第 13 节
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him in his preoccupation with the romantic end to be accomplished。 He
had meant to be the friend; the prophet; to these American lovers; whom
he was reconciling and interpreting to each other; but in some point he
must have misunderstood。 Yet the error was not inexpiable; and in his
expiation he could put the seal to his devotion。 He left the room; where
Gregory made no effort to keep him。
He walked down the street from the hotel to the Arno; and in a few
moments he stood on the bridge; where he had talked with that joker in
the morning; as they looked down together on the boiling river。 He had a
strange wish that the joker might have been with him again; to learn that
there were some things which could not be joked away。
The night was blustering; and the wind that blew the ragged clouds across
the face of the moon; swooped in sudden gusts upon the bridge; and the
deluge rolling under it and hoarsely washing against its piers。 Belsky
leaned over the parapet and looked down into the eddies and currents as
the fitful light revealed them。 He had a fantastic pleasure in studying
them; and choosing the moment when he should leap the parapet and be lost
in them。 The incident could not be used in any novel of his; and no one
else could do such perfect justice to the situation; but perhaps
afterwards; when the facts leading to his death should be known through
the remorse of the lovers whom he had sought to serve; some other artist…
nature could distil their subtlest meaning in a memoir delicate as the
aroma of a faded flower。
He was willing to make this sacrifice; too; and he stepped back a pace
from the parapet when the fitful blast caught his hat from his head; and
whirled it along the bridge。 The whole current of his purpose changed;
and as if it had been impossible to drown himself in his bare head; he
set out in chase of his hat; which rolled and gamboled away; and escaped
from his clutch whenever he stooped for it; till a final whiff of wind
flung it up and tossed it over the bridge into the river; where he
helplessly watched it floating down the flood; till it was carried out of
sight。
XXV。
Gregory did not sleep; and he did not find peace in the prayers he put up
for guidance。 He tried to think of some one with whom he might take
counsel; but he knew no one in Florence except the parents of his pupil;
and they were impossible。 He felt himself abandoned to the impulse which
he dreaded; in going to Clementina; and he went without hope; willing to
suffer whatever penalty she should visit upon him; after he had disavowed
Belsky's action; and claimed the responsibility for it。
He was prepared for her refusal to see him; he had imagined her wounded
and pathetic; he had fancied her insulted and indignant; but she met him
eagerly and with a mystifying appeal in her welcome。 He began at once;
without attempting to bridge the time since they had met with any
formalities。
〃I have come to speak to you aboutthatRussian; about Baron Belsky〃
〃Yes; yes!〃 she returned; anxiously。 〃Then you have hea'd〃
〃He came to me last night; andI want to say that I feel myself to blame
for what he has done。〃
〃You?〃
〃Yes; I。 I never spoke of you by name to him; I didn't dream of his ever
seeing you; or that he would dare to speak to you of what I told him。
But I believe he meant no wrong; and it was I who did the harm; whether I
authorized it or not。〃
〃Yes; yes!〃 she returned; with the effect of putting his words aside as
something of no moment。 〃Have they head anything more?〃
〃How; anything more?〃 he returned; in a daze。
〃Then; don't you know? About his falling into the river? I know he
didn't drown himself。〃
Gregory shook his head。 〃Whenwhat makes them think〃 He stopped and
stared at her。
〃Why; they know that he went down to the Ponte Trinity last night;
somebody saw him going: And then that peasant found his hat with his name
in it in the drift…wood below the Cascine〃
〃Yes;〃 said Gregory; lifelessly。 He let his arms drop forward; and his
helpless hands hang over his knees; his gaze fell from her face to the
floor。
Neither spoke for a time that seemed long; and then it was Clementina who
spoke。 〃But it isn't true!〃
〃Oh; yes; it is;〃 said Gregory; as before。
〃Mr。 Hinkle doesn't believe it is;〃 she urged。
〃Mr。 Hinkle?〃
〃He's an American who's staying in Florence。 He came this mo'ning to
tell me about it。 Even if he's drowned Mr。 Hinkle believes he didn't
mean to; he must have just fallen in。〃
