第 7 节
作者:负债赌博      更新:2024-05-25 15:05      字数:9321
  my   leaving   home   I   have   had   many   times;   and   never   yet   have   I   been
  awakened by it。        Always do I crash; shrieking; down through the brush
  and fetch up with a bump on the ground。
  Scratched     and   bruised    and   whimpering;      I  lay  where    I  had   fallen。
  Peering up through the bushes; I could see the Chatterer。               He had set up a
  demoniacal chant of joy and was keeping time to it with his teetering。                    I
  quickly hushed my whimpering。             I was no longer in the safety of the trees;
  and I knew the danger I ran of bringing upon myself the hunting animals
  by too audible an expression of my grief。
  I  remember;      as  my    sobs   died   down;    that   I  became    interested    in
  watching      the  strange    light…effects   produced      by  partially   opening     and
  closing my tear…wet eyelids。         Then I began to investigate; and found that I
  was not so very badly damaged by my fall。              I had lost some hair and hide;
  here   and   there;   the   sharp   and   jagged   end   of   a   broken   branch   had   thrust
  fully an inch into my forearm; and my right hip; which had borne the brunt
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  of my contact with the ground; was aching intolerably。                   But these; after
  all; were only petty hurts。        No bones were broken; and in those days the
  flesh of man had finer healing qualities than it has to…day。                 Yet it was a
  severe fall; for I limped with my injured hip for fully a week afterward。
  Next;    as  I  lay   in  the   bushes;   there   came     upon    me   a  feeling    of
  desolation;   a   consciousness   that   I   was   homeless。      I   made   up   my   mind
  never   to   return   to   my   mother   and   the   Chatterer。  I   would   go   far   away
  through the terrible forest; and find some tree for myself in which to roost。
  As for food; I knew where to find it。 For the last year at least I had not
  been   beholden   to   my   mother   for   food。     All   she   had   furnished   me   was
  protection and guidance。
  I crawled softly out through the bushes。            Once I looked back and saw
  the Chatterer still chanting and teetering。           It was not a pleasant sight。         I
  knew pretty well how to be cautious; and I was exceedingly careful on this
  my first journey in the world。
  I gave no thought as to where I was going。                I had but one purpose;
  and   that   was   to   go   away   beyond   the   reach   of   the   Chatterer。 I   climbed
  into the trees and wandered on amongst them for hours; passing from tree
  to tree and never touching the ground。             But I did not go in any particular
  direction; nor did I travel steadily。 It was my nature; as it was the nature of
  all   my   folk;   to   be   inconsequential。  Besides;   I   was   a   mere   child;   and   I
  stopped a great deal to play by the way。
  The events that befell me on my leaving home are very vague in my
  mind。     My dreams do not cover them。             Much has my other…self forgotten;
  and particularly at this very period。          Nor have I been able to frame up the
  various dreams so as to bridge the gap between my leaving the home…tree
  and my arrival at the caves。
  I remember that several times I came to open spaces。 These I crossed
  in great trepidation; descending to the ground and running at the top of my
  speed。     I remember that there were days of rain and days of sunshine; so
  that I must have wandered alone for quite a time。                 I especially dream of
  my   misery   in   the   rain;   and   of   my   sufferings   from   hunger   and   how   I
  appeased it。      One very strong impression is of hunting little lizards on the
  rocky top of an open knoll。          They ran under the rocks; and most of them
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  escaped;   but   occasionally   I   turned   over   a   stone   and   caught   one。    I   was
  frightened   away   from   this   knoll   by   snakes。       They   did   not   pursue   me。
  They   were   merely   basking   on   flat   rocks   in   the   sun。   But   such   was   my
  inherited fear of them that I fled as fast as if they had been after me。
  Then I gnawed bitter bark from young trees。                I remember vaguely the
  eating   of   many   green   nuts;   with   soft   shells   and   milky   kernels。   And   I
  remember   most   distinctly   suffering   from   a   stomach…ache。           It   may   have
  been caused by the green nuts; and maybe by the lizards。 I do not know。
  But   I   do   know   that   I   was   fortunate   in   not   being   devoured   during   the
  several hours I was knotted up on the ground with the colic。
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  CHAPTER V
  My vision of the scene came abruptly; as I emerged from the forest。
  I found   myself   on the   edge   of   a large   clear   space。 On one side   of this
  space rose up high   bluffs。       On the other side was   the river。         The   earth
  bank ran steeply down to the water; but here and there; in several places;
  where   at   some   time   slides   of   earth   had   occurred;   there   were   run…ways。
  These were the drinking…places of the Folk that lived in the caves。
  And   this   was   the   main   abiding…place   of   the   Folk   that   I   had   chanced
  upon。     This    was;   I   may  say;   by   stretching  the   word;  the   village。  My
  mother and the Chatterer and I; and a few other simple bodies; were what
  might be termed suburban residents。            We were part of the horde; though
  we lived a distance away from it。          It was only a short distance; though it
  had taken me; what of my wandering; all of a week to arrive。 Had I come
  directly; I could have covered the trip in an hour。
  But to return。     From the edge of the forest I saw the caves in the bluff;
  the open space; and the run…ways to the drinking…places。 And in the open
  space I saw many of the Folk。          I had been straying; alone and a child; for
  a week。     During that time I had seen not one of my kind。              I had lived in
  terror and desolation。 And now; at the sight of my kind; I was overcome
  with gladness; and I ran wildly toward them。
  Then it was that a strange thing happened。           Some one of the Folk saw
  me and uttered a warning cry。           On the instant; crying out with fear and
  panic; the Folk fled away。         Leaping and scrambling over the rocks; they
  plunged into the mouths of the caves and disappeared。。。all but one; a little
  baby; that had been dropped in the excitement close to the base of the bluff。
  He was wailing dolefully。         His mother dashed out; he sprang to meet her
  and held on tightly as she scrambled back into the cave。
  I was all alone。      The populous open space had of a sudden become
  deserted。     I sat down forlornly and whimpered。            I could not understand。
  Why had the Folk run away from me? In later time; when I came to know
  their ways; I was to learn。       When they saw me dashing out of the forest at
  top   speed    they  concluded     that  I  was   being   pursued    by   some   hunting
  animal。     By my unceremonious approach I had stampeded them。
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  As I sat   and watched the   cave…mouths I became   aware that the   Folk
  were watching me。          Soon they were thrusting their heads out。                A little
  later they were calling  back and forth to   one another。               In the hurry  and
  confusion it had happened that all had not gained their own caves。                    Some
  of the young ones had sought refuge in other caves。                 The mothers did not
  call for them by name; because that was an invention we had not yet made。
  All   were nameless。 The   mothers uttered   querulous;  anxious   cries;   which
  were   recognized   by   the   young   ones。      Thus;   had   my   mother   been   there
  calling to me; I should have recognized her voice amongst the voices of a
  thousand mothers; and in the same way would she have recognized mine
  amongst a thousand。
  This calling back and forth continued for some time; but they were too
  cautious to come out of their caves and descend to the ground。 Finally one
  did come。       He was destined to play a large part in my life; and for that
  matter he already played a large part in the lives of all the members of the