第 78 节
作者:泰达魔王      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9320
  in keeping the smallest peculiarities of his home unaltered。  Thus
  the many peaks and gables; the numerous turrets; and the mullioned
  windows with their quaint lozenge panes set in lead; remained very
  nearly as they had been three centuries back。  Over and above the
  quaint melancholy of our dwelling; with the deep woods of its park
  and the sullen waters of the mere; our neighborhood was thinly
  peopled and primitive; and the people round us were ignorant; and
  tenacious of ancient ideas and traditions。  Thus it was a
  superstitious atmosphere that we children were reared in; and we
  heard; from our infancy; countless tales of horror; some mere
  fables doubtless; others legends of dark deeds of the olden time;
  exaggerated by credulity and the love of the marvelous。  Our mother
  had died when we were young; and our other parent being; though a
  kind father; much absorbed in affairs of various kinds; as an
  active magistrate and landlord; there was no one to check the
  unwholesome stream of tradition with which our plastic minds were
  inundated in the company of nurses and servants。  As years went on;
  however; the old ghostly tales partially lost their effects; and
  our undisciplined minds were turned more towards balls; dress; and
  partners; and other matters airy and trivial; more welcome to our
  riper age。  It was at a county assembly that Reginald and I first
  metmet and loved。  Yes; I am sure that he loved me with all his
  heart。  It was not as deep a heart as some; I have thought in my
  grief and anger; but I never doubted its truth and honesty。
  Reginald's father and mine approved of our growing attachment; and
  as for myself; I know I was so happy then; that I look back upon
  those fleeting moments as on some delicious dream。  I now come to
  the change。  I have lingered on my childish reminiscences; my
  bright and happy youth; and now I must tell the restthe blight
  and the sorrow。
  It was Christmas; always a joyful and a hospitable time in the
  country; especially in such an old hall as our home; where quaint
  customs and frolics were much clung to; as part and parcel of the
  very dwelling itself。  The hall was full of guestsso full;
  indeed; that there was great difficulty in providing sleeping
  accommodation for all。  Several narrow and dark chambers in the
  turretsmere pigeon…holes; as we irreverently called what had been
  thought good enough for the stately gentlemen of Elizabeth's reign
  were now allotted to bachelor visitors; after having been empty
  for a century。  All the spare rooms in the body and wings of the
  hall were occupied; of course; and the servants who had been
  brought down were lodged at the farm and at the keeper's; so great
  was the demand for space。  At last the unexpected arrival of an
  elderly relative; who had been asked months before; but scarcely
  expected; caused great commotion。  My aunts went about wringing
  their hands distractedly。  Lady Speldhurst was a personage of some
  consequence; she was a distant cousin; and had been for years on
  cool terms with us all; on account of some fancied affront or
  slight when she had paid her LAST visit; about the time of my
  christening。  She was seventy years old; she was infirm; rich; and
  testy; moreover; she was my godmother; though I had forgotten the
  fact; but it seems that though I had formed no expectations of a
  legacy in my favor; my aunts had done so for me。  Aunt Margaret was
  especially eloquent on the subject。  〃There isn't a room left;〃 she
  said; 〃was ever anything so unfortunate!  We cannot put Lady
  Speldhurst into the turrets; and yet where IS she to sleep?  And
  Rosa's godmother; too!  Poor; dear child; how dreadful!  After all
  these years of estrangement; and with a hundred thousand in the
  funds; and no comfortable; warm room at her own unlimited disposal
  and Christmas; of all times in the year!〃  What WAS to be done?
