第 32 节
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  a considerable vacancy; then a sterile remark from Washington Hawkins。
  Another silence; then; not Tracy's but her father's voice again。
  〃He's gone;〃 she said to herself despairingly; and listlessly opened the
  door and stepped within。
  〃Why; my child;〃 cried the mother; 〃how white you are!  Are youhas
  anything〃
  〃White?〃 exclaimed Sellers。  〃It's gone like a flash; 'twasn't serious。
  Already she's as red as the soul of a watermelon!  Sit down; dear; sit
  downgoodness knows you're welcome。  Did you have a good time?  We've
  had great times hereimmense。  Why didn't Miss Belle come?  Mr。 Tracy is
  not feeling well; and she'd have made him forget it。〃
  She was content now; and out from her happy eyes there went a light that
  told a secret to another pair of eyes there and got a secret in return。
  In just that infinitely small fraction of a second those two great
  confessions were made; received; and perfectly; understood。  All anxiety;
  apprehension; uncertainty; vanished out of these young people's hearts
  and left them filled with a great peace。
  Sellers had had the most confident faith that with the new reinforcement
  victory would be at this last moment snatched from the jaws of defeat;
  but it was an error。  The talk was as stubbornly disjointed as ever。
  He was proud of Gwendolen; and liked to show her off; even against Miss
  Belle Thompson; and here had been a great opportunity; and what had she
  made of it?  He felt a good deal put out。  It vexed him to think that
  this Englishman; with the traveling Briton's everlasting disposition to
  generalize whole mountain ranges from single sample…grains of sand; would
  jump to the conclusion that American girls were as dumb as himself
  generalizing the whole tribe from this single sample and she at her
  poorest; there being nothing at that table to inspire her; give her a
  start; keep her from going to sleep。  He made up his mind that for the
  honor of the country he would bring these two together again over the
  social board before long。  There would be a different result another
  time; he judged。  He said to himself; with a deep sense of injury;
  〃He'll put in his diarythey all keep diarieshe'll put in his diary
  that she was miraculously uninterestingdear; dear; but wasn't she!
  I never saw the likeand yet looking as beautiful as Satan; tooand
  couldn't seem to do anything but paw bread crumbs; and pick flowers to
  pieces; and look fidgety。  And it isn't any better here in the Hall of
  Audience。  I've had enough; I'll haul down my flag the others may fight
  it out if they want to。〃
  He shook hands all around and went off to do some work which he said was
  pressing。  The idolaters were the width of the room apart; and apparently
  unconscious of each other's presence。  The distance got shortened a
  little; now。  Very soon the mother withdrew。  The distance narrowed
  again。  Tracy stood before a chromo of some Ohio politician which had
  been retouched and chain…mailed for a crusading Rossmore; and Gwendolen
  was sitting on the sofa not far from his elbow artificially absorbed in
  examining a photograph album that hadn't any photographs in it。
  The 〃Senator〃 still lingered。  He was sorry for the young people; it had
  been a dull evening for them。  In the goodness of his heart he tried to
  make it pleasant for them now; tried to remove the ill impression
  necessarily left by the general defeat; tried to be chatty; even tried to
  be gay。  But the responses were sickly; there was no starting any
  enthusiasm; he would give it up and quitit was a day specially picked
  out and consecrated to failures。
  But when Gwendolen rose up promptly and smiled a glad smile and said with
  thankfulness and blessing; 〃Must you go?〃 it seemed cruel to desert; and
  he sat down again。
  He was about to begin a remark whenwhen he didn't。  We have all been
  there。  He didn't know how he knew his concluding to stay longer had been
  a mistake; he merely knew it; and knew it for dead certain; too。  And so
  he bade goodnight; and went mooning out; wondering what he could have
  done that changed the atmosphere that way。  As the door closed behind him
  those two were standing side by side; looking at that doorlooking at it
  in a waiting; second…counting; but deeply grateful kind of way。  And the
  instant it closed they flung their arms about each other's necks; and
  there; heart to heart and lip to lip
  〃Oh; my God; she's kissing it!〃
  Nobody heard this remark; because Hawkins; who bred it; only thought it;
  he didn't utter it。  He had turned; the moment he had closed the door;
