第 78 节
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泰达魔王 更新:2024-07-17 14:41 字数:9320
in keeping the smallest peculiarities of his home unaltered。 Thus
the many peaks and gables; the numerous turrets; and the mullioned
windows with their quaint lozenge panes set in lead; remained very
nearly as they had been three centuries back。 Over and above the
quaint melancholy of our dwelling; with the deep woods of its park
and the sullen waters of the mere; our neighborhood was thinly
peopled and primitive; and the people round us were ignorant; and
tenacious of ancient ideas and traditions。 Thus it was a
superstitious atmosphere that we children were reared in; and we
heard; from our infancy; countless tales of horror; some mere
fables doubtless; others legends of dark deeds of the olden time;
exaggerated by credulity and the love of the marvelous。 Our mother
had died when we were young; and our other parent being; though a
kind father; much absorbed in affairs of various kinds; as an
active magistrate and landlord; there was no one to check the
unwholesome stream of tradition with which our plastic minds were
inundated in the company of nurses and servants。 As years went on;
however; the old ghostly tales partially lost their effects; and
our undisciplined minds were turned more towards balls; dress; and
partners; and other matters airy and trivial; more welcome to our
riper age。 It was at a county assembly that Reginald and I first
metmet and loved。 Yes; I am sure that he loved me with all his
heart。 It was not as deep a heart as some; I have thought in my
grief and anger; but I never doubted its truth and honesty。
Reginald's father and mine approved of our growing attachment; and
as for myself; I know I was so happy then; that I look back upon
those fleeting moments as on some delicious dream。 I now come to
the change。 I have lingered on my childish reminiscences; my
bright and happy youth; and now I must tell the restthe blight
and the sorrow。
It was Christmas; always a joyful and a hospitable time in the
country; especially in such an old hall as our home; where quaint
customs and frolics were much clung to; as part and parcel of the
very dwelling itself。 The hall was full of guestsso full;
indeed; that there was great difficulty in providing sleeping
accommodation for all。 Several narrow and dark chambers in the
turretsmere pigeon…holes; as we irreverently called what had been
thought good enough for the stately gentlemen of Elizabeth's reign
were now allotted to bachelor visitors; after having been empty
for a century。 All the spare rooms in the body and wings of the
hall were occupied; of course; and the servants who had been
brought down were lodged at the farm and at the keeper's; so great
was the demand for space。 At last the unexpected arrival of an
elderly relative; who had been asked months before; but scarcely
expected; caused great commotion。 My aunts went about wringing
their hands distractedly。 Lady Speldhurst was a personage of some
consequence; she was a distant cousin; and had been for years on
cool terms with us all; on account of some fancied affront or
slight when she had paid her LAST visit; about the time of my
christening。 She was seventy years old; she was infirm; rich; and
testy; moreover; she was my godmother; though I had forgotten the
fact; but it seems that though I had formed no expectations of a
legacy in my favor; my aunts had done so for me。 Aunt Margaret was
especially eloquent on the subject。 〃There isn't a room left;〃 she
said; 〃was ever anything so unfortunate! We cannot put Lady
Speldhurst into the turrets; and yet where IS she to sleep? And
Rosa's godmother; too! Poor; dear child; how dreadful! After all
these years of estrangement; and with a hundred thousand in the
funds; and no comfortable; warm room at her own unlimited disposal
and Christmas; of all times in the year!〃 What WAS to be done?
