第 12 节
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  because I think you can understand; and will know what to advise; what to
  do。〃
  He turned upon his heel; and walked the length of the room and back
  before he spoke again。
  〃Since several years;〃 he said; growing a little less idiomatic in his
  English as his excitement mounted; 〃he met a young girl; a child; when he
  was still not a man's full age。  It was in the country; in the mountains
  of America; andhe loved her。  Both were very poor; he; a student;
  earning the means to complete his education in the university。  He had
  dedicated himself to his church; and with the temperament of the
  Puritans; he forbade himself all thoughts of love。  But he was of a
  passionate and impulsive nature; and in a moment of abandon he confessed
  his love。  The child was bewildered; frightened; she shrank from his
  avowal; and he; filled with remorse for his self…betrayal; bade her let
  it be as if it had not been; he bade her think of him no more。〃
  Clementina sat as if powerless to move; staring at Belsky。  He paused in
  his walk; and allowed an impressive silence to ensue upon his words。
  〃Time passed: days; months; years; and he did not see her again。  He
  pursued his studies in the university; at their completion; he entered
  upon the course of divinity; and he is soon to be a minister of his
  church。  In all that time the image of the young girl has remained in his
  heart; and has held him true to the only love he has ever known。  He will
  know no other while he lives。〃
  Again he stopped in front of Clementina; she looked helplessly up at him;
  and he resumed his walk。
  〃He; with his dreams of renunciation; of abnegation; had thought some day
  to return to her and ask her to be his。  He believed her capable of equal
  sacrifice with himself; and he hoped to win her not for himself alone;
  but for the religion which he put before himself。  He would have invited
  her to join her fate with his that they might go together on some mission
  to the paganin the South Seas; in the heart of Africa; in the jungle of
  India。  He had always thought of her as gay but good; unworldly in soul;
  and exalted in spirit。  She has remained with him a vision of angelic
  loveliness; as he had seen her last in the moonlight; on the banks of a
  mountain torrent。  But he believes that he has disgraced himself before
  her; that the very scruple for her youth; her ignorance; which made him
  entreat her to forget him; must have made her doubt and despise him。  He
  has never had the courage to write to her one word since all those years;
  but he maintains himself bound to her forever。〃  He stopped short before
  Clementina and seized her hands。  〃If you knew such a girl; what would
  you have her do?  Should she bid him hope again?  Would you have her say
  to him that she; too; had been faithful to their dream; and that she
  too〃
  〃Let me go; Mr。 Belsky; let me go; I say!〃 Clementina wrenched her hands
  from him; and ran out of the room。  Belsky hesitated; then he found his
  hat; and after a glance at his face in the mirror; left the house。
  XXIV。
  The tide of travel began to set northward in April。  Many English; many
  Americans appeared in Florence from Naples and Rome; many who had
  wintered in Florence went on to Venice and the towns of northern Italy;
  on their way to Switzerland and France and Germany。
  The spring was cold and rainy; and the irresolute Italian railroads were
  interrupted by the floods。  A tawny deluge rolled down from the mountains
  through the bed of the Arno; and kept the Florentine fire…department on
  the alert night and day。  〃It is a curious thing about this country;〃
  said Mr。 Hinkle; encountering Baron Belsky on the Ponte Trinita; 〃that
  the only thing they ever have here for a fire company to put out is a
  freshet。  If they had a real conflagration once; I reckon they would want
  to bring their life…preservers。〃
  The Russian was looking down over the parapet at the boiling river。  He
  lifted his head as if he had not heard the American; and stared at him a
  moment before he spoke。  It is said that the railway to Rome is broken at
  Grossetto。〃
  〃Well; I'm not going to Rome;〃 said Hinkle; easily。  〃Are you?〃
  〃I was to meet a friend there; but he wrote to me that be was starting to
  Florence; and now〃
  〃He's resting on the way?  Well; he'll get here about as quick as he
  would in the ordinary course of travel。  One good thing about Italy is;
  you don't want to hurry; if you did; you'd get left。〃
  Belsky stared at him in the stupefaction to which the American humor
  commonly reduced him。  〃If he gets left on the Grossetto line; he can go
  back and come up by Orvieto; no?〃
  〃He can; if he isn't in a hurry;〃 Hinkle assented。
  〃It's a good way; if you've got time to burn。〃
  Belsky did not attempt to explore the American's meaning。  〃Do you know;〃
  he asked; 〃whether Mrs。 Lander and her young friend are still in
  Florence?
