第 8 节
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  matters。  I must now tell thee of my thoughts in order。〃
  Her colour went and came now; and she plaited the folds of her gown
  with restless fingers。  At last she said:  〃Now the first thing is
  this; that though thou hast seen me first only within this hour;
  thou hast set thine heart upon me to have me for thy speech…friend
  and thy darling。  And if this be not so; then is all my speech; yea
  and all my hope; come to an end at once。〃
  〃O yea!〃 said Walter; 〃even so it is:  but how thou hast found this
  out I wot not; since now for the first time I say it; that thou art
  indeed my love; and my dear and my darling。〃
  〃Hush;〃 she said; 〃hush! lest the wood have ears; and thy speech is
  loud:  abide; and I shall tell thee how I know it。  Whether this thy
  love shall outlast the first time that thou holdest my body in thine
  arms; I wot not; nor dost thou。  But sore is my hope that it may be
  so; for I also; though it be but scarce an hour since I set eyes on
  thee; have cast mine eyes on thee to have thee for my love and my
  darling; and my speech…friend。  And this is how I wot that thou
  lovest me; my friend。  Now is all this dear and joyful; and
  overflows my heart with sweetness。  But now must I tell thee of the
  fear and the evil which lieth behind it。〃
  Then Walter stretched out his hands to her; and cried out:  〃Yea;
  yea!  But whatever evil entangle us; now we both know these two
  things; to wit; that thou lovest me; and I thee; wilt thou not come
  hither; that I may cast mine arms about thee; and kiss thee; if not
  thy kind lips or thy friendly face at all; yet at least thy dear
  hand:  yea; that I may touch thy body in some wise?〃
  She looked on him steadily; and said softly:  〃Nay; this above all
  things must not be; and that it may not be is a part of the evil
  which entangles us。  But hearken; friend; once again I tell thee
  that thy voice is over loud in this wilderness fruitful of evil。
  Now I have told thee; indeed; of two things whereof we both wot; but
  next I must needs tell thee of things whereof I wot; and thou
  wottest not。  Yet this were better; that thou pledge thy word not to
  touch so much as one of my hands; and that we go together a little
  way hence away from these tumbled stones; and sit down upon the open
  greensward; whereas here is cover if there be spying abroad。〃
  Again; as she spoke; she turned very pale; but Walter said:  〃Since
  it must be so; I pledge thee my word to thee as I love thee。〃
  And therewith she knelt down; and did on her foot…gear; and then
  sprang lightly over the rivulet; and then the twain of them went
  side by side some half a furlong thence; and sat down; shadowed by
  the boughs of a slim quicken…tree growing up out of the greensward;
  whereon for a good space around was neither bush nor brake。
  There began the maiden to talk soberly; and said:  〃This is what I
  must needs say to thee now; that thou art come into a land perilous
  for any one that loveth aught of good; from which; forsooth; I were
  fain that thou wert gotten away safely; even though I should die of
  longing for thee。  As for myself; my peril is; in a measure; less
  than thine; I mean the peril of death。  But lo; thou; this iron on
  my foot is token that I am a thrall; and thou knowest in what wise
  thralls must pay for transgressions。  Furthermore; of what I am; and
  how I came hither; time would fail me to tell; but somewhile; maybe;
  I shall tell thee。  I serve an evil mistress; of whom I may say that
  scarce I wot if she be a woman or not; but by some creatures is she
  accounted for a god; and as a god is heried; and surely never god
  was crueller nor colder than she。  Me she hateth sorely; yet if she
  hated me little or nought; small were the gain to me if it were her
  pleasure to deal hardly by me。  But as things now are; and are like
  to be; it would not be for her pleasure; but for her pain and loss;
  to make an end of me; therefore; as I said e'en now; my mere life is
  not in peril with her; unless; perchance; some sudden passion get
  the better of her; and she slay me; and repent of it thereafter。
  For so it is; that if it be the least evil of her conditions that
  she is wanton; at least wanton she is to the letter。  Many a time
  hath she cast the net for the catching of some goodly young man; and
  her latest prey (save it be thou) is the young man whom I named;
  when first I saw thee; by the name of the King's Son。  He is with us
  yet; and I fear him; for of late hath he wearied of her; though it
  is but plain truth to say of her; that she is the wonder of all
  Beauties of the World。  He hath wearied of her; I say; and hath cast
