第 20 节
作者:辛苦      更新:2024-09-08 23:53      字数:9322
  action; Clarence was possessed of an invincible loyalty of
  principle; and that; asking no sentimental affection; and indeed
  yielding none; he was; without presuming on his relationship;
  devoted to his cousin's interest。  It seemed that from being a
  glancing ray of sunshine in the house; evasive but never obtrusive;
  he had become a daily necessity of comfort and security to his
  benefactor。
  Clarence was; however; astonished; when; one morning; Don Juan;
  with the same embarrassed manner he had shown at their first
  meeting; suddenly asked him; 〃what business he expected to follow。〃
  It seemed the more singular; as the speaker; like most abstracted
  men; had hitherto always studiously ignored the future; in their
  daily intercourse。  Yet this might have been either the habit of
  security or the caution of doubt。  Whatever it was; it was some
  sudden disturbance of Don Juan's equanimity; as disconcerting to
  himself as it was to Clarence。  So conscious was the boy of this
  that; without replying to his cousin's question; but striving in
  vain to recall some delinquency of his own; he asked; with his
  usual boyish directness
  〃Has anything happened?  Have I done anything wrong?〃
  〃No; no;〃 returned Don Juan hurriedly。  〃But; you see; it's time
  that you should think of your futureor at least prepare for it。
  I mean you ought to have some more regular education。  You will
  have to go to school。  It's too bad;〃 he added fretfully; with a
  certain impatient forgetfulness of Clarence's presence; and as if
  following his own thought。  〃Just as you are becoming of service to
  me; and justifying your ridiculous position hereand all this dd
  nonsense that's gone beforeI mean; of course; Clarence;〃 he
  interrupted himself; catching sight of the boy's whitening cheek
  and darkening eye; 〃I mean; you knowthis ridiculousness of my
  keeping you from school at your age; and trying to teach you
  myselfdon't you see。〃
  〃You think it isridiculous;〃 repeated Clarence; with dogged
  persistency。
  〃I mean I am ridiculous;〃 said Don Juan hastily。  〃There! there!
  let's say no more about it。  To…morrow we'll ride over to San Jose
  and see the Father Secretary at the Jesuits' College about your
  entering at once。  It's a good school; and you'll always be near
  the rancho!〃  And so the interview ended。
  I am afraid that Clarence's first idea was to run away。  There are
  few experiences more crushing to an ingenuous nature than the
  sudden revelation of the aspect in which it is regarded by others。
  The unfortunate Clarence; conscious only of his loyalty to his
  cousin's interest and what he believed were the duties of his
  position; awoke to find that position 〃ridiculous。〃  In an
  afternoon's gloomy ride through the lonely hills; and later in the
  sleepless solitude of his room at night; he concluded that his
  cousin was right。  He would go to school; he would study hardso
  hard that in a little; a very little while; he could make a living
  for himself。  He awoke contented。  It was the blessing of youth
  that this resolve and execution seemed as one and the same thing。
  The next day found him installed as a pupil and boarder in the
  college。  Don Juan's position and Spanish predilections naturally
  made his relation acceptable to the faculty; but Clarence could not
  help perceiving that Father Sobriente; the Principal; regarded him
  at times with a thoughtful curiosity that made him suspect that his
  cousin had especially bespoken that attention; and that he
  occasionally questioned him on his antecedents in a way that made
  him dread a renewal of the old questioning about his progenitor。
  For the rest; he was a polished; cultivated man; yet; in the
  characteristic; material criticism of youth; I am afraid that
  Clarence chiefly identified him as a priest with large hands; whose
  soft palms seemed to be cushioned with kindness; and whose equally
  large feet; encased in extraordinary shapeless shoes of undyed
  leather; seemed to tread down noiselesslyrather than to
  ostentatiously crushthe obstacles that beset the path of the
  young student。  In the cloistered galleries of the court…yard
  Clarence sometimes felt himself borne down by the protecting weight
  of this paternal hand; in the midnight silence of the dormitory he
  fancied he was often conscious of the soft browsing tread and
  snuffly muffled breathing of his elephantine…footed mentor。
  His relations with his school…fellows were at first far from
  pleasant。 Whether they suspected favoritism; whether they resented
  that old and unsympathetic manner which sprang from his habits of
