第 4 节
作者:博搏      更新:2024-05-19 15:43      字数:9321
  This afternoon however she foresaw complications。  At the very outset
  for instance she was not pleased with his having arranged such a
  surprise for her with her grandmother and her aunt。  It was probably
  aunt Julia who had sent for him; her grandmother wouldn't have done
  it。  It placed him immediately on their side; and Rose was almost as
  disappointed at this as if she had not known it was quite where he
  would naturally be。  He had never paid her a special visit; but if
  that was what he wished to do why shouldn't he have waited till she
  should be under her mother's roof?  She knew the reason; but she had
  an angry prospect of enjoyment in making him express it。  She liked
  him enough; after all; if it were measured by the idea of what she
  could make him do。
  In Bertram Jay the elements were surprisingly mingled; you would have
  gone astray; in reading him; if you had counted on finding the
  complements of some of his qualities。  He would not however have
  struck you in the least as incomplete; for in every case in which you
  didn't find the complement you would have found the contradiction。
  He was in the Royal Engineers; and was tall; lean and high…
  shouldered。  He looked every inch a soldier; yet there were people
  who considered that he had missed his vocation in not becoming a
  parson。  He took a public interest in the spiritual life of the army。
  Other persons still; on closer observation; would have felt that his
  most appropriate field was neither the army nor the church; but
  simply the worldthe social; successful; worldly world。  If he had a
  sword in one hand and a Bible in the other he had a Court Guide
  concealed somewhere about his person。  His profile was hard and
  handsome; his eyes were both cold and kind; his dark straight hair
  was imperturbably smooth and prematurely streaked with grey。  There
  was nothing in existence that he didn't take seriously。  He had a
  first…rate power of work and an ambition as minutely organised as a
  German plan of invasion。  His only real recreation was to go to
  church; but he went to parties when he had time。  If he was in love
  with Rose Tramore this was distracting to him only in the same sense
  as his religion; and it was included in that department of his
  extremely sub…divided life。  His religion indeed was of an
  encroaching; annexing sort。  Seen from in front he looked diffident
  and blank; but he was capable of exposing himself in a way (to speak
  only of the paths of peace) wholly inconsistent with shyness。  He had
  a passion for instance for open…air speaking; but was not thought on
  the whole to excel in it unless he could help himself out with a
  hymn。  In conversation he kept his eyes on you with a kind of
  colourless candour; as if he had not understood what you were saying
  and; in a fashion that made many people turn red; waited before
  answering。  This was only because he was considering their remarks in
  more relations than they had intended。  He had in his face no
  expression whatever save the one just mentioned; and was; in his
  profession; already very distinguished。
  He had seen Rose Tramore for the first time on a Sunday of the
  previous March; at a house in the country at which she was staying
  with her father; and five weeks later he had made her; by letter; an
  offer of marriage。  She showed her father the letter of course; and
  he told her that it would give him great pleasure that she should
  send Captain Jay about his business。  〃My dear child;〃 he said; 〃we
  must really have some one who will be better fun than that。〃  Rose
  had declined the honour; very considerately and kindly; but not
  simply because her father wished it。  She didn't herself wish to
  detach this flower from the stem; though when the young man wrote
  again; to express the hope that he MIGHT hopeso long was he willing
  to waitand ask if he might not still sometimes see her; she
  answered even more indulgently than at first。  She had shown her
  father her former letter; but she didn't show him this one; she only
  told him what it contained; submitting to him also that of her
  correspondent。  Captain Jay moreover wrote to Mr。 Tramore; who
  replied sociably; but so vaguely that he almost neglected the subject
  under discussiona communication that made poor Bertram ponder long。
  He could never get to the bottom of the superficial; and all the
  proprieties and conventions of life were profound to him。
  Fortunately for him old Mrs。 Tramore liked him; he was satisfactory
  to her long…sightedness; so that a relation was established under
  cover of which he still occasionally presented himself in Hill
