第 20 节
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  three weary years have gone by since she began to see in me the
  enemy of her days。  Now why or wherefore I know not; but it seemeth
  that it would not avail her to slay me outright; or suffer me to
  die; but nought withheld her from piling up griefs and miseries on
  my head。  At last she set her servant; the Dwarf; upon me; even he
  whose head thou clavest to…day。  Many things I bore from him whereof
  it were unseemly for my tongue to tell before thee; but the time
  came when he exceeded; and I could bear no more; and then I showed
  him this sharp knife (wherewith I would have thrust me through to
  the heart if thou hadst not pardoned me e'en now); and I told him
  that if he forbore me not; I would slay; not him; but myself; and
  this he might not away with because of the commandment of the Lady;
  who had given him the word that in any case I must be kept living。
  And her hand; withal; fear held somewhat hereafter。  Yet was there
  need to me of all my wisdom; for with all this her hatred grew; and
  whiles raged within her so furiously that it overmastered her fear;
  and at such times she would have put me to death if I had not
  escaped her by some turn of my lore。〃
  〃Now further; I shall tell thee that somewhat more than a year ago
  hither to this land came the King's Son; the second goodly man; as
  thou art the third; whom her sorceries have drawn hither since I
  have dwelt here。  Forsooth; when he first came; he seemed to us; to
  me; and yet more to my Lady; to be as beautiful as an angel; and
  sorely she loved him; and he her; after his fashion:  but he was
  light…minded; and cold…hearted; and in a while he must needs turn
  his eyes upon me; and offer me his love; which was but foul and
  unkind as it turned out; for when I nay…said him; as maybe I had not
  done save for fear of my Mistress; he had no pity upon me; but
  spared not to lead me into the trap of her wrath; and leave me
  without help; or a good word。  But; O friend; in spite of all grief
  and anguish; I learned still; and waxed wise; and wiser; abiding the
  day of my deliverance; which has come; and thou art come。〃
  Therewith she took Walter's hands and kissed them; but he kissed her
  face; and her tears wet her lips。  Then she went on:  〃But sithence;
  months ago; the Lady began to weary of this dastard; despite of his
  beauty; and then it was thy turn to be swept into her net; I partly
  guess how。  For on a day in broad daylight; as I was serving my
  Mistress in the hall; and the Evil Thing; whose head is now cloven;
  was lying across the threshold of the door; as it were a dream fell
  upon me; though I strove to cast it off for fear of chastisement;
  for the pillared hall wavered; and vanished from my sight; and my
  feet were treading a rough stone pavement instead of the marble
  wonder of the hall; and there was the scent of the salt sea and of
  the tackle of ships; and behind me were tall houses; and before me
  the ships indeed; with their ropes beating and their sails flapping
  and their masts wavering; and in mine ears was the hale and how of
  mariners; things that I had seen and heard in the dimness of my life
  gone by。〃
  〃And there was I; and the Dwarf before me; and the Lady after me;
  going over the gangway aboard of a tall ship; and she gathered way
  and was gotten out of the haven; and straightway I saw the mariners
  cast abroad their ancient。〃
  Quoth Walter:  〃What then!  Sawest thou the blazon thereon; of a
  wolf…like beast ramping up against a maiden?  And that might well
  have been thou。〃
  She said:  〃Yea; so it was; but refrain thee; that I may tell on my
  tale!  The ship and the sea vanished away; but I was not back in the
  hall of the Golden House; and again were we three in the street of
  the self…same town which we had but just left; but somewhat dim was
  my vision thereof; and I saw little save the door of a goodly house
  before me; and speedily it died out; and we were again in the
  pillared hall; wherein my thralldom was made manifest。〃
  〃Maiden;〃 said Walter; 〃one question I would ask thee; to wit; didst
  thou see me on the quay by the ships?〃
  〃Nay;〃 she said; 〃there were many folk about; but they were all as
  images of the aliens to me。  Now hearken further:  three months
  thereafter came the dream upon me again; when we were all three
  together in the Pillared Hall; and again was the vision somewhat
  dim。  Once more we were in the street of a busy town; but all unlike
  to that other one; and there were men standing together on our right
  hands by the door of a house。〃
  〃Yea; yea;〃 quoth Walter; 〃and; forsooth; one of them was who but
