第 33 节
作者:淘气      更新:2024-07-17 14:41      字数:9322
  which had lately been a nothing; a purpose; which had lately been a
  fancy; a finished temple; with the altar…fires lit and the voice of
  worship ascending; where before had been but an architect's confusion of
  arid working plans; unintelligible to the passing eye and prophesying
  nothing。
  〃Lady〃 Gwendolen!  The pleasantness of that sound was all gone; it was an
  offense to her ear now。  She said:
  〃Therethat sham belongs to the past; I will not be called by it any
  more。〃
  〃I may call you simply Gwendolen?  You will allow me to drop the
  formalities straightway and name you by your dear first name without
  additions?〃
  She was dethroning the pink and replacing it with a rosebud。
  〃There…that is better。  I hate pinkssome pinks。  Indeed yes; you are to
  call me by my first name without additionsthat is;well; I don't mean
  without additions entirely; but〃
  It was as far as she could get。  There was a pause; his intellect was
  struggling to comprehend; presently it did manage to catch the idea in
  time to save embarrassment all around; and he said gratefully
  〃Dear Gwendolen!  I may say that?〃
  〃Yespart of it。  Butdon't kiss me when I am talking; it makes me
  forget what I was going to say。  You can call me by part of that form;
  but not the last part。  Gwendolen is not my name。〃
  〃Not your name?〃 This in a tone of wonder and surprise。
  The girl's soul was suddenly invaded by a creepy apprehension; a quite
  definite sense of suspicion and alarm。  She put his arms away from her;
  looked him searchingly in the eye; and said:
  〃Answer me truly; on your honor。  You are not seeking to marry me on
  account of my rank?〃
  The shot almost knocked him through the wall; he was so little prepared
  for it。  There was something so finely grotesque about the question and
  its parent suspicion; that he stopped to wonder and admire; and thus was
  he saved from laughing。  Then; without wasting precious time; he set
  about the task of convincing her that he had been lured by herself alone;
  and had fallen in love with her only; not her title and position; that he
  loved her with all his heart; and could not love her more if she were a
  duchess; or less if she were without home; name or family。  She watched
  his face wistfully; eagerly; hopefully; translating his words by its
  expression; and when he had finished there was gladness in her heart
  a tumultuous gladness; indeed; though outwardly she was calm; tranquil;
  even judicially austere。  She prepared a surprise for him; now;
  calculated to put a heavy strain upon those disinterested protestations
  of his; and thus she delivered it; burning it away word by word as the
  fuse burns down to a bombshell; and watching to see how far the explosion
  would lift him:
  〃Listenand do not doubt me; for I shall speak the exact truth。  Howard
  Tracy; I am no more an earl's child than you are!〃
  To her joyand secret surprise; alsoit never phased him。  He was
  ready; this time; and saw his chance。  He cried out with enthusiasm;
  〃Thank heaven for that!〃 and gathered her to his arms。
  To express her happiness was almost beyond her gift of speech。
  〃You make me the proudest girl in all the earth;〃 she said; with her head
  pillowed on his shoulder。  〃I thought it only natural that you should be
  dazzled by the titlemaybe even unconsciously; you being Englishand
  that you might be deceiving yourself in thinking you loved only me; and
  find you didn't love me when the deception was swept away; so it makes me
  proud that the revelation stands for nothing and that you do love just
  me; only meoh; prouder than any words can tell!〃
  〃It is only you; sweetheart; I never gave one envying glance toward your
  father's earldom。  That is utterly true; dear Gwendolen。〃
  〃There…you mustn't call me that。  I hate that false name。  I told you it
  wasn't mine。  My name is Sally Sellersor Sarah; if you like。  From this
  time I banish dreams; visions; imaginings; and will no more of them。
  I am going to be myselfmy genuine self; my honest self; my natural
  self; clear and clean of sham and folly and fraud; and worthy of you。
  There is no grain of social inequality between us; I; like you; am poor;
  I; like you; am without position or distinction; you are a struggling
  artist; I am that; too; in my humbler way。  Our bread is honest bread; we
  work for our…living。  Hand in hand we will walk hence to the grave;
  helping each other in all ways; living for each other; being and
  remaining one in heart and purpose; one in hope and aspiration;
  inseparable to the end。  And though our place is low; judged by the
