第 66 节
作者:泰达魔王      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9322
  of the impotence of reason over my own conduct; conscious of my
  cowardly rashness and my criminal despair; I doubted whether anyone
  could be steadfast and wise。
  Such was my weakness; that even in the midst of these thoughts my
  mind glided into abhorrence of Carwin; and I uttered; in a low
  voice; 〃O Carwin! Carwin! what hast thou to answer for?〃
  My brother immediately noticed the involuntary exclamation。
  〃Clara!〃 said he; 〃be thyself。  Equity used to be a theme for thy
  eloquence。  Reduce its lessons to practice; and be just to that
  unfortunate man。  The instrument has done its work; and I am
  satisfied。
  〃I thank thee; my God; for this last illumination!  My enemy is
  thine also。  I deemed him to be a man;the man with whom I have
  often communed; but now thy goodness has unveiled to me his true
  nature。  As the performer of thy behests; he is my friend。〃
  My heart began now to misgive me。  His mournful aspect had
  gradually yielded place to a serene brow。  A new soul appeared to
  actuate his frame; and his eyes to beam with preternatural luster。
  These symptoms did not abate; and he continued:
  〃Clara; I must not leave thee in doubt。  I know not what brought
  about thy interview with the being whom thou callest Carwin。  For a
  time I was guilty of thy error; and deduced from his incoherent
  confessions that I had been made the victim of human malice。  He
  left us at my bidding; and I put up a prayer that my doubts should
  be removed。  Thy eyes were shut and thy ears sealed to the vision
  that answered my prayer。
  〃I was indeed deceived。  The form thou hast seen was the
  incarnation of a demon。  The visage and voice which urged me to the
  sacrifice of my family were his。  Now he personates a human form;
  then he was environed with the luster of heaven。
  〃Clara;〃 he continued; advancing closer to me; 〃thy death must
  come。  This minister is evil; but he from whom his commission was
  received is God。  Submit then with all thy wonted resignation to a
  decree that cannot be reversed or resisted。  Mark the clock。  Three
  minutes are allowed to thee; in which to call up thy fortitude and
  prepare thee for thy doom。〃  There he stopped。
  Even now; when this scene exists only in memory; when life and all
  its functions have sunk into torpor; my pulse throbs; and my hairs
  uprise; my brows are knit; as then; and I gaze around me in
  distraction。  I was unconquerably averse to death; but death;
  imminent and full of agony as that which was threatened; was
  nothing。  This was not the only or chief inspirer of my fears。
  For him; not for myself; was my soul tormented。  I might die; and
  no crime; surpassing the reach of mercy; would pursue me to the
  presence of my Judge; but my assassin would survive to contemplate
  his deed; and that assassin was Wieland!
  Wings to bear me beyond his reach I had not。  I could not vanish
  with a thought。  The door was open; but my murderer was interposed
  between that and me。  Of self…defense I was incapable。  The frenzy
  that lately prompted me to blood was gone: my state was desperate;
  my rescue was impossible。
  The weight of these accumulated thoughts could not be borne。  My
  sight became confused; my limbs were seized with convulsion; I
  spoke; but my words were half formed:
  〃Spare me; my brother!  Look down; righteous Judge! snatch me from
  this fate! take away this fury from him; or turn it elsewhere! 〃
  Such was the agony of my thoughts that I noticed not steps entering
  my apartment。  Supplicating eyes were cast upward; but when my
  prayer was breathed I once more wildly gazed at the door。  A form
  met my sight; I shuddered as if the God whom I invoked were
  present。  It was Carwin that again intruded; and who stood before
  me; erect in attitude and steadfast in look!
  The sight of him awakened new and rapid thoughts。  His recent tale
  was remembered; his magical transitions and mysterious energy of
  voice。  Whether he were infernal or miraculous or human; there was
  no power and no need to decide。  Whether the contriver or not of
  this spell; he was able to unbind it; and to check the fury of my
  brother。  He had ascribed to himself intentions not malignant。
  Here now was afforded a test of his truth。  Let him interpose; as
  from above; revoke the savage decree which the madness of Wieland
  has assigned to heaven; and extinguish forever this passion for
  blood!
