第 57 节
作者:泰达魔王      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9322
  with one examination。  He that hitherto refused to be seen might
  change his purpose; and on the next survey be clearly
  distinguishable。
  Solitude imposes least restraint upon the fancy。  Dark is less
  fertile of images than the feeble luster of the moon。  I was alone;
  and the walls were checkered by shadowy forms。  As the moon passed
  behind a cloud and emerged; these shadows seemed to be endowed with
  life; and to move。  The apartment was open to the breeze; and the
  curtain was occasionally blown from its ordinary position。  This
  motion was not unaccompanied with sound。  I failed not to snatch a
  look and to listen when this motion and this sound occurred。  My
  belief that my monitor was posted near was strong; and instantly
  converted these appearances to tokens of his presence; and yet I
  could discern nothing。
  When my thoughts were at length permitted to revert to the past;
  the first idea that occurred was the resemblance between the words
  of the voice which I had just heard and those which had terminated
  my dream in the summer…house。  There are means by which we are able
  to distinguish a substance from a shadow; a reality from the
  phantom of a dream。  The pit; my brother beckoning me forward; the
  seizure of my arm; and the voice behind; were surely imaginary。
  That these incidents were fashioned in my sleep is supported by the
  same indubitable evidence that compels me to believe myself awake
  at present; yet the words and the voice were the same。  Then; by
  some inexplicable contrivance; I was aware of the danger; while my
  actions and sensations were those of one wholly unacquainted with
  it。  Now; was it not equally true that my actions and persuasions
  were at war?  Had not the belief that evil lurked in the closet
  gained admittance; and had not my actions betokened an
  unwarrantable security?  To obviate the effects of my infatuation;
  the same means had been used。
  In my dream; he that tempted me to my destruction was my brother。
  Death was ambushed in my path。  From what evil was I now rescued?
  What minister or implement of ill was shut up in this recess?  Who
  was it whose suffocating grasp I was to feel should I dare to enter
  it?  What monstrous conception is this?  My brother?
  No; protection; and not injury; is his province。  Strange and
  terrible chimera!  Yet it would not be suddenly dismissed。  It was
  surely no vulgar agency that gave this form to my fears。  He to
  whom all parts of time are equally present; whom no contingency
  approaches; was the author of that spell which now seized upon me。
  Life was dear to me。  No consideration was present that enjoined me
  to relinquish it。  Sacred duty combined with every spontaneous
  sentiment to endear to me my being。  Should I not shudder when my
  being was endangered?  But what emotion should possess me when the
  arm lifted against me was Wieland's?
  Ideas exist in our minds that can be accounted for by no
  established laws。  Why did I dream that my brother was my foe?  Why
  but because an omen of my fate was ordained to be communicated?
  Yet what salutary end did it serve?  Did it arm me with caution to
  elude or fortitude to bear the evils to which I was reserved?  My
  present thoughts were; no doubt; indebted for their hue to the
  similitude existing between these incidents and those of my dream。
  Surely it was frenzy that dictated my deed。  That a ruffian was
  hidden in the closet was an idea the genuine tendency of which was
  to urge me to flight。  Such had been the effect formerly produced。
  Had my mind been simply occupied with this thought at present; no
  doubt the same impulse would have been experienced; but now it was
  my brother whom I was irresistibly persuaded to regard as the
  contriver of that ill of which I had been forewarned。  This
  persuasion did not extenuate my fears or my danger。  Why then did I
  again approach the closet and withdraw the bolt?  My resolution was
  instantly conceived; and executed without faltering。
  The door was formed of light materials。  The lock; of simple
  structure; easily forewent its hold。  It opened into the room; and
  commonly moved upon its hinges; after being unfastened; without any
  effort of mine。  This effort; however; was bestowed upon the
  present occasion。  It was my purpose to open it with quickness; but
  the exertion which I made was ineffectual。  It refused to open。
  At another time; this circumstance would not have looked with a
  face of mystery。  I should have supposed some casual obstruction
  and repeated my efforts to surmount it。  But now my mind was
  accessible to no conjecture but one。  The door was hindered from
  opening by human force。  Surely; here was a new cause for affright。
  This was confirmation proper to decide my conduct。  Now was all
  ground of hesitation taken away。  What could be supposed but that I
  deserted the chamber and the house? that I at least endeavored no
  longer to withdraw the door?