  association with his elders; or whether they rested their
  objections on the broader grounds of his being a stranger; I do not
  know; but they presently passed from cruel sneers to physical
  opposition。  It was then found that this gentle and reserved youth
  had retained certain objectionable; rude; direct; rustic qualities
  of fist and foot; and that; violating all rules and disdaining the
  pomp and circumstance of school…boy warfare; of which he knew
  nothing; he simply thrashed a few of his equals out of hand; with
  or without ceremony; as the occasion or the insult happened。  In
  this emergency one of the seniors was selected to teach this
  youthful savage his proper position。  A challenge was given; and
  accepted by Clarence with a feverish alacrity that surprised
  himself as much as his adversary。  This was a youth of eighteen;
  his superior in size and skill。
  The first blow bathed Clarence's face in his own blood。  But the
  sanguinary chrism; to the alarm of the spectators; effected an
  instantaneous and unhallowed change in the boy。  Instantly closing
  with his adversary; he sprang at his throat like an animal; and
  locking his arm around his neck began to strangle him。  Blind to
  the blows that rained upon him; he eventually bore his staggering
  enemy by sheer onset and surprise to the earth。  Amidst the general
  alarm; the strength of half a dozen hastily summoned teachers was
  necessary to unlock his hold。  Even then he struggled to renew the
  conflict。  But his adversary had disappeared; and from that day
  forward Clarence was never again molested。
  Seated before Father Sobriente in the infirmary; with swollen and
  bandaged face; and eyes that still seemed to see everything in the
  murky light of his own blood; Clarence felt the soft weight of the
  father's hand upon his knee。
  〃My son;〃 said the priest gently; 〃you are not of our religion; or
  I should claim as a right to ask a question of your own heart at
  this moment。  But as to a good friend; Claro; a good friend;〃 he
  continued; patting the boy's knee; 〃you will tell me; old Father
  Sobriente; frankly and truthfully; as is your habit; one little
  thing。  Were you not afraid?〃
  〃No;〃 said Clarence doggedly。 〃I'll lick him again to…morrow。〃
  〃Softly; my son!  It was not of HIM I speak; but of something more
  terrible and awful。  Were you not afraid ofof〃 he paused; and
  suddenly darting his clear eyes into the very depths of Clarence's
  soul; added〃of YOURSELF?〃
  The boy started; shuddered; and burst into tears。
  〃So; so;〃 said the priest gently; 〃we have found our real enemy。
  Good!  Now; by the grace of God; my little warrior; we shall fight
  HIM and conquer。〃
  Whether Clarence profited by this lesson; or whether this brief
  exhibition of his quality prevented any repetition of the cause;
  the episode was soon forgotten。  As his school…fellows had never
  been his associates or confidants; it mattered little to him
  whether they feared or respected him; or were hypocritically
  obsequious; after the fashion of the weaker。  His studies; at all
  events; profited by this lack of distraction。  Already his two
  years of desultory and omnivorous reading had given him a facile
  familiarity with many things; which left him utterly free of the
  timidity; awkwardness; or non…interest of a beginner。  His usually
  reserved manner; which had been lack of expression rather than of
  conviction; had deceived his tutors。  The audacity of a mind that
  had never been dominated by others; and owed no allegiance to
  precedent; made his merely superficial progress something
  marvelous。
  At the end of the first year he was a phenomenal scholar; who
  seemed capable of anything。  Nevertheless; Father Sobriente had an
  interview with Don Juan; and as a result Clarence was slightly kept
  back in his studies; a little more freedom from the rules was
  conceded to him; and he was even encouraged to take some diversion。
  Of such was the privilege to visit the neighboring town of Santa
  Clara unrestricted and unattended。  He had always been liberally
  furnished with pocket…money; for which; in his companionless state
  and Spartan habits; he had a singular and unboyish contempt。
  Nevertheless; he always appeared dressed with scrupulous neatness;
  and was rather distinguished…looking in his older reserve and
  melancholy self…reliance。
  Lounging one afternoon along the Alameda; a leafy avenue set out by
  the early Mission Fathers between the village of San Jose and the
  convent of Santa Clara; he saw a double file of young girls from
  the convent approaching; on their usual promenade。  A view of this
  procession being the fondest ambition of the San Jose colle