  〃I guess they are。〃
  〃It was said they were going to Venice for the summer。〃
  〃That's what the doctor advised for the old lady。  But they don't start
  for a week or two yet。〃
  〃Oh!〃
  〃Are you going to Miss Milray's; Sunday night?  Last of the season; I
  believe。〃
  Belsky seemed to recall himself from a distance。
  〃Nono;〃 he said; and he moved away; forgetful of the ceremonious
  salutation which he commonly used at meeting and parting。  Hinkle looked
  after him with the impression people have of a difference in the
  appearance and behavior of some one whose appearance and behavior do not
  particularly concern them。
  The day that followed; Belsky haunted the hotel where Gregory was to
  arrive with his pupil; and where the pupil's family were waiting for
  them。  That night; long after their belated train was due; they came; the
  pupil was with his father and mother; and Gregory was alone; when Belsky
  asked for him; the fourth or fifth time。
  〃You are not well;〃 he said; as they shook bands。  You are fevered!〃
  〃I'm tired;〃 said Gregory。  〃We've bad a bad time getting through。〃
  〃I come inconveniently!  You have not dined; perhaps?〃
  〃Yes; Yes。  I've had dinner。  Sit down。  How have you been yourself?〃
  〃Oh; always well。〃  Belsky sat down; and the friends stared at each
  other。  〃I have strange news for you。〃
  〃For me?〃
  〃You。  She is here。〃
  〃She?〃
  Yes。  The young girl of whom you told me。  If I had not forbidden myself
  by my loyalty to youif I had not said to myself every moment in her
  presence; 'No; it is for your friend alone that she is beautiful and
  good!'But you will have nothing to reproach me in that regard。〃
  〃What do you mean?〃 demanded Gregory。
  〃I mean that Miss Claxon is in Florence; with her protectress; the rich
  Mrs。 Lander。  The most admired young lady in society; going everywhere;
  and everywhere courted and welcomed; the favorite of the fashionable Miss
  Milray。  But why should this surprise you?〃
  〃You said nothing about it in your letters。  You〃
  〃I was not sure it was she; you never told me her name。  When I had
  divined the fact; I was so soon to see you; that I thought best to keep
  it till we met。〃
  Gregory tried to speak; but he let Belsky go on。
  〃If you think that the world has spoiled her; that she will be different
  from what she was in her home among your mountains; let me reassure you。
  In her you will find the miracle of a woman whom no flattery can turn the
  head。  I have watched her in your interest; I have tested her。  She is
  what you saw her last。〃
  〃Surely;〃 asked Gregory; in an anguish for what he now dreaded; 〃you
  haven't spoken to her of me?〃
  〃Not by name; no。  I could not have that indiscretion〃
  〃The name is nothing。  Have you said that you knew me Of course not!
  But have you hinted at any knowledge Because〃
  〃You will hear!〃 said Belsky; and he poured out upon Gregory the story of
  what he had done。  〃She did not deny anything。  She was greatly moved;
  but she did not refuse to let me bid you hope〃
  〃Oh!〃  Gregory took his head between his hands。  〃You have spoiled my
  life!〃
  〃Spoiled〃 Belsky stopped aghast。
  〃I told you my story in a moment of despicable weaknessof impulsive
  folly。  But how could I dream that you would ever meet her?  How could I
  imagine that you would speak to her as you have done?〃  He groaned; and
  began to creep giddily about the room in his misery。  〃Oh; oh; oh!
  What shall I do?〃
  〃But I do not understand!〃 Belsky began。  〃If I have committed an error〃
  〃Oh; an error that never could be put right in all eternity!〃
  〃Then let me go to herlet me tell her〃
  〃Keep away from her!〃 shouted Gregory。  〃Do you hear?  Never go near her
  again!〃
  〃Gregory!〃
  〃Ah; I beg your pardon!  I don't know what I'm doing…saying。  What will
  she thinkwhat will she think of me!〃  He had ceased to speak to Belsky;
  he collapsed into a chair; and hid his face in his arms stretched out on
  the table before him。
  Belsky watched him in the stupefaction which the artistic nature feels
  when life proves sentient under its hand; and not the mere material of
  situations and effects。  He could not conceive the full measure of the
  disaster he had wrought; the outrage of his own behavior had been lost to
  him in his preoccupation with the romantic end to be accomplished。  He
  had