  Streetpresented himself nominally to the mistress of the house。  He
  had had scruples about the veracity of his visits; but he had
  disposed of them; he had scruples about so many things that he had
  had to invent a general way; to dig a central drain。  Julia Tramore
  happened to meet him when she came up to town; and she took a view of
  him more benevolent than her usual estimate of people encouraged by
  her mother。  The fear of agreeing with that lady was a motive; but
  there was a stronger one; in this particular case; in the fear of
  agreeing with her niece; who had rejected him。  His situation might
  be held to have improved when Mr。 Tramore was taken so gravely ill
  that with regard to his recovery those about him left their eyes to
  speak for their lips; and in the light of the poor gentleman's recent
  death it was doubtless better than it had ever been。
  He was only a quarter of an hour with the girl; but this gave him
  time to take the measure of it。  After he had spoken to her about her
  bereavement; very much as an especially mild missionary might have
  spoken to a beautiful Polynesian; he let her know that he had learned
  from her companions the very strong step she was about to take。  This
  led to their spending together ten minutes which; to her mind; threw
  more light on his character than anything that had ever passed
  between them。  She had always felt with him as if she were standing
  on an edge; looking down into something decidedly deep。  To…day the
  impression of the perpendicular shaft was there; but it was rather an
  abyss of confusion and disorder than the large bright space in which
  she had figured everything as ranged and pigeon…holed; presenting the
  appearance of the labelled shelves and drawers at a chemist's。  He
  discussed without an invitation to discuss; he appealed without a
  right to appeal。  He was nothing but a suitor tolerated after
  dismissal; but he took strangely for granted a participation in her
  affairs。  He assumed all sorts of things that made her draw back。  He
  implied that there was everything now to assist them in arriving at
  an agreement; since she had never informed him that he was positively
  objectionable; but that this symmetry would be spoiled if she should
  not be willing to take a little longer to think of certain
  consequences。  She was greatly disconcerted when she saw what
  consequences he meant and at his reminding her of them。  What on
  earth was the use of a lover if he was to speak only like one's
  grandmother and one's aunt?  He struck her as much in love with her
  and as particularly careful at the same time as to what he might say。
  He never mentioned her mother; he only alluded; indirectly but
  earnestly; to the 〃step。〃  He disapproved of it altogether; took an
  unexpectedly prudent; politic view of it。  He evidently also believed
  that she would be dragged down; in other words that she would not be
  asked out。  It was his idea that her mother would contaminate her; so
  that he should find himself interested in a young person discredited
  and virtually unmarriageable。  All this was more obvious to him than
  the consideration that a daughter should be merciful。  Where was his
  religion if he understood mercy so little; and where were his talent
  and his courage if he were so miserably afraid of trumpery social
  penalties?  Rose's heart sank when she reflected that a man supposed
  to be first…rate hadn't guessed that rather than not do what she
  could for her mother she would give up all the Engineers in the
  world。  She became aware that she probably would have been moved to
  place her hand in his on the spot if he had come to her saying 〃Your
  idea is the right one; put it through at every cost。〃  She couldn't
  discuss this with him; though he impressed her as having too much at
  stake for her to treat him with mere disdain。  She sickened at the
  revelation that a gentleman could see so much in mere vulgarities of
  opinion; and though she uttered as few words as possible; conversing
  only in sad smiles and headshakes and in intercepted movements toward
  the door; she happened; in some unguarded lapse from her reticence;
  to use the expression that she was disappointed in him。  He caught at
  it and; seeming to drop his field…glass; pressed upon her with
  nearer; tenderer eyes。
  〃Can I be so happy as to believe; then; that you had thought of me
  with some confidence; with some faith?〃
  〃If you didn't suppose so; what is the sense of this visit?〃 Rose
  asked。
  〃One can be faithful without reciprocity;〃 said the young man。  〃I
  regard you in a light which makes me want to protect you even if I
  have nothing to gain