第 18 节
作者:京文      更新:2024-09-15 09:12      字数:9322
  XXIX。
  In the time of provisional quiet that followed for Clementina; she was
  held from the remorses and misgivings that had troubled her before Hinkle
  came。  She still thought that she had let Dr。 Welwright go away believing
  that she had not cared enough for the offer which had surprised her so
  much; and she blamed herself for not telling him how doubly bound she was
  to Gregory; though when she tried to put her sense of this in words to
  herself she could not make out that she was any more bound to him than
  she had been before they met in Florence; unless she wished to be so。
  Yet somehow in this time of respite; neither the regret for Dr。 Welwright
  nor the question of Gregory persisted very strongly; and there were whole
  days when she realized before she slept that she had not thought of
  either。
  She was in full favor again with Mrs。 Lander; whom there was no one to
  embitter in her jealous affection。  Hinkle formed their whole social
  world; and Mrs。 Lander made the most of him。  She was always having him
  to the dinners which her landlord served her from a restaurant in her
  apartment; and taking him out with Clementina in her gondola。  He came
  into a kind of authority with them both which was as involuntary with him
  as with them; and was like an effect of his constant wish to be doing
  something for them。
  One morning when they were all going out in Mrs。 Lander's gondola; she
  sent Clementina back three times to their rooms for outer garments of
  differing density。  When she brought the last Mrs。 Lander frowned。
  〃This won't do。  I've got to have something elsesomething lighter and
  warma。〃
  〃I can't go back any moa; Mrs。 Landa;〃 cried the girl; from the
  exasperation of her own nerves。
  〃Then I will go back myself;〃 said Mrs。 Lander with dignity; 〃and we
  sha'n't need the gondoler any more this mo'ning;〃 she added; 〃unless you
  and Mr。 Hinkle wants to ride。〃
  She got ponderously out of the boat with the help of the gondolier's
  elbow; and marched into the house again; while Clementina followed her。
  She did not offer to help her up the stairs; Hinkle had to do it; and he
  met the girl slowly coming up as he returned from delivering Mrs。 Lander
  over to Maddalena。
  〃She's all right; now;〃 he ventured to say; tentatively。
  〃Is she?〃 Clementina coldly answered。
  In spite of her repellent air; he persisted; 〃She's a pretty sick woman;
  isn't she?〃
  〃The docta doesn't say。〃
  〃Well; I think it would be safe to act on that supposition。  Miss
  ClementinaI think she wants to see you。〃
  〃I'm going to her directly。〃
  Hinkle paused; rather daunted。  〃She wants me to go for the doctor。〃
  〃She's always wanting the docta。〃  Clementina lifted her eyes and looked
  very coldly at him。
  〃If I were you I'd go up right away;〃 he said; boldly。
  She felt that she ought to resent his interference; but the mild entreaty
  of his pale blue eyes; or the elder…brotherly injunction of his smile;
  forbade her。  〃Did she ask for me?〃
  〃No。〃
  〃I'll go to her;〃 she said; and she kept herself from smiling at the long
  sigh of relief he gave as she passed him on the stairs。
  Mrs。 Lander began as soon as she entered her room; 〃Well; I was just
  wonderin' if you was goin' to leave me here all day alone; while you
  staid down the'e; carryin' on with that simpleton。  I don't know what's
  got into the men。〃
  〃Mr。 Hinkle has gone for the docta;〃 said Clementina; trying to get into
  her voice the kindness she was trying to feel。
  〃Well; if I have one of my attacks; now; you'll have yourself to thank
  for it。〃
  By the time Dr。 Tradonico appeared Mrs。 Lander was so much better that in
  her revulsion of feeling she was all day rather tryingly affectionate in
  her indirect appeals for Clementina's sympathy。
  〃I don't want you should mind what I say; when I a'n't feelin' just
  right;〃 she began that evening; after she had gone to bed; and Clementina
  sat looking out of the open window; on the moonlit lagoon。
  〃Oh; no;〃 the girl answered; wearily。
  Mrs。 Lander humbled herself farther。  〃I'm real sorry I plagued you so;
  to…day; and I know Mr。 Hinkle thought I was dreadful; but I couldn't help
  it。  I should like to talk with you; Clementina; about something that's
  worryin' me; if you a'n't busy。〃
  〃I'm not busy; now; Mrs。 Lander;〃 said Clementina; a little coldly; and
  relaxing the clasp of her hands; to knit her fingers together had been
  her sole business; and she put even this away;
  She did not come nearer the bed; and Mrs。 Lander was obliged to speak
  without the advantage of noting the effect of her words upon her in her