My aunts could not resign their own chambers to Lady Speldhurst;
because they had already given them up to some of the married
guests。 My father was the most hospitable of men; but he was
rheumatic; gouty; and methodical。 His sisters…in…law dared not
propose to shift his quarters; and; indeed; he would have far
sooner dined on prison fare than have been translated to a strange
bed。 The matter ended in my giving up my room。 I had a strange
reluctance to making the offer; which surprised myself。 Was it a
boding of evil to come? I cannot say。 We are strangely and
wonderfully made。 It MAY have been。 At any rate; I do not think
it was any selfish unwillingness to make an old and infirm lady
comfortable by a trifling sacrifice。 I was perfectly healthy and
strong。 The weather was not cold for the time of the year。 It was
a dark; moist Yulenot a snowy one; though snow brooded overhead
in the darkling clouds。 I DID make the offer; which became me; I
said with a laugh; as the youngest。 My sisters laughed too; and
made a jest of my evident wish to propitiate my godmother。 〃She is
a fairy godmother; Rosa;〃 said Minnie; 〃and you know she was
affronted at your christening; and went away muttering vengeance。
Here she is coming back to see you; I hope she brings golden gifts
with her。〃
I thought little of Lady Speldhurst and her possible golden gifts。
I cared nothing for the wonderful fortune in the funds that my
aunts whispered and nodded about so mysteriously。 But since then I
have wondered whether; had I then showed myself peevish or
obstinatehad I refused to give up my room for the expected
kinswomanit would not have altered the whole of my life? But
then Lucy or Minnie would have offered in my stead; and been
sacrificedwhat do I say?better that the blow should have fallen
as it did than on those dear ones。
The chamber to which I removed was a dim little triangular room in
the western wing; and was only to be reached by traversing the
picture…gallery; or by mounting a little flight of stone stairs
which led directly upward from the low…browed arch of a door that
opened into the garden。 There was one more room on the same
landing…place; and this was a mere receptacle for broken furniture;
shattered toys; and all the lumber that WILL accumulate in a
country…house。 The room I was to inhabit for a few nights was a
tapestry…hung apartment; with faded green curtains of some costly
stuff; contrasting oddly with a new carpet and the bright; fresh
hangings of the bed; which had been hurriedly erected。 The
furniture was half old; half new; and on the dressing…table stood a
very quaint oval mirror; in a frame of black woodunpolished
ebony; I think。 I can remember the very pattern of the carpet; the
number of chairs; the situation of the bed; the figures on the
tapestry。 Nay; I can recollect not only the color of the dress I
wore on that fated evening; but the arrangement of every scrap of
lace and ribbon; of every flower; every jewel; with a memory but
too perfect。
Scarcely had my maid finished spreading out my various articles of
attire for the evening (when there was to be a great dinner…party)
when the rumble of a carriage announced that Lady Speldhurst had
arrived。 The short winter's day drew to a close; and a large
number of guests were gathered together in the ample drawing…room;
around the blaze of the wood…fire; after dinner。 My father; I
recollect; was not with us at first。 There were some squires of
the old; hard…riding; hard…drinking stamp still lingering over
their port in the dining…room; and the host; of course; could not
leave them。 But the ladies and all the younger gentlemenboth
those who slept under our roof; and those who would have a dozen
miles of fog and mire to encounter on their road homewere all
together。 Need I say that Reginald was there? He sat near memy
accepted lover; my plighted future husband。 We were to be married
in the spring。 My sisters were not far off; they; too; had found
eyes that sparkled and softened in meeting theirs; had found hearts
that beat responsive to their own。 And; in their cases; no rude
frost nipped the blossom ere it became the fruit; there was no
canker in their flowerets of young hope; no cloud in their sky。
Innocent and loving; they were beloved by men worthy of their
esteem。
The rooma large and lofty one; with an arched roofhad somewhat
of a somber character; from being wainscoted and ceiled with
polished black oak of a great age。 There were mirrors; and there
were pictures on the walls; and handsome furniture; and marble
chimney…pieces; and a gay Tournay carpet; but these merely appeared
as bright spots on the dark background of the Elizabethan woodwork。
Many lights were burning; but the blackness of the walls and roof
seemed absolutely to swallow up their rays; like the mouth of a
cavern。 A hundred candles could not have given that apartment the
cheerful lightness of a modern drawing room。 But the gloomy
richness of the panels matched well with the ruddy gleam from the