第 8 节
作者:泰达魔王      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9322
  her hearing。〃
  III
  That was how I first asked Margaret Lammas to be my wife; and I
  will agree with anyone who says I behaved very foolishly。  But I
  have not repented of it; and I never shall。  I have long ago
  understood that I was out of my mind that evening; but I think my
  temporary insanity on that occasion has had the effect of making me
  a saner man ever since。  Her manner turned my head; for it was so
  different from what I had expected。  To hear this lovely creature;
  who; in my imagination; was a heroine of romance; if not of
  tragedy; talking familiarly and laughing readily was more than my
  equanimity could bear; and I lost my head as well as my heart。  But
  when I went back to England in the spring; I went to make certain
  arrangements at the Castlecertain changes and improvements which
  would be absolutely necessary。  I had won the race for which I had
  entered myself so rashly; and we were to be married in June。
  Whether the change was due to the orders I had left with the
  gardener and the rest of the servants; or to my own state of mind;
  I cannot tell。  At all events; the old place did not look the same
  to me when I opened my window on the morning after my arrival。
  There were the gray walls below me and the gray turrets flanking
  the huge building; there were the fountains; the marble causeways;
  the smooth basins; the tall box hedges; the water lilies and the
  swans; just as of old。  But there was something else there; too
  something in the air; in the water; and in the greenness that I did
  not recognizea light over everything by which everything was
  transfigured。  The clock in the tower struck seven; and the strokes
  of the ancient bell sounded like a wedding chime。  The air sang
  with the thrilling treble of the song…birds; with the silvery music
  of the plashing water and the softer harmony of the leaves stirred
  by the fresh morning wind。  There was a smell of new…mown hay from
  the distant meadows; and of blooming roses from the beds below;
  wafted up together to my window。  I stood in the pure sunshine and
  drank the air and all the sounds and the odors that were in it; and
  I looked down at my garden and said: 〃It is Paradise; after all。〃
  I think the men of old were right when they called heaven a garden;
  and Eden a garden inhabited by one man and one woman; the Earthly
  Paradise。
  I turned away; wondering what had become of the gloomy memories I
  had always associated with my home。  I tried to recall the
  impression of my nurse's horrible prophecy before the death of my
  parentsan impression which hitherto had been vivid enough。  I
  tried to remember my old self; my dejection; my listlessness; my
  bad luck; my petty disappointments。  I endeavored to force myself
  to think as I used to think; if only to satisfy myself that I had
  not lost my individuality。  But I succeeded in none of these
  efforts。  I was a different man; a changed being; incapable of
  sorrow; of ill luck; or of sadness。  My life had been a dream; not
  evil; but infinitely gloomy and hopeless。  It was now a reality;
  full of hope; gladness; and all manner of good。  My home had been
  like a tomb; to…day it was Paradise。  My heart had been as though
  it had not existed; to…day it beat with strength and youth and the
  certainty of realized happiness。  I reveled in the beauty of the
  world; and called loveliness out of the future to enjoy it before
  time should bring it to me; as a traveler in the plains looks up to
  the mountains; and already tastes the cool air through the dust of
  the road。
  Here; I thought; we will live and live for years。  There we will
  sit by the fountain toward evening and in the deep moonlight。  Down
  those paths we will wander together。  On those benches we will rest
  and talk。  Among those eastern hills we will ride through the soft
  twilight; and in the old house we will tell tales on winter nights;
  when the logs burn high; and the holly berries are red; and the old
  clock tolls out the dying year。  On these old steps; in these dark
  passages and stately rooms; there will one day be the sound of
  little pattering feet; and laughing child voices will ring up to
  the vaults of the ancient hall。  Those tiny footsteps shall not be
  slow and sad as mine were; nor shall the childish words be spoken
  in an awed whisper。  No gloomy Welshwoman shall people the dusky
  corners with weird horrors; nor utter horrid prophecies of death