  and had pushed it open a little; intending to re…enter and ask what ill…
  advised thing he had done or said; and apologize for it。  But he didn't
  re…enter; he staggered off stunned; terrified; distressed。
  CHAPTER XXII。
  Five minutes later he was sitting in his room; with his head bowed within
  the circle of his arms; on the table…final attitude of grief and despair。
  His tears were flowing fast; and now and then a sob broke upon the
  stillness。  Presently he said:
  〃I knew her when she was a little child and used to climb about my knees;
  I love her as I love my own; and nowoh; poor thing; poor thing; I
  cannot bear it! she's gone and lost her heart to this mangy
  materializee!  Why didn't we see that that might happen?  But how could
  we?  Nobody could; nobody could ever have dreamed of such a thing。  You
  couldn't expect a person would fall in love with a wax…work。  And this
  one doesn't even amount to that。〃
  He went on grieving to himself; and now and then giving voice to his
  lamentations。
  〃It's done; oh; it's done; and there's no help for it; no undoing the
  miserable business。  If I had the nerve; I would kill it。  But that
  wouldn't do any good。  She loves it; she thinks it's genuine and
  authentic。  If she lost it she would grieve for it just as she would for
  a real person。  And who's to break it to the family!  Not II'll die
  first。  Sellers is the best human being I ever knew and I wouldn't any
  more think ofoh; dear; why it'll break his heart when he finds it out。
  And Polly's too。  This comes of meddling with such infernal matters!
  But for this; the creature would still be roasting in Sheol where it
  belongs。  How is it that these people don't smell the brimstone?
  Sometimes I can't come into the same room with him without nearly
  suffocating。〃
  After a while he broke out again:
  〃Well; there's one thing; sure。  The materializing has got to stop right
  where it is。  If she's got to marry a spectre; let her marry a decent one
  out of the Middle Ages; like this onenot a cowboy and a thief such as
  this protoplasmic tadpole's going to turn into if Sellers keeps on
  fussing at it。  It costs five thousand dollars cash and shuts down on the
  incorporated company to stop the works at this point; but Sally Sellers's
  happiness is worth more than that。〃
  He heard Sellers coming; and got himself to rights。  Sellers took a seat;
  and said:
  〃Well; I've got to confess I'm a good deal puzzled。  It did certainly
  eat; there's no getting around it。  Not eat; exactly; either; but it
  nibbled; nibbled in an appetiteless way; but still it nibbled; and that's
  just a marvel。  Now the question is; what does it do with those
  nibblings?  That's itwhat does it do with them?  My idea is that we
  don't begin to know all there is to this stupendous discovery yet。
  But time will show…time and science…give us a chance; and don't get
  impatient。〃
  But he couldn't get Hawkins interested; couldn't make him talk to amount
  to anything; couldn't drag him out of his depression。  But at last he
  took a turn that arrested Hawkins's attention。
  〃I'm coming to like him; Hawkins。  He is a person of stupendous
  characterabsolutely gigantic。  Under that placid exterior is concealed
  the most dare…devil spirit that was ever put into a manhe's just a
  Clive over again。  Yes; I'm all admiration for him; on account of his
  character; and liking naturally follows admiration; you know。  I'm coming
  to like him immensely。  Do you know; I haven't the heart to degrade such
  a character as that down to the burglar estate for money or for anything
  else; and I've come to ask if you are willing to let the reward go; and
  leave this poor fellow〃Where he is?〃
  〃Yesnot bring him down to date。〃
  〃Oh; there's my hand; and my heart's in it; too!〃
  〃I'll never forget you for this; Hawkins;〃 said the old gentleman in a
  voice which he found it hard to control。  〃You are making a great
  sacrifice for me; and one which you can ill afford; but I'll never forget
  your generosity; and if I live you shall not suffer for it; be sure of
  that。〃
  Sally Sellers immediately and vividly realized that she was become a new
  being; a being of a far higher and worthier sort than she had been such a
  little while before; an earnest being; in place of a dreamer; and
  supplied with a reason for her presence in the world; where merely a
  wistful and troubled curiosity about it had existed before。  So great and
  so comprehensive was the change which had been wrought; that she seemed
  to herself to be a real person who had lately been a shadow; a something
  which had lately been a nothing; a purpose; which had lately been a
  fancy; a finished temple; with