnificent reparation in what Mrs。
  Milray had done; she did not give it much thought。  Her mind was upon
  distant things as she followed Gregory's explanation of his presence;
  and in the muse in which she listened she seemed hardly to know when he
  ceased speaking。
  〃I know it must seem to take something for granted which I've no right to
  take for granted。  I don't believe you could think that I cared for
  anything but you; or at all for what Mrs。 Lander has done for you。〃
  〃Do you mean her leaving me her money?〃 asked Clementina; with that
  boldness her sex enjoys concerning matters of finance and affection。
  〃Yes;〃 said Gregory; blushing for her。  〃As far as I should ever have a
  right to care; I could wish there were no money。  It could bring no
  blessing to our life。  We could do no good with it; nothing but the
  sacrifice of ourselves in poverty could be blessed to us。〃
  〃That is what I thought; too;〃 Clementina replied。
  〃Oh; then you did think〃
  But afterwards; I changed my Mind。  If she wants to give me her money I
  shall take it。〃
  Gregory was blankly silent again。
  〃I shouldnt know how to refuse; and I don't know as I should have any
  right to。  Gregory shrank a little from her reyankeefied English; as well
  as from the apparent cynicism of her speech; but he shrank in silence
  still。  She startled him by asking with a kindness that was almost
  tenderness; 〃Mr。 Gregory; how do you think anything has changed?〃
  〃Changed?〃
  〃You know how it was when you went away from Florence。  Do you think
  differently now?  I don't。  I don't think I ought to do something for
  you; and pretend that I was doing it for religion。  I don't believe the
  way you do; and I know I neva shall。  Do you want me in spite of my
  saying that I can neva help you in your work because I believe in it?〃
  〃But if you believe in me〃
  She shook her bead compassionately。  〃You know we ahgued that out before。
  We are just whe'e we were。  I am sorry。  Nobody had any right to tell you
  to come he'e。  But I am glad you came〃 She saw the hope that lighted up
  his face; but she went on unrelentingly 〃I think we had betta be free。〃
  〃Free?〃
  〃Yes; from each other。  I don't know how you have felt; but I have not
  felt free。  It has seemed to me that I promised you something。  If I did;
  I want to take my promise back and be free。〃
  Her frankness appealed to his own。  〃You are free。  I never held you
  bound to me in my fondest hopes。  You have always done right。〃
  〃I have tried to。  And I am not going to let you go away thinking that
  the reason I said is the only reason。  It isn't。  I wish to be free
  becausethere is some one else; now。〃  It was hard to tell him this;
  but she knew that she must not do less; and the train that carried him
  from Venice that night bore a letter from her to Hinkle。
  XXXIII。
  Clementina told Miss Milray what had happened; but with Mrs。 Milray the
  girl left the sudden departure of Gregory to account for itself。
  They all went a week later; and Mrs。 Milray having now done her whole
  duty to Clementina had the easiest mind concerning her。  Miss Milray felt
  that she was leaving her to greater trials than ever with Mrs。 Lander;
  but since there was nothing else; she submitted; as people always do with
  the trials of others; and when she was once away she began to forget her。
  By this time; however; it was really better for her。  With no one to
  suspect of tampering with her allegiance; Mrs。 Lander returned to her
  former fondness for the girl; and they were more peaceful if not happier
  together again。  They had long talks; such as they used to have; and in
  the first of these Clementina told her how and why she had written to
  Mr。 Hinkle。  Mrs。 Lander said that it suited her exactly。
  〃There ha'n't but just two men in Europe behaved like gentlemen to me;
  and one is Mr。 Hinkle; and the other is that lo'd; and between the two I
  ratha you'd have Mr。 Iiinkle; I don't know as I believe much in American
  guls marryin' lo'ds; the best of 'em。〃
  Clementina laughed。  〃Why; Mrs。 Landa; Lo'd Lioncou't never thought of me
  in the wo'ld!〃
  〃You can't eva know。  Mrs。 Milray was tellin' that he's what they call a
  pooa lo'd; and that he was carryin' on with the American girls like
  everything down there in Egypt last winta。  I guess if it comes to money
  you'd have enough to buy him and sell him again。〃
  The mention of money cast a chill upon their talk; and Mrs。 Lander said
