第 67 节
作者:泰达魔王      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9322
  meant he thus to crown the scene; and conduct his inscrutable plots
  to this consummation?
  Such ideas were the fruit of subsequent contemplation。  This moment
  was pregnant with fate。  I had no power to reason。  In the career
  of my tempestuous thoughts; rent into pieces as my mind was by
  accumulating horrors; Carwin was unseen and unsuspected。  I partook
  of Wieland's credulity; shook with his amazement; and panted with
  his awe。
  Silence took place for a moment: so much as allowed the attention
  to recover its post。  Then new sounds were uttered from above:
  〃Man of errors! cease to cherish thy delusion; not heaven or hell;
  but thy senses; have misled thee to commit these acts。  Shake off
  thy frenzy; and ascend into rational and human。  Be lunatic no
  longer。〃
  My brother opened his lips to speak。  His tone was terrific and
  faint。  He muttered an appeal to heaven。  It was difficult to
  comprehend the theme of his inquiries。  They implied doubt as to
  the nature of the impulse that hitherto had guided him; and
  questioned whether he had acted in consequence of insane
  perceptions。
  To these interrogatories the voice; which now seemed to hover at
  his shoulder; loudly answered in the affirmative。  Then
  uninterrupted silence ensued。
  Fallen from his lofty and heroic station; now finally restored to
  the perception of truth; weighed to earth by the recollection of
  his own deeds; consoled no longer by a consciousness of rectitude
  for the loss of offspring and wife;a loss for which he was
  indebted to his own misguided hand;Wieland was transformed at
  once into the MAN OF SORROWS!
  He reflected not that credit should be as reasonably denied to the
  last as to any former intimation; that one might as justly be
  ascribed to erring or diseased senses as the other。  He saw not
  that this discovery in no degree affected the integrity of his
  conduct; that his motives had lost none of their claims to the
  homage of mankind; that the preference of supreme good; and the
  boundless energy of duty; were undiminished in his bosom。
  It is not for me to pursue him through the ghastly changes of his
  countenance。  Words he had none。  Now he sat upon the floor;
  motionless in all his limbs; with his eyes glazed and fixed; a
  monument of woe。
  Anon a spirit of tempestuous but undesigning activity seized him。
  He rose from his place and strode across the floor; tottering and
  at random。  His eyes were without moisture; and gleamed with the
  fire that consumed his vitals。  The muscles of his face were
  agitated by convulsions。  His lips moved; but no sound escaped him。
  That nature should long sustain this conflict was not to be
  believed。  My state was little different from that of my brother。
  I entered; as it were; into his thoughts。  My heart was visited and
  rent by his pangs。  〃Oh that thy frenzy had never been cured! that
  thy madness; with its blissful visions; would return! or; if that
  must not be; that thy scene would hasten to a close!that death
  would cover thee with his oblivion!
  〃What can I wish for thee?  Thou who hast vied with the great
  Preacher of thy faith in sanctity of motives; and in elevation
  above sensual and selfish!  Thou whom thy fate has changed into
  parricide and savage!  Can I wish for the continuance of thy being?