  I。〃
  〃Refrain thee; beloved!〃 she said; 〃for my tale draweth to its
  ending; and I would have thee hearken heedfully:  for maybe thou
  shalt once again deem my deed past pardon。  Some twenty days after
  this last dream; I had some leisure from my Mistress's service; so I
  went to disport me by the Well of the Oak…tree (or forsooth she
  might have set in my mind the thought of going there; that I might
  meet thee and give her some occasion against me); and I sat thereby;
  nowise loving the earth; but sick at heart; because of late the
  King's Son had been more than ever instant with me to yield him my
  body; threatening me else with casting me into all that the worst
  could do to me of torments and shames day by day。  I say my heart
  failed me; and I was wellnigh brought to the point of yea…saying his
  desires; that I might take the chance of something befalling me that
  were less bad than the worst。  But here must I tell thee a thing;
  and pray thee to take it to heart。  This; more than aught else; had
  given me strength to nay…say that dastard; that my wisdom both hath
  been; and now is; the wisdom of a wise maid; and not of a woman; and
  all the might thereof shall I lose with my maidenhead。  Evil wilt
  thou think of me then; for all I was tried so sore; that I was at
  point to cast it all away; so wretchedly as I shrank from the horror
  of the Lady's wrath。〃
  〃But there as I sat pondering these things; I saw a man coming; and
  thought no otherwise thereof but that it was the King's Son; till I
  saw the stranger drawing near; and his golden hair; and his grey
  eyes; and then I heard his voice; and his kindness pierced my heart;
  and I knew that my friend had come to see me; and O; friend; these
  tears are for the sweetness of that past hour!〃
  Said Walter:  〃I came to see my friend; I also。  Now have I noted
  what thou badest me; and I will forbear all as thou commandest me;
  till we be safe out of the desert and far away from all evil things;
  but wilt thou ban me from all caresses?〃
  She laughed amidst of her tears; and said:  〃O; nay; poor lad; if
  thou wilt be but wise。〃
  Then she leaned toward him; and took his face betwixt her hands and
  kissed him oft; and the tears started in his eyes for love and pity
  of her。
  Then she said:  〃Alas; friend! even yet mayst thou doom me guilty;
  and all thy love may turn away from me; when I have told thee all
  that I have done for the sake of thee and me。  O; if then there
  might be some chastisement for the guilty woman; and not mere
  sundering!〃
  〃Fear nothing; sweetling;〃 said he; 〃for indeed I deem that already
  I know partly what thou hast done。〃
  She sighed; and said:  〃I will tell thee next; that I banned thy
  kissing and caressing of me till to…day because I knew that my
  Mistress would surely know if a man; if thou; hadst so much as
  touched a finger of mine in love; it was to try me herein that on
  the morning of the hunting she kissed and embraced me; till I almost
  died thereof; and showed thee my shoulder and my limbs; and to try
  thee withal; if thine eye should glister or thy cheek flush thereat;
  for indeed she was raging in jealousy of thee。  Next; my friend;
  even whiles we were talking together at the Well of the Rock; I was
  pondering on what we should do to escape from this land of lies。
  Maybe thou wilt say:  Why didst thou not take my hand and flee with
  me as we fled to…day?  Friend; it is most true; that were she not
  dead we had not escaped thus far。  For her trackers would have
  followed us; set on by her; and brought us back to an evil fate。
  Therefore I tell thee that from the first I did plot the death of
  those two; the Dwarf and the Mistress。  For no otherwise mightest
  thou live; or I escape from death in life。  But as to the dastard
  who threatened me with a thrall's pains; I heeded him nought to live
  or die; for well I knew that thy valiant sword; yea; or thy bare
  hands; would speedily tame him。  Now first I knew that I must make a
  show of yielding to the King's Son; and somewhat how I did therein;
  thou knowest。  But no night and no time did I give him to bed me;
  till after I had met thee as thou wentest to the Golden House;
  before the adventure of fetching the lion's skin; and up to that
  time I had scarce known what to do; save ever to bid thee; with sore
  grief and pain; to yield thee to the wicked woman's desire。  But as
  we spake together there by the stream; and I saw that the Evil Thing
  (whose head thou clavest e'en now) was spying on us; then amidst the
  sickness of terror which ever came over me whensoever I thought of
  him; and much more when I saw him (ah! he is dead now!); it came
  flas