〃What does it matter?〃 demanded Gregory; lifting his heavy eyes。
〃Whether he meant it or not; I caused it。 I drove him to it。〃
〃You drove him?〃
〃Yes。 He told me what he had said to you; and Isaid that he had
spoiled my lifeI don't know!〃
〃Well; he had no right to do it; but I didn't blame you;〃 Clementina
began; compassionately。
〃It's too late。 It can't be helped now。〃 Gregory turned from the mercy
that could no longer save him。 He rose dizzily; and tried to get himself
away。
〃You mustn't go!〃 she interposed。 〃I don't believe you made him do it。
Mr。 Hinkle will be back soon; and he will〃
〃If he should bring word that it was true?〃 Gregory asked。
〃Well;〃 said Clementina; 〃then we should have to bear it。〃
A sense of something finer than the surface meaning of her words pierced
his morbid egotism。 〃I'm ashamed;〃 he said。 〃Will you let me stay?〃
〃Why; yes; you must;〃 she said; and if there was any censure of him at
the bottom of her heart; she kept it there; and tried to talk him away
from his remorse; which was in his temperament; perhaps; rather than his
conscience; she made the time pass till there came a knock at the door;
and she opened it to Hinkle。
〃I didn't send up my name; I thought I wouldn't stand upon ceremony just
now;〃 he said。
〃Oh; no!〃 she returned。 〃Mr。 Hinkle; this is Mr。 Gregory。 Mr。 Gregory
knew Mr。 Belsky; and he thinks〃
She turned to Gregory for prompting; and he managed to say; 〃I don't
believe he was quite the sort of person to And yet he mighthe was in
trouble〃
〃Money trouble?〃 asked Hinkle。 〃They say these Russians have a perfect
genius for debt。 I had a little inspiration; since I saw you; but there
doesn't seems to be anything in it; so far。〃 He addressed himself to
Clementina; but he included Gregory in what he said。 〃It struck me that
he might have been running his board; and had used this drowning episode
as a blind。 But I〃ve been around to his hotel; and he's settled up; all
fair and square enough。 The landlord tried to think of something he
hadn't paid; but he couldn't; and I never saw a man try harder; either。〃
Clementina smiled; she put her hand to her mouth to keep from laughing;
but Gregory frowned his distress in the untimely droning。
〃I don't give up my theory that it's a fake of some kind; though。 He
could leave behind a good many creditors besides his landlord。 The
authorities have sealed up his effects; and they've done everything but
call out the fire department; that's on duty looking after the freshet;
and it couldn't be spared。 I'll go out now and slop round a little more
in the cause; 〃Hinkle looked down at his shoes and his drabbled trousers;
and wiped the perspiration from his face;〃but I thought I'd drop in; and
tell you not to worry about it; Miss Clementina。 I would stake anything
you pleased on Mr。 Belsky's safety。 Mr。 Gregory; here; looks like he
would be willing to take odds;〃 he suggested。
Gregory commanded himself from his misery to say; 〃I wish I could
believeI mean〃
〃Of course; we don't want to think that the man's a fraud; any more than
that he's dead。 Perhaps we might hit upon some middle course。 At any
rate; it's worth trying。〃
〃May Ido you object to my joining you?〃 Gregory asked。
〃Why; come!〃 Hinkle hospitably assented。 〃Glad to have you。 I'll be
back again; Miss Clementina!〃
Gregory was going away without any form of leavetaking; but he turned
back to ask; 〃Will you let me come back; too?〃
〃Why; suttainly; Mr。 Gregory;〃 said Clementina; and she went to find Mrs。
Lander; whom she found in bed。
〃I thought I'd lay down;〃 she explained。 〃I don't believe I'm goin' to
be sick; but it's one of my pooa days; and I might just as well be in bed
as not。〃 Clementina agreed with her; and Mrs。 Lander asked: 〃You hea'd
anything moa?〃
〃No。 Mr。 Hinkle has just been he'a; but he hadn't any news。〃
Mrs。 Lander turned her face toward the wall。 〃Next thing; he'll be
drownin' himself。 I neva wanted you should have anything to do with the
fellas that go to that woman's。 There ain't any of 'em to be depended
on。〃
It was the first time that her growing jealousy of Miss Milray had openly
declared itself; but Clementina had felt it before; without knowing how
to meet it。 As an escape from it now she was almost willing to say;
〃Mrs。 Lander; I want to tell you that Mr。 Gregory has just been he'a;
too。〃
〃Mr。 Gregory?〃
〃Yes。 Don't you remember? At the Middlemount? The first summa? He was
the headwaitathat student。〃
Mrs。 Lander jerked her head round on the pillow。 〃Well; of all theWhat
does he want; over he'a?〃
〃Nothing。 That ishe's travel