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  Before Adam
  Before Adam
  Jack London
  1906
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  〃These are our ancestors;  and their history  is our history。  Remember
  that   as   surely   as   we   one   day   swung   down   out   of   the   trees   and   walked
  upright; just as surely; on a far earlier day; did we crawl up out of the sea
  and achieve our first adventure on land。〃
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  CHAPTER I
  Pictures!   Pictures!   Pictures!   Often;   before   I   learned;   did   I   wonder
  whence came the multitudes of pictures that thronged my dreams; for they
  were pictures the like of which I had never seen in real wake…a…day life。
  They   tormented   my   childhood;   making   of   my   dreams   a   procession   of
  nightmares and a little later convincing me that I was different from  my
  kind; a creature unnatural and accursed。
  In   my   days   only   did   I   attain   any   measure   of   happiness。   My   nights
  marked the reign of fearand such fear! I make bold to state that no man
  of all the men who walk the earth with me ever suffer fear of like kind and
  degree。     For my fear is the fear of long ago; the fear that was rampant in
  the Younger World; and in the youth of the Younger World。                   In short; the
  fear that reigned supreme in that period known as the Mid…Pleistocene。
  What do I mean? I see explanation is necessary before I can tell you of
  the   substance   of   my   dreams。     Otherwise;   little   could   you   know   of   the
  meaning of the things I know so well。             As I write this; all the beings and
  happenings of that other world rise up before me in vast phantasmagoria;
  and I know that to you they would be rhymeless and reasonless。
  What to you the friendship of Lop…Ear; the warm lure of the Swift One;
  the   lust   and   the   atavism   of   Red…Eye?   A  screaming   incoherence   and   no
  more。     And   a   screaming   incoherence;   likewise;   the   doings   of   the   Fire
  People and the Tree People; and the gibbering councils of the horde。                   For
  you know not the peace of the cool caves in the cliffs; the circus of the
  drinking…places at the end of the day。 You have never felt the bite of the
  morning wind in the tree…tops; nor is the taste of young bark sweet in your
  mouth。
  It   would   be   better;   I   dare   say;   for   you   to   make   your   approach;   as   I
  made mine; through my childhood。              As a boy I was very like other boys
  in my waking hours。          It was in my sleep that I was different。          From my
  earliest   recollection   my   sleep   was   a   period   of   terror。 Rarely   were   my
  dreams tinctured with happiness。           As a rule; they were stuffed with fear
  and with a fear so strange and alien that it had no ponderable quality。                No
  fear that I experienced in my waking life resembled the fear that possessed
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  me   in   my   sleep。   It   was   of   a   quality   and   kind   that   transcended   all   my
  experiences。
  For instance; I was a city boy; a city child; rather; to whom the country
  was   an   unexplored   domain。         Yet   I   never   dreamed   of   cities;   nor   did   a
  house ever occur in any of my dreams。                Nor; for that matter; did any of
  my human kind ever break through the wall of my sleep。                   I; who had seen
  trees   only  in parks   and illustrated   books;  wandered   in   my  sleep   through
  interminable forests。        And further; these dream trees were not a mere blur
  on    my    vision。    They     were    sharp   and    distinct。   I   was    on   terms   of
  practised   intimacy  with   them。       I   saw   every  branch   and   twig;   I saw   and
  knew every different leaf。
  Well do I remember the first time in my waking life that I saw an oak
  tree。    As I looked at the leaves and branches and gnarls; it came to me
  with distressing vividness that I had seen that same kind of tree many and
  countless times n my sleep。           So I was not surprised; still later on in my
  life;   to   recognize   instantly;   the   first   time   I   saw   them;   trees   such   as   the
  spruce; the yew; the birch; and the laurel。            I had seen them all before; and
  was seeing them even then; every night; in my sleep。
  This; as you have already discerned; violates the first law of dreaming;
  namely; that in one's dreams one sees only what he has seen in his waking
  life; or combinations of the things he has seen in his waking life。                 But all
  my dreams violated this law。           In my dreams I never saw ANYTHING of
  which     I  had   knowledge      in  my    waking     life。  My     dream    life  and   my
  waking life were lives apart; with not one thing in common save myself。 I
  was the connecting link that somehow lived both lives。
  Early in my childhood I learned that nuts came from the grocer; berries
  from   the   fruit   man;   but   before   ever   that   knowledge   was   mine;   in   my
  dreams I picked nuts from trees; or gathered them and ate them from the
  ground underneath trees; and in the same way I ate berries from vines and
  bushes。     This was beyond any experience of mine。
  I shall never forget the first time I saw blueberries served on the table。
  I   had   never   seen   blueberries   before;   and   yet;   at   the   sight   of   them;   there
  leaped     up   in  my   mind    memories      of  dreams     wherein    I  had   wandered
  through swampy land eating my fill of them。 My mother set before me a
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  dish of the berries。      I filled my spoon; but before I raised it to my mouth I
  knew   just   how   they   would   taste。     Nor   was   I   disappointed。     It   was   the
  same tang that I had tasted a thousand times in my sleep。
  Snakes?   Long   before   I   had   heard   of   the   existence   of   snakes;   I   was
  tormented by them in my sleep。             They lurked for me in the forest glades;
  leaped up; striking; under my feet; squirmed off through the dry grass or
  across naked patches of rock; or pursued me into the tree…tops; encircling
  the trunks with their great shining bodies; driving me higher and higher or
  farther and   farther out on swaying   and   crackling branches; the ground   a
  dizzy distance beneath me。 Snakes!with their forked tongues; their beady
  eyes and glittering scales; their hissing and their rattlingdid I not already
  know   them   far   too   well   on   that   day   of   my   first   circus   when   I   saw   the
  snake…charmer lift them up?
  They were old friends of mine; enemies rather; that peopled my nights
  with fear。
  Ah;   those   endless   forests;   and   their   horror…haunted   gloom!   For   what
  eternities have I wandered through them; a timid; hunted creature; starting
  at the least sound; frightened of my own shadow; keyed…up; ever alert and
  vigilant; ready on the instant to dash away in mad flight for my life。                  For
  I was the prey of all manner of fierce life that dwelt in the forest; and it
  was in ecstasies of fear that I fled before the hunting monsters。
  When   I   was   five   years   old   I   went   to   my   first   circus。 I   came   home
  from it sickbut not from peanuts and pink lemonade。                    Let me tell you。
  As we entered the animal tent; a hoarse roaring shook the air。                   I tore my
  hand loose from my father's and dashed wildly back through the entrance。
  I collided with people; fell down; and all the time I was screaming with
  terror。    My father caught me and soothed me。                He pointed to the crowd
  of people; all careless of the roaring; and cheered me with assurances of
  safety。
  Nevertheless;       it  was     in   fear   and    trembling;      and    with    much
  encouragement on his part; that I at last approached the lion's cage。                  Ah; I
  knew him on the instant。           The beast! The terrible one! And on my inner
  vision flashed the memories of my dreams;the midday sun shining on tall
  grass; the wild bull grazing quietly; the sudden parting of the grass before
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  the swift rush of the tawny one; his leap to the bull's bac