第 72 节
作者:泰达魔王      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9321
  slightest personal dislike to me; but after a vigorous cannonading
  from her own garrison (in which; I am proud to say; I did not in
  any way join); she hoisted the white flag and surrendered。
  I was very happy。  I had no fear about being able to gain Elsie's
  heart。  I thinkindeed I knowthat she had liked me all along;
  and that her refusals were dictated by other feelings than those of
  a personal nature。  I only guessed as much then。  It was some time
  before I knew all。
  As the day approached for our wedding Elsie did not appear at all
  stricken with woe。  The village gossips had not the smallest
  opportunity for establishing a romance; with a compulsory bride for
  the heroine。  Yet to me it seemed as if there was something strange
  about her。  A vague terror appeared to beset her。  Even in her most
  loving moments; when resting in my arms; she would shrink away from
  me; and shudder as if some cold wind had suddenly struck upon her。
  That it was caused by no aversion to me was evident; for she would
  the moment after; as if to make amends; give me one of those
  voluntary kisses that are sweeter than all others。
  Once only did she show any emotion。  When the solemn question was
  put to her; the answer to which was to decide her destiny; I felt
  her handwhich was in minetremble。  As she gasped out a
  convulsive 〃Yes;〃 she gave one brief; imploring glance at the
  gallery on the right。  I placed the ring upon her finger; and
  looked in the direction in which she gazed。  Hammond Brake's dark
  countenance was visible looking over the railings; and his eyes
  were bent sternly on Elsie。  I turned quickly round to my bride;
  but her brief emotion; of whatever nature; had vanished。  She was
  looking at me anxiously; and smilingsomewhat sadlythrough her
  maiden's tears。
  The months went by quickly; and we were very happy。  I learned that
  Elsie really loved me; and of my love for her she had proof long
  ago。  I will not say that there was no cloud upon our little
  horizon。  There was one; but it was so small; and appeared so
  seldom; that I scarcely feared it。  The old vague terror seemed
  still to attack my wife。  If I did not know her to be pure as
  heaven's snow; I would have said it was a REMORSE。  At times she
  scarcely appeared to hear what I said; so deep would be her
  reverie。  Nor did those moods seem pleasant ones。  When rapt in
  such; her sweet features would contract; as if in a hopeless effort
  to solve some mysterious problem。  A sad pain; as it were; quivered
  in her white; drooped eyelids。  One thing I particularly remarked:
  SHE SPENT HOURS AT A TIME GAZING AT THE WEST。  There was a small
  room in our house whose windows; every evening; flamed with the red
  light of the setting sun。  Here Elsie would sit and gaze westward;
  so motionless and entranced that it seemed as if her soul was going
  down with the day。  Her conduct to me was curiously varied。  She
  apparently loved me very much; yet there were times when she
  absolutely avoided me。  I have seen her strolling through the
  fields; and left the house with the intention of joining her; but
  the moment she caught sight of me approaching she has fled into the
  neighboring copse; with so evident a wish to avoid me that it would
  have been absolutely cruel to follow。
  Once or twice the old jealousy of Hammond Brake crossed my mind;
  but I was obliged to dismiss it as a frivolous suspicion。  Nothing
  in my wife's conduct justified any such theory。  Brake visited us
  once or twice a weekin fact; when I returned from my business in
  the village; I used to find him seated in the parlor with Elsie;
  reading some favorite author; or conversing on some novel literary
  topic; but there was no disposition to avoid my scrutiny。  Brake
  seemed to come as a matter of right; and the perfect
  unconsciousness of furnishing any grounds for suspicion with which
  he acted was a sufficient answer to my mind for any wild doubts
  that my heart may have suggested。
  Still I could not but remark that Brake's visits were in some
  manner connected with Elsie's melancholy。  On the days when he had
  appeared and departed; the gloom seemed to hang more thickly than
  ever over her head。  She sat; on such occasions; all the evening at
  the western window; silently gazing at the cleft in the hills
  through which the sun passed to his repose。
  At last I made up my mind to speak to her。  It seemed to me to be