  Have I not said that my actions were dictated by frenzy?  My reason
  had forborne; for a time; to suggest or to sway my resolves。  I
  reiterated my endeavors。  I exerted all my force to overcome the
  obstacle; but in vain。  The strength that was exerted to keep it
  shut was superior to mine。
  A casual observer might; perhaps; applaud the audaciousness of this
  conduct。  Whence; but from a habitual defiance of danger; could my
  perseverance arise?  I have already assigned; as distinctly as I am
  able; the cause of it。  The frantic conception that my brother was
  within; that the resistance made to my design was exerted by him;
  had rooted itself in my mind。  You will comprehend the height of
  this infatuation; when I tell you that; finding all my exertions
  vain; I betook myself to exclamations。  Surely I was utterly bereft
  of understanding。
  Now I had arrived at the crisis of my fate。  〃Oh; hinder not the
  door to open;〃 I exclaimed; in a tone that had less of fear than of
  grief in it。  〃I know you well。  Come forth; but harm me not。  I
  beseech you; come forth。〃
  I had taken my hand from the lock and removed to a small distance
  from the door。  I had scarcely uttered these words; when the door
  swung upon its hinges and displayed to my view the interior of the
  closet。  Whoever was within was shrouded in darkness。  A few
  seconds passed without interruption of the silence。  I knew not
  what to expect or to fear。  My eyes would not stray from the
  recess。  Presently; a deep sigh was heard。  The quarter from which
  it came heightened the eagerness of my gaze。  Some one approached
  from the farther end。  I quickly perceived the outlines of a human
  figure。  Its steps were irresolute and slow。  I recoiled as it
  advanced。
  By coming at length within the verge of the room; his form was
  clearly distinguishable。  I had prefigured to myself a very
  different personage。  The face that presented itself was the last
  that I should desire to meet at an hour and in a place like this。
  My wonder was stifled by my fears。  Assassins had lurked in this
  recess。  Some divine voice warned me of danger that at this moment
  awaited me。  I had spurned the intimation; and challenged my
  adversary。
  I recalled the mysterious countenance and dubious character of
  Carwin。  What motive but atrocious ones could guide his steps
  hither?  I was alone。  My habit suited the hour; and the place; and
  the warmth of the season。  All succor was remote。  He had placed
  himself between me and the door。  My frame shook with the vehemence
  of my apprehensions。
  Yet I was not wholly lost to myself; I vigilantly marked his
  demeanor。  His looks were grave; but not without perturbation。
  What species of inquietude it betrayed the light was not strong
  enough to enable me to discover。  He stood still; but his eyes
  wandered from one object to another。  When these powerful organs
  were fixed upon me; I shrunk into myself。  At length he broke
  silence。  Earnestness; and not embarrassment; was in his tone。  He
  advanced close to me while he spoke:
  〃What voice was that which lately addressed you?〃
  He paused for an answer; but; observing my trepidation; he resumed;
  with undiminished solemnity; 〃Be not terrified。  Whoever he was; he
  has done you an important service。  I need not ask you if it were
  the voice of a companion。  That sound was beyond the compass of
  human organs。  The knowledge that enabled him to tell you who was
  in the closet was obtained by incomprehensible means。
  〃You knew that Carwin was there。  Were you not apprised of his
  intents?  The same power could impart the one as well as the other。
  Yet; knowing these; you persisted。  Audacious girl!  But perhaps
  you confided in his guardianship。  Your confidence was just。  With
  succor like this at hand you may safely defy me。
  〃He is my eternal foe; the baffler of my best…concerted schemes。
  Twice have you been saved by his accursed interposition。  But for
  him I should long ere now have borne away the spoils o