  face。  〃It's like this: What am I agoin' to do for them relations of Mr。
  Landa's out in Michigan?〃
  〃I don't know。  What relations?〃
  〃I told you about 'em: the only ones he's got: his half…sista's children。
  He neva saw 'em; and he neva wanted to; but they're his kin; and it was
  his money。  It don't seem right to pass 'em ova。  Do you think it would
  yourself; Clementina?〃
  Why; of cou'se not; Mrs。 Lander。  It wouldn't be right at all。〃
  Mrs。 Lander looked relieved; and she said; as if a little surprised; 〃I'm
  glad you feel that way; I should feel just so; myself。  I mean to do by
  you just what I always said I should。  I sha'n't forget you; but whe'e
  the'e's so much I got to thinkin' the'e'd ought to some of it go to his
  folks; whetha he ca'ed for 'em or not。  It's worried me some; and I guess
  if anything it's that that's made me wo'se lately。〃
  〃Why by Mrs。 Landa;〃 said the girl; 〃Why don't you give it all to them?〃
  〃You don't know what you'a talkin' about;〃 said Mrs。 Lander; severely。〃 I
  guess if I give 'em five thousand or so amongst'em; it's full moa than
  they eve thought of havin'; and it's moa than they got any right to。
  Well; that's all right; then; and we don't need to talk about it any moa。
  Yes;〃 she resumed; after a moment; 〃that's what I shall do。  I hu'n't eva
  felt just satisfied with that last will I got made; and I guess I shall
  tear it up; and get the fust American lawyer that comes along to make me
  a new one。  The prop'ty's all goin' to you; but I guess I shall leave
  five thousand apiece to the two families out the'e。  You won't miss it;
  any; and I presume it's what Mr。 Landa would expect I should do; though
  why he didn't do it himself; I can't undastand; unless it was to show his
  confidence in me。〃
  She began to ask Clementina how she felt about staying in Venice all
  summer; she said she had got so much better there already that she
  believed she should be well by fall if she stayed on。  She was certain
  that it would put her all back if she were to travel now; and in Europe;
  where it was so hard to know how to get to places; she did not see how
  they could pick out any that would suit them as well as Venice did。
  Clementina agreed to it all; more or less absentmindedly; as she sat
  looking into the moonlight; and the day that had begun so stormily ended
  in kindness between them。
  The next morning Mrs。 Lander did not wish to go out; and she sent
  Clementina and Hinkle together as a proof that they were all on good
  terms again。  She did not spare the girl this explanation in his
  presence; and when they were in the gondola he felt that he had to say;
  〃I was afraid you might think I was rather meddlesome yesterday。〃
  〃Oh; no;〃 she answered。  〃I was glad you did。〃
  〃Yes;〃 he returned; 〃I thought you would be afterwards。〃  He looked at
  her wistfully with his slanted eyes and his odd twisted smile and they
  both gave way in the same conscious laugh。  〃What I like;〃 he explained
  further; 〃is to be understood when I've said something that doesn't mean
  anything; don't you?  You know anybody can understand you if you really
  mean something; but most of the time you don't; and that's when a friend
  is useful。  I wish you'd call on me if you're ever in that fix。〃
  〃Oh; I will; Mr。 Hinkle;〃 Clementina promised; gayly。
  〃Thank you;〃 he said; and her gayety seemed to turn him graver。  〃Miss
  Clementina; might I go a little further in this direction; without
  danger?〃
  〃What direction?〃 she added; with a flush of sudden alarm。
  〃Mrs。 Lander。〃
  〃Why; suttainly!〃 she answered; in quick relief。
  〃I wish you'd let me do some of the worrying about her for you; while I'm
  here。  You know I haven't got anything else to do!〃
  〃Why; I don't believe I worry much。  I'm afraid I fo'get about her when
  I'm not with her。  That's the wo'st of it。〃
  〃No; no;〃 he entreated; 〃that's the best of it。  But I want to do the
  worrying for you even when you're with her。  Will you let me?〃
  〃Why; if you want to so very much。〃
  〃Then it's settled;〃 he said; dismissing the subject。
  But she recurred to it with a lingering compunction。
  〃I presume that I don't remember how sick she is because I've neva been
  sick at all; myself。〃
  〃Well;〃 he returned; 〃You needn't be sorry for that altogether。  There
  are worse things than being well; though sick people don't always think
  so。  I've wasted a good deal of time the other way; though I've reformed;
  now。〃
  They went on to talk about themselves; sometimes they talked about
  others; in excursions which were more or less perfunctory; and were
  merely in the way of illustration or instanc