  gloomily; 〃I don't know as I ca'e so much for that will Mr。 Milray made
  for me; after all。  I did want to say ten thousand apiece for Mr。 Landa's
  relations; but I hated to befo'e him; I'd told the whole kit of 'em so
  much about you; and I knew what they would think。〃
  She looked at Clementina with recurring grudge; and the girl could not
  bear it。
  〃Then why don't you tear it up; and make another?  I don't want anything;
  unless you want me to have it; and I'd ratha not have anything。〃
  〃Yes; and what would folks say; afta youa taken' care of me?〃
  〃Do you think I do it fo' that?〃
  〃What do you do it fo'?〃
  〃What did you want me to come with you fo'?〃
  〃That's true。〃  Mrs。 Lander brightened and warmed again。  〃I guess it's
  all right。  I guess I done right; and I got to be satisfied。  I presume I
  could get the consul to make me a will any time。〃
  Clementina did not relent so easily。  〃Mrs。 Landa; whateva you do I don't
  ca'e to know it; and if you talk to me again about this I shall go home。
  I would stay with you as long as you needed me; but I can't if you keep
  bringing this up。〃
  〃I suppose you think you don't need me any moa!  Betta not be too su'a。〃
  The girl jumped to her feet; and Mrs。 Lander interposed。  〃Well; the'a!
  I didn't mean anything; and I won't pesta you about it any moa。  But I
  think it's pretty ha'd。  Who am I going to talk it ova with; then?〃
  〃You can talk it ova with the vice…consul;〃 paid Clementina; at random。
  〃Well; that's so。〃  Mrs。 Lander let Clementina get her ready for the
  night; in sign of returning amity; when she was angry with her she always
  refused her help; and made her send Maddalena。
  The summer heat increased; and the sick woman suffered from it; but she
  could not be persuaded that she had strength to get away; though the
  vice…consul; whom she advised with; used all his logic with her。  He was
  a gaunt and weary widower; who described himself as being officially
  between hay and grass; the consul who appointed him had resigned after
  going home; and a new consul had not yet been sent out to remove him。
  On what she called her well days Mrs。 Lander went to visit him; and she
  did not mind his being in his shirt…sleeves; in the bit of garden where
  she commonly found him; with his collar and cravat off; and clouded in
  his own smoke; when she was sick she sent for him; to visit her。  He made
  excuses as often as she could; and if he saw Mrs。 Lander's gondola coming
  down the Grand Canal to his house he hurried on his cast clothing; and
  escaped to the Piazza; at whatever discomfort and risk from the heat。
  〃I don't know how you stand it; Miss Claxon;〃 he complained to
  Clementina; as soon as he learned that she was not a blood relation of
  Mrs。 Lander's; and divined that she had her own reservations concerning
  her。  〃But that woman will be the death of me if she keeps this up。  What
  does she think I'm here for?  If this goes on much longer I'll resign。
  The salary won't begin to pay for it。  What am I going to do?  I don't
  want to hurt her feelings; or not to help her; but I know ten times as
  much about Mrs。 Lander's liver as I do about my own; now。〃
  He treated Clementina as a person of mature judgment and a sage
  discretion; and he accepted what comfort she could offer him when she
  explained that it was everything for Mrs。 Lander to have him to talk
  with。  〃She gets tied of talking to me;〃 she urged; 〃and there's nobody
  else; now。〃
  〃Why don't she hire a valet de place; and talk to him?  I'd hire one
  myself for her。  It would be a good deal cheaper for me。  It's as much as
  I can do to stand this weather as it is。〃
  The vice…consul laughed forlornly in his exasperation; but he agreed with
  Clementina when she said; in further excuse; that Mrs。 Lander was really
  very sick。  He pushed back his hat; and scratched his head with a
  grimace。
  〃Of course; we've got to remember she's sick; and I shall need a little
  sympathy myself if she keeps on at me this way。  I believe I'll tell her
  about my liver next time; and see how she likes it。  Look here; Miss
  Claxon!  Couldn't we get her off to some of those German watering places
  that are good for her complaints?  I believe it would be the best thing
  for hernot to mention me。〃
  Mrs。 Lander was moved by the suggestion which he made in person
  afterwards; it appealed to her old nomadic instinct; but when the consul
  was