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作者:谁知道呢      更新:2024-07-17 14:42      字数:8478
  MY ANTONIA
  by Willa Sibert Cather
  TO CARRIE AND IRENE MINER
  In memory of affections old and true
  Optima dies 。。。 prima fugit
  VIRGIL
  INTRODUCTION
  LAST summer I happened to be crossing the plains of Iowa in a season
  of intense heat; and it was my good fortune to have for a traveling
  companion James Quayle BurdenJim Burden; as we still call him
  in the West。  He and I are old friendswe grew up together
  in the same Nebraska townand we had much to say to each other。
  While the train flashed through never…ending miles of ripe wheat;
  by country towns and bright…flowered pastures and oak groves wilting
  in the sun; we sat in the observation car; where the woodwork
  was hot to the touch and red dust lay deep over everything。
  The dust and heat; the burning wind; reminded us of many things。
  We were talking about what it is like to spend one's childhood in little
  towns like these; buried in wheat and corn; under stimulating extremes
  of climate:  burning summers when the world lies green and billowy
  beneath a brilliant sky; when one is fairly stifled in vegetation;
  in the color and smell of strong weeds and heavy harvests;
  blustery winters with little snow; when the whole country is stripped
  bare and gray as sheet…iron。 We agreed that no one who had not
  grown up in a little prairie town could know anything about it。
  It was a kind of freemasonry; we said。
  Although Jim Burden and I both live in New York;
  and are old friends; I do not see much of him there。
  He is legal counsel for one of the great Western railways;
  and is sometimes away from his New York office for weeks together。
  That is one reason why we do not often meet。  Another is that I
  do not like his wife。
  When Jim was still an obscure young lawyer; struggling to make his way
  in New York; his career was suddenly advanced by a brilliant marriage。
  Genevieve Whitney was the only daughter of a distinguished man。
  Her marriage with young Burden was the subject of sharp comment at the time。
  It was said she had been brutally jilted by her cousin; Rutland Whitney;
  and that she married this unknown man from the West out of bravado。  She was
  a restless; headstrong girl; even then; who liked to astonish her friends。
  Later; when I knew her; she was always doing something unexpected。
  She gave one of her town houses for a Suffrage headquarters; produced one
  of her own plays at the Princess Theater; was arrested for picketing during
  a garment…makers' strike; etc。  I am never able to believe that she has much
  feeling for the causes to which she lends her name and her fleeting interest。
  She is handsome; energetic; executive; but to me she seems unimpressionable
  and temperamentally incapable of enthusiasm。  Her husband's quiet tastes
  irritate her; I think; and she finds it worth while to play the patroness to
  a group of young poets and painters of advanced ideas and mediocre ability。
  She has her own fortune and lives her own life。  For some reason; she wishes
  to remain Mrs。 James Burden。
  As for Jim; no disappointments have been severe enough to chill
  his naturally romantic and ardent disposition。  This disposition;
  though it often made him seem very funny when he was a boy;
  has been one of the strongest elements in his success。
  He loves with a personal passion the great country through
  which his railway runs and branches。  His faith in it and his
  knowledge of it have played an important part in its development。
  He is always able to raise capital for new enterprises
  in Wyoming or Montana; and has helped young men out there
  to do remarkable things in mines and timber and oil。
  If a young man with an idea can once get Jim Burden's attention;
  can manage to accompany him when he goes off into
  the wilds hunting for lost parks or exploring new canyons;
  then the money which means action is usually forthcoming。
  Jim is still able to lose himself in those big Western dreams。
  Though he is over forty now; he meets new people and new enterprises
  with the impulsiveness by which his boyhood friends remember him。
  He never seems to me to grow older。  His fresh color and sandy
  hair and quick…changing blue eyes are those of a young man;
  and his sympathetic; solicitous interest in women is as youthful
  as it is Western and American。
  During that burning day when we were crossing Iowa;
  our talk kept returning to a central figure; a Bohemian girl
  whom we had known long ago and whom both of us admired。
  More than any other person we remembered; this girl seemed
  to mean to us the country; the conditions; the whole adventure
  of our childhood。  To speak her name was to call up pictures
  of people and places; to set a quiet drama going in one's brain。
  I had lost sight of her altogether; but Jim had found her again
  after long years; had renewed a friendship that meant a great
  deal to him; and out of his busy life had set apart time enough
  to enjoy that friendship。  His mind was full of her that day。
  He made me see her again; feel her presence; revived all my old
  affection for her。
  〃I can't see;〃 he said impetuously; 〃why you have never written
  anything about Antonia。〃
  I told him I had always felt that other peoplehe himself;
  for one knew her much better than I。 I was ready; however;
  to make an agreement with him; I would set down on paper
  all that I remembered of Antonia if he would do the same。
  We might; in this way; get a picture of her。
  He rumpled his hair with a quick; excited gesture; which with him
  often announces a new determination; and I could see that my
  suggestion took hold of him。  〃Maybe I will; maybe I will!〃
  he declared。  He stared out of the window for a few moments;
  and when he turned to me again his eyes had the sudden
  clearness that comes from something the mind itself sees。
  〃Of course;〃 he said; 〃I should have to do it in a direct way;
  and say a great deal about myself。  It's through myself that I
  knew and felt her; and I've had no practice in any other
  form of presentation。〃
  I told him that how he knew her and felt her was exactly what I
  most wanted to know about Antonia。  He had had opportunities that I;
  as a little girl who watched her come and go; had not。
  Months afterward Jim Burden arrived at my apartment one stormy winter
  afternoon; with a bulging legal portfolio sheltered under his fur overcoat。
  He brought it into the sitting…room with him and tapped it with some pride
  as he stood warming his hands。
  〃I finished it last nightthe thing about Antonia;〃 he said。
  〃Now; what about yours?〃
  I had to confess that mine had not gone beyond a few straggling notes。
  〃Notes?  I didn't make any。〃  He drank his tea all at once
  and put down the cup。  〃I didn't arrange or rearrange。
  I simply wrote down what of herself and myself and other people
  Antonia's name recalls to me。  I suppose it hasn't any form。
  It hasn't any title; either。〃  He went into the next room;
  sat down at my desk and wrote on the pinkish face of the
  portfolio the word; 〃Antonia。〃  He frowned at this a moment;
  then prefixed another word; making it 〃My Antonia。〃
  That seemed to satisfy him。
  〃Read it as soon as you can;〃 he said; rising; 〃but don't let it
  influence your own story。〃
  My own story was never written; but the following narrative
  is Jim's manuscript; substantially as he brought it to me。
  NOTES:  '1' The Bohemian name Antonia is strongly accented
  on the first syllable; like the English name Anthony;
  and the ‘i' is; of course; given the sound of long ‘e'。 The
  name is pronounced An'…ton…ee…ah。