  his eyes upon me; and if I were heedless; he would betray me to the
  uttermost of the wrath of my mistress。  For needs must I say of him;
  though he be a goodly man; and now fallen into thralldom; that he
  hath no bowels of compassion; but is a dastard; who for an hour's
  pleasure would undo me; and thereafter would stand by smiling and
  taking my mistress's pardon with good cheer; while for me would be
  no pardon。  Seest thou; therefore; how it is with me between these
  two cruel fools?  And moreover there are others of whom I will not
  even speak to thee。〃
  And therewith she put her hands before her face; and wept; and
  murmured:  〃Who shall deliver me from this death in life?〃
  But Walter cried out:  〃For what else am I come hither; I; I?〃
  And it was a near thing that he did not take her in his arms; but he
  remembered his pledged word; and drew aback from her in terror;
  whereas he had an inkling of why she would not suffer it; and he
  wept with her。
  But suddenly the Maid left weeping; and said in a changed voice:
  〃Friend; whereas thou speakest of delivering me; it is more like
  that I shall deliver thee。  And now I pray thy pardon for thus
  grieving thee with my grief; and that more especially because thou
  mayst not solace thy grief with kisses and caresses; but so it was;
  that for once I was smitten by the thought of the anguish of this
  land; and the joy of all the world besides。〃
  Therewith she caught her breath in a half…sob; but refrained her and
  went on:  〃Now dear friend and darling; take good heed to all that I
  shall say to thee; whereas thou must do after the teaching of my
  words。  And first; I deem by the monster having met thee at the
  gates of the land; and refreshed thee; that the Mistress hath looked
  for thy coming; nay; by thy coming hither at all; that she hath cast
  her net and caught thee。  Hast thou noted aught that might seem to
  make this more like?〃
  Said Walter:  〃Three times in full daylight have I seen go past me
  the images of the monster and thee and a glorious lady; even as if
  ye were alive。〃
  And therewith he told her in few words how it had gone with him
  since that day on the quay at Langton。
  She said:  〃Then it is no longer perhaps; but certain; that thou art
  her latest catch; and even so I deemed from the first:  and; dear
  friend; this is why I have not suffered thee to kiss or caress me;
  so sore as I longed for thee。  For the Mistress will have thee for
  her only; and hath lured thee hither for nought else; and she is
  wise in wizardry (even as some deal am I); and wert thou to touch me
  with hand or mouth on my naked flesh; yea; or were it even my
  raiment; then would she scent the savour of thy love upon me; and
  then; though it may be she would spare thee; she would not spare
  me。〃
  Then was she silent a little; and seemed very downcast; and Walter
  held his peace from grief and confusion and helplessness; for of
  wizardry he knew nought。
  At last the Maid spake again; and said:  〃Nevertheless we will not
  die redeless。  Now thou must look to this; that from henceforward it
  is thee; and not the King's Son; whom she desireth; and that so much
  the more that she hath not set eyes on thee。  Remember this;
  whatsoever her seeming may be to thee。  Now; therefore; shall the
  King's Son be free; though he know it not; to cast his love on
  whomso he will; and; in a way; I also shall be free to yeasay him。
  Though; forsooth; so fulfilled is she with malice and spite; that
  even then she may turn round on me to punish me for doing that which
  she would have me do。  Now let me think of it。〃
  Then was she silent a good while; and spoke at last:  〃Yea; all
  things are perilous; and a perilous rede I have thought of; whereof
  I will not tell thee as yet; so waste not the short while by asking
  me。  At least the worst will be no worse than what shall come if we
  strive not against it。  And now; my friend; amongst perils it is
  growing more and more perilous that we twain should be longer
  together。  But I would say one thing yet; and maybe another
  thereafter。  Thou hast cast thy love upon one who will be true to
  thee; whatsoever may befall; yet is she a guileful creature; and
  might not help it her life long; and now for thy very sake must
  needs be more guileful now than ever before。  And as for me; the
  guileful; my love have I cast upon a lovely man; and one true and
  simple; and a stout…heart; but at such a pinch is he; that if he
  withstand all temptation; his withstanding may belike undo both him
  and me。  Therefore swear we both of us; that by both of us shall all
  guile and all falling away be fo