  and ghastly things。  All shall be young; and fresh; and joyful; and
  happy; and we will turn the old luck again; and forget that there
  was ever any sadness。
  So I thought; as I looked out of my window that morning and for
  many mornings after that; and every day it all seemed more real
  than ever before; and much nearer。  But the old nurse looked at me
  askance; and muttered odd sayings about the Woman of the Water。  I
  cared little what she said; for I was far too happy。
  At last the time came near for the wedding。  Lady Bluebell and all
  the tribe of Bluebells; as Margaret called them; were at Bluebell
  Grange; for we had determined to be married in the country; and to
  come straight to the Castle afterwards。  We cared little for
  traveling; and not at all for a crowded ceremony at St。 George's in
  Hanover Square; with all the tiresome formalities afterwards。  I
  used to ride over to the Grange every day; and very often Margaret
  would come with her aunt and some of her cousins to the Castle。  I
  was suspicious of my own taste; and was only too glad to let her
  have her way about the alterations and improvements in our home。
  We were to be married on the thirtieth of July; and on the evening
  of the twenty…eighth Margaret drove over with some of the Bluebell
  party。  In the long summer twilight we all went out into the
  garden。  Naturally enough; Margaret and I were left to ourselves;
  and we wandered down by the marble basins。
  〃It is an odd coincidence;〃 I said; 〃it was on this very night last
  year that I first saw you。〃
  〃Considering that it is the month of July;〃 answered Margaret with
  a laugh; 〃and that we have been here almost every day; I don't
  think the coincidence is so extraordinary; after all。〃
  〃No; dear;〃 said I; 〃I suppose not。  I don't know why it struck me。
  We shall very likely be here a year from today; and a year from
  that。  The odd thing; when I think of it; is that you should be
  here at all。  But my luck has turned。  I ought not to think
  anything odd that happens now that I have you。  It is all sure to
  be good。〃
  〃A slight change in your ideas since that remarkable performance of
  yours in Paris;〃 said Margaret。  〃Do you know; I thought you were
  the most extraordinary man I had ever met。〃
  〃I thought you were the most charming woman I had ever seen。  I
  naturally did not want to lose any time in frivolities。  I took you
  at your word; I followed your advice; I asked you to marry me; and
  this is the delightful resultwhat's the matter?〃
  Margaret had started suddenly; and her hand tightened on my arm。
  An old woman was coming up the path; and was close to us before we
  saw her; for the moon had risen; and was shining full in our faces。
  The woman turned out to be my old nurse。
  〃It's only Judith; deardon't be frightened;〃 I said。  Then I
  spoke to the Welshwoman: 〃What are you about; Judith?  Have you
  been feeding the Woman of the Water?〃
  〃Ayewhen the clock strikes; Williemy Lord; I mean;〃 muttered
  the old creature; drawing aside to let us pass; and fixing her
  strange eyes on Margaret's face。
  〃What does she mean?〃 asked Margaret; when we had gone by。
  〃Nothing; darling。  The old thing is mildly crazy; but she is a
  good soul。〃
  We went on in silence for a few moments; and came to the rustic
  bridge just above the artificial grotto through which the water ran
  out into the park; dark and swift in its narrow channel。  We
  stopped; and leaned on the wooden rail。  The moon was now behind
  us; and shone full upon the long vista of basins and on the huge
  walls and towers of the Castle above。
  〃How proud you ought to be of such a grand old place!〃 said
  Margaret; softly。
  〃It is yours now; darling;〃 I answered。  〃You have as good a right
  to love it as Ibut I only love it because you are to live in it;
  dear。〃
  Her hand stole out and lay on mine; and we were both silent。  Just
  then the clock began to strike far off in the tower。  I counted
  eightninetenelevenI looked at my watchtwelvethirteenI
  laughed。  The bell went on striking。
  〃The old clock has gone crazy; like Judith;〃 I exclaimed。  Still it
  went on; note after note ringing out monotonously through the still
  air。  We leaned over the rail; instinctively looking in the
  direction whence the sound came。  On and on it went。  I counted
  nearly a hundred; out of sheer curiosity; for I understood that
  something had broken and that the thing was running itself down。
  Suddenly there was a crack as of breaking wood; a cry an