  my duty; if she had a sorrow; to partake of it。  I approached her
  on the matter with the most perfect confidence that I had nothing
  to learn beyond the existence of some girlish grief; which a
  confession and a few loving kisses would exorcise forever。
  〃Elsie;〃 I said to her one night; as she sat; according to her
  custom; gazing westward; like those maidens of the old ballads of
  chivalry watching for the knights that never came〃Elsie; what is
  the matter with you; darling?  I have noticed a strange melancholy
  in you for some time past。  Tell me all about it。〃
  She turned quickly round and gazed at me with eyes wide open and
  face filled with a sudden fear。  〃Why do you ask me that; Mark?〃
  she answered。  〃I have nothing to tell。〃
  From the strange; startled manner in which this reply was given; I
  felt convinced that she had something to tell; and instantly formed
  a determination to discover what it was。  A pang shot through my
  heart as I thought that the woman whom I held dearer than anything
  on earth hesitated to trust me with a petty secret。
  I believed I understood。  I was tolerably rich。  I knew it could
  not be any secret over milliners' bills or women's usual money
  troubles。  God help me!  I felt sad enough at the moment; though I
  kissed her back and ceased to question her。  I felt sad; because my
  instinct told me that she deceived me; and it is very hard to be
  deceived; even in trifles; by those we love。  I left her sitting at
  her favorite window; and walked out into the fields。  I wanted to
  think。
  I remained out until I saw lights in the parlor shining through the
  dusky evening; then I returned slowly。  As I passed the windows
  which were near the ground; our house being cottage…builtI looked
  in。  Hammond Brake was sitting with my wife。  She was sitting in a
  rocking chair opposite to him; holding a small volume open on her
  lap。  Brake was talking to her very earnestly; and she was
  listening to him with an expression I had never before seen on her
  countenance。  Awe; fear; and admiration were all blent together in
  those dilating eyes。  She seemed absorbed; body and soul; in what
  this man said。  I shuddered at the sight。  A vague terror seized
  upon me; I hastened into the house。  As I entered the room rather
  suddenly; my wife started and hastily concealed the little volume
  that lay on her lap in one of her wide pockets。  As she did so; a
  loose leaf escaped from the volume and slowly fluttered to the
  floor unobserved by either her or her companion。  But I had my eye
  upon it。  I felt that it was a clew。
  〃What new novel or philosophical wonder have you both been poring
  over?〃 I asked quite gayly; stealthily watching at the same time
  the telltale embarrassment under which Elsie was laboring。
  Brake; who was not in the least discomposed; replied。  〃That;〃 said
  he; 〃is a secret which must be kept from you。  It is an advance
  copy; and is not to be shown to anyone except your wife。〃
  〃Ha!〃 cried I; 〃I know what it is。  It is your volume of poems that
  Ticknor is publishing。  Well; I can wait until it is regularly for
  sale。〃
  I knew that Brake had a volume in the hands of the publishing house
  I mentioned; with a vague promise of publication some time in the
  present century。  Hammond smiled significantly; but did not reply。
  He evidently wished to cultivate this supposed impression of mine。
  Elsie looked relieved; and heaved a deep sigh。  I felt more than
  ever convinced that a secret was beneath all this。  So I drew my
  chair over the fallen leaf that lay unnoticed on the carpet; and
  talked and laughed with Hammond Brake gayly; as if nothing was on
  my mind; while all the time a great load of suspicion lay heavily
  at my heart。
  At length Hammond Brake rose to go。  I wished him good night; but
  did not offer to accompany him to the door。  My wife supplied this
  omitted courtesy; as I had expected。  The moment I was alone I
  picked up the book leaf from the floor。  It was NOT the leaf of a
  volume of poems。  Beyond that; however; I learned nothing。  It
  contained a string of paragraphs printed in the biblical fashion;
  and the language was biblical in style。  It seemed to be a portion
  of some religious book。  Was it possible that my wife was being
  converted to the Romish faith?  Yes; that was it。  Brake was a
  Jesuit in disguiseI had heard of such thingsand had stolen into
  the bosom of my family to plant there his destructive errors。
  There could be no longer any doubt of it。  This was some portion of
  a Romish booksome