  world's eye; we will make it as high as the highest in the great
  essentials of honest work for what we eat and wear; and conduct above
  reproach。  We live in a land; let us be thankful; where this is all…
  sufficient; and no man is better than his neighbor by the grace of God;
  but only by his own merit。〃
  Tracy tried to break in; but she stopped him and kept the floor herself。
  〃I am not through yet。  I am going to purge myself of the last vestiges
  of artificiality and pretence; and then start fair on your own honest
  level and be worthy mate to you thenceforth。  My father honestly thinks
  he is an earl。  Well; leave him his dream; it pleases him and does no one
  any harm: It was the dream of his ancestors before him。  It has made
  fools of the house of Sellers for generations; and it made something of a
  fool of me; but took no deep root。  I am done with it now; and for good。
  Forty…eight hours ago I was privately proud of being the daughter of a
  pinchbeck earl; and thought the proper mate for me must be a man of like
  degree; but to…dayoh; how grateful I am for your love which has healed
  my sick brain and restored my sanity!I could make oath that no earl's
  son in all the world〃
  〃Oh;well; butbut〃
  〃Why; you look like a person in a panic。  What is it?  What is the
  matter?〃
  〃Matter?  Oh; nothingnothing。  I was only going to say〃but in his
  flurry nothing occurred to him to say; for a moment; then by a lucky
  inspiration he thought of something entirely sufficient for the occasion;
  and brought it out with eloquent force: 〃Oh; how beautiful you are!  You
  take my breath away when you look like that。〃
  It was well conceived; well timed; and cordially deliveredand it got
  its reward。
  〃Let me see。  Where was I?  Yes; my father's earldom is pure moonshine。
  Look at those dreadful things on the wall。  You have of course supposed
  them to be portraits of his ancestors; earls of Rossmore。  Well; they are
  not。  They are chromos of distinguished Americansall moderns; but he
  has carried them back a thousand years by re…labeling them。  Andrew
  Jackson there; is doing what he can to be the late American earl; and the
  newest treasure in the collection is supposed to be the young English
  heirI mean the idiot with the crape; but in truth it's a shoemaker; and
  not Lord Berkeley at all。〃
  〃Are you sure?〃
  〃Why of course I am。  He wouldn't look like that。〃
  〃Why?〃
  〃Because his conduct in his last moments; when the fire was sweeping
  around him shows that he was a man。  It shows that he was a fine; high…
  souled young creature。〃
  Tracy was strongly moved by these compliments; and it seemed to him that
  the girl's lovely lips took on anew loveliness when they were delivering
  them。  He said; softly:
  〃It is a pity he could not know what a gracious impression his behavior
  was going to leave with the dearest and sweetest stranger in the
  land of〃
  〃Oh; I almost loved him!  Why; I think of him every day。  He is always
  floating about in my mind。〃
  Tracy felt that this was a little more than was necessary。  He was
  conscious of the sting of jealousy。  He said:
  〃It is quite right to think of himat least now and thenthat is; at
  intervalsin perhaps an admiring waybut it seems to me that〃
  〃Howard Tracy; are you jealous of that dead man?〃
  He was ashamedand at the same time not ashamed。  He was jealousand at
  the same time he was not jealous。  In a sense the dead man was himself;
  in that case compliments and affection lavished upon that corpse went
  into his own till and were clear profit。  But in another sense the dead
  man was not himself; and in that case all compliments and affection
  lavished there were wasted; and a sufficient basis for jealousy。  A tiff
  was the result of the dispute between the two。  Then they made it up; and
  were more loving than ever。  As an affectionate clincher of the
  reconciliation; Sally declared that she had now banished Lord Berkeley
  from her mind; and added; 〃And in order to make sure that he shall never
  make trouble between us again; I will teach myself to detest that name
  and all that have ever borne it or ever shall bear it。〃
  This inflicted another pang; and Tracy was minded to ask her to modify
  that a little just on general principles; and as practice in not
  overdoing a good thingperhaps he might better leave things as they were
  and not risk bringing on another tiff。  He got away from that particular;
  and sought less tender ground for conversation。
  〃I suppose you disapprove wholly of aristocracies and nobilities; now
  that you have renounced your title and your father's earldom。〃
  〃Real ones?  Oh; dear nobut I've thrown aside o