  No。〃
  For a time his movements seemed destitute of purpose。  If he
  walked; if he turned; if his fingers were entwined with each other;
  if his hands were pressed against opposite sides of his head with a
  force sufficient to crush it into pieces; it was to tear his mind
  from self…contemplation; to waste his thoughts on external objects。
  Speedily this train was broken。  A beam appeared to be darted into
  his mind which gave a purpose to his efforts。  An avenue to escape
  presented itself; and now he eagerly gazed about him。  When my
  thoughts became engaged by his demeanor; my fingers were stretched
  as by a mechanical force; and the knife; no longer heeded or of
  use; escaped from my grasp and fell unperceived on the floor。  His
  eye now lighted upon it; he seized it with the quickness of
  thought。
  I shrieked aloud; but it was too late。  He plunged it to the hilt
  in his neck; and his life instantly escaped with the stream that
  gushed from the wound。  He was stretched at my feet; and my hands
  were sprinkled with his blood as he fell。
  Such was thy last deed; my brother!  For a spectacle like this was
  it my fate to be reserved!  Thy eyes were closedthy face ghastly
  with deaththy arms; and the spot where thou lyedst; floated in
  thy life's blood!  These images have not for a moment forsaken me。
  Till I am breathless and cold; they must continue to hover in my
  sight。
  Carwin; as I said; had left the room; but he still lingered in the
  house。  My voice summoned him to my aid; but I scarcely noticed his
  reentrance; and now faintly recollect his terrified looks; his
  broken exclamations; his vehement avowals of innocence; the
  effusions of his pity for me; and his offers of assistance。
  I did not listenI answered him notI ceased to upbraid or
  accuse。  His guilt was a point to which I was indifferent。  Ruffian
  or devil; black as hell or bright as angels; thenceforth he was
  nothing to me。  I was incapable of sparing a look or a thought from
  the ruin that was spread at my feet。
  When he left me; I was scarcely conscious of any variation in the
  scene。  He informed the inhabitants of the hut of what had passed;
  and they flew to the spot。  Careless of his own safety; he hasted
  to the city to inform my friends of my condition。
  My uncle speedily arrived at the house。  The body of Wieland was
  removed from my presence; and they supposed that I would follow it;
  but no; my home is ascertained; here I have taken up my rest; and
  never will I go hence; till; like Wieland; I am borne to my grave。
  Importunity was tried in vain。  They threatened to remove me by
  violence;nay; violence was used; but my soul prizes too dearly
  this little roof to endure to be bereaved of it。  Force should not
  prevail when the hoary locks and supplicating tears of my uncle
  were ineffectual。  My repugnance to move gave birth to
  ferociousness and frenzy when force was employed; and they were
  obliged to consent to my return。
  They besought methey remonstratedthey appealed to every duty
  that connected me with Him that made me and with my fellow…menin
  vain。  While I live I will not go hence。  Have I not fulfilled my
  destiny?
  Why will ye torment me with your reasonings and reproofs?  Can ye
  restore to me the hope of my better days?  Can ye give me back
  Catharine and her babes?  Can ye recall to life him who died at my
  feet?
  I will eatI will drinkI will lie down and rise upat your
  bidding; all I ask is the choice of my abode。  What is there
  unreasonable in this demand?  Shortly will I be at peace。  This is
  the spot which I have chosen in which to breathe my last sigh。
  Deny me not; I beseech you; so slight a boon。
  Talk not to me; O my reverend friend! of Carwin。  He has told thee
  his tale; and thou exculpatest him from all direct concern in the
  fate of Wieland。  This scene of havoc was produced by an illusion
  of the senses。  Be it so; I care not from what source these
  disasters have flowed; it suffices that they have swallowed up our
  hopes and our existence。
  What his agency began; his agency conducted to a close。  He
  intended; by the final effort of his power; to rescue me and to
  banish his illusions from my brother。  Such is his tale; concerning
  the truth of which I care not。  Henceforth I foster but one wish: I
  ask only quick deliverance from life and all the ills that attend
  it。
  Go; wretch! torment me not with thy presence and thy prayers。
  Forgive thee?  Will that avail thee when thy fateful hour shall
  arrive?  Be thou acquitted at thy own tribunal; and thou needest
  not fear the verdict of others。  If thy guilt be capable of blacker
  hues; if hitherto thy conscience be without stain; thy crime will
  be made more flagrant by thus violating my retreat。  Take thyself
  away from my sight if thou wouldst not behold my death!
  Thou art gone! murmuring and reluctant!  And now my repose is
  comingmy work is done!
  Fitzjames O'Brien
  The Golden Ingot
  I had just retired to rest; with my eyes almost blind with the
  study of a new work on physiology by M。 Brown…Sequard; when the
  night bell was pulled violently。
  It was winter; and I confess I grumbled as I rose and went
  downstairs to open the door。  Twice that week I had been aroused
  long after midnight for the most trivial causes。  Once; to attend
  upon the son and heir of a wealthy family; who had cut his thumb
  with a penknife; which; it seems; he insisted on taking to bed with
  him; and once; to restore a young gentleman to consciousness; who
  had been found by his horrified parent stretched insensible on the
  staircase。  D