  My mind detected at a glance this avenue to safety。  The
  recommendations it possessed thronged as it were together; and made
  but one impression on my intellect。  Remoter effects and collateral
  dangers I saw not。  Perhaps the pause of an instant had sufficed to
  call them up。  The improbability that the influence which governed
  Wieland was external or human; the tendency of this stratagem to
  sanction so fatal an error or substitute a more destructive rage in
  place of this; the insufficiency of Carwin's mere muscular forces
  to counteract the efforts and restrain the fury of Wieland; might;
  at a second glance; have been discovered; but no second glance was
  allowed。  My first thought hurried me to action; and; fixing my
  eyes upon Carwin; I exclaimed;
  〃O wretch! once more hast thou come?  Let it be to abjure thy
  malice; to counterwork this hellish stratagem; to turn from me and
  from my brother this desolating rage!
  〃Testify thy innocence or thy remorse; exert the powers which
  pertain to thee; whatever they be; to turn aside this ruin。  Thou
  art the author of these horrors!  What have I done to deserve thus
  to die?  How have I merited this unrelenting persecution?  I adjure
  thee; by that God whose voice thou hast dared to counterfeit; to
  save my life!
  〃Wilt thou then go?leave me!  Succorless!〃
  Carwin listened to my entreaties unmoved; and turned from me。  He
  seemed to hesitate a moment;then glided through the door。  Rage
  and despair stifled my utterance。  The interval of respite was
  past; the pangs reserved for me by Wieland were not to be endured;
  my thoughts rushed again into anarchy。  Having received the knife
  from his hand; I held it loosely and without regard; but now it
  seized again my attention; and I grasped it with force。
  He seemed to notice not the entrance or exit of Carwin。  My gesture
  and the murderous weapon appeared to have escaped his notice。  His
  silence was unbroken; his eye; fixed upon the clock for a time; was
  now withdrawn; fury kindled in every feature; all that was human in
  his face gave way to an expression supernatural and tremendous。  I
  felt my left arm within his grasp。
  Even now I hesitated to strike。  I shrunk from his assault; but in
  vain。
  Here let me desist。  Why should I rescue this event from oblivion?
  Why should I paint this detestable conflict?  Why not terminate at
  once this series of horrors?Hurry to the verge of the precipice;
  and cast myself forever beyond remembrance and beyond hope?
  Still I live; with this load upon my breast; with this phantom to
  pursue my steps; with adders lodged in my bosom; and stinging me to
  madness; still I consent to live!
  Yes!  I will rise above the sphere of mortal passions; I will spurn
  at the cowardly remorse that bids me seek impunity in silence; or
  comfort in forgetfulness。  My nerves shall be new…strung to the
  task。  Have I not resolved?  I will die。  The gulf before me is
  inevitable and near。  I will die; but then only when my tale is at
  an end。
  III
  My right hand; grasping the unseen knife; was still disengaged。  It
  was lifted to strike。  All my strength was exhausted but what was
  sufficient to the performance of this deed。  Already was the energy
  awakened and the impulse given that should bear the fatal steel to
  his heart; whenWieland shrunk back; his hand was withdrawn。
  Breathless with affright and desperation; I stood; freed from his
  grasp; unassailed; untouched。
  Thus long had the power which controlled the scene forborne to
  interfere: but now his might was irresistible; and Wieland in a
  moment was disarmed of all his purposes。  A voice; louder than
  human organs could produce; shriller than language can depict;
  burst from the ceiling and commanded himTO HOLD!
  Trouble and dismay succeeded to the steadfastness that had lately
  been displayed in the looks of Wieland。  His eyes roved from one
  quarter to another; with an expression of doubt。  He seemed to wait
  for a further intimation。
  Carwin's agency was here easily recognized。  I had besought him to
  interpose in my defense。  He had flown。  I had imagined him deaf to
  my prayer; and resolute to see me perish; yet he disappeared merely
  to devise and execute the means of my relief。
  Why did he not forbear when this end was accomplished?  Why did his
  misjudging zeal and accursed precipitation overpass that limit?  Or
  meant he thus to crown the scene; and conduct his inscrutable plots
  to this consummation?
  Such ideas were the fruit of subseq