  My aunts could not resign their own chambers to Lady Speldhurst;
  because they had already given them up to some of the married
  guests。  My father was the most hospitable of men; but he was
  rheumatic; gouty; and methodical。  His sisters…in…law dared not
  propose to shift his quarters; and; indeed; he would have far
  sooner dined on prison fare than have been translated to a strange
  bed。  The matter ended in my giving up my room。  I had a strange
  reluctance to making the offer; which surprised myself。  Was it a
  boding of evil to come?  I cannot say。  We are strangely and
  wonderfully made。  It MAY have been。  At any rate; I do not think
  it was any selfish unwillingness to make an old and infirm lady
  comfortable by a trifling sacrifice。  I was perfectly healthy and
  strong。  The weather was not cold for the time of the year。  It was
  a dark; moist Yulenot a snowy one; though snow brooded overhead
  in the darkling clouds。  I DID make the offer; which became me; I
  said with a laugh; as the youngest。  My sisters laughed too; and
  made a jest of my evident wish to propitiate my godmother。  〃She is
  a fairy godmother; Rosa;〃 said Minnie; 〃and you know she was
  affronted at your christening; and went away muttering vengeance。
  Here she is coming back to see you; I hope she brings golden gifts
  with her。〃
  I thought little of Lady Speldhurst and her possible golden gifts。
  I cared nothing for the wonderful fortune in the funds that my
  aunts whispered and nodded about so mysteriously。  But since then I
  have wondered whether; had I then showed myself peevish or
  obstinatehad I refused to give up my room for the expected
  kinswomanit would not have altered the whole of my life?  But
  then Lucy or Minnie would have offered in my stead; and been
  sacrificedwhat do I say?better that the blow should have fallen
  as it did than on those dear ones。
  The chamber to which I removed was a dim little triangular room in
  the western wing; and was only to be reached by traversing the
  picture…gallery; or by mounting a little flight of stone stairs
  which led directly upward from the low…browed arch of a door that
  opened into the garden。  There was one more room on the same
  landing…place; and this was a mere receptacle for broken furniture;
  shattered toys; and all the lumber that WILL accumulate in a
  country…house。  The room I was to inhabit for a few nights was a
  tapestry…hung apartment; with faded green curtains of some costly
  stuff; contrasting oddly with a new carpet and the bright; fresh
  hangings of the bed; which had been hurriedly erected。  The
  furniture was half old; half new; and on the dressing…table stood a
  very quaint oval mirror; in a frame of black woodunpolished
  ebony; I think。  I can remember the very pattern of the carpet; the
  number of chairs; the situation of the bed; the figures on the
  tapestry。  Nay; I can recollect not only the color of the dress I
  wore on that fated evening; but the arrangement of every scrap of
  lace and ribbon; of every flower; every jewel; with a memory but
  too perfect。
  Scarcely had my maid finished spreading out my various articles of
  attire for the evening (when there was to be a great dinner…party)
  when the rumble of a carriage announced that Lady Speldhurst had
  arrived。  The short winter's day drew to a close; and a large
  number of guests were gathered together in the ample drawing…room;
  around the blaze of the wood…fire; after dinner。  My father; I
  recollect; was not with us at first。  There were some squires of
  the old; hard…riding; hard…drinking stamp still lingering over
  their port in the dining…room; and the host; of course; could not
  leave them。  But the ladies and all the younger gentlemenboth
  those who slept under our roof; and those who would have a dozen
  miles of fog and mire to encounter on their road homewere all
  together。  Need I say that Reginald was there?  He sat near memy
  accepted lover; my plighted future husband。  We were to be married
  in the spring。  My sisters were not far off; they; too; had found
  eyes that sparkled and softened in meeting theirs; had found hearts
  that beat responsive to their own。  And; in their cases; no rude
  frost nipped the blossom ere it became the fruit; there was no
  canker in their flowerets of young hope; no cloud in their sky。
  Innocent and loving; they were beloved by men worthy of their
  esteem。
  The rooma large and lofty one; with an arched roofhad somewhat
  of a somber character; from being wainscoted and ceiled with
  polished black oak of a great age。  There were mirrors; and there
  were pictures on the walls; and handsome furniture; and marble
  chimney…pieces; and a gay Tournay carpet; but these merely appeared
  as bright spots on the dark background of the Elizabethan woodwork。
  Many lights were burning; but the blackness of the walls and roof
  seemed absolutely to swallow up their rays; like the mouth of a
  cavern。  A hundred candles could not have given that apartment the
  cheerful lightness of a modern drawing room。  But the gloomy
  richness of the panels matched